Discouraged with writing

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Dear Lord, A week has gone by and I feel like I just don’t feel like writing. I am discouraged; don’t know what to say and I just want to go to bed. I have hit a slump, with nothing to say and unsure of where to go from here. Maybe my husband is right, I can’t do this. I will never make any money here and I just don’t feel like going on. Am I bored? Am I tired? Depressed? Am I not as good of a writer as I thought? Do I have no self-discipline, self-motivation, ability to complete a task or fulfill a commitment?


I am afraid. I am afraid of failure. I am frustrated. There are not many hits on my articles and even less on the advertisements. Is anybody out there? Is anybody interested? Perhaps I am more boring that I thought I was. I long to be funny, witty or clever, but I just fall flat. That is not who I am. I suffer dreadfully from Serious Christian Syndrome. I am too thoughtful and careful when I want to be wild and carefree.


Perhaps I am too busy. Tomorrow is the last day of school and the kids will soon be home for the summer. Finding the time to write will become even harder. As a domestically challenged individual I can get overwhelmed with the tasks of laundry, home and errands. I would rather ditch all the work to play and spend time with the kids. Now that they will be home 24/7 that will be a very real temptation.


Maybe the task is just too big. I haven’t written anything since high school except one required travel report for a job I had in Atlanta. Perhaps no one is interested in an ongoing topic. Perhaps my target audience is too small. My goal is to make the Bible interesting for people who aren’t interested in the Bible. So I guess my audience is not interested to begin with. I also hope to have enough depth for the avid Bible scholar, but perhaps they aren’t looking for a creative approach.


Perhaps I am saying “perhaps” too much. I am annoying myself.


I think I’m going to post this just so I don’t have an entirely dry week. I won’t feel bad if no one reads it. Well actually I might. What is the point of complaining if no one will listen?



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Ghaelach 4 years ago

Hi April.

Don't feel to bad about it. I seem to be in the same frame of mind, by me it's now many weeks although I have written and published two hubs for my friend "The Travelling Worker" He isn't a computer person and just wanted to see how his work would take before setting himself up with a PC.

But that doesn't solve my problem I thought that being over at my caravan and sitting outside under the pavilion would allow me to write like there is no tomorrow. But just the opposite has happened. Lets hope this writers block disappears soon.

Take careApril and have a nice day.

LOL Ghaelach


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April Reynolds 4 years ago from Arizona Author

Thank you Ghaelach, it's nice to know I'm not alone. And your stories are always so enjoyable too! I'm going to try to sit down and force it today if I get a chance so we will see how it goes.


farmgirlhotel 4 years ago

Hi April,

Hang in there!!!

Maybe you are being more effective than you think in someone's life. After all, if you aren't making a difference, there's no reason to have opposition or struggles.

"When the going gets tough- the tough get going"

And enjoy your children along the way!

Have a great day!


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April Reynolds 4 years ago from Arizona Author

Thank you for the encouragement farmgirlhotel. Your words have touched me. Perhaps you are right. I will try to get back into the swing of things. Thanks again!


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Perspycacious 4 years ago from Today's America and The World Beyond

"...save it be one soul..." We can't all be a Billy Graham (though I'm not even sure we can't) or a Billy Sunday (for those who still remember who he was, Google it?) or a Joseph Smith, Jr. But, we are April and Demas, farmgirlhotel, and Ghaelach..."Where two or more are gathered..." and "The testimony of two witnesses is sure." Besides, aren't you publishing and retaining something your children and ancestors can read to know what you are like and believe? Perhaps you are writing for one of them. Write.


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AudreyHowitt 4 years ago from California

HI April, I am just getting over a dry spell myself. There is a lot that I would like to say to you by way of encouragement. Mostly, I have found that I need to write about what I need to say. I think every writer has to find their niche and their voice.

What I write about isn't always popular. So I get far fewer hits than a lot of people do. But I am not here to make a huge amount of money at my poetry. I am here to build build an audience and build skill. Maybe decide what you want out of this process for your self. Then work from there. Don't be discouraged at few hits. If you want to write serious christian material then do so--and develop that audience. If you want to write about being a parent, then look at building that--

I am not an expert in any way shape or form, but I hate to see you become discouraged.


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Kennedi Brown 4 years ago from Richlands, Virginia

I do exactly what you did when I get stuck with writing. I open up a blank document and ramble on about it. Believe it will come and it will :) Try free writing or working on some prompts until something just pops up. Here's a nice, long list:

http://creativewritingprompts.com/


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ALUR 4 years ago from USA

Though I am never plagued with "writers block" I know fear too well. All of the things you mentioned stem from insecurities. Write about that and the lonely journey a writer often goes through. Also, put $ secondary when it comes to writing. Not all artists are rewarded financially though it would be nice: create and doors will open.

You're welcome to look at my hubs.

Btw, I have two books on amazon.com "Taboo Nation" and "Confessions" and I can't even throw a pizza party from the royalties:)


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April Reynolds 4 years ago from Arizona Author

Thank you Mr. P! Those are good reminders. I do write for my children, so they will know who I am. It is something my grandparents did for us and their stories mean so much to me.

I can't imagine that you ever get writers block!


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April Reynolds 4 years ago from Arizona Author

Thank you AudreyHowitt, your words are encouraging. It is good to know that someone else has been through this and come out the other end. I will try not to give up.

I like your advice. I have done so little writing that I think my purpose here has been to see if it is something I can do and to get feedback from other writers on how to improve.

The low hits makes me believe I'm not very good. But I guess only practice will help that.

Thank you so much for your kind words.


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April Reynolds 4 years ago from Arizona Author

Thank you Kennedi, I must admit it did feel good to ramble. I like the idea of the prompts, I think I will try that.


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April Reynolds 4 years ago from Arizona Author

I believe you are right ALUR, thinking about it, I am insecure about my writing. I have very little experience at it and not much support here at home. I am afraid that I am boring and difficult to read. Thank you for your insightful comments, perhaps I will get further working through this angle.


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Enlydia Listener 4 years ago from trailer in the country

April, I go through these kinds of emotions frequently...I am often overwhelmed by the fruitlessness of everything. I have e-published 14 books...all good books, and some are exceptional, and yet I have not made even the hundred dollars it takes, for them to cut me a check. Ouch! hate to admit such failure. But I have to remind myself that we plant the seed, and God gives the increase. If nothing is growing than maybe we have not planted the right seeds...or the seeds out of season.

Making the Bible come alive is an awesome task...and worth doing. Blessings...and don't give up on your calling.


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Angela Brummer 4 years ago from Lincoln, Nebraska

It is easy to feel these feeling. I see myself in this article. Great prospectives! Thank You! Voted up!


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WillStarr 4 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

I operate on idea cruise control. I make no effort to come up with something because creativity, for me, just pops up now and then, triggered by a fleeting moment. When that happens, I make notes, because this old mind has a very short memory...so what was I talking about?

Really good Hub, from a fellow Arizonian!


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April Reynolds 4 years ago from Arizona Author

Thanks WillStarr, I know what you mean, one moment I have a ton of ideas and the next moment they are gone or don't seem as exciting as I thought they would be, I sometimes make notes but then I loose them, creativity just doesn't come on demand. I'm glad you liked my rambling!


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NC4Life078 4 years ago from United States of America

It is slightly discouraging when you don't receive views on your hubs. But, there are some tricks you can do to get them flowing again. Edit your hubs frequently (I would say at least once a week), check for errors you may have missed perhaps tweak your title. If you haven't made a summary then get on it as it will increase traffic. Ensure your hubs have 10-15 tags; I came across one of mine with only 4 tags.

As for writing, don't get caught up on what "others are doing" or what they think. If you enjoy writing, then write when you can and want to. If you lost interest in it, take a break. It's not like you have to "quit" per say. Why force yourself to do something you don't want to do?

Next I would like to quote this "I am too thoughtful and careful when I want to be wild and carefree" this reminds me of a recent poem I just read by Dale Hyde which I guarantee you will enjoy.

http://dalehyde.hubpages.com/hub/Requiem-Of-An-Unl...


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April Reynolds 4 years ago from Arizona Author

Thank you NC4Life, those are some great tips, I really appreciate it. I find it hard to go back and reread my own writing so editing may help greatly.

And I think you are right, I put too much pressure on myself, I want badly to succeed.

I loved the poem, thanks for refering.


newenglandsun 3 years ago

You make money? $_$


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April Reynolds 3 years ago from Arizona Author

couple pennies a day when people click on the ads. Don't see a check til you get $50. Still a long way from that even after over a year.


newenglandsun 3 years ago

Oh, so not that much.


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April Reynolds 3 years ago from Arizona Author

nope, I might get a check in another year or so.


newenglandsun 3 years ago

Writing wordpresses for free is more entertaining for me any way though.

http://aretheymetal.wordpress.com/2013/03/02/how-t...

(A place where your musical taste is always inferior to mine.)


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April Reynolds 3 years ago from Arizona Author

My friend writes on wordpress, but she said she doesn't get much feedback on her writing from other writers and that's one thing I like about hubpages. I do get helpful suggestions.


newenglandsun 3 years ago

I have a few followers but I also have a lot of wordpresses.


newenglandsun 3 years ago

BTW, I like the angry cat. Cats are awesome.


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April Reynolds 3 years ago from Arizona Author

Thanks, I like the cat too. Kids think it looks like ours. cats rule.


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anoocre8ion 3 years ago from Texas

April, in January of this year I lost my job. Due to things I won't go into here, I am doing everything in my power to not return to nursing. I have been writing devotionals for over 12 years and yet still don't make a living at it. However, you are where God has called you to be. All writers go through times where they don't feel like writing. God bless you.


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April Reynolds 3 years ago from Arizona Author

Thank you for the encouragement anoocre8tion, I appreciate it. As much as I need the $, I know that cannot be my motivation. Thank goodness God takes care of us! I appreciate your visit.

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