I've done most things I've wanted to do, and will soon be embarking on some more new things. Although it scares me, I'll do it anyway. But there is just one thing ... I've always wanted to be a Rock Star. Auditions and such things scare the hell out of me, although I've no fear of standing on a stage for karaoke or whatever.
I was scared of studying graphic arts, but I was even more afraid of not having a job skill above the rank of Grocery Clerk. (Read that in Brando's voice, Apocalypse Now style)
I was so nervous my first day that I had a kind of fainting, light headed episode. Class was briefly disrupted while my new fellow students helped me outside for some fresh air. It was humiliating. I didn't drop out because I believe that when something scares you, you are supposed to do it. You don't get nervous butterflies about something that you don't actually care about. Plus, what the hell could happen worse than having an anxiety black-out on the first day of class?
So, I've been at it for 20 years now, and I'm still loving my work.
I've always wanted to be a a lawyer and then go on to become a major libertarian politician, but there's no way that I'm going to go through the engineering just to go off to law school and then spend the rest of my life campaigning for funds.
to be an interior designer, but i'm not really that good with design, but that's the reason why we go to college right?to study and learn hehe...anyway, i also like to be an archeologist, it'll be great to discover artifacts from long,long time ago..
I was very lucky to have parents that supported my cock-eyed ambitions, so I had a chance to figure it all out on my own. I graduated top of my class from HS, and could have "done anything" as a lot of people were fond of telling me. I decided to pursue a performance degree and was accepted into an acting program. That subjected me to a lot of head shaking and "naive girl" type reactions.
I ultimately made some tough choices so that I could have a more stable career, start a family, have a home, etc. But, I consider myself extremely blessed that I was able to give my original dream a go... otherwise I would have always been wondering. And, I am very proud that I got to a point where I realized I had the talent, but that the lifestyle was not for me and I was able to walk away (mostly) without regrets... I still miss it, but its different when you make a choice based on reason rather than fear.
Its not worth second guessing yourself your whole life... Weigh your decisions, look at the ups and downs, and if you can see all the negatives of the situation, accept them and you STILL want to do the scary thing, then its meant to be.
It wasn't really that I chickened out but I think it kind of fits. I always wanted to be a fighter pilot, but you need natural 20/20 vision or at least you did, back in the day. In junior high my light sensitive eyes started to go to shit so no F-14 for Pat.
I am going through an extreme soul-searching exercise and would like to have some assistance from my fellow hubbers.I have spent far too many years allowing others in my life to dictate how I spend my time. For...