Being True- some thoughts
By Tony DeLorger © 2012
Were it not for the questioning of a voracious mind I would not have chosen the dilemma that now plagues my being. I say chose because I believe ultimately we create our reality by the decisions and movement of our mental and emotional conclusions; the law of balance an ever-present catalyst in our daily affairs.
The predicament is this. Knowing what I know about my needs, my wants and aspirations, how far do I bend to satisfy the whims of convention and societal expectations to achieve the freedom to do what I know I should be doing?
It sounds simple but it‘s not for me. Convention states plainly I must work, earn money and take on the responsibilities of a man, a father, a partner and a citizen. Each one represents a sacrifice of some kind; some I make willingly, others under duress.
Money to me means little on the levels of thought with which I most concern myself. Money simply represents choices; the more you have, the more choices are available. This is beneficial in the pursuit of creative endeavours and all that my soul needs to express in the physical world. Driving expensive cars and symbols of status are to me pointless, but travelling the world, experiencing other cultures, art and ways of life are; giving my creativity a wider birth and a broader perspective.
The difficulty is how much compromise must be made before the process of acquisition overshadows the reason for the process and the opportunities it offers. My fear is the compromise in application can dull the creative stream and chosen aspirations that are the purpose of the compromise.
Many people work hard, sacrifice their personal ambitions and follow a career that gives security to their family and upholds the expectations of society. But in the end many of these people become lost in the tedium, fall to status, power and greed and end up ill, without direction, abandoning their families and themselves to the machine that is an illusion of sorts.
We are all responsible for our actions, our lives in a physical sense, our children, family and friends, weaving life around all that is important to us and giving credence to the quality of life we wish to achieve. But quality is not just about the physical world and in many respects knowing what we need mentally and emotionally to lead a fulfilled life, rarely has anything to do with money. That is the dilemma, the balance between what we have to do to survive and to do what we should do to live a happy and productive life.
Life is about balance, and selling your soul to the devil will never get you to heaven. In other words, losing yourself in the necessities of life does not free you to find happiness and fulfilment in what you really want. Sacrifice and compromise are often necessary, but abandoning your wishes and not being true to yourself can only cause pain and a soul empty of nourishment.