Hubspiration

A Year? Already?!

I cannot believe it! I have been a member of HubPages for 12 months now. 12 months! One year! My...how time flies when you are having fun! It seems like only yesterday that I was the newby...

Last January I was living in Maryland, working in a job that was slowly trying to turn me into a cynic, and wondering how I could break out of my rut. I had seen the ads...make money on the internet. I loved to write, although, other than policies and procedures, I had not written in years.

However, I needed a change, I needed to find myself again. I needed a revolution of self! Maybe I could find a path to the change I wanted to be.

I've Got to Get Out of This Place

Haunty describes the revolution I needed to find in the hub, "Would you like to live in Ancient Rome?".

"We need a revolution. Did you know that originally the word 'revolution' doesn't mean a switch to a new system by way of an insurrection destroying everything in its wake, but a change in thinking and action that returns life to a path from which it strayed, a path of dignity, and righteousness."


I needed to find the return path. I needed to find others who thought as I did. I was disillusioned with my life. Finding the path that would allow me to maintain some innocence in my life became my new goal.

Change

Change is never easy, no matter how much we want it.  My life may not have been entirely fullfilling, but it was safe...I knew the routine...it was the path of least resistance to continue.  But it was killing me slowly, killing who I was and who I wanted to be.  It was time to stop being so attached to how things were and try something entirely new!  

Violet Sun spoke of change in her hub, "Why I Choose Not to Connect with Negativity". The wisdom of our fellow hubbers is a continuous source of delight for me. Violet wrote:

"We live in a world of duality, and because of this, we will always experience cycles of growth, and others where life slows down and gives us challenges.


It is not the challenge that really matters, it is how we deal with it; how we perceive it; how attached we are to wanting things to be a certain way; it is this attachment which causes suffering."


The time had come to leave my attachments to the safe and easy.

Make Money on the Internet

I decided to try!  First I would have to find another source of income.  Something that would allow me to work from home and did not take time from my family.  So many people were making money on the internet, there must be a way for me to also.

I searched...they wanted money...I searched...I could make millions...but they wanted money...I searched...and I found Mark Knowles. I can't remember exactly which hub it was, but Mark showed me the path and introduced me to HubPages.

I did not realize it, but that one click to a writing site was going to change my life forever...

Freedom!

I started writing didactic hubs, but soon graduated to writing about personal experiences. Events and feelings I had never been secure verbalizing with others I was now writing about. I soon discovered that the act of writing cleansed my heart and soul of these experiences. Pain that I had kept close for years was released...I was free!

Ripplemaker spoke about growth and freedom. Ripplemaker wrote in her hub, "How Can You Make Your Life Beautiful?":

"Stop! Halt! Decide right here and right now to stop rewinding and replaying the painful memories of the past. You have grieved. You know people have been cruel and yes life is unfair. But if you want to live a beautiful life, it is time to resolve to let go and forgive. It is time to write a new chapter. Your past will not define your future unless you allow it to. Give yourself a chance to move forward."


Finally, I was moving forward. I had been in an emotional vacuum for years, and now I was making progress.

Friends? Now I have Friends?

And then a really amazing thing happened. Suddenly the comments flooded in. Loving and supportive comments from strangers to my life. I read them with no small amount of unbelief...but it was true! People CARED! I was confused...but it was true...people CARED! Suddenly I had friends who cared what happened to me...and cared for me! I felt so blessed to have this community in my life!

G-Ma Johnson knows more than a bit about friends. She is a wonderful woman with great wisdom! G-Ma's hub "Grocery Store Angel" talks about friends:

"Every day be thankful for what you have and who you are…


A friend is someone we turn to when our spirits need a lift. A friend is someone to treasure.


For friendship is a gift. A friend is someone who fills our lives with Beauty, Joy and Grace and makes the world we live in a better and happier place."


I have found several "gifts" here at HubPages!

Love

I had often felt very alone in how I thought. I had hope...I had love...but so often these values seemed lost by most people. On HubPages I found others who loved...others who hoped. People who found love and optimism more important than money and power. I was no longer the alien...but I did meet an alien.

I met an alien named lxxy. His thoughts seemed to echo my own. Even though he was an alien, lxxy seemed to know about life in a way most I had met did not. lxxy wrote in his hub, "We're Almost There, 2.0":

"There is never an end to hope and love, these are humanity's greatest gifts and most infinite resources."


This alien also knew how action defines our world. In his "Message of Hope" he wrote:

"My message is of peace, is of hope. Quit worrying about your regrets, what you may or may not do. Worry about your actions, take that first step and help steer your life and community into the direction you wish it to go."


We all need to steer our lives in the direction we want to go. Regrets will never take us there, only action.

Life

I came to realize I wanted more than the life I had been living.  I was existing, but not savoring the joy as I should.  Life should be more than mere existence...there should be joy, excitement, exuberance...

I found more people who shared my values. I saw my feelings when I read Benjimester's words in his hub, "The Definition of Melancholy".

"There is a devious sadness to the world in which we live – a sadness that comes to find us in the night, when we're all alone under the canopy of a million stars. Something within us knows that we ought to be better – that our love ought to burn brighter and shine more fiercely – that our passion and conviction for life ought to be strong, and lead us through that nagging temptation to settle for the ordinary and mundane. Something within us knows that life was always meant to be lived to the full. And this something, when it comes to find us, convicts us of all the cheap and common things we often settle for."


I no longer was willing to settle. This something had found me and now pushed me.

Growth

I read more...and wrote more.  I experienced a growth spurt of consciousness.  And as I grew, my dreams grew with me.

I felt Elena. had it right in her hub, "Questions from the child I once was".

"See, the only thing that necessarily changes with age is knowledge and, if one plays the cards right, also wisdom. The rest, dreams, attitude, courage, spit, energy, you name it, may perfectly stay the same, or improve. Yes, it can get better because as a child one doesn't have the tools to engage the world around, but as one grows up one learns to engage and work with whatever cards life throws at you."


I needed to engage these cards...I needed to work with what life had given me.

Money

I worked to find the life I wanted.  I began to live again and left my old state of existence behind.  I stepped down from my management job to free myself from the constant back-biting and greed wars.  I had more time now...less money, but more time...and it was well worth it!

I reacquainted myself with the fact that you don't need to have money to be happy.  Money is convenient, but not necessary once the basic bills are paid and the food is bought.  My kids still loved me even if I could not buy every new piece of tech-ware.  We still laughed and had fun...probably more often than we had done for the past few years.

There is much truth to the saying that you can never have enough time or money.  The difference in my eyes is you can always make more money, but you can never make more time.  

I love how Teresa McGurk explains the false dream that is money in her hub, "There is No Such Thing as Money".

"There is no such thing as money. It does not exist, and like time we use metaphors and symbols to represent its passage from one hand to another, from one wristwatch to a clock. It's not there. Similarly, stocks and shares don't exist, either -- they are fictional speculations. Time is represented with numbers. So, too, is money. But it is all fictional. We agree that it's now 8:08 am, because we have decided to use these numbers to quantify time. Likewise, my bank statements show numbers that I agree quantify an idea. It's an idea that limits me, sets restrictions, and controls my life to an alarming degree…there exists a middle ground for those of us who can enjoy a rich and varied intellectual life, for whom poverty becomes an empty concept indeed…I am as rich as I choose to be. As long as I have just enough (whatever the figures are) to pay commitments and feed myself, I am as rich as Bill and Melinda Gates."


I remembered that there was so many riches in this world...and that we are only as rich as we think we are.  It's all in the priorities...what's most important in life.  I realized that money is a fantasy...one that restricts our freedom of thought and happiness.  There is so much in life that is important...

Reflections

As I reflect back over the past 12 months, I realize that HubPages gave me much more than just money. HubPages gave me friendships and the support of a community. This world-wide community did not care if I lived in a different country...did not care what color my skin was...did not care which God I did or did not worship. This community cared for me, the person.

When I was down, they lifted me up. When it was dark, they brought me light. When I felt I was alone, they were there at my side. When I laughed, they laughed with me and when I cried, they comforted me.

Many things have happened to me since I joined HubPages. And for many of them (the good ones at least) I blame HubPages. I have recently relocated to sunny southern California...I have a new love in my life...a new job...and I am so much happier than this time last year.

That innocuous mouse-click had changed my life...

Thank You My Friends

I want to thank all of you! You have enriched my life and blessed me by being a part of it. The happiness I feel today is enhanced by this wonderful community. Please know how much I appreciate all of you!

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VioletSun 6 years ago from Oregon/ Name: Marie

Oooh, this really touched me! How I can relate, and thank you for including me, it was a wonderful surprise! :) I am happy to read of the changes you made, it takes courage make changes, so I congratulate and hug you. Your message is bound to inspire others, I love this positive connection between humans!

Happy anniversary, so glad you joined so we could meet you.


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Cris A 6 years ago from Manila, Philippines

Has it really been a year? I guess so as my profile says I've been here for 15 months! Haha Anyway, congratulations on your first anniversary and I am glad that it has been a meaningful and delightful ride for you. I wish you continued growth and fulfillment in the days, weeks, months and years to come!

Live Love Hub! :D


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djp21 6 years ago

"I was no longer the alien...but I did meet an alien."

I'm so happy for you that you did.

Love this. And you.


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tonymac04 6 years ago from South Africa

Changes are hard and changes are good. I'm glad you now feel so positive. Thanks for sharing this journey with us.

Love and peace

Tony


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Jewels 6 years ago from Australia

Great hub K@ri, and thanks for that link to Benjimester's work. Loved his melancholy definition.


Linda Myshrall 6 years ago

A lot of changes, but still the same inspirational lady. I have admired and appreciated your willingness to share your journey, and I am happy to hear that you have apparently found your happy destiny.

Say hello to the beautiful California sunshine for me :0


ralwus 6 years ago

Simply amazing isn't it? I can remember some of your hubs that let me know how unhappy you were. It has been a year hasn't it? My, how things have changed. I am so happy for the both of you k@ri. Love and hugs to you both. CC


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alekhouse 6 years ago from Louisville, Kentucky

What a wonderful hub! and a real tribute to all the amazing writers and community here.


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Highvoltagewriter 6 years ago from Savannah GA.

Wow what an amazing hub!! I want to thank you for that gift it really made my day! This community is something quite wonderful and I am just starting to grasp it! Thank you so much for your insights!


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k@ri 6 years ago from Sunny Southern California Author

Violet, It has been a year of change...and the journey continues. The community on HubPages has been there for me throughout it all. You remain an inspiration to me. Hugs back!

Cris, Thank you for all your encouragement...it has meant the world to me! Without you I would never have tried my hand in poetry...which I found out that I really enjoy writing. I do have a favorite quote from you also:

"If unconditional love means not questioning and peace means not carrying a gun, then I am willing to compromise. Sometimes compromising is not about silencing your principles, sometimes its about not hurting your friend." (http://hubpages.com/hub/what-about-them)

These are some of the truest words I have ever read. You remain one of my favorite hubbers! Luv ya!

Di, I am so glad I did also! Thanks for stopping by to read this. I love you too!

tony, Love and peace...that's what it's all about isn't it? I try to always maintain my positive outlook. Some days it's harder than others, but life is a journey. Thanks!

Thanks Jewels! I love his description also. I've always enjoyed his hubs and his wisdom.

Linda, Thank you...I try to give back what I'm given, and I've been given much support and inspiration here at HubPages. I'm glad to find my destiny also...but I do feel that it is just the beginning of a new journey. I think I'm going to enjoy the ride! Hugs to you :D


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k@ri 6 years ago from Sunny Southern California Author

ralwus, You have always been there to help me when I was down...and there to celebrate with me when I was up. You've been there not only me, but some others who are very special to me. I am very glad I've been able to get to know you. Love and Hugs back at you, CC! HubPages would not have been the same without you.

alekhouse, I remember reading you for the first time when you were a HubNugget. You too are one of those amazing writers and you have been a wonderful addition to the community. :D

Highvoltagewriter, I hope it brought you as much enjoyment as your "Howling Heart" has brought me! This is a very special and wonderful community, and I'm so glad you decided to join us. Thanks!


mamakaren 6 years ago

k@ri, it has been the worst of times and the best of times for you this past year--I'm so happy for you that you've found a happy path forward. The past IS past, and the best is yet to come! love and huge hugs, mamakaren


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ethel smith 6 years ago from Kingston-Upon-Hull

Love the freedom of writing for HubPages. They are not as restrictive as other sites


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RedElf 6 years ago from Canada

What a wonderful and moving journey - and thanks for sharing about the friends you've met along the way! I look forward to seeing you here for another year!


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Haunty 6 years ago from Hungary

Thank you for sharing your wonderful journey in hubland with us, Kari. :)

You have been a source of encouragement, wisdom, love and hubspiration for me. I hope for many such years to come. :)


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HubCrafter 6 years ago from Arizona

Hi k@ri:

It's cool to think back with you; listen to your memories of hubbers and hubs that have touched you.

I hope I can have a similar experience. Just being a newbie here at hubpages...I feel confident the story here will continue and just get richer and even more meaningful for all of us who write on hubpages.

HubCrafter


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ripplemaker 6 years ago from Cebu, Philippines

Oh Kari, I am so glad I found my way here today of all days. Your words brought so much joy in my heart and a lot of your lessons resonate within me. Thank you so much for including me here. That surprised me and delighted me--a gift for the heart. I rejoice with you in your celebration, of your growing and basking in the warmth and love found in friends and friendship. Blessings, love, light and peace to you.

I will sleep with a smile in my heart. Thank you for this beautiful hub! :)


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k@ri 6 years ago from Sunny Southern California Author

Mom, It surely has been a year of growth for me. I'm moving forward with both eyes open.


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k@ri 6 years ago from Sunny Southern California Author

ethel, I love the freedom also. I can write about anything that pleases me, and the support is wonderful!

RedElf, It has been a wonderful journey. I plan to stick around...to many wonderful people to leave!

Thank you Haunty! You have been part of my growth and your website has allowed me another outlet for my writing. I am hoping that now my life is getting more settled that I will be back writing again!

HubCrafter, I am very glad you found a home here. HubPages has been a wonderful place for me and I hope you find the same joy!

ripplemaker, You have brought so many smiles to my heart! I am glad I can give you some also. The ripples of your love and light have touched me many times. Thank you! :D


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Benjimester 6 years ago from San Diego, California

Thank you very much for what you said. It really means a lot. I'm really sad that I haven't been able to be around for awhile. Life has been so busy recently. I just was checking up on some of my old friend's writings and I found this. You made my day. I hope you're doing well.


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k@ri 6 years ago from Sunny Southern California Author

Benji, I'm not around as much as I like either, new job, new home, new life...I'm really glad you stopped by! I've been good, I hope you have been also. :D


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AEvans 6 years ago from SomeWhere Out There

You have just brought back some names I truly miss on HP and change is good! Thanks for such an inspirational hub! :)


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I*n*v*i*c*t*u*s 6 years ago

Lovely hub! I am so happy for you and you've shared such a wonderful insight. Thank you.. :)

All the best

Happy Valentine's Day to all of you! :D


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skye2day 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains

k@ri Fantastic hub. Your words flow like a stream of fresh water. Yes writing is all that and more for me. I was truly biven a gift when I landed on hub pages. It is nice to visit you agian. You have oome a long way baby. I have been at it the same amount of time. You must stop by and pick a read. To 2010 k@ari/ My Love and Best to you + + +


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isinson 6 years ago

very inspiring. pls never stop writing.


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Melissa McClain 6 years ago from Atlanta, GA

What a motivating and inspirational Hub! I'm going through a very similar experience; leaving my fast paced career in search of something that allows me more free time and happiness. It is very liberating!


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k@ri 6 years ago from Sunny Southern California Author

AEvans, Change is good, but I do miss some of the old crew!

I*n*v*i*c*t*u*s, Thanks, it's been an amazing year!

skye2day, To 2010 *clink* A toast to you!

isinson, Thank you! I doubt if I'll ever stop writing. :D

Melissa, I hope you find the same happiness I have. It is very liberating, isn't it? Best of Luck!


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DREAM ON 6 years ago

I feel like you wrote my song.I still am at the same job.Looking for more,I was able to come across the hub pages I truely adore.The friends you meet continue like time.The enjoyment you feel is real.The measure of success is when I complement some one else on what I felt.I respect all hubs and understand how hard it is to be yourself.Some people will come and go but others are the real deal.I find your hub extremely close to my heart.Before the hub pages nobody could find the time to listen.Now I have an audience and even better yet a chance to have friends everywhere it is written.Thanks for your true devotion I also will find my secret passage and all my emotions.


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Cathi Sutton 6 years ago

Absolutely beautiful! Thank you so much for sharing the other wonderful Hubbers' words along with your own. I am truely touched by what I have read here!


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k@ri 6 years ago from Sunny Southern California Author

DREAM ON, I hope you find your secret passage and all the happiness I have found here. I have grown so much in the last year. Having a non-threatening environment to state my feelings, fears and beliefs combined with the support of a truly wonderful community has helped me tremendously! I am able to read how others dealt with similar problems and I continue to learn and grow. Hugs and Love!

Cathi, These, and so many others, have touched my life in ways I would never have believed possible a year ago. Thank you for your words!


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rickzimmerman 6 years ago from Northeast Ohio

k@ri: love your hubspiration! (For mine, check out my hubs on Wisdom, More Wisdom, Rappin' Wisdom, Nuggets, etc.) And don't miss The Cactoose or The Whopper Spaniel! Regards, RickZ


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k@ri 6 years ago from Sunny Southern California Author

Rick, I will go check it out. I'm glad you enjoyed mine! :D

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