My Cat Just Died - What Do I Do?

Perdy - our feline model

Our cat Perdy loved the garden in our yard. My sister in law Kim took this picture one year. Beautiful- wasn't she?
Our cat Perdy loved the garden in our yard. My sister in law Kim took this picture one year. Beautiful- wasn't she? | Source

My cat Perdy broke her neck

If your cat just died and you are reading this, I can relate. I am writing this because I just lost our beloved cat yesterday - May 18, 2010. Her name was Perdy aka known as "Confucious". (One of many pet names we had for this funny endearing kitty of ours)

This hub is devoted to Perdy and all the beloved fur babies that we have loved and lost. It is in honor of that love that I write this - to pay homage to my dear little black and white friend who gave me years of unconditional love and lots of giggles. We will miss you Perdy.

Perdy was a one of a kind cat. The only way I can process my grief over losing her is thorough writing, which is why I'm here. Hopefully Perdy's story can lift your spirits and give you some comfort to know you are not alone. Yesterday my son discovered Perdy's lifeless body in front of our garage. I must have wailed and cried for over 2 hours... the grief was so intense. At first I thought this had to be a cruel joke - that my son was only kidding - but when I ran out in front Perdy lay lifeless on the pavement. We will never know how Perdy died - all I know is that I came home and parked in the driveway like I always do. The next thing I knew Perdy was dead within the next half hour. Her neck was broken and the only thing I can think of is either a loose dog broke her neck, she was posted in the wheel well of the tire when I moved the car - or she fell off the roof in front of the garage. We will never know.

Honestly, none of that matters to me anymore. However she died she's gone and I'm sad and my family is sad. Even people that were just visitors here are sad because Perdy was one of the favorites around here. Her ditzy personality never failed to charm and I will miss seeing her run to greet me when I come home from work.

Here is Perdy's story and why Perdy was so special to me and to so many people. It is a story of a cat that was born into adversity....

Elvis. Perdy and Zorro

The 3 Hooligans - they were so cute and just so much fun as kittens
The 3 Hooligans - they were so cute and just so much fun as kittens | Source

Perdy's story

Perdy's mother Shasta was one of the most beautiful cats I've ever had - and she also turned out to be one of the meanest (more on that later) Shasta had 3 kittens in the back of our shop on Oct. 9, 2006 (this happened to be my deceased fathers birthday too) When Perdy was born we hand delivered all the babies because Shasta was a small cat. Shasta had 3 kittens from that litter which we named Zorro, Perdy and Elvis. Perdy was the second one born. We named her Perdy because she looked like one of the Dalmatian puppies on the movie 101 Dalmatians. In all fairness I have to say I had not intended on Shasta having these 3 kittens - but she went into heat at a very early age. Before we thought about getting her fixed she got pregnant and voila - here came the 3 kittens (Read more about Sex and the KItty here)

Now the problem with having just 3 kittens and 3 kids was that everyone wanted to claim a kitten (to stay and live with us of course) I wasn't hot about the idea but really how do you give 3 kittens away? I mean there were just 3 of them - right? So of course you know what happened - we ended up keeping all 3 of them. So now we had a total of 5 cats including the kittens (we also had a Siamese cat named Layla)


The 3 kittens

Perdy the cat with her brothers Elvis and Zorro. Perdy is the one in the middle. They were born at our business.
Perdy the cat with her brothers Elvis and Zorro. Perdy is the one in the middle. They were born at our business. | Source

Perdy in my pocket

Perdy needed to be protected because she had a mean mom
Perdy needed to be protected because she had a mean mom | Source

Cat in the Bag

Perdy was very curious about everything - typical cat!
Perdy was very curious about everything - typical cat! | Source

So we now had 3 kittens

I've never had more than 1 kitten at a time, so having 3 was quite an experience. As they grew up each one developed their own distinct personality. Because they were so different, it was fun to watch the different things each kitten would do. Unfortunately for Perdy she must have been born with some type of brain damage, because within the first few weeks of her birth her mother proceeded to abandon her multiple times. We would find poor Perdy ditched behind materials in our shop - wailing for her mother. One time, her mother even proceeded to bang Perdy's head against our office windows in an all attempt to kill her (I told you her mother was mean)

So poor Perdy became the outcast of the bunch, and until she was old enough to fend for herself we took care of her and got her a bottle to eat from. We even took her with us on outings so her psycho mother wouldn't try to kill her again. Despite being an outcast, her brothers Zorro and Elvis loved her. The 3 kittens would run through the house (we had brought them home by this time) and you could hear the thump thump of them running through the house throughout the day, chasing each other and generally causing widespread havoc. Because Perdy suffered from some type of disorder she was always the ditzy one in the family (we called her our ditzy blond even though she was black and white) .We also called her Confucius because she was just generally... well...confused. She never sat still for too long, ran into things and didn't seem to be aware of her actions half the time. Although we were concerned for Perdys safety outside because of her ditziness, she loved going outside and never strayed far from our yard. One of her favorite spots was on our front porch or laying in the neighbors yard, where one of her best friends lived - a little girl named Heather. Heather would play with Perdy and her kitty brothers in her yard, teasing them with catnip, cat toys and rubbing Perdys's belly, which she loved.

Although confused, Perdy grew up to be one of the most loving cats of all time. She was never mean (thank God she wasn't like her mother) and she was always available to sit on your lap, your laptop, whatever was available that she could post her tiny little body on (she was also the runt of the litter) So in short, Perdy was just an all around love bug, and she proceeded to become everybody's favorite cat because of her loving nature ( and of course we were always partial because of Perdy's rocky start in life)

We all love an underdog, right? Or in this case I should say "the under-cat" because that was exactly what poor Perdy was in the beginning of her life.

One of Perdy's favorite spots

Perdy loved laying in this plant every year when the soft leaves came back in the Spring. She loved soft things. Photo by Kim Diaz
Perdy loved laying in this plant every year when the soft leaves came back in the Spring. She loved soft things. Photo by Kim Diaz | Source

One of Perdy's sexy poses

One of Perdy's favorite poses. She was such a goof ball.
One of Perdy's favorite poses. She was such a goof ball. | Source

Perdy and her Auntie Kim

Perdy and her Aunt Kim. Perdy loved modeling for her in various cat poses.
Perdy and her Aunt Kim. Perdy loved modeling for her in various cat poses. | Source

Some of my favorite memories of Perdy

Besides being a cat, Perdy was also the feline model for our household. My sister in law and I are both photographers and Perdy was one of our favorite subjects. Perdy's beautiful black and white coat made her exceptionally photogenic. My sister in law would have a blast on nice days capturing Perdy napping in the plant pots or in front of the sunflowers. Perdy was such a sexy cat too, always lounging in her come hither poses. Inspired by Perdy I even wrote a hub about Sexy cats 2 years ago (it also happens to be one of my most visited hubs - apparently there are lots of people who like sexy cats too..,lol)

Perdy was also an absolute couch potato too - and loved to lounge upside down in various odd positions on the lawn, in pots, boxes and anywhere she could wiggle her little body into or onto. Another thing that I loved about Perdy is that she could hold her own with our 5 dog household. Although little, Perdy was mighty and the dogs knew better than to mess with her. The funny thing is though is that some of them were 10 times bigger than her - but she was never intimidated by them. Instead, she earned their respect and love by just being her loving self. It wasn't unusual to see Perdy nose to nose with one of the dogs. Even my sons pitbull puppy would give her a little nose to nose in an attempt to earn her love. It also wasn't unusual to find Perdy on her back playing with the dogs, sometimes even reversing roles and chasing them.

Now that was a sight, a 40 pound dog running from her!!

Ahhh Perdy...the more I write the sadder I get. I will miss your antics so much. This is the sad thing about love - we love hard and we grieve hard. In our family our animals are like our children, and Perdy was one of the best...

Perdy's last picture

This is one of the last photos of took of my cat before she got killed. Unfortunately, her penchance for louging in wheel wells may have got her killed.
This is one of the last photos of took of my cat before she got killed. Unfortunately, her penchance for louging in wheel wells may have got her killed. | Source
Perdy again in her plant
Perdy again in her plant | Source

Perdy's last days

We buried Perdy last night under the Crepe Myrtle tree in our backyard {Perdy would have liked that, being close to her family and being outside in the grass) I'm crying now as I write this because it's just so extremely sad to know that we I'll never be graced with Perdy's physical presence again. The only solace I have is knowing that Perdy died quickly and did not suffer. I also have wonderful memories of a cat that captured my heart and showed me how to live through adversity. And I have beautiful visual memories of a cat that loved the camera....

A friend of mine at church had good intentions last night when she offered to give me one of her cats. I gratefully declined and said " You don't understand - I can't do that". She nodded her head and said "She was one of a kind, wasn't she?" to which I replied yes.

Perdy was special.

RIP Perdy.

(I hope that you enjoyed my story about my wonderful and beautiful friend Perdy. if you came here because you have lost your cat, I am so sorry because I know how hard it is.Loss is never ever easy)


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Hello, hello, 6 years ago from London, UK

I am so so so sorry. I too know what it feels like loosing a pet. Also a cat. They just have that special personality which makes so endearing.

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Glenn Raymond 6 years ago from Bailey, Colorado

It must have been so hard to write this. I know how hard it is. They are our children, our family. You have done a wonderful tribute to this sweet kitty. Thank you for taking the time to write and post this.

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Dorsi 6 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

Thank you Glenn and hello,hello for stopping by. I had to take a double take when I came home, I thought I saw Perdy laying in the grass...then I remembered she was gone...sigh...

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sabrebIade 6 years ago from Pennsylvania

Doing animal rescues we have lost a lot.

It never gets easier.

Some people don't understand that cats and dogs are people to some of us.

I'm sorry for your loss.

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dianacharles 6 years ago from India

I am so sorry for your loss. I love cats. Had them my entire life. Those pictures of Perdy are really cute.

s133pycat 6 years ago

Hi Dorsi, Thank you for sharing your story about Perdy. He sounds like a sweetheart. We lost our little princess Yoda this morning at 3:30 and I trying very hard to search and learn how to cope with this overwhelming grief.

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Dorsi 6 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

Thanks sabreblade and dianacharles (Perdy will be sorely missed)

I'm sorry s133pcat about your loss. Yoda sounds like another awesome kitty and I'm really sorry. It sucks losing our fur babies.

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Winsome 6 years ago from Southern California by way of Texas

Hey Dorsi, I'm so sorry you lost Perdy. I thought I was a dog person until a stray gray adopted me--literally, she would follow me around like a dog and would as a bonus sit on my lap. She won me over and when she died of old age I buried her in the back yard wrapped up in my favorite, most comfortable shirt. I don't know why, it just felt better knowing she would have that next to her. I've buried a few favorite shirts since and it doesn't get easier. Thank you for sharing.

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KoffeeKlatch Gals 6 years ago from Sunny Florida

My heart goes out to you, it is awful to lose a beloved animal. It's like losing a child. She was a beautiful cat.

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Dorsi 6 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

Winsome) Your story of the shirts will be on my mind forever. What a loving gesture. Thanks for stopping by.

Koffee) TY

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Nancy's Niche 6 years ago from USA

I am so sorry for the loss of your pet. They become a part of the family and ones attachment cannot be minimized. I too lost my little dog and to make matters worse, I had to make the call to put him down. Talk about a broken heart…The one thing they leave us is memories of their antics and unconditional love.

Until one has loved an animal, a part of one's soul remains unawakened~~Anatole France

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animallover8 6 years ago

I am sorry for your loss. It is tough to lose an animal. I have lost animals too in the past. And it never gets easier. They are part of your family for however long. It sounds like she had a great life, even though it was cut short. Adn she was a beautiful cat, and sounds like she had a great personality too.

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Kind Regards 6 years ago from Missouri Ozarks - Table Rock Lake

Dorsi, I'm so sorry about you losing Perdy. I know how you feel. I had a pet duck, Augustus, I loved so much. (Pet ducks are very loving and comical pets.) He died when his neck got broken too. One of the neighbor boys threw him up too high when playing with him and the swimming pool. It was horrible. Like you, I cried so much. RIP Perdy. Kind Regards

David 6 years ago

Thanks for your story...I'm sorry for your loss. I had to have my cat of 17 1/2 years put to sleep today, and it's killing me. I'm a grown man grieving over one of my best buddies ever. I just don't know what to do.....people without pets just dont understand the love you build for a pet after 17+ years...

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Dorsi 6 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

NancysNiche,David,Kind Regards and Animal Lover) Thank you for taking the time out to read about Perdy. I'm so sorry about Augustus(what a cool name BTW!) and for your 17 1/2 year old furbaby...

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lxxy 6 years ago from Beneath, Between, Beyond

Perdy...sure is perdy. I love animals, and cats are quite fun. Certain pictures here remind me of a cat I once knew the pleasure of taking care of--she, too, died of circumstance well before her time.

It's always sad for a friend to leave us--feline or otherwise.

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habee 6 years ago from Georgia

Oh, Dorsi, what a sweet, sad hub. Bless you for taking care of Perdy when her mother wouldn't. Beautiful cat!

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DzyMsLizzy 6 years ago from Oakley, CA

I know how you feel. We lost our beautiful, loving, sweet Soot a little over a year ago, and it still hurts. Our kitties (any pet, really) become such an integral part of our lives and our families, that their passing is no less sad than the loss of any other family member.

Thank you for your bravery in sharing this touching and sad story.

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Dorsi 6 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

Ixxy,habee and Dzy) Thanks for reading....your comments made me smile. Yes Perdy was...perdy! and Soot, what a cute name. He sounds like he was a sweetie too like Perdy.

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Hope Wilbanks 6 years ago from Louisiana

So sorry for your loss Dorsi! I don't know what I'd do if I lost our Peanut (Chihuahua). Pets bring so much happiness and joy into our lives.

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Dorsi 6 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

Thank you Hope for stopping by. I miss Perdy.

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NaomiR 6 years ago from New York

I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful girl. Having lost two cats myself, I understand how difficult it is to lose someone so important. Thank you for sharing your story with us.

Anna 6 years ago

I'm so sorry for the lost of Perdy and other pets here. Perdy is beautiful. My family lost our cat Girlie at the end of May 2010. Although we have another beautiful cat, a tortoishell named Lily, reading this article brings tears to my eyes and reminds me of our Girlie and my mother who sadly died last year. Girlie came into our garden as a stray 17 years ago and adopted us and then although small she was a fully grown cat. She was a black and white cat and blind in one eye but she could run about and jump over a fence. I loved Girlie so much and miss her. Lost of a pet can be just as sad as losing a close relative.

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Dorsi 6 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

Naomi and Anna) Thank you for kind comments. Anna) Girlie sounds like a fabulous friend. I am sorry for your loss.

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bobo07 6 years ago

awww...i'm sorry to hear bout your cat, i've lost several, so i know how you feel.

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Dorsi 6 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

Thanks bobo for stopping by.

Nancy 6 years ago

I am so sorry about Perdy, made me cry because I too just lost my beloved 13 year old cat Rosie. The vet could never find out what was wrong with her but she was sick for 8 months. The last day of her life she just laid there but even then when I pet her she purred. I took her to the vet and loved her and kissed her and cried like a baby because I couldn't help myself and I said goodbye to my sweet wonderful girl. It does hurt so much but for all the love she gave me for 13 years I would do it all over again. Her sister Lily is missing her . They have been together since the begining and now she notices her absence. Rosie died July 3, 2010.

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Dorsi 6 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

Nancy) I'm so sorry about Rosie. It's heartbreaking, I know. RIP Rosie.

Brian  6 years ago

I hope Perdy is showing my Scruffy Cat the ropes of Heaven, becausr I know he went there. My baby was a big black kitty who started to waste away a year ago from cancer. He was my BEST Buddy for 17 years and God do I miss him everyday. God Bless them all.

Cindy 6 years ago

Perdy was beautiful and I'm so grateful to find your story. I too lost my beautiful Mozi on Sunday morning. He was so beautiful like perdy. White with gray. He stayed with me til the end when I had to take him at the last minates of his life to the vet to be help him let go. He was my best friend and the grief is unbearable.. Thank You for sharing your Perdy with us. Know you are not alone.

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Dorsi 6 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

Brian and Cindy) I think Mozi, Scruffy Cat and Perdy are running and playing together in heaven. That's what I believe happens to our beloved Kitties. It sucks though because we miss them SO much here. I'm sorry for both your losses.

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"Quill" 6 years ago

Hugs Dorsi... thank you for finding me... excellent tribute to a dear and faithful friend.

Blessings and Hugs

Sara 6 years ago

Perdy sounds like a great cat. I just lost my Romeo yesterday. Out of all the cats I have owned over the years, Romeo was my favorite. There was a special bond between the two of us. The first time I saw Ro Ro he was in a cage at the Vet's office. He was just a little guy and when i went over to the cage he lifted his paw as if he was saying hello take me home. I all ready had two cats and wasn't sure about another one. I went home to think about and came back in a couple of days. He was still there and he went home with me. That was thirteen years ago and i miss him very much. I am so sorry you lost your Perdy. He was special.

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Dorsi 6 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

Quill) Thank-you

Sara) My condolences on the loss of RoRo. He sounds like a wonderful friend and companion. It's amazing how they seem to know how to get you to take them home with you, huh?

Thank you so much for coming by.

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Peggy W 6 years ago from Houston, Texas

So very sorry to hear about the loss of your loving Perdy. It is such a joy having pets and so very hard when it is their turn to leave us. Heartfelt condolences are sent your way!

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Dorsi 6 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

Peggy W) Thank-you

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Lucky Cats 6 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

Hi Dorsi. I am so sorry for your loss and totally understand how you feel. I love cats SO MUCH and have had very special soul kitty mates throughout my life. It is always such a GREAT sadness and loss and, though we have had many many rescued kitties through the years, each passing is deeply felt. These are special and very valuable souls who share our lives with us. Right now, we are in SE Kansas and have over 89 cats...all rescued from this area plus the original 15 who came with us from N. California *(Napa). We've been here 3 1/2 years and have rescued so many abused, abandoned, neglected "throwaway" cats. We spay, neuter, vaccinate and save every one...they're all living with us out in the country in the main house or in out buildings that are equipped w/AC, heat, fans and safety. I LOVE them so much and I understand how much you love Perdy and miss the companionship you shared. My best to you and bless you for caring. I started writing here just 3 days ago in search of others who love cats as I do.

joie 6 years ago

we have just lost our cat, Sophie. She seemed to be okay, then, all of a sudden 2 days ago, she started yowling - off and on - at night. Not a lot. More like "give me some attention."

She was eating okay and we could pet her, etc. So we didn't being think anything was really wrong. She was just "being a cat," right?

Anyway...She died this morning...I don't want to go home and face her food dish with the tuna I put in it last night...

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Dorsi 6 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

Lucky Cats) God bless you and your love of cats

Joie) I'm sorry about your loss of Sophie. RIP Sophie.

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tom hellert 6 years ago from home

D,My wifes cat - died 9 years ago but I still see him on occassion- wrote about that too - funny thing I just saw him a few nights ago I had to "go' in the middle of the night- I saw my 2 present cats asleep on my wife's side- closer to AC-

I went down stairs and as I was coming up I passed a cat on the way up I said "hello Kitty"

went to prt him but he was gone- the two doors were closefd up stairs so

i stopped reversed went up stairs- no cat -

It still amazes me that I see him- hes been gone fo 10 yearsr 9ltough my newest cat looks alot like him - he was still asleep on the bed when I came back up- good hub

TH maybe you will see a glimpse of him or hear a characteristic meiw like I have.. ait is good to know he still misses us.


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Seakay 6 years ago from Florida

I have had cats for many years. The first was "Christmas" (because she was my daughter's Christmas Kitten.) Now, I can't be without them!Following "Christmas" was Tripps, Felix, Socrates, Plato and Oliver. Felix, Plato, and Oliver are my current residence. It's difficult when they pass on but they are just such company! I live alone and don't know what I'd do without 3 cats! I loved (love) all of them dearly. I'm sorry for your loss.

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Pamela Kinnaird W 6 years ago from Maui and Arizona

I'm sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and also your beautiful photos.

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Dorsi 6 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

Tom) Thanks for your story. That is so cool that D's spirit is still with you...

SeaKay) TY and regards from a fellow cat lover!

Pamela) TY for reading and commenting

mary 6 years ago

i just lost my beloved cat crystal and i crying everyday like a baby

i just wan to say is very hard to lose a pet we love and share all those year together

i just want to give all my though for all this peoplewho grieving they re pets because is was more then a family member

god bless

i hope we will meet them again

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Mrs. J. B. 6 years ago from Southern California

What a beautiful tribute to Perdy. I am also sorry for your loss. I know how hard it can be to lose a pet. Hang in there and just think 3 kittens, well not so much now but still babies..

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Dorsi 6 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Mrs. J.B.) TY. Zorro is the last remaining survivor of the kittens. He is kind of lonely now - it's sad because Perdy use to always groom and clean him. His brother Elvis disappeared in a severe rain and wind storm in 2008.

Nathan 6 years ago

I just found my cat yesterday frozen in my swimming pool. He had been missing since late november when my ex broke into my house to trash the place and the cats (terrified out of their mind no doubt)escaped outside. I looked everywhere for them and even put up flyers. Thank god one of them showed up at my doorstep a month later, but Maximus was not so lucky. Looks like he somehow got into the swimming pool when trying to get a drink. I'm guessing he fell in somehow and then froze to death. I feel sooooo horrible about that and the thought of him being alone and dying like that brings serious tears to my eyes. With this warm spell I was finally able to search it and my heart sunk when I found him frozen there.

I already have his grave dug out in the backyard but I still haven't been able to get him out of the pool due to all the ice still. He's the only cat I've ever picked out myself and was a real character. He would take off with bananas and potatoes like he really had something good, but would then be the most loving cat you can imagine. He would get mad if I didn't let him under the covers when I slept so he could cuddle. RIP Maximus, 5 years wasn't nearly enough. Thank you for sharing your story. Pets are definitely part of the family and give you their unconditional love.

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Dorsi 6 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Nathan) I am SO sorry. That must be devastating. Maximus sounded like a real character and I feel for your loss. RIP Maximus and God Bless.

Helen 5 years ago

Reading these stories with tears in my eyes, as three days ago my partner and I had to have our adored B&W longhair Sparky put to sleep. My heart aches so much. Although we only had her for three of her 11 years (or should I perhaps say that she lived with us!) they were the most wonderful three years. There are reminders all over the house: the plants she chewed, the sofas she scratched to bits, the bottles of insulin (she was diabetic) lined up in the fridge... We can't yet bring ourselves to vaccuum up the fur, nor even to take up the water-bowls dotted all over (diabetics need to drink a lot). Friends called Sparky the Nagging Cat, cos when she decided it was time to go to bed she'd sit in the corridor and whinge until we obeyed! We'd give anything for just one more night of her hogging the bed and purring thunderously right in our ears. Our other cat Bobbins knows something is up; although the two of them didn't get on very well she is much clingier and vocal than normal. We know it was the right thing to do - we stayed with Sparky and held her throughout, and hopefully she knew we were there with her and that she was (and always will be) loved. I'm glad we were able to stop her suffering. But it hurts sooooo much... Thank you though, it's helped a bit to type it out.

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Helen) I am sooo sorry about Sparky and glad you found a little relief talking about it. These furbabies are part of our family and the loss is great. I understand and my thoughts are with you.

Thanks for coming by. RIP Sparky.

Dawn Anne 5 years ago

I feel comfort in reading all these posts & to all that have lost their dear loved felines I so relate !!! My story started last summer a beautiful Black feral cat wandered into my back yard & was sleeping in my window well , I started feeding him & putting blankets down in the well to keep him warm. He was smart as it was windy & being low kept him @ of harms way & the wind. I was able to get close to him in time as he started to gain my trust & was a regular every AM looking to eat. Winter was now approaching & I bought him a kitty condo with a heating pad. He made it through a hard & cold winter in NY . I was thrilled & now the weather was getting warmer so he would be warmer @ night & I could sleep better . Yesterday he laid around my deck very fatigue ( had battled a cough & was losing weight ) But I never was able to have his full trust but wanted to trap him & take him to the vet to be neutered & shots . Yesterday he was not himself & I knew something was wrong , he laid under a trailor we have in the yard in leaves & was breathing kind of heavy , I fed him and he ate & drank & seemed very weak . I lay on the ground & talked to him to hang in there he just battled a cold winter & he couldn't give up . When I went to bed he still lay under the trailor. This AM I woke up & he was in his heated Kitty condo , but breathing was faster & he seemed to have fluids in his lungs. He stared @ me with such sad eyes, I called the vet & went to shower & get ready to take him. I came out of the shower as I was about to try & trap him in a cage to bring him for medical help. he looked @ me as to say good bye & fell to his side took his last breath & just died. I am devasted as all my hard work & getting him to finally trust me some & allow me to start petting him. I feel like I should of taken him to the dr/vet sooner & maybe he would be around still. Breaks my heart he waited for me to get up this AM to practically say good bye & look @ me as to Thank me for all I have done . I feel happy I gave him a home with shelter & TLC but he now has left me heartbroken, I will miss him in the AM waiting on the deck for food & allowing me to approach him & kneel down & pet him. I was just taken him to the vet & he died , I feel to blame I didn't get him him ASAP. I sure will miss my feral stray that gained trust in me & looked to me to love & care for him. His name was Little man & he grew to know his name - RIP little man my heart is broken & I will miss your presence for the last past almost year . You reached into my heart & I feel in love with you - now I must bury you & say good bye . It's so hard I am heartbroken . I just can't seem to put him in the ground yet. I have him wrapped in a blanket in his Kitty condo where he just passed . How do I heal from this pain? I am so sad & can not stop crying. Anyone have advice ? I would appreciate any words !! Thank You so much for allowing me to pour my heart out - RIP LIttle Man

Grainne 5 years ago

Such a beautiful blog for a beautiful Kitty. R.I.P Perdy. My cat Seamus died this morning, the grief is unbearable but I have the comfort of knowing her suffering is over and she's at peace in kitty heaven.

Rachael 5 years ago

My Bebez passed away yesterday, alone. My heart is breaking, we were so close. she understood me, mothered my babies. i found her, she was just lying there. i long for her warmth, he nose kisses. i would give my limbs just to have some more time.

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Dawn Ann) I am so sorry and feel for your loss of little man. I do have to say though I would try not to feel guilty for not taking him to the vet, I think you did alot to help him and gave him a loving comforting "end of life". It may have been something that he would have succumbed to anyway, you can't know but please don't beat yourself up. He was lucky to have you there in his final days. RIP Little Man

@Graiine) RIP Seamus. You will be missed. I am sorry for your loss Graiine.

@Rachael) I am sorry about Bebez. I know how heartbreaking it is. Hang in there. RIP Bebez.

Peace and blessings.

Rachael 5 years ago

thank you. but when does it get better. i can't seem to stop crying. i miss her everywhere. at the table where she would sit with my kids while they ate, cuddling on the couch, she would wait in the bathroom while i showered, at the window everytime i left and came home. i have dreaded this day, and tried so hard to sow her everyday. it is b/c i loved her so much. i just can't get the picture of finding her, i cannot imagine her being alone. it is just so difficult..

a.r.i 5 years ago

oh god, i just lost my kitten today and this is the only place where i can express my feelings and be understood.Perdy's story inspired me to write about my experience...

Well, i found Mau (a male kitty) in the street, as a stray cat.i took him in and kept him secret for almost 3 months.during these 3 months, he grew strong and healthy in my room, as i did everything i could to keep him that way.he was very active, and this, i think, became the cause of his night, i let him sleep in the balcony cause he was overactive, and, next morning, i found out he had jumped from my 3 floor high balcony.i brought the vet home, blowing my cover.My parents, after pleading them, let me keep him a few days more. then we took mau at our months passed by, i visited him very often, and noticed he was so much more passive, had no appetite, had fleas, and other bad stuff.his leg (which he damaged from the fall) was also limping severely and he would usually lose his balance.I took him to the vet again, but he was very indifferent, i guess he didn't take me seriously.when, today, i went to visit mau, my cousins told me that he had died.i cried hysterically when i saw the little body lying on the basement floor, all dirty, with flies around it.i still am crying, but noone understands and tells me to hush, since hes no human.but god, i feel like he's a part of me.i am going to bury him tomorrow.really wish my cousins haven't thrown away the body, that would kill me.thnx for reading my story...

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Rachael) I know. Everytime I look at this page I miss Perdy and my heart has a pang in it. It does get better though with time. An old cliché I know but it does hurt less in time.

@a.r.i) I am so sorry about Maui. You hiding him sounds like something I would have done too. You can't keep an animal lover down! You did your best. RIP Maui. I am sure he knew you loved him.

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Ghost32 5 years ago

Beautiful Hub.

Pam and I had to have two out of our three cats put down last year--one in June, the other in October. Both were due to old age, and we now have a Pet Cemetery on our 4 acres (just a mile from the Mexican border in Arizona). Each baby got a special coffin. For Green Eyes, it was Pam's favorite hatbox. For Moe Key Man, it was a wooden container I built myself, lined with one of his favorite towels.

Then the coffins were covered not just with dirt, but with massive amounts of concrete stucco and wheelbarrow loads of rock. Result: A sarcophagus impervious to assaults by roaming coyotes and/or javelinas.

But we got a new guy in November, Gato, who is the model for the protagonist in A Cat Named Spinout--which, when published, brought up this page as well.

Voted up and everything. Literally.

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Ghost) What a beautiful final resting place for Green Eyes and Moe Key Man. Sounds like Gato is a fun guy with lots of character. Furbabies never cease to amaze me. Thanks for stopping by and I'll have to check out your hub.

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ii3rittles 5 years ago

I know what its like to lose a friend. My first cat, Taco, passed away in 2008. I sobbed sometimes in the middle of the night. I would just sit there and cry. It was very hard for me to understand why an 11 years cat, who was healthy would suddenly die. I blamed myself because he was very attached to me and I was in my first serious relationship, I was hardly ever home. One evening, while at work my mother called me crying and said she had found him, dead, in the basement. When she took him to the vets to get cremated, the vet said he thinks i was a heart attack or some sort of insect bite, possible both. The night he passed I couldn't go home, I couldn't see him like that. I'm actually starting to tear up now, just writing this. For a good month I was sad, depressed, I just didn't want to do anything. One night my brother came home from college and my mom called me and said he brought home 3 kittens. All three were beautiful little boys. They cried and wined and just wanted to be loved. A friend of my brothers knew someone who's cat had kittens and he kept the two girls. He was going to dump off the boys on the side of the free way so my brother and his friend couldn't let him, and knowing I just lost Taco, my brother brought them home, I think, hoping I would feel better. Right away we found 2 of them homes, but the last one's possible owner never showed. I also learned this little guy wasn't eating. He still needed milk. So I got him kitten formula and a bottle and fed him like that for over a month. He was very weak and lifeless when we first met. After 2 months he came to life. He was the most adorable kitten I had ever seen. My mom also fell in love and we kept him and I named him Twiggy. He was about a year and a half, when he got terribly sick. The doctor pretty much thought he wasn't going to make it. For 2 weeks I barely slept or ate. He didn't eat or drink anything for 14+ days. He had pancrientitus which is deadly in cats. He refused food, water, he was have seizures anytime he tried walking, he was peeing blood and he looked like he lost all hope. I wouldn't let him give up. I remember my mother crying at the kitchen table saying it wasn't fair. I couldn't lose another friend again. I prayed to God like never before and he made it through. He started eating and about 2 months later he was himself again. He's going to be 4 this year. I think Taco passing away had to happen so I can save Twiggy's life. I actually think the day Taco passed, Twiggy was born. I miss Taco dearly and always will. No one can replace him. I know exactly how you feel.

Twiggy has been staying with my mother, until me and my fiancé can get our apartment. I miss him a ton right now.

You said she chased a 40 pound dog? My mom has 2 German Shepherds, Leredo and Kane. Leredo was there when Twiggy first came into our lives. He loves him so much. Kane, my mom actually got him 2 summers ago. He's about 80-90 pounds. Twiggy will chase him through the house and grab onto his neck. It's the funniest thing. Kane will cry like he's so terrified.

I'm sorry for your loss. It is very hard. You will meet another cat and you will know its meant to be with you. You will feel it in your heart because it wont be a replacement, but another friend to share your life with :)

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

ii3rittles) Thanks for sharing your story about Taco. I am glad you were able to write about your love for him - it's so important to share our love with like minded people. And yes, Perdy chased a pitbull. Just hilarious. I will never forget that!!

Glad to hear Twiggy is doing well and I believe he was meant to come into your life!!

Thanks for reading, and the beautiful comment and story.

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Knightheart 5 years ago from MIssouri, USA

I lost my beloved cat, Specks almost 3 years ago and it still hurts! I just made a hubpage about her and it was very hard to do, but wanted to honor life and pay her tribute in this small way!

Perdy sounds a lot like my Specks, one of a kind and unique in many ways. I miss her terribly and not a day goes by that I don't think of her. She gave so much to me and when I said good-bye, it just broke my heart. I just pray I will see Specks again someday and be with her forever! God Bless you!

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Knightheart) I'm sorry to hear about Specks.It's very nice though that we can honor our furbabies lives here at HubPages. I'll be stopping over to read about Specks. Thanks for coming by.

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sheeba_anwar 5 years ago

Hey, I am sorry for your loss. I really understand what its like as I lost my cat Lily (6 months old) last week. We in an apartment building on 10th floor and Lily was always curious to see what's outside the windows and thats why we never used to open the windows when she was in the same room. Last week she somehow managed to go outside the window (I guess she opened the window herself and it got closed because of the wind) She was screaming because she was scared. I ran in the balcony to see what happened and she was in the next rooms window and her back was facing me, I couldn't reach out and grab her because she was a little to far and I asked my husband to quickly go and get her from the next rooms window. She tried to turn around and come to me but the ledge was thin so she slipped and my heart just stopped.. I was in shock. I ran in the next room and looked down to see, she had fallen in someones balcony on 2nd floor and she was not moving at all.. I knew that was it. I really couldn't bear to see her like that. I screamed and cried my friend had to hold me down while my husband went down to see. Lily had died a few seconds after she hit the ground and my husband said that she looked like she was just sleeping (so peaceful). My husband knew that I was too emotionally weak to see Lily's body so he buried her near our building. I am a med student and 2 classes after this incident and my teacher and some fellow students were saying that I am over reacting to a small thing. They dont understand what its like.. Its like losing a child. So painful.. Its a huge loss for me and my husband as she was like our baby. She was the only cat we had and she kept us really entertained. She was very loving just like Perdy. My husband and I are just trying to support each other at this time and I hope God will make it easy for us. But what we need to know is that Perdy and Lily were happy while they were alive because they were really loved by people around them. Thanks a lot for sharing your story, and Perdy's pictures are so cute.

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Catmando1975 5 years ago

First of all my prayers will go out to everyone who shared a bit about there furry friends, both past and present. I am a 35 year old former Marine, and I can't stop crying over the loss of my friend Shorty. My wife and I got her and her sister about a month after we were married. Two Tortise shell kittens that were litterally born in a barn. They were supposed to be gift kittens for my boss, Meg. When it was realized they were not male kittens she didn't want then and the guy that had them was going to dispose of them. I called my newly wed wife and told her I was bringing them home. That was almost seven years ago, they have brought much joy into our lives, as we have no kids of our own yet. Shorty was diagnosed six weeks ago with Feline leukemia, and last night she died in my arms. She was only 6.5 years old, a Tortise shell born without a tale. She leaves a sister named Sassy, who also has the virus, and an adopted brother named Wildman, who is healthy as can be.

Shorty is the second really close friend I have lost in my adult life. The first was Stripe, my Maine coon that was my bestest buddy for fifteen years. He past ten years ago this month.

I can speak from these experiences and say that losing a loved one is never easy, but losing a pet is a down right bombshell to an animal lover. When I was younger I thought that death would be easier to deal with as I aged. I found out last night that it hasn't gotten easier. As Shorty laid there, dying in my arms, I felt like something was crushing my chest. After awhile I wrapped her in a towel that she like to sleep on and put her in a safe place away from the other two turds(siblings), so that I can give her a proper burial this afternoon when I get home. I could go on for days, but I will end with this. The world would be a better place if everyone could experience the love of a special pet like the ones that have touched so many of our lives. I am a better person having had a few years with Shorty-girl. My thoughts and prayers to everyone here and the pets we've all loved and lost.

stef_425 5 years ago

It is comforting to read everyone's stories. My husband and I just lost our precious JJ last Wednesday. Sadly, he was hit by a car. We have so many emotions right now including so much anger about who did this. We live on a quiet country road and we truly felt that JJ was safe to be outside without fearing that someone would be driving fast enough to hit him if he went in the road. This loss is so devastating to us and I feel like many people think that it is not as big of a deal as it is. JJ truly was a child in our eyes and the loss of him is the hardest thing either of us has ever been through. We are still not at the point where we can look at pictures of him and I cry everyday over him. He was just about to turn 2 years old in June and it is just so unnecessary that he had to go at such a young age. He brought so much joy to our lives and I just don't see how I can feel the bond that we had again. He was truly a special being that came into our lives and his memory will be with us forever. RIP, precious boy!

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@shheba) I am so sorry about Lilly. That must have been so traumatic seeing her on the ledge then falling. My heart goes out to you.

@Catman) Thanks for sharing about Shorty. I'm tearing up reading these comments because I understand the loss. RIP Shorty and all our feline and furry friends.

@stef) Thanks for sharing about JJ. It doesn't matter how old they are, they capture our hearts and that is that. When they die they take a piece of us with them. RIP JJ. I'm sorry about your loss.

Rich 5 years ago

I stopped to read some of the touching letters when I noticed that Perdy looks VERY MUCH like our Cleo, a female Tuxedo. Miss Cleo just died and I still cry as it came so suddenly. I must tell you about Cleo and keep in mind I DO NOT know what actually happened although I know what I saw and swear this story is entirely true in every detail.

We lost our male (single child) cat FRED 2 years ago. Fred made it to 22 years and two weeks and then had 1 really bad day and passed away. He was a loyal & delightful GREY who learned to say MOM and even went to Costa Rica with us for 6 months (for a job). BEFORE Fred died we had many pictures of Cleo that cropped up ( we had never seen Cleo) in our Birthday cards and photos and even a "POSTER of the FUTURE" we made at the Unity church. When Fred died we were very sad, but 22 years was awesome !!! 3 weeks later a little black & white female cat jumped in my wife's car purred and came home 2 blocks, ran in the house and stayed. She never once tried to go out or leave for 2 years. She learned to say Mom in 1 week and would climb up on me when I sat, and purred into my face, "bumping" my noes like an Eskimo KISS. She was sooooo sweeeet. The Vet first told us she was 1 year old and fixed. Later he said she was about 3, and then when she got sick he said she was probably 9.

I( called her my MAGIC CAT because she was in so many pictures up to 2 years BEFORE she adopted us.

So I was diagnosed with DIABETES and had to take medicine and sugar tests and so-on. During this time Cleo would climb on my stomach and walk or push on the top of my stomach like a dance. I could feel something happening. But she suddenly started getting sick and the vet now said she had diabetes. We got her shots and a special diet, but within a few weeks she started losing all the hair on her head and ears. One night she cried so much i stayed up and held her. She gave me a nose-bump kiss and purred but could not drink or process

water. In the morning we had to put her to sleep.

I am crying... a lot less now. She was very special. I am convinced they ALL ARE. AND after more tests, my Dr. is somewhat stumped because I now have no diabetes symptoms.

I wish the BEST to everyone smart enough to be nice to a pet. It's ALL LOVE. They want us to be happy.

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Rich) What an amazing story. I got teary eyed reading about Cleo. I am sorry about your furbabies passing. Animals NEVER cease to amaze me. Thanks for sharing and glad to hear you are cured from diabetes....

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ajlion1114 5 years ago

I have to admit, I am a dog person but I do love cats as well. I wanted to say that I am sorry for your loss but also to ask if you believe in animal/pet soul mates? I have had many animals and I love them all for who they are and for different reasons but I very recently lost my best friend too- a pitbull named Price Charming (we called him "Charm"). He was my 10th birthday present and the best present I ever got. I have recently just graduated college and he was with me until now, so he was almost 13 before he died. Like I said, I love all my pets, but it seemed to me that this guy was a one in a million, understood me and I him better than anyone or any other pet I ever had. The more I think of it, the more I think of him as having been my animal soul mate. No pet will ever replace him.

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@ajilon) I am so sorry about your Prince. I do believe that there are certain pets we have a special bond with, just like we do with people. I had a cat named Rocky that was just special to me - and I looked for him for months and months after he disappeared. Thanks for coming by and reading. RIP Prince Charming.

michelle 5 years ago

i lost my cat today he was run over by some reckless driver .mitzy was my little boy its lovely to hear that im not alone with my loss and the love i had for him. they are like your children. it has given me comfort in reading the lovely story of your cat thanku for sharing your feelings

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Michelle) I am so sorry for the late reply. I am sorry about your kitty baby. And yes they are like our children! I am glad this story gave you a little comfort and YW.

Natasha 5 years ago

My little Athena just recently passed. She was a Russian Blue, 6 months old and beyond sweet. She was fine one minute and then had a seizure and died. It was nice to read about someone else mourning, thank you for this supportive post.

buster's mom 5 years ago

thank you for writing about your cat, perdy. yesterday i had to put my 16 year old baby, buster, to sleep because he had cancer. i miss him so much already, he was my best friend. after he died, he still looked alive, lying on the table at the vet. i hated to leave him there. my husband lifted his dead body and held buster like a baby and said goodbye to him again, and we kissed him and pet him while he was being put down. buster, i hope you are in heaven and a kitten again. i hope we will see each other again one day in heaven. love, mommy

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Natasha) I am so sorry about Athena. I am glad you found a little comfort here. RIP Athena.

@busters mom) I am so sorry on the loss of your beloved Buster. Tears sprang to my eyes as I read your post because I could feel the love you had for him, and I could feel the pain you feel at losing him. Thank you for coming by.

John 5 years ago

My cat just died September 6, 2011 I am so sad. I went on line to Rainbow Bridge and sobbed. Pets are such a part of our family giving unconditional love to us.

We always know the day will come someday when they die and at times we morn endlessly. The thought crosses my mind that the pain is so great I almost don't want a pet, but then I wouldn't have known the love and companionship that will live in my heart forever.

cjoanie 5 years ago

I am so sorry about your cat. I've never had a cat, but, we do lose our precious dog after 14 years. We were very sad, he was a big part of our family. It takes time to get over it and you will never forget your kitty.


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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@John) I am so sorry. My mom used to get worried about getting attached to pets too. But that love they give us and we give back to them is so special and honorable. As much as it hurts to lose them, I don't think I will ever be totally pet-less. Thanks for reading and once again my deepest condolences.

@cjoanie) Thank you so much. I am sorry for your loss. And yes, they are a gift. Thank-you for that.

Tamara 5 years ago

I am so sorry for the loss of your kitty. I lost one of mine because a dog got ahold of her and broke her back so I had to have her put down. Now tomorrow I have to put down this kitty that belongs to the lady I do caregiving for. It is so hard but I cant stand to see a animal suffer. At least Purdy is in kitty heaven running free and chasing butterflys and bugs. No more pain.

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Dwizard 5 years ago

I'm sorry for your loss. Perdy looked like she had a lot of personality.

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Tamara) I'm sorry about your kitty and your friends kitty. Thank you for reading and commenting. I like the idea that Perdy is chasing butterflies in heaven. Thank you for that.

@Dwizard) Thank you. She was quite a friend.

Scatts 5 years ago

I feel completely numb and devastated after having to have my beloved cat, Bella, put down after 16 years with her. I keep thinking I hear her coming downstairs, coming through the catflap, all over the house. I really don't know how I'm going to get through this, it is so painful.

Inna 5 years ago

Sorry for your loss... I've just buried my kitten, Cookie. Just 7 months old. He looked very much like your Perdy except He was more black with some whites. He was hit by a car. We live by the highway and I kept him indoors all the time. Of course he tried to get out whenever he could. He was very brave. I think my crazy love for him made him so courageous that he was not afraid of anything. I could not catch him when he escaped…

He was so caressing and we had such a bond. I was his mummy. He was sleeping on my neck, he came to cuddle whenever he had a chance. I adopted him when he was very little… I am grieving and I am afraid that I will never love the other cat so much. The way I found him was like a sign from above. I always thought that god adores these creatures because they are just perfect. I told him how lucky he was to find me and our home but how wrong I was… I promised him a long happy life.

How short it ended to be...

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Scatts and Inna) I am so sorry about your fur-babies. They are gifts to us. I know every time I look at Perdys photo here it makes me ache. I miss her and I think they will ALWAYS be a part of our life. RIP Cookie and Bella.

judith kerttu 5 years ago

we just lost our cat he was 14 years old but had cancer and an enlarged heart i miss him so very much i cry just thinking of my loss of my buddy he will always be in my heart

Elizabeth 5 years ago

My cat died last night and I too am devastated! I woke up Saturday morning and found blood spots all over the house, on the carpet and couch. I thought one of my roommates dogs was in heat but I also found blood in my bathroom. (the dogs dont come in my room or bathroom) My cat (boo) was missing and I looked everywhere for her thinking she was hiding festering from some wound. But I could not find her. I leave the window in my room always open so the cats can come and go as they please and looked for her outside as well. I had to help my sister move that day and when I came home in the late evening she had come through the window and was howling!! I checked her over for wounds but the bleeding was vaginal. I began to rub her stomach and noticed she had to babies in there. (non of which were in the birth canal) I did not even realize she was pregnant and she really could not be very far along at all as she was so small. I made her comfortable and kept petting her as she purred and pushed. She became non responsive very fast. she would just gaze up at me and purr. She died and it broke me. I know this sounds crazy but I held my dead cat for over an hour crooning her petting her and balling over her. I didn't know she was pregnant. I didn't know where she was in the morning and I even looked for her outside! Had I known I would have taken her in immediately to the vet and signed my savings account over to have her alive again. My sister and everyone else think I am crazy because it is "just a cat". but she was mine and i loved her deeply. I think I see her everywhere or better yet i imagine her everywhere. I will walk up to the house and imagine her perched out the window to greet me. I miss her. Nothing will cover it up. not another pet or even time. She has forever scarred my heart.

Ray 5 years ago

Yesterday morning I found my cat Shadow dead in my front yard near the garage. It seems as though our cats Shadow and Perdy died in a similar manner. I found him covered in grass and what looks like saliva or some other liquid (no blood). So, we guess he was mauled by a few dogs running loose. Anyway, he was my first cat(I'm still in high-school) and he was/is my favorite out of all the cats I've ever met. I found him, when he was a kitten, in a construction-like site right alongside my local park. Him and his siblings were there, but he was the only one I could get to come to me. So, I brought him home and my parents knew what was coming. He became family. He was the most lazy, loving cat and he was extremely tolerant when it came to everything, except large dogs. Small dogs he didn't mind, but large dogs, lets just say he went for the throat. He was always there for me even if I wasn't for him.(I had to travel a lot so I would be gone like 2 months of the year.)

Anyway, we buried him last night in our yard between two hedges of long grass(where he loved to lay). I kept his collar for my own sake. I miss him... It's hard...

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Judith) My deepest condolences to you on the loss of your kitty. I know how hard it is.

@Elizabeth) I am so sorry. What an awful experience for you. Please do not blame yourself. I know your loss is great. I am so glad you were able to be there with her at the end though.She knows you gave her everything you could. And no it is not crazy to sit with her like that. It was a very loving thing to do. I am so sorry.

@Ray) I am so sorry about Shadow. I know how hard it is and how much it hurts. No matter what way they pass from us, it is still hard and we still miss them. RIP Shadow kitty.

Dominic 5 years ago

Hi Dorsi,

An amazing story - I lost my cat Tib last night - A hit and run I'm afraid. One years old and one in a million just like Perdy.

Let's just say I have not been able to stop crying or thinking about him for the whole day, I carried his collar around today because it's just so hard. The hardest thing for me is the way he died - The vet said he was crawling towards our door and collapsed right outside - He truly was a cat with a sense of humour who would also do those 'Sexy poses' I really don't know how I am going to overcome this...

Best regards,


Alicia 5 years ago

I'm sorry for the loss of your beautiful little girl.. I had to put my dear boy Arson down yesterday.. he had congestive heart failure along with some issue where his body was killing off his red blood cells.. he was very strong and fought off every illness.. he even beat Diabetes! figure that one out!.. he was very young.. only 6 years old.. a very very affectionate orange tabby.. I know it was the right thing to do, and I was there when he went.. but it's still hard.. he had been sick for years.. and I was soo used to looking after him.. I woke up this morning (the day after) and as I was laying in bed, my first thought was " I have to get up and give Arson his meds".. then I realized I didn't have to do that anymore.. I will be lost without him for quite awhile.. I have another cat..a female, but Arson was very mean to her when he was little.. he used to beat her up a lot.. so I don't think she will miss him all that much..he spent a lot of time at the vets over this past year.. I will miss him greatly.. He used to talk to you with his eyes.. you would ask him how he was, and he would blink at you.. such an affectionate handsome cat..

RIP to both Perdy and Arson.


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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Dominic) Your story about Tib made me teary eyed. I am so sorry. RIP Tib.

@Alicia)What a handsome boy Arson sounds like. I know it's so hard when you realize they are not there anymore. I looked for Perdy for the longest time after she passed - then would get so sad when I realized she was not here anymore. RIP Arson.

Jenny 5 years ago

I lost my wonderful black cat Twilight 4 weeks ago..and she was only a year and a half old....

The story..

I got her for my 13 birthday, she was just 8 weeks old, she got outside once while chasing my 11 year old cat Gracie (who was a stray until she was 2) I managed to get Twilight back inside but later that day I found out she had fleas and had to give her a bath and keep her in the bathroom for a month, poor cat.

When Twilight was 5 months old my neighbor found three stray kittens and gave them to us we kept one and he and twilight were best friends, grooming each other, playing outside together, happy as can be.

Then 4 weeks ago My father let her out like he always did in the morning and she didn't come back!

We were going on a 2 week trip to visit friends the next day and I wanted both of my cats to be inside I searched, called out, and even put food on the porch, but she never showed up...I knew what this meant I just didn't what to believe it...

We went on that trip telling the neighbor (who we left in charge)to keep a eye out for Twilight, I prayed for two days hoping she would be Ok, then on a Sunday our neighbor called he had found her caught in the fence..he said it looked like she had gotten stuck by the collar and tried to get out which strangled her, what a horrible way to die..

Just so you understand why we didn't find her body sooner.. we live on 16 acres of land with 20 plus chickens, more if you include the week old chicks that one of the hens was laying on while we were away.

The other cat, not Gracie, but Artemis (he is a boy)still misses her and mews at me, as if he is saying "what have you done?! where did you leave her?"

Writing this reminds me, I never asked the my neighbor what he did with Twilight's body! God...RIP my wonderful longhaired almost all black you never be forgotten..Twilight I love you, I will always love you. PS so does Artemis.

Jenny 5 years ago

Sorry I was a little got up in my own loss and forgot to say that you cat sounds like she used to be the happiest cat in the world.

God bless all creatures big and small.

And let us remember God knows best.

Even if we don't like it.

Tyra Karone 5 years ago

Just lost my cat too, she died under my bed last night and we found her in the morning. My room is the cat room because they all like to hang out in here and sometimes my single person bed is just covered in them. She died on her favorite pillow that she always liked to curl up on in a little ball with her paws over her eyes. She's been blind for about a year now and not looking too good health wise but even though we knew she probably didn't have long for this world it was just so sad, I'm going to miss her a lot more than I expected, because its not like its the first time one of my animals has died but for some reason I'm just really sad about losing her, even if its for the best and everyone has to die.

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Jenny)I am so sorry about Twilight. Those collars always worry me - one time our Siamese got one wrapped around her neck and around her leg - we got it in time fortunately. Twilight sounds like she is missed dearly - RIP Twilight.

@Tyra) I am so sorry Tyra - it does not matter how old or sick they are - when they leave us it still leaves a hole. RIP kitty baby.

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corbycat 5 years ago from earth

this hub made me cry.. I don't want to lose all my beloved cats. It will surely devastate me. This is so sad. I'm so sad for you and Perdy. I hope he is happy now....I don't know what will happen to me if my cats will die...I hope I can cope up...

Norma 5 years ago

Hi, we lost Billy on Wednesday. We had him for 8 years. The funny thing is that I HATED cats before Billy and I was afraid of them but my daughter really, really wanted one so I said ok we'll get one, I will try. I will never forget the first day we got him, I was absolutely terrified of him. I was the first up in the morning and i had to come down the stairs and confront him ... but he had run behind the sofa as terrified of me as I was of him. I said to my daughter you feed him, you clean up after him, you do everthing to do with him, I will put up with him that's all. And now the ache in my heart is so big I feel I am going to break. I have not stop crying since Wednesday and now it is Saturday. I came home on Wednesday and found poor Billy dead in the garage, I thought I was going to die myself with shock. My husband and daughter didn't get home until 9.30 that night because the car broke down so I had to wait on my own with Billy from 6. I Thought they would never get hom. I kept ringing and texting them to see if they were nearly home but they had broken down in a remote area so it took some time for the pickup to bring them home. Billy was all black, he was gorgeous. My daughter used to play chasing with him in the house .. I did myself too sometimes, I chased him with a wet cloth which I would throw at him and he would race off and hide and then peek out to see if I was following him. I used to feed him fromage frais on his special spoon. Oh gosh I really don't know what I am going to do without him. He used to sit on the roof of the car in the sun. I could just go on and on talking about him, I could write a book about him. It's a great help to read here about Perdy and all the others and know that other people feel the same way. Oh it's so so hard. The house is so quiet without him. He was everywhere. He wasn't let go everywhere in the house or do everything he wanted, but he was always there just flitting by, or rubbing up against your leg or miaowing for something to eat or for the door to be opened. I just hope he didn't suffer. We don't know what happened but today we found a dead mouse in the living room so ... He gave us so much enjoyment and fun. My husband says we were kind to him too, think that is to try and make me feel better. I would just love him to walk in that door now and rub against my leg......

Alissa 5 years ago

When i looked through this article and pictures it made me cry because i remember losing my cat cool, I am 11 and he died last year i found him with his head between a gap in our sofa. Now i have a kitten named Rico. I know how this feels even though i am young

william lardner 5 years ago

i know how you feel, my cat oreo died and i cant stop thinking about her. but it made me a little better when we got are new cat, stigy. but i still feel sad sometimes. but just remember all the good times you had with perdy.

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@corbycat) Try not to think too far ahead. Just love them while they are here. Thanks for reading.

@Norma) Your story reminds me of my mom. She didn't want animals for the same reasons. It hurts so bad when you lose them. RIP Billy cat.

@Allisa) I am so sorry. I know how bad it feels. Thank you for sharing.

@william) I am so sorry about Oreo. RIP Oreo kitty.

Paul 5 years ago

Hi, We lost our 18 year old cat Slash yesterday who had to be put to sleep. We spent the whole night before with him because I knew what was going to happen. The pain of our loss is acute which is to be expected. We are already talking about the happy times and memories we have of him which is a start. This hub is a great source of comfort and I am sure will be for those who post after me.

Kerry 5 years ago

My cat Bella died sometime last Fri we never let her out at night and she slept in her bed in our bedroom going bed when we did and got up when we did. She always came in bed and podded on my neck nestling in my hair. I have never known such a sweet loving natured cat. She was only 15 months old. I called her all night and went looking early morn to find her on the drive eyes open but dead. I picked her up crying and my husband buried her with all her toys. House is empty and my daughter moved to her new house yesterday. I think she was clipped by car but no marks no blood msybe my husbands car i dont know. Get amothet cat? I dont know but maybe wait amd see and nothing could replace Bella she was my lovely sweet and i loved her

Kerry 5 years ago

I guess like all bereavement its just time and nothing helps so u just have to go through it. It leaves u feeling depressed and today i feel so low about her. My husband and i are not talking and naturally this makes it worse but cant speak just so gutted :)

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Paul) I am so sorry to hear about Slash. RIP sweet Slash.

Kerry) Yes it does take time and even with that the pain never fully goes away - I'd say it becomes more like a dull ache. I am so sorry about your sweet Bella. RIP Bella kitty.

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Kerry)Please feel free to post more comments and talk about Bella here. I'm sorry.

Kerry 5 years ago

Thanks for reply. It as been one week since my Bella died. I am questioning myself how she died? I found her in drive with no apparent injuries but i guess like most she was clipped by car. I would get another but can not go through this again. Aug 20 2010 i lost my dear snowy white bengal minnie she was 5 yrs old and this loss was like all who love cats hard. I replaced with bella and learned to love again my beautiful new cat. She was so spoilt and was treated like a baby and she bought back toys and was so special. This loss will get easier but i wish that she was still here!!

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Kerry) This is similar to what happened to Perdy. She was found laying by the garage door with no injuries either. I can only speculate she may have got hit by a car or fell of the roof. I haven't got another cat because I still have her brother Zorro but I still miss her, the little ditzy girl.

Kerry 5 years ago

Yes think was car also. Just seems quiet without her and such a terrible loss with her being only young. I will be glad when weeks have passed and can start to feel bit normal. For all who lose their pets i sorry for u and time is the only healer x

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Yes Kerry, time is a healer. And it helps to talk about them too. Thanks for coming back.

Becky 5 years ago

I lost my cat Rocky yesterday (he was hit by a car) and I am still in shock, I have been reading your beautiful story and all of the posts with tears streaming down my eyes.

I got Rocky 4 years ago from a rescue centre, he had been abandoned outside the centre and had been waiting for a new home for about 3 months.

He was the most loving cat anyone could wish for, he snuggled on my lap every night, and purred constantly. He loved to go outside during the day, exploring and playing with my other cat Dexter. I loved him and now the house feels empty. I can't stop thinking about him and I just wish that he was here.

I just try to remind myself that although Rocky didn't have the long life that he should have had, it was a very happy one.


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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Becky) I am so sorry about Rocky. I also had a cat named Rocky that was my absolute favorite. He disappeared one day and we never found him. I was devastated. I love all animals but some of they are just very very special. RIP to your Rocky kitty.

Kerry 5 years ago

Its 3 weeks since bella died and I am strarting to feel better. I do dream about her and still see her out corner of my eye in the house but this is just the brain playing tricks. So like i said earlier time is the healer and its nice to be able to see other people feel the same. Sorry about Rocky I understand how you feel but it does get better. I am leaving until after xams then if feel ok then may not get another do not want to go through the pain again hurts to much

matt 5 years ago

a neighbour came to my door a few hours ago saying that a cat was lying on the side of the road. i ran out to see my little 4 year old Bella in the gutter. it broke my heart seeing her there like that, and i cant stop thinking about it. such careless people speeding down the street, it makes me sick.

she used to sleep on my chest when i was sat watching tv or when i had just woken up in the morning, and i used to rub my nose on top of her head between her ears. it hurts to know i wont see her again.

i just had to have my 16year old milly put to sleep not 2 months ago, and now theres just my 6 year old jess left, she will be so lost.

thank you for your story, and this page, writing this is really helping me.

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Yia 5 years ago

I just lost my beautiful 15 year old cat Lally to cancer three days ago and I'm utterly devastated, just devastated. She looked like Perdy, she was the prettiest cat around, and she has two brothers, Mitsi and Joey whom she looked after. The day she died Mitsi groomed her constantly, then he lay behind her hugging her with his paw. I put him out of the room though just before she died, I didn't want him to see it as he gets very affected when his brother or sister are sick or upset. How the three of them lived for 15 years is beyond me as the boys were so silly when they were younger.....including getting stuck up the chimney! But Lally was always the perfect little lady, she never got into any scrapes. She was the sweetest little thing. It's been great to find this page, I've cried for three days now, writing this has helped a lot.

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Kerry) You are a true animal lover. I believe one day you will let another cat into your heart when the time is right. I know how you feel though, there is no "replacing" Bella.

@Matt) I am so sorry about Bella. How traumatizing. My heart goes out to you and I'm glad you can write about it here. Please come back anytime. RIP sweet Bella.

@Yia) I am so sorry. I think it's harder too when you have their brother and sisters because you are not only hurting but you know they are hurting too. Zorro is my last kitty now, his brother and sister have both passed away. Fortunately he has found a new little feral girlfriend that he hangs out with. Glad you came here and come back anytime. RIP Lally baby.

yia 5 years ago

Dorsi, thankyou so much.xx

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

You are welcome Yia. I am glad to have been some support through this for you. I know how hard it is.

Zane 5 years ago

I lost my cat Louie and we could have saved him but we just couldn't afford it and he was like a brother to me and will always be in my heart.

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@Zane) I am so sorry. RIP Louie.

Carmen 5 years ago

I just lost my 20 year old cat named Nikky.

She was with us for good and bad times. She used to go out and adopt abandoned kittens, bring them home and watch them eat from her own bowl. She knew when we were upset and she was running through the house just to make us laugh. She got blind and deaf and walked in front of my car; a week earlier I was debating putting her to sleep, but she gained some strength and started eating again. She was so confused at the end that she was sleeping in her litter box. I am grieving. I will miss you Nikky and I hope I will meet you in heaven.

Sayantika 5 years ago


I have recently lost my cat Pingu. He was the smallest cat of our cat family which earlier had seven members. Dont know who killed the cat on the streets just in front of our home. He suffered from head injury. I do not know how will I recover his loss but I am more worried about her mother and the other cats of the family who cannot express their grief like we do. Pingu was only 3 months and 10 days old at the time of his death. I miss him. He will always be in my prayers.

jenkimak 5 years ago

i just lost my 4 month old kitten whom i raised since she was a week old

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Carmen) I am sorry about the loss of Nikky. She sounds like such a sweet cat. RIP Nikky.

@Say) I am sorry about your sweet baby Pingu. The cats will recover - Perdys brother Zorro did grieve for about 2 weeks.I am sure he still misses her too. It will just take time. RIP Pingu.

@jan) I am sorry about your kitty. I am glad you came by.

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Carmen) I am sorry about the loss of Nikky. She sounds like such a sweet cat. RIP Nikky.

@Say) I am sorry about your sweet baby Pingu. The cats will recover - Perdys brother Zorro did grieve for about 2 weeks.I am sure he still misses her too. It will just take time. RIP Pingu.

@jan) I am sorry about your kitty. I am glad you came by.

Tessa 5 years ago

Dorsi i know how it feels i just lost three baby kittens this morning. I went in to check on them because they lived in the garage (they were a strays babies) when i looked in the box that they lied in i picked up two of them and they had frozen to death and the other went missing and probably froze, too. the last one was living so i took it inside and cared for it it is still alive but i know how it feels. Sorry for your loss it sounded like a wonderful cat.

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Tessa) I am so sorry. We lost a runt puppy a few weeks ago and it was devastating. Let me know how your little survivor is doing please.

jenkimak 5 years ago

im still sad i miss molly im 10 years old

jenkimak 5 years ago

her brother bj misses her more than you can imagine the thing im goonna miss more than anything is that she used to try to nurse on my pillow pet and her name was Molly May Meridathia Moskito Mary Martha Munchie Marie black with a tiny white patch on her chest her mom was real tiny a wild cat when i found her for the first time she was soaked on top of a tire i could her but i couldn't see her i seached for a long time with my cousin then me and Molly got attached then i had to leave for a couple months when she was three months later on my aunt called me and told me she had gone out looking for me like she always does but she didn't come back next morning my uncle found her dead no sign of a struggle or anything just dead :-(

jenkimak 5 years ago

oh my God im reading these stories and im bawling my eyes out im so sorry everyone im even more depressed now WWWWWAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@jenkimak) I am so sorry about Molly. You came to the right place to talk about her. RIP Molly May Meridathia Moskito Mary Martha Munchie Marie.

jenkimak 5 years ago

i am greiving for perdy im so sorry

jenkimak 5 years ago

perdy sure is perdy!

jenkimak 5 years ago

thank you

cathyjoy 5 years ago

So sorry for your loss words cannot describe how deep the bond is that we share with our beloved pets, after all they are a very important part of our family, I lost my beautiful house bunny fiver nearly 2wks ago I'm still crying now I believe we WILL meet again some sunny day.

GizelLe 5 years ago

i saw my cat dead before i comment here, and i feel so so guilty..i dnt know why..maybe i love him so much..RIP Sunbae :))

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@cathy) Thank you for such kind words and my condolences on your precious bunny.

@Gizelle) I'm sorry. RIP Sunbae.

Xiomara 5 years ago

Hi Dorsi, word cannot express how sad I feel. I am so sorry for your loss. The story about her short stays made me cry, all of her pictures are beautiful. I lost my baby girl Lizzy on 7/2/2009 and I can't describe the pain I have, and feel for losing my dog. I know that Perdy and you shared the most beautiful feelings, love/caring/kindness and compassion. Thank you for writing this beautiful story about Perdy.

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romari 5 years ago from Heaven

Uh oh it's so sad. I've been taking care of cats since I was a kid. And I've experienced the pain of loosing a pet that is so lovely and cute just like a cat. But the best thing to do is to move on.

Just think Perdy's in heaven now. My cat also died but we never found his dead body. I think he went away for me not to see his dying moment.

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

Xiomara) Thank you so much for your kind words. I am sorry about Lizzy. RIP Lizzy and Perdy.

@romari)I am so sorry. I think they are in heaven too.

jenkimak 5 years ago

my aunts 14 year old cat died reached out towards heaven then curled up rip lucy

rip 1 year old sparkie

rip 2 year old zippy

rip 1 year old leopard


Laura 5 years ago

I was searching "coping with loss of cat" on google and your story popped up and thank God it did.I thought i was over reacting when I cried hysterically when my 5 year old cat,Lexi Boo,passed away tonight but thankfully im not the only one soooo in love with their pets.I loved her so much.I called myself her mom and defended her as if she really was my child.She was a cat with an attitude but she was awesome.I'm so glad i came across your page because it makes things so much easier.Thank you.


I miss you Lexi Boo,Love mommy

jenkimak 5 years ago

laura i am terribly sorry

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@jenk) Thanks for reading and remembering all of our fur-babies.

@Laura) I am so sorry about Lexi Boo and so glad you found us other cat lovers. Please come back whenever you feel like talking. RIP Lexi Boo.

Flynn 5 years ago

My cat Billie runaway and has not come back and I can not sleep what should I do by the way he is black and White if you see him please bring him back to 29 berry square

jenkimak 5 years ago

flynn i really hope u find your bundle of joy

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Flynn) I'm sorry. Did your kittie show up yet?

jenkimak 5 years ago

Mollys death just seems to get harder the only way i can sleep is when i cry myself to sleep if i keep it up i might get dehydrated

patricia 5 years ago

thank you fo the story. i lost my cat, mr chip yesterday, i had him for 15 years and my heart is so broken i can't even function. i loved him so much, he was my child and i know time will make it better but right now i feel like i will never recover.

jenkimak 5 years ago

patricia im so sorry i love cats i understand

Sarah 5 years ago

Dorsi, thank you for sharing your story of Perdy. Adorable pictures. One of our cats, "Precious" passed away almost 2 weeks ago. We made the decision to put her down because she was so sick, her liver was failing. "Angel" our other cat misses her so much and of course so do we. They grew up together. Precious was only 7 1/2 years old and she had never been sick. It was very sudden and unexpected. We got a photo book of her made, a paw print and got her cremated. She will be very much missed.

The other day, I was watching a video of her and our other cat angel started to watch the video! It made me cry. So hard for anyone who loses a pet. She was much more than a pet, she was more a best friend and our baby.

Feral Lover 5 years ago

Hi, my feral cat has been missing for almost a month now, I miss her dearly. She lives outside and gave me such joy. Sorry to hear about Perdy. You must miss her. It's rough.

Rebecca 5 years ago

I lost my kitten, Mushu today.

He was hit by a car. And to think. Just minutes before I found him, I was holding him against my chest, and he was purring to me.

Mushu was a rescue cat. A family brought him in to be uthenized, but the vet refused. So he gave him to us.

Mushu took to his new home immediately. He loved us all. He followed me to the bus stop every day, and when I let him, he would sit on my shoulder and have a ride. We had a litter of puppies not long after we got Mushu. He and them would play with each other for hours, until the pups wore out. However, once they grew up, he decided it wasn't as fun as he thought. Mushu was by far the sweetest kitten I've ever met. His favorite spot was to be on my shoulder, he let me hug him even though I'm pretty sure he didn't like it, and he followed me everywhere. He liked playing in boxes. I remember the first time found him playing in one. I reached down to pick it up, and it moved. He was on his back, packed very tightly. I almost tried to help him up, but he was enjoying himself too much.

I found him today, lying out in the road. I'll never forget it. My dad burried him out in the pasture, next to Fiddle, the dog my sister lost to a car.

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Jenk) I'm sorry

@Patricia) I'm sorry about Mr. Chip. RIP Chip

@Sarah) RIP sweet Precious. I know how hard it is, they are part of our family and losing them is like losing a piece of us.

@Feral Lover) I hope he shows up - you never know. Let's hope for the best. Thanks for coming by and reading.

Oh Rebecca my sincerest condolences on the loss of Mushu. Sounds like he was such a sweet kitty baby.

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seanorjohn 5 years ago

Some heartbreaking stories about much loved cats deaths here. I witnessed our very first cat die when it was run over by a speeding motorist. I can remember every painful second of its horrible death. It haunts me still.I am so glad my daughters took such wonderful photos of Oscar. It is a real comfort to have them and remember what a great cat he was.

Feral Lover 5 years ago

Dorsi, this is really comforting to read, knowing that other people know what it is like. Very well written. RIP Perdy.

THANK YOU. This is a huge help.

AzeRoth 5 years ago

I just lost my kitty, 4 years old, Black and white, named George....he got ran over by a car, and i found him by a phone poll, he was a very lovely kitty and right now i still cry about it, i will always miss this cat....he will never ever be replaced, thank you, Dorsi, this helped my alot, and sorry about your Perdy. :'(

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Sean) I am so sorry about Oscar. I am glad you have some great photos of him. RIP Oscar.

@Feral Lover) Thanks so much for the very kind words. Glad this helped.

@Aze) I am so sorry about George. I know what you mean, there is no "replacing" them - ever. RIP George and glad you came by and found some solace here Aze.

AzeRoth 5 years ago

And thank you again, Your story has inspired me to get through life without my kitty, although i'm still mourning.

Though there will be hard times when i need my kitty...I will always refer back to reading this, thinking about things, and getting back up on my feet and continuing to my goal.

I am very touched. :)

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Aze) Thank you so much for the kind comment. It's people like you that inspire me to write more about life experiences. Thank you again and I'm glad I could be of some help to you.

katherine 5 years ago

Thank you for posting theis beautiful story...hugs xoxo

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

Your welcome Katherine - and thank you!

jenkimak 5 years ago

happy new year and i feel happy to know that our buddies are spending chistmas and new year with jesus

Bob 5 years ago

What a great way to remember your special buddy. I am sorry for your loss and as a cat owner my self I can sympathize greatly. I just lost my beloved baby Kasey just 4 days ago on New Years eve, and I came across this post while searching up things about cat loss on google. I have been so distraught and at a huge loss for words since he was just six and pretty damn healthy. He was an always affectionate baby who lived his days to make me happy and be my companion. Sorry for you losing Perdy, it is a little settling I guess to know other people feel the same way as I do though.

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Bob) I am so sorry about your beloved Kasey. Thank you for reading and commenting. RIP Kasey.

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Yia 5 years ago

I have to say Dorsi that it is truly amazing how much this has helped me, you are an angel.

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

Oh Yia, thank you so much for the kind comment. It made my day! Glad to be of help.

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DIYweddingplanner 5 years ago from South Carolina, USA

Hi Dorsi,

I found myself reading this because one of my friends lost her fur child Junior the day after Christmas and is inconsolable. Amazing how our little fur children worm their way into out hearts and become parts of our families! I'm going to send Susan this article, I think it will help.

lynne 5 years ago

my sweet otto had to put to sleep april 27 2010 that was one of the worst days of my life cause i stay with my otto to they put him to sleep he knew cause he put his paws around my neck i cant say much more just i kept talking to otto telling him how much i love him and how special he is only 13 years old i had one cat now and he loved otto too

Pamela 5 years ago

I just lost my little kitten Skutch he was hit by a car Two days ago I am truly heart broken and upset that I did not make her strictly an inside cat. All my cats always get out through my doggie door it has been there for 25 years and there is no cover on it. My kids and invent out to a farm last year and and took him home there were cats of all ages ans sizes. Skitch was a scrawny tiger cat just laying on a bail of hay. The lady said he's not much to look at but he's always like that. We decided to take him. He had flees mites respiratory infection and worms. After a few months of care he was on his way to being the moat lovable funniest mischievous kitten. He would sit with you at your computer in your room no matter where u were he would find a spot. He would get into everything, once when he did not come when I called him I went looking found him three houses down in my neighbors garage in the attic with the stairs closed. I knew he would always come when he heard my. Pice and if he didn't something was not right. The day he for hit I took a walk looking for him I think he heard me calling him and started running home and got hit it pains me to think about it. I am grateful I found him I think he knew I would. He knew he was so loved I should of protected him and kept him in, and we would still have this little girl who brought all of us so much joy. It is so hard to think that he is gone. I have not told my kids yet they are away they will be heart broken. The idea she was running to his mom breaks my heart she loved us all so much and she gave us immense joy. I love you Skuthie

Pamela 5 years ago

I am very sorry for you losing your sweet baby Perdy.

5 years ago

Thank you so much for sharing your story.. I just lost my Milo of 10yrs yesterday. The pain is difficult and part of me felt it wasn't normal to hurt this much. Milo had a full and I believe happy, lazy life.. I guess its just me missing him and coming to grips with not seeing him anymore. It really does hurt.. Thank you again.. Perdy's spirit is still strong :) I hope that brings you comfort..

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jenkimak 5 years ago

yeah sorry

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@dDIY) Thanks for reading. I hope the article helps her. I know how it feels)

@Lynne) I'm so sorry. That's so sad. RIP Otto.

@Pamela) Oh I am so sorry. Please don't blame yourself. It was an accident and I know how you feel. RIP Skuthie. He sounds like such a sweet little soul.

Thank you K) RIP to all our sweet fur-babies and friends. They are very missed by all of us.

Pamela 5 years ago

Missing Skutch reading all these stories it is truly wonderful to know all of these creatures were loved so much I wish they all were Animals are Gods angels on earth

sarah hall 5 years ago

early hours of this morning my partner witness our cat getting ran over, died on impact. he brought her lifeless body home still warm! i have never cried so much in my life over any thing, she was our first cat we had her since a kitten brought for my sons 3rd birthday and my 3 yearold who hasn't had her even a year has and is handeling the loss alot more then myself. R.I.P Pebbels 15/1/2012 x x x x

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Pamela) what a beautiful comment. Thank you.

@sarah) I am SO sorry, how traumatic. RIP Pebbels. I pray you can find some peace through this.

lynne griffen 5 years ago

my dollface otto my cat had to put to sleep april 27 2010 it was one of the worst days of my life cause i wanted to be there when they put him to sleep i picked him up and told otto how special he is he put his paws around my neck he knew something was going to happen oh my god i didn't want to let otto go to this day j miss otto and love him with all my heart he was only 13 years old


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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@lynne) I am so sorry. RIP Otto.

loni 5 years ago

sorry about your loss! I know how it feels since I will never know how my cat Dracula passed away on Friday 20th 2012 at 6:38am ...he was only five years old!

I went into the bathroom to see him take his last breaths in my arms! the past few days have been the worst in my life! :'(

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@loni) I'm so sorry. I know it's heartbreaking but I am glad he had you there to comfort him. RIP sweet Dracula.

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ivyspice 5 years ago

It's somewhat comforting to come across this blog where other people understand how in a house of cats there's often a really special one you bond with very closely. That was my Luna in my house. She was diagnosed with an ear infection in December which was later suspected to be a polyp and while waiting on biopsy results to decide which operation she needed to remove it, she died. That was early Tuesday morning and my boyfriend and I had to witness the entire thing. It was terribly traumatic as she suddenly started gasping and choking for air but her heart was beating so fast. I tried resuscitating her as my boyfriend drove to the vet but it did no good and even though she had a faint heartbeat when we arrived, they couldn't bring her back. We still don't know if it was actually a tumor or cancer that the vet biopsied and he is performing a post mortem, but it's tearing me up inside because I saw 4 vets and they all said a polyp wouldn't kill her, but she's no longer with me anymore. She wasn't even 3 years old yet either. I have her sister from the same litter and they were so close, but no cat will ever fill the void that Luna left me with. She was the most beautiful Snow Bengal and the sweetest and silliest cat I'd ever encountered in my life. I just hope the grief turns into acceptance soon.

jake 5 years ago

my cat just died:( i really don't know what to do i feel terribly sad.there are a lot of cats here in our home but she was my only pet. every time i arrive she comes at the gate to welcome me. i am crying while writing this i know atis will never come back;(

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@everyone) Thank you for all the comments here. I pray for all of you in your grief. I'll be answering them when I'm back in about a week. I am taking a much needed break from the Internet to collect my thoughts:)

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michelle 5 years ago

i just lost my cat yesterday. He was a 5 year old cat.he was my best friend then he got hit on the road. He survived but he got really sick and stopped eating or drinking.Now i feel that its my fault hes dead and every now and then i cry for him.I now how you feel and Perdy sounded like a good cat.I got my cat from a 5 kitten litter though and he stole my heart.Now i feel empty he was the last of my cats.Were going to get a new one but it wont be the same.i had taught Buddy many tricks to like giving hugs and helping me herd in my chickens.I feel much better i got everything out of my system. thankyou

michelle 5 years ago

now i dont want to go outside because i can just see him everywhere.on the porch sun bathing or whinning for some more food after i just gave him a bowl of it and some cat treats.or giving me hugs.i miss him so much now i dont know what to do and i dont want to go anywhere or i'll start crying

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@ivyspice) Oh Ivy I am so sorry about Luna and I know what you mean- there are some that are very very special to us - just like people in our lives. It will get better in time. I know how hard it is. RIP Luna.

@michelle) Your welcome michelle and I'm glad you feel a little better writing about Buddy. I am so sorry. RIP Buddy.

Those feelings will be around for awhile because it is so fresh. You never forget though - I still miss Perdy and think of her when I am outside doing certain things. The pain is not as bad though with the passing of time.

@jake) I am so sorry Jake.

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Yia 5 years ago

@ michelle, it does get better. I lost my little cat last Halloween, she was fifteen years old and Dorsi's haven here really helped me. I miss her terribly but the pain has lessened. I have her two brothers to contend with now, it's like an old pensioners home here. One got an infected bite in his tail that he wouldn't leave alone so he's now traipsing around with a big plastic cone collar that rattles every time he shakes his head, which he does every minute or so, grrrrrr, and the other got cut on his forehead yesterday and came in from outside covered in blood and faeces. We have no idea what happened to him (well, we think the magpies got him while he was doing his business, he's completely deaf and can't hear anything creeping up on him) and he's in shock! They are like two old crocks at the moment. All the shenanigans have helped me not dwell on their sister. We all love her dearly but now we remember the good times and the funny times instead of the sadness.xx

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TENKAY 5 years ago from Philippines

Losing my kitty was the first death in the family. She was with us for 2 weeks only. I was only 16 years old that time and it was my first pet. I cried the whole day...


Thanks for sharing.

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Dorsi 5 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Yia) Your comment made me laugh Yia. I got a visual on your "old pensioners home" lol. Thanks for the comment about "Dorsi's

haven". That really made me feel good that this is a place of healing for you. Thank you SO much.

@TENKAY) I'm so sorry. We can certainly relate to that feeling here.

Pamela 5 years ago

Was just reading everyone's stories, I am sorry for your sadness. I am skutch's mom. She was truly a joy, she made my heart smile. Take that love and joy and treasure that and put it out there in other parts of your life. Animals are Gods Angles on Earth they are truly a gift.

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@Pamela) Hi Pam. Thanks for the great comment. Yes, they are Gods furry angels on Earth.

Jon 5 years ago

Thank you for all these messages. I am 46 and have a daughter and wife who are not cat people, but I am and my little fella passed away in his sleep coming up 12 years and I felt like I was hit by a truck and cry like a baby in the shower and on the way to work these past few days. He was such a carer and the way he generated that feeling in the air of contentment, joy, bliss, balance and love....I love you Popov. Daddy loves you

Julia 5 years ago

My Bandit, my Begie, Freddie Fred, Mr.B.

I really miss you. I had you since I was 10 years old. I remember you from the very day my sister brought you home. You were such a tiny little black and white kitty. And you were meant to be for Janene. You kept coming over to me, and making my sister mad because you were her cat. I remember the first time you fell asleep on my chest. You were so tiny. And when my sister moved back home with you, I was so happy. You would sneak away from her room and go into mine. Finally she gave up and gave you to me. I remember when mom would wake me up for school, and she would turn on the night and you would come running and jump on the bed and kiss me and head butt me and purr and purr. My mom would say Bandit go wake up Julia. I remember when you peed on my Barbie’s, and I told you I am not speaking to you. Playing house with you, and trying to dress you up as a baby, and you did not like that. But I would brush you afterwards to make up for dressing you up. One day I played hair dresser with you, and put hair gel in you fur, and made it all spikey…and when Janene saw what I did…well she killed me and made me wash out your fur. I thought she would like your new hair style, instead she said, “why does he look so frizzed?”. And you peeing on my backpack, and going on the school bus and everyone saying ewew something smells. I remember one day saying to my brother and his friend Max how much I love Bandit, I love, love, love , love Bandit, and Max telling me “if you love him so much then why don’t you Marry him” and I said fine I will. And I told my sister I am going to Marry Bandit, and she said “No, no….first he has to be your boyfriend, and then he has to be your fiancé, and then you can get Married to him” So I told family that Bandit is my boyfriend…I could not figure out why they looked concerned ? . When I was a teenager and never around, I would always wake up with you in my bed. I always use to say to you, how I wish you were human, because you would be the best boyfriend. When I would cry, you would be there, and when I was sick you would be there. You were there for a long time in my life. And when I moved away from home, I always thought of you, and one day living with you again. And then you did get to live with me again, for three more years. I would have gotten you sooner, but at the time Stephen had Snoogans, and he was a really hyper cat, and I did not know Snoogans well enough at that time. I was scared of what he might do to you, and as time went on Snoogans calmed down, and I got to have you again. On Wednesday, February, 2nd 2012 you passed away in my arms. The pain in my heart and the loneliness I feel, I heard will one day get better, all I need is time. I really hope that I will get to be with you again. You were one of a kind. You lived to be 19 years old. Even if you were to live longer, I understand now, that there would never be enough time with you. I am thankful that I got to have you a second time in my life. I miss your kisses and purrs and waking up with you in the bed. I miss calling your name. I miss kissing you, and hugging you, and carrying you in my arms, and falling asleep with you. I miss you drinking out of my water glass. I would always have to bring two cups of water, one for me and one for you. I miss coming home and you being there. Reading a book or watching TV or a movie, you were there. Your daddy and brother miss you just as much as me. Your will always be in their hearts. Oh my Begie I really miss you so much. You really did have my heart. I miss you and I will love you for always, I will love you forever, as long as I am living in my heart and mind you will be.

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Yia 5 years ago

@Julia, that made me cry. You are right, no matter how long they live, it's never enough time. You wrote such a lovely, lovely story and clearly Begie was a dearly loved character. I enjoyed it so much. My two remaining cats will be 16 soon, and Dorsi they have recovered from their various ailments and are as perky as kittens at the moment. Long may it last. @Jon, I hope you feel better soon, I'm glad Popov didn't suffer, I'm still racked by guilt that I didn't take my Lal to the vet, she died in my arms but it was hard for her and I'm finding it hard to forgive myself for that.xx

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seanorjohn 5 years ago

So many cats are so sadly missed but not forgotten.Hope you have some great photos of Begie, Julia. I have some beautiful photos of my beloved Oscar which were taken by my daughters.It is a great comfort. Hope everyone has these treasured mementoes

I am sorry 5 years ago

On the 17Th of May, 2011, I brought my cat Petunia in to have her teeth cleaned, at the vets.

She ended up having two teeth pulled and was placed on Amoxi Drops and Metacam for pain.

I was not given any written directions from my veterinarian about the metacam.

However it did come with a client information sheet that I neglected to look at because I believed it to just be directions

on how much medicine to give her, which I'd already been told. Besides I trusted my vet and didn't think any medications could

be harmful to Petunia unless I purposely overdosed her.

The Metacam box only said to give so much for pain. It never said when to stop. I thought I was supposed to give my cat Petunia

the Metacam for as long as it said to give the Amoxi Drops which said, till gone.

Saturday the 4Th of June, I called the vets to let them know Petunia wasn't eating much and was very sluggish.

I was told to take her off the medication and bring her in Monday if she wasn't better.

I wanted so badly to believe she was just suffering symptoms of the metacam, it can make animals tired and not eat.

I didn't tell the vets she had been off her medication for a few days believing she would be fine till Monday.

After rushing her to the vets Monday, they drew her blood and said she had renal failure. I was told I was only supposed to have kept Petunia on the Metacam for 5 days.

The vets admitted it was their error for not writing that down on the medication, but I have a horrible feeling that they

told me verbally and I just completely forgot. The vet said that he would put her on an IV drip to flush her kidneys, and place her on antibiotics.

He also said that he had done this with one of his own cats, and he had survived, and not to worry that he could "bring her out of it".

On Tuesday the 7Th, my mother called the vets first thing in the morning to see how Petunia was doing, and to see if it was okay to go and visit her.

She was placed on hold, only to have a technician come online to say "sorry, but your cat didn't survive the night, and that they were very sorry, but if it was any consolation they had kittens to adopt. They also sent me a generic sympathy card.

They said they had had a cat on metacam for 14 years without any problems before they heard it could make cats sick, and that this had never happened to them before. I wish they had stressed to me that this could potentially kill my cat.

I have unbelievable guilt that I'm not sure I can get over. Originally I was going to chose a pill medication but switched it to liquid to hopefully make it easier for Petunia to swallow. If I had stuck with the pill she would be fine, and would have gotten something else besides metacam.

I was also giving it to her in her mouth and letting her eat instead of mixing it with food. I didn't want my other cats to eat her medication.

Later I heard that putting metacam into the mouth of a small dog could cause renal failure.

Looking back she had symptoms of being sick that I didn't recognize for what they were. She was acting tired, but I thought she was just resting as my cats like to sleep a lot. I saw her urinate and it struck me that it might be more than the normal amount for her, but again I wasn't sure.

I didn't always see her use the litter box and I have another cat that urinates heavily at times and he is fine. I thought the symptoms of kidney problems were that cats couldn't go, but that's not true as I found out later. She also felt lighter but she was 13 pounds and I had been told that she should loose weight so I believed that it wasn't that bad. She was eating a little and drinking, but it turns out she was badly dehydrated from her kidney problem.

I believed she'd survive this because she was playing and even eating a little bit. I'd also had a cat previously that lived for quite a while with kidney problems. He was near 20 when he had to be put to sleep, Petunia was only 8.

I feel like it's my fault she died even though people are telling me it isn't, and that if I had gotten her to the vets earlier she would have made it.

I feel guilty that she died all alone in the vets office at night when she was terrified to even go to the vets.

She only trusted me, and would hide under her cat bed when ever anyone else came over. I was supposed to protect her and I let her down badly.

I really miss her and love her and feel like the worst person ever for causing her pain. I just wish I could see her again one last time to tell her that I'm sorry.

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Dorsi 4 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

Jon you made me teary eyed. RIP Popov.

@Julia) What a beautiful tribute to Begie. You made me cry.

@Yia) Thank you so much for your beautiful and uplifting comment.

@seanorjohn) I agree. Every time I look at Perdys photos here it does make me a little sad but I also smile and remember her quirky personality.

@I am sorry) I am very sorry about Petunia. It's obvious you loved her very much and would have never knowingly gave her something that could harm her. Please don't beat yourself up - I know you feel guilty but you did what you thought was best for Petunia. She forgives you and you need to forgive yourself now. RIP Petunia sweet baby.

Michelle 4 years ago

I have spent the past hour or so reading through this blog and the comments and I have found such comfort through the love people have had for their pets.

My little cat Smokey was put to sleep this morning. She turned 14 in January. Just a few days before we took her to the vets as she had stopped eating and just generally was not herself. She was diagnosed with a stomach tumor and due to her age and small size, could not be operated on. The vet gave us some tablets which perked her up for another month. She began eating again and acting like the lunatic she was. On Saturday night though she climbed up on the windowsill in the living room and just lay flat out on her side. She lay there until this morning just staring at us until we managed to get an appointment for her to be put to sleep. The vet said she had literally gave up. She was still my dear smokey until the end. She hated strangers with a passion and when the vet put the needle into her she growled at him!!

I was 11 when my mum said I could have a cat for Christmas. Smokey was 6 weeks when I picked her out of a litter at an adoption centre. I picked her because she was so tiny yet seemed so feisty and could hold her own. She was my best friend. I could talk to her about anything. She could tell what mood I was in - always ready to comfort me or play. She literally ruled the roost in our home - whatever Smokey wanted Smokey got. She loved to sit in the back garden and state at the birds - She knew she was a terrible hunter and gave up even trying to catch birds about 4 years ago!

We have buried her wrapped in her blanket and her bed in a coffin we made, out on her favourite spot in the back garden. We are going to plant a tree on top so Everytime we look at it we see her. Right now it feels like the pain will never stop, I have not stopped crying all day and got so bad that I opened up my search engine and typed 'what to do when your cat dies' which is how I came across this, however I have now gained so much comfort reading this, knowing that as much as she will be missed, it WILL become less painful. I have loved seeing the pictures of perdy and what a character she was as Smokeys pictures showcase her as a poser and character also. I am extremely glad I came across this :)

Amber Bauter 4 years ago

My cat Kiki had just died this morning. And she was a sweet kitty. She was a soft, sweet, lovable kitty and slept in my bed. But yesterday she was at the vet and yesterday morning...

she... died. It was very sad. And I cried. I was so sad and I am sorry what happened to your cat. Please pray for my cat and your cat. By :( she was sick that is why she was at the vet. :(

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Oh Michelle I am so sorry about Smokey. He sounded like such a character. I too am glad you found a little solace here - and yes it does get better in time. I remember when Perdy died I must have cried for 2 hours I was so devastated. I'm getting teary eyed now thinking about all of our kitty babies that we have loved that have graced our lives. RIP Smokey.

@Amber) I'm so sorry about your kitty. RIP Kiki.

mpa 4 years ago

Thanks, DORSI, for the address of this memorial page. I read all the posts and I understood, and cried, for all. I would have liked to tell you about death, sorrows, and guilts that we, moms and dads of the non-human creatures have to haunt us because there is always guilt beyond all the events. Always. As I am too troubled for the moment to talk about me and the uncommon departures of no matter what animal's soul departed from my open palms, from Geena the fawn, Bebe the duck, Pika the baby pigeon, Tootsie my favorite cat and most recently, Koko the Brave my rottie, I promise to come back with their extraordinary stories. I feel for your broken heart, DORSI, especially knowing how hard is the feeling of not having been there in time, at time of the frightening leap in the Big Void of your little angel, which closeness would have made her passing easier, rest her in God's peace. Koko's passing was so horribly unfair that I should talk about it. But especially, due the majority of stories here of people having lost their beloved pets through hit and run events, I would have liked to tell you the most tragic fate of the anonimous passing of millions of animals thrown in the streets at this very hour of which at least 2-3 dozens I personally witnessed last year in a civilized country in Europe, millions who did, and do, not have anybody to be cried by after their death. Either about Koko or Tootsie, or those millions of painful and hungry cries of the creatures who live on those European streets, I need more time to know what to write. And less tears in my heart. Can I show you some pictures of those dozens of animals living ownerless, until they die without anybody crying after them, on those streets? If yes, how to attach the pics here? If not, where else? Once again, RIP, sweet Perdy, and if you see Tootsie, tell her I loved her so much at THOSE times.

Nadhira 4 years ago

We just lost our cat 2 days ago..She fell from our apartment,5th floor, and we don't really know the reason she died but most probably she hit on something hard.It hurts us so much..We couldn't sleep,no appetite to eat, and kept on thinking of her only..We really really miss her..She was with us for about 1 year but it feels like she was with us for a long time..It is so hard to fight this feelings and we kept on crying for most of the time :(

Jeff 4 years ago

I just lost my best friend today BUSUK! I love and miss you

so much...can't wait to see you again when my time is up. I can't wait to hug you again! I miss my cat so bad

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seanorjohn 4 years ago

Mpa I hope Dorsi can help you. I am really not sure what to say.

nadhiri I still shed tears for my beloved Oscar. Try to remember the good times.

Jeff our best friends can be remembered by talking to family and I think looking at photos helps.

Dorsi you are helping so many people. God bless you for your compasion and helpfulness.

Hope you don't mind me butting in. Voted up and ?

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@mpa) Oh my I mpa didn't realize how bad the wild cat and dog situation is in Europe - that there are so many abandoned in the streets. I know it happens in the US too, but the dog and cat catchers always seem to be out rounding up the strays (and yes most of them get killed) So tragic knowing that they were not loved.

Unfortunately the way HP is set up there is no way to add pics by readers. Have you thought about blogging about this and putting your pics up? You can blog for free on Blogger or Blogspot.

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Dorsi 4 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Nadhira) I am SO sorry. How devastating that must have been. RIP

blessed kitty.

@Jeff) RIP Busuk. It does get better in time, especially that sick feeling in your heart. It will ease.

@seanorjohn) Thank you sj. Very much!

Jeff 4 years ago

Thank-You! so much for your kind words Mpa and Dorsi...I just want to share my dearest BUSUK life here. Be well BUSUK and please wait for me I will definitely be with you soon. FOREVER MISSED!

Nadhira 4 years ago

Thanks a lot for the kind thoughts..Really miss her right now..How I wish I could hug my Eow..Definitely she's enjoying her life in heaven now..Hope to see u again my beloved Eow :)

Jeff 4 years ago

Sorry I meant seanorjohn and Dorsi not Mpa and Doris...I'm still trying to gather myself. Thanks again

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@Jeff) I'm glad you shared.

@Nadhira) RIP Eow beloved kitty.

@Jeff) That's OK. I know how hard it is.

Jeff 4 years ago

Still miss my buddy...I spend every day with him for 2 years..he just likes to jump up on my right shoulder and cuddle up around my neck area...he only does that to me and now I am empty...hope you rest well BUSUK!!

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Dorsi 4 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Jeff) I know Jeff. There really is an emptiness when they are not there anymore.

sayantika 4 years ago

Again I lost a cat. After losing Pingu in November last year, this time I lost his sister, Chingu. I dont know why I am losing them one after other.

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Dorsi 4 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@sayantika) I am sorry for your double loss. I lost Perdy about a year after her brother Elvis disappeared. It was very hard. Take care my friend.

RIP Chingu.

Sterlinnggg 4 years ago

My Kitty Died Two Weeks Ago and I Feel Really Sad She Had A Awesome Personality...She Would Do Poses Like Purdy Haha...Her Name Was Butters Like From South Park...She Was My Best Friend..But She Was In Heat And So She Got Out The Door And Dogs Got Her Im Trying To Find A Cat That I Can Love..But Its Just Not Easy..When I Look at Her Spots She Use To Lay At I Start Crying..Will I Ever Love Another Kitty? Butters Was Only One Years Old :'(

Oliver 4 years ago

My Kitty Died To :(

Aya 4 years ago

I'm sorry for your lost. I had a cat who I loved very much. This may sound silly to some people, but he was like my best friend. One day my dad found him laying in the bushes of our back yard. When he told me, I didn't believe him until I saw him. We don't know exactly what happened, but we saw a hawk flying around our back yard, so we guessed it must have killed him. I have another cat I'm caring for, a stray. She's a sweet girl, but it's not the same. I still miss him very much.

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Dorsi 4 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@sterling) I'm so sorry about Butters. He sounded like a wonderful friend to you. RIP Butters.

@Oliver) I'm sorry.

@Aya) What a shock that must have been finding him like that. I'm so sorry. We have a stray too that we are feeding now. She won't let anyone by her but she's starting to trust me a little bit now.

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BluHaze 4 years ago

Thank you for letting us share a little bit of Perdys life, Dorsi. She sounded like an amazing companion.

I wanted to tell you a little bit about my Lucy.

My sister and I originally purchased her as a christmas gift for my mother. Right away though I knew how special she was, when she was cuddling up in my lap on the car ride home.

Originally my mother was thrilled when she opened the box and found her new kitty there waiting for her, but unfortunately it turned out that she was a bit more feral than my mother would have liked. She was a very active kitty, who loved to run, and loved to play rough.

As a result my mother didn't spend a whole lot of time with her since every time she did she got herself into trouble. I ended up filling in some of the gaps by feeding, taking care of, and loving her beyond reason.

It wasn't long before she became quite attached to me, following me all over the house. I remember when she was just a little kitten she would lay on the desk while I was at the computer, taking a nap and using my hand as a little pillow near the keyboard.

She was a very vocal cat, meowing softly at every opportunity. I always knew when she was waking up from a long nap, because I would hear a plop as she jumped down from the refrigerator, and would meow as she came looking for me.

I would often catch her mimicking the things that I did, I remember the first of which was when I heard her making a "kehkehkeh" noise which I believed to be mimicking my coughing. One day I was randomly peeking through the front window, using my hand to pull the blinds down a bit. Then I looked down at the box she loved to sleep on, and saw her using her paw to gently part the blinds so she could peak out too.

She was the most sweet, loving, and adorable cat that I've ever known. Nearly every day when I woke up she'd be there to say good morning and sit with me for a few minutes, and when I came home I would hear her on the other side of the door meowing, waiting for me.

Yesterday was my birthday, and after opening gifts I went out for a bit to run some errands. After coming home I was putting away the groceries while Lucy was in my mothers room playing with the feather duster. Suddenly I see her whizzing down the hall out of the corner of my eye, but didn't think anything of it since she was always very active.

After a few minutes when I went into the living room I found her laying down in the middle of the living floor, not moving. At first I thought she was just being lazy, so I went to scoop her up in my arms. That was when I realized how soft and limp she was.

In a panic I told my mother that we had to take her to the animal hospital. As she drove I held her in my arms and watched the spark fade from her eyes. After we got there I begged for help, but all the vet could do is tell me that she had already passed.

I'll never forget seeing her laying there on the cold table. That once youthful, vibrant, beautiful cat, so still and unmoving.

I don't often show my emotions, but when the vet told me she had passed I burst into tears. I cried at the hospital, I cried in the car, and I cried at home for hours.

She was my best friend, my little buddy, and I can't imagine life without her.

I miss her so much and feel so empty, I haven't even eaten in days.

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Dorsi 4 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@BluHaze) I am so so sorry. I shed tears reading your story about Lucy. There are no words for our losses except to say I am sorry and understand. RIP sweet Lucy. Time will help...I know it's hard right now but the pain will lessen with time...

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snakeslane 4 years ago from Canada

Hello Dorsi, Perdy's story is touching. What a charming little cat. Your photos are awesome. Clearly she brought a lot of joy to you and your family, so precious (sitting in the flower pots :) thank you for sharing this sweet tribute to Perdy. Regards, snakeslane

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Dorsi 4 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

Thank you snakeslane, Perdy sure is missed. Glad you enjoyed her story and photos.

Pam 4 years ago

Reading all of these stories is so hear felt I lost my kitten several months ago I adored her. We are blessed to have these little creatures God put on this earth for us their love is unconditional and bring Smiles to our faces. There is another kitty oyt there waiting for someone to love

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Dorsi 4 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Pam) Thank you for coming by and reading. I am so sorry about your kitty.

Pamela 4 years ago

Always remember that there are so many of Gods angles waiting for love and although our heart breaks soapy await the chance for someone to love them fill that void with love ...God bless

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Dorsi 4 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area Author

@Pamela) Excellent advice and yes, there are so many animals that need our love...

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