I thank God for saving my soul. I always thought I was a Christian, but there was never any repentance, never any change, no forsaking of sin.
In 2010 I promised God that if He healed me from my sickness (anemia due to heavy bloodloss from female problems), I would never ever touch alcohol again, because yes, I had a drinking problem. God healed me even before I truly became born again. The doctors said I could have died of heart failure because I took so long to finally see a doctor. My heart was working overtime due to all the bloodloss. I got 6 pints of blood at hospital. My Hb (hemoglobin) was extremely low. Truly there is life in the blood. From the first night that I got my first pints of blood, the next morning I already started feeling better, I had some strength back, even took a shower. At home it was an extremely tiring task to just brush my teeth.
I give God the glory and the honour for healing me. There are those unbelievers who will say no, the doctors healed me, but I say to them that God decides who lives who dies. It was because of God's grace that I did not die of heart failure. I had almost no blood in me, it was like rose-coloured water.
So to me that is a miracle that I survived. I never touched alcohol again, I never had the desire to, whereas before all that, for years, I could not stop drinking on my own. I was not a hard liquor person, but I loved my wine too much, depended on the wine to give me confidence. I struggled with terrible shyness (fear of man). So God was faithful and took away my desire for alcohol and healed me! Hallelujah! I love God so much. I am so very grateful to Him. ♥
(I now know it is satan who has been attacking me with fear of man since I was a child.)
Late in 2011 God drew me near to Him, He put an urgency in my spirit to get right with Him, to live for Him. I confessed my sins to God. (Which included fornication, living in sin with my husband for 2 years before we got married in 1989.) I had a godly sorrow about my sins. I gave all bitterness to Jesus, I repented of everything.
I am born again and a new creation. I am not who I used to be. God put new desires in my heart. He totally took away my old loves and replaced it with new loves and desires. I care deeply about lost souls. I am concerned about lukewarm Christians using God's Grace as a license to sin. Some continue living in their sin and think they are going to see heaven. :(
God lay that burden very heavy on my heart one day when I was reading 1 Corinthians 5. About discipline in the Church. About warning the people. About shouting with the voice of a trumpet blast and to warn God's people of their sins! Oh the burden! But with God all things are possible and I can do everything through Christ who gives me strength.
God has already done so much through me, for me. Things I've done that I would never have dreamed I would do. For example I prayed a lot about my shyness, for God to help me with this. So He put the desire in my heart to dance for Him! My mother-in-law saw me dancing in a vision, in a white dress and she told me it is the Holy Spirit dancing through me. Sure enough, I ended up dancing in church in a white dress! In front of all the people!! I would NEVER have been able to do that before I got saved....never! It truly was all God! :) Oh how I love Him. God is amazing, faithful, loving and kind and all He asks is that we TRUST HIM! Like Abraham did! I love you God.
My mother-in-law baptised me in my bath on the 31st of December 2011. After she baptised me and as I was standing up out of the water, she started speaking in tongues! She said it was yet another tongue God gave her to speak in. It was so very beautiful, the language she spoke, even though I did not understand it. She said it was a prayer about me going up. Later she gave me the interpretation of the tongues she spoke about me. This is what the Lord said:
"You are Mine, I have bought you with My Blood with a price and I the Lord your God, has a plan for your life, to take you to places unseen and unknown, trust Me, I am the Lord your God."
:D Hallelujah! That word from the Lord is so precious to me. ♥†♥
Thank you Abba for saving my soul and my husband's soul. I will praise you forever more! ♥ JESUS King of kings! Lord of lords! Amen.
Thanks for reading, God bless you in Jesus' Holy Name :)