A space of my own...

What a mess

My little corner :-(
My little corner :-(

Frustrated Artist

My creative sinuses are plugged. I'm fed up, frustrated and more than a little discouraged. I've given hub pages a miss for a week and my paints a miss for even longer. Why you might ask?

Lack of space.

Lack of MY OWN space.

I call to your attention exhibit A...photo above. Tiny little corner, rickety table with paintings in progress precariously balanced on it, and art supplies (some of them) stuffed into knapsack on ground looking very unappreciated. Not conducive to the creative process at all.

I NEED a studio!

I need a place where I can store all my stuff (rest you don't see is stuffed in trunk of station wagon) and have space to paint happily. I need a place that is full of light and air and peace and quiet and does not involve cat walking all over half dry watercolours.

I need a place where I can sprawl out and relax and not have to clear things away to be able to have dinner. (Current painting place is on dining table in middle of very small dining room). I am getting tired of the pack up and dump on floor routine. I am getting tired of scrambling to re locate art supplies in order to tidy up dining room when guests stop over.

I wistfully read stories where artists have their amazing studios as a little heaven on earth where they can lock themselves away and tune into the zone. Dammnit I need a space to create!!

Or am I just lazy?

Am I blaming my dry spell of creativity on external circumstances when I should be looking inside myself?

I have painted sitting on a ledge overlooking a soothing sea while the trees were on fire with colour.

 I have painted in a bed at a beach house while my fiance slept peacefully beside me.

 I have painted sitting on the bow of a boat where dolphins were playing below my feet.

 I have painted in a beautiful garden alive with the laughter of children. 

I have painted lolled off in the grass with friends...and once sitting in a tree.

(c)Peter Sheppard 08
(c)Peter Sheppard 08

 I have painted in the swamp with mosquitoes flying all around while watching the ibis come home to roost..

(c) Peter Sheppard 08
(c) Peter Sheppard 08

 Each of these times I found bliss and peace and was not at all worried about my 'things'. Brushes and water and paint were propped up on folding chairs, tree trunks - my lap....whatever was at hand

(c) Peter Sheppard
(c) Peter Sheppard

So why is it so hard to find Nirvana in the 'comfort' of my own home? Why does the chaos affect me more in a controlled environment than in the wide open spaces? What is it that is making me so unhappy that I can't paint? Surely my lack of space and storage can't be it? Am I afraid to admit that my painter's block has more to it than meets the eye?

I wonder.

I wonder why this hub has started off as one thing and veered in the direction of another.

Is hubbing therapy for the soul minus the couch?

So I guess the question out there is "Do others experience this vague frustration?" How can I solve this? What's a girl to do??

 For now I'll leave the answers to the wind and you my fellow hubbers....until inspiration strikes again.

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Feline Prophet 7 years ago from India

It happens to most of us Sharrie....clogged creative sinuses are more common than you think. Don't try too hard to unclog them...just lie down and let the feeling pass. :)

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sharrie69 7 years ago from Trinidad (an island in the Caribbean) Author

I hear lying on your left side helps :-)

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MindField 7 years ago from Portland, Oregon

Oh, boy, can I feel this one down to my toes, Sharrie.

Read Virginia Woolf's A Room of One's Own. Read Ted Zeff's The Highly Sensitive Person's Survival Guide. Artists are different. We are highly attuned to everything around us and it either lends itself to our art or detracts and distracts from it.

Our brains are different and, for the most part, we can say thank heavens to that. It's what makes us good writers and artists. But it is a fine line we walk between the open-hearted, free-spirited, life-loving artist or artisan and the persnickety, prickly artiste or diva/divo. (I know all too well because I am constantly crossing back and forth over that line.)

Both of these manifestations are inextricably linked to who we are and we simply have to keep experimenting until, like the bower bird who decorates and redecorates his nest, we get it right.

You'll get there - but you'll be experimenting until the day you die. It's part and parcel of your gifts.

(If you lived closer, you could have my back bedroom for your studio!)

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sharrie69 7 years ago from Trinidad (an island in the Caribbean) Author

Thanks for the kind offer of studio space Minefield!:-) I'm being the persnickety, down right grumpy artist today who is dreaming of a beautiful open plan studio fronted by glass windows and an amazing view. Thing is even if I had it I probably wouldn't be painting much more than my toenails today anyway! haha

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Teresa McGurk 7 years ago from The Other Bangor

S'funny -- I moved into a small camper, and although space is limited, it isn't cramped. Plenty of light, too, through sky lights and the picture window overlooking the river. Wish you had a space like this: you could clear out the armchairs to have room for your easels, and still have places to flop down to relax. I'm more comfortable here than I was in my house, truth be told.

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sharrie69 7 years ago from Trinidad (an island in the Caribbean) Author

Your camper sounds like heaven!

I think I am more cramped in the brain than anything else. The dining table is a metaphor for all that seems to be tying me down lately. Probably have a case of 'nearly 40-cabin-mommy- fiancee- dog and cat looker afterer- teacher' fever. I needs me a backpack and a plane ticket (just not to Mexico methinks)!!

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sharrie69 7 years ago from Trinidad (an island in the Caribbean) Author

and ps. Teresa - I love the sound of armchairs and picture windows with a view of the river...I'd probably just sit all day and smile and read and drink tea!

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Christoph Reilly 7 years ago from St. Louis

Having a studio (or even a decent space) would get your fire burning again!

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sharrie69 7 years ago from Trinidad (an island in the Caribbean) Author

Am seriously considering bribing the dog for the use of his kennel at this point!

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waynet 7 years ago from Hull City United Kingdom

Having your own space to create is important and a corner of a room is simply not acceptable, I too had the crammed into a corner of the room effect, until I just had enough and threw the two kids into one bedroom and regained the spare bedroom for my computer and drawing board and painting easel, I hve everything in there now, just need a little fridge for cool beers and maybe a kettle to make a couple of cups of coffee now and then....I even have a sign on the door that says "If door is shut, go away!! which is just a reminder for the kids when I am working.

I know how you feel though about the space thing and having to tidy up everything and put it away and this pretty much saps your creativity too by feeling daunted at the prospect of laying everything out paints and all...you'll get there with space!!

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sharrie69 7 years ago from Trinidad (an island in the Caribbean) Author

Was seriously thinking about lumping son and daughter into one room..but that would be warfare! Maybe will ask fiance to share kennel with dog instead :-)

Just hearing from you guys is helping me to feel a little more sane and a lot less stressed. Have been feeling pretty much bummed out about the whole thing and lots of self doubt creeping in. Maybe will go hunting for slightly used cardboard box to call my own!  Thanks for all the comments. :-)

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Paper Moon 7 years ago from In the clouds

Every one deserves a little space of their own. You can have my studio. Oh wait, I dont have one. Well I wish you one.

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qwark 7 years ago

Hi Sharrie: I taught art in Hi School. Strange thing is that I am a lousy painter but I can "sculpt" any medium into objects that even amaze me. I left public school and taught in Adult Ed., which finally ended with me teaching in jail cells to inmates. Some of their paintings were incredible. There was no lack of talent. We showed in malls and flea markets. Inmates earned $ while being incarcerated awaiting trial. Childrens work is unadulterated, natural and pure. I loved working with them. It is obvious, you love what you do. Bravo!

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sharrie69 7 years ago from Trinidad (an island in the Caribbean) Author

Hi Qwark, thank you for sharing a bit of your life with me. I think it is wonderful that you reached out to people who most would consider 'not worth' the effort. There is beauty in every human being and sometimes...if some of these people had been reached as kids and given an outlet for their emotions, maybe they would not have ended up where they did. I firmly believe that. Art calms the soul. Children are my joy and I see too many kids who lack the tools to express themselves, who are even afrid to play..to get dirty. The magic of childhood does not exist for them because they are kept under lock and key and given 'safe' things to do by well meaning parents. A lot of kids in this generation don't even begin to know how to do anything for themselves, to dream, to make something out of nothing. Everything is bought for them and done for them. They blossom in an Art environment. To see that joy is my greatest reward. Artists can save the world..keep on doing what you do and Bravo to you too! :-)

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qwark 7 years ago

sharrie: TY..:-)

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