Life of an Aesthete - or - Lines written during a Psychology Lecture - 1961

Aesthete

Dictionary definition:

1.One who cultivates an unusually high sensitivity to beauty, as in art or nature.

2.One whose pursuit and admiration of beauty is regarded as excessive or affected.

Life of an Aesthete or Lines written during a Psychology lecture - 1961

I will go out into the world

With a soup dish as a begging bowl.

I will wear saffron robes

And a shaven head… not too short,

In case I change my mind,

And forget the aesthetic life;

Some say I mean religious, but I cannot say.

Terminology confuses me.

Life’s far too short for labels.

I will sleep in the day

Or if it be not too cold,

I will lie in the sun and gaze at my body.

At night I will visit friends

And drink the coffee and conversation they offer.

I will offer them my life to study

And in return will teach them

To hate my enemies.


In public, I will write poetry

And I will be bored with life.

In private I will read T. S. Eliot and Tagore;

Coleridge will lead me with loving hands,

Right to the doors of Xanadu.

And Browning will give me companionship.

Along with Beethoven and Paganini.

I will set my life to run on smooth surfaces,

No longer worried by the presence of convention.


In Xanadu did Kubla Khan A stately pleasure-dome decree: Where Alph, the sacred river, ran. Through caverns measureless to man. Down to a sunless sea…

Speeches will bore me still;

Old men no more qualified to speak than I,

Save that they have lived under this system of things

A longer space of time. They have saved

Stale anecdotes to set their peers cackling

And blowing noses. And still I sit among

Them and think of ways of avoiding them

And others of their kind. Boredom sets me sooner

Into untroubled sleep than those around me;

Scribbling notes and turning reverent pages;

Dry leaves swept away with the winds of change.


I will gather round me, beautiful young men

And intelligent women. The young men will

Set themselves to read ancient novels; epics;

And will quote Sophocles and the divine Emanuel Kant.

Yet they will live those uninhibited lives

Set down by Kerouac or questioned by Salinger.

I will gather round me, beautiful young men. And intelligent women.

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snakeslane 4 years ago from Canada

Love this play on words between the austere life of the ascetic, and the love of aesthetics. I'm guessing you wrote this as a college student when all the world was young? Funny and sweet, reminds me of myself in those days, sometimes so lost in the details, but trying so hard to find my way. Regards, snakeslane


Sunnie Day 4 years ago

Hello Ian

You seemed full of thought and life..alot like your are now..I wish I could have been inside your brain recording all the thoughts or sitting beside you in class peaking at your notes....oh wait maybe not.. but some would have been nice..lol

Take care,

Big hugs,

Sunnie


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

Snakeslane, you really seem to see right into my soul.

I was such a self-centred little hedonist, but I never deliberately hurt anyone... well not that many... well, I offended quite a few... well a lot.

Oh! I was awful!

But we took ourselves so seriously!


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

Sunnie, I never took notes. I either wrote poetry or silly stuff, or drew. My old lecture folders were a mass of poems and drawings of all sorts of stuff. Luckily my friend Christine saved a lot. One or two of them are published on hub pages. No, more than one or two. This one above was actually written in a Psychology Lecture because I couldn't understand what Mr Kagi was talking about.

Anyway, thanks for the visit.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS

"Life’s far too short for labels." How would you have known?

"I will gather round me, beautiful young men and intelligent women." This one was obviously prophetic, a perfect description of your Hub buddies. So is this one: "They have saved stale anecdotes to set their peers cackling and blowing noses."


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

Wonderful comment, my dear friend. You really are so incisive.

I have found, strangely enough, that a lot of the things I wrote were somewhat prophetic... or were they simply a self-fulfilling prophesy.

The "stale anecdotes" was certainly true, and perhaps I could have foreseen "tired metaphors and analogies"?

Hmm!


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS

Good question, the age old one of which comes first, the cause or the effect, perhaps. Stale anecdotes, tired metaphors and analogies. . . sigh. A writers worst bugaboos. I plead guilty on all counts at times.


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snakeslane 4 years ago from Canada

Hi Ian and Nellieanna, on the subject, I too am guilty, but most of the time. Here's a funny. New hubber was apologizing ahead of time for 'doggerel'.I told him it's ok, but please, keep it on a leash...I crack me up. Hope you are recovering Ian with knee, Nellieanna, from dentist owies.


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

If you have been guilty, Nellieanna, take one big stick and... beat me. Bear me as a punishment for not reading your works and finding the dross that so many people pour out. Your analogies, metaphors and pictures are always fresh and arresting.

Never a tired one among them.

That's what makes Nellieanna, Nellieanna.


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

I love your "I crack me up", Snakeslane.

Knee has started to bruise, so that's a plus. X-ray soon, as soon as I can make an appointment. Most probably early next week.

I still think I would prefer to have a hurt knee than anything with teeth. Poor Nellieanna.

Thanks for the concern.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS

Snakeslane - that is so funny! I must remember to try to keep my doggerel on a leash!

Thank you, Ian. I appreciate those lovely words of encouragement.

And thank you both for the empathy. I don't like to be a sissy, but am going to go back to the dentist if some aftereffects continue, though I'm unsure whether they're from the removed tooth or something else it stirred up.

Be that as it may, now for some practical input, Ian. I fail to see how your knee starting to bruise is a plus, unless it's in that it might be a clue as to what is wrong with it. Please get that X-ray appointment!! X-rays don't lie. Don't put it off, please.


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kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

X-rays don't lie. That might be a novel. A bestseller. Read by the author - like "Hitchhiker's guide to the ..."


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

This must be a cultural thing. In the UK and Australia, people saty, "The bruise is coming out. That's a good sign". maybe you are right Nellieanna, but I shall go and have it X-rayed. The X-ray department is very close to here. I can drive to there and it's only a hop step and a limp from the car park.

The local hospital is called Mayday. Does that make you laugh?

You take care of yourself too. You are the Jewel in the Crown of HubPages.

Hugs


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS

Ah, yes, Ian! - Must be a British thing. I think we have similar 'signs' from the appearance of what might be a negative occurrence, such as bleeding freely being supposed to rid the wound of the germs right away or a pimple raising to let out the impurities under the surface. I'm glad to know why the bruise was a plus!

Oh, dear, the trip between car and X-ray department doesn't sound like a skip in the park. But it's needed or it wouldn't have been indicated. Mayday Hospital sounds pretty glum in a funny kind of way.

Blush. . .you humble me with your lovely compliment. ;)

I am taking care, though when my neighbor across the alley offered not only to wheel my trash can back up to the patio after pickup as he's done ever since I became a widow, but to wheel it down beforehand, I wonder if I look helpless or something.

Granted, when I wheeled it down across the yard to the alley edge last evening, since it was both cold & drizzling, my outfit probably looked suspect of some kind of aged deterioration. Earmuffs with a plastic rainhat over them, a full-length raincoat with my trouser legs rolled up so the damp grass wouldn't get them wet, old shoes that are accustomed to wet grass. The neighbor just happened to be rolling his trashcan down to the alley too and asked me how I was. Of course, I said 'fine' but with the weather, I didn't pause to explain my appearance or actual fineness. Next thing, his wife called to relay his offer to do the task for me. haha.

hahaha! Svetlana - I love that! Truly it would be a good novel title and theme! Maybe even a dramatic series on TV. haha - Or, yes, maybe a narration like "Hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy" . . . haha.


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MartieCoetser 4 years ago from South Africa

I could never see myself as an ascetic, although I always loved, and still do, things and matters that have aesthetical value.

This is deep philosophical poem. Somehow, Twilight Lawns, you’ve reminded me of Hamlet, though I know – according to your profile - thinking too much was not your tragic flaw.


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

Svetlana, I envisage a deeply philosophical novel, read by its author.

I don't do deep, Svetlana... unless I can intersperse "depth" with trifling bit of whimsy.

Mind you, I will have to pay Nellieanna a load of money to buy the copyright for that title... Wanna go halves?

"X-rays don't lie" by you and me... and Nellieanna, if she won't let go.

You do the deep bits (Full of numerical symbolism).

Nellieanna does the poetic bits.

I make the coffee and sandwiches.

Yes?

We have a best seller.

Yay!


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

I love that comment, Martie. You are right. I am shallow to the nth degree, but as I have said on many occasion, my shallowness is only skin deep.

I am a sort of Hamlet character, if truth be known, but my tragic flaw is not so much thinking, as indecisiveness.

Thank you for the visit. Much appreciated.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS

I might be persuaded to sell the rights to the title, but it would cost you. "Loads", at the least. It took me all of a second to come up with it, y'know.

On the other hand, working with the two of you on the production would be such a hoot, I might prefer to do that. What kind of sandwiches? Which author reads it or could the sandwich maker do that? Oh, decisions, decisions . . . (and you think you're indecisive!) ;-)


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kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

Yes.

Part I. Chapter I.

Skindeep. Under the skin of every man who lives in Toronto lurk the remnants of a live soul... But on the surface all inhabitants seem to be dead... They move, but they are moved by someone else... Are they marionettes? or zombies? Either way they are unpleasant. They are in eternal morning of life that did not happen.

X-rays prove otherwise, but I remain unconvinced. I don't even know where the hell I am going with this, but I started writing the novel without any idea what about. The only inspiration so far was the title.

Inspiration is the breath and the corpses do not breathe. I am being suffocated here..."

I don't know -- you continue -- I am falling asleep and tomorrow I am going to the meeting of Liers and Liars.


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

Fascinating and compelling beginning, Svetlana, Let me know when it is out in book form (not Kindle) and I will order a copy.

Do I get a signed edition?


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

Fascinating and compelling beginning, Svetlana, Let me know when it is out in book form (not Kindle) and I will order a copy.

Do I get a signed edition?


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

OK, so you're in on the act, Nellieanna. I think we would make a good trio, but I have a feeling that we would spend more time discussing where to go from here, and not worry about a plot (What plot?).

I remember, years ago, I was told that a friend was watching a film, and apparently she said to her boy friend/husband/fiance, "This is the kind of thing Ian would like. Nothing happens".

Dat's me!


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kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

Chapter #2 "Break a leg!"

I have no time to work on my "Trip to Italy" Project, but I will abandon it only in case of my untimely death - the fact that I published nothinnnnnnnnnnn - does not mean I wrote nothinnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

Of course, you will get a signed edition, with my crazy voice over and "lovely faces" (grimaces).

BTW - you have not congratulated me on my marriage thing. But that is ok.

Going into another LOCA OLA (crazy wave), Lola, una Loca ola - something WAYN - ...

STUFFFFFFFFFFFFF is happening there already.

I am thinking about the PLOT. "P" LOT. Pee - LOT. Or "pi" LOT? Yous see? Crazy waves..............


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

I am going to bed to digest the above. I was caught unawares and signed up for WAYN, and knowing me, will never look at it again... then again, in the morning I might be a better (and a nicer person) and will have a change of heart.


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kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

Ian, the Universe is Spinning (I love how the word Universe contains the word "verse", the Universe is a place for artists, poets, musicians...)

There is a meaning to everything... and, yes, take your time, but it is time to open up the borders...


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kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

By the way - I did not know anything about it - it was Merlin Fraser who caught me into "Wayn".


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

Merlin Fraser?

Oo's dat?


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS

Ian - Svetlana will reply to your question, but I must also reply. Merlin Fraser is a novelist who invited me to come join Hubpages. I wasn't much of a "joiner" and it sounded pretty silly to me, but he was my friend and spoke of followers and posting his writings on HP, so I joined with the idea ONLY of following him as a silent supporter. Next moment I had my own first follower/fan (De Greek), who had no reason to follow except, perhaps, Merlin's recommendation.

Before I knew it, some of De Greek's followers were following me! I felt ungrateful not posting anything, so I wrote a few hubs, but never in a million years did I intend to post any of my poetry on here!

Well - as you know, the rest is history. Out of the 146 hubs I've published, there are 90 poetry hubs, to date and more working. And, amazingly, I've gathered 632 followers, some of whom actively do follow. All due to Merlin Frazer. He's a character. That's his nom de plume, by the way.


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

Before I comment, I must say that I have been a trifle worried about what happened to you, my friend.

I imagined you being in an intensive are unit. calling out in a weak but dulcet voice for them to bring you a freshly cut goose quill (and loads of deckle edged writing paper) so that you could pen a poem dealing with the bestiality of dentists and teeth (Not necessarily in that order).

But here you are and I can rest.

Fhew!!! (or Phew!!!, I'm not sure)

I hope Merlin is a nom de plume. I would hate to imagine a mother cruel enough to christen a child "Merlin".

Yes, I've thought about it, and it is Phew!

I haven't written a single Christmas card yet this year. I usually make a big thing of it and print out absolutely tiresomely thick booklets concerning the comings and goings at Twilight Lawns, but I have frankly been too busy again this year. I didn't do one last year, either.


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kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

That means you did not want to do it. If you don't feel like writing Christmas Cards, then don't. Be true to yourself.

Merlin Fraser deserves a hub - I was in the process of writing one, but I never finished -

Moliere said "Writing is like prostitution" and I asked on HP - do you agree?

Read Merlin's answer - it's hilarious.

http://hubpages.com/question/108187/what-are-your-...


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS

Merlin has a vigorous interest in the Merlin of King Arthur's time. His own name, however, is much more socially acceptable. He is a dear person, in a delightful curmudgeonly way.

hahaha, Svetlana - Merlin's reply sounds just like him! hahaha! Thanks for sharing it.

Worried about me??? Whyever? But thank you. I'm doing quite well. Just a bruise on my jaw to prove I'm im-proving. (cute play on words, no?)

I haven't written any Christmas cards, either. I still have several more presents to get and mail to Indiana and the "last day to send" by regular mail has passed. As usual, I'll be having to send them Express. That will cost more than the total cost of the presents, no doubt. If I didn't already have most of them ready to wrap, I'd just send gift certificates, I think. Might still do that - and keep these little things for next year's start. Of course that is messed up by one little sleeper for a 5-month-old. It won't fit next year. But I could just take it back to the store. If so, I need to do it before the 25th because they'll put it on sale after and give me only the sale price refund. Yikes.

I miss the old-fashioned Christmases. sigh.


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

You miss the old fashioned Christmases? Like the ones where a heavily pregnant woman arrived in a village in the middle of a foreign country and there wasn't anywhere for her to stay so they ... And then the story went downhill for a while.

That kind?

I agree.

Nellieanna, I'm Ggad you're betterer. Sorry to hear about the bruising. I won't say that that indicates anything, but I ran the concept past Novelette, my neighbour, and she said that in the Caribbean, when a person starts to show bruises, they say, "That's a good sign".

In the UK, if you return something, they give you what you paid for it, even it is has been subsequently reduced in price.

Hmm!

Must be cultural. Why don't we ask Svetlana? She can give a Russian AND a Canadian slant.


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

Svetlana, I read the comment from Merlin.

I wanted to send the cards, because they're Twilight Lawns plc cards and not the usual, But they take a lot of work, and I misjudged time again.

Grrr!


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS

I wasn't thinking so much of the nativity scene, though that was usually part of the ambience. It was the simplicity of the gift-giving I was remembering, along with the pleasure of sending out cards, keeping up with friends and family. We sometimes made the cards ourselves. This was my own fault. I also overestimated the time and underestimated the process of getting them ready. I'll still send some to folks I really want to send.

The bruise is slight and rapidly fading. When I showed it to John, he just said "That's nothing" and told me about a full-face bruises his mother had when she fell, a fall which placed her in a care facility. I only showed it to him with the idea of telling him about the "that's a good sign" explanation you gave me. He always enjoys hearing about my Hubpage friends.

He was here folding the bulletins and watching a couple of movies with me last evening. We watched "The American President" and "Hope Springs". Before his stressful Sundays I choose movies which won't add to his stress. He enjoyed them. I'd only planned on showing one of them, but he brought his own gallon jug of Mogen David and he uses slim moderation when he imbibes, not often, though. He drinks water along with it but I thought he seemed a little tipsy, so I suggested additional water and another movie, since it wasn't late. Didn't want him to have an accident driving home. He wisely put the wine in his car and guzzled only water.

I'm sure that Neiman Marcus or even lesser stores would honor the price one paid. This item came from Sam's. They never question returns (as some others do) but I've noticed the sale-price refund on several occasions. Sam Walton had all the angles figured, I am sure. But the original prices are much less than other stores. The little brand-name sleeper would have been much more somewhere else and most of their inventory is brand-name. So it's discount prices on quality goods.


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

Nellieanna, I was being a trifle facetious when I mentioned the Baby Jesus and his Mum and Dad and his Other Dad... [That should bring the Born Again Christians out of their sad little homes (or from under their stones)].

I have made my own Christmas cards for several years now, and they have been more and more elaborate (Steve says that for “elaborate” you should read “offensive”).

They are usually based on Twilight Lawns plc, and have dealt with the daily comings and goings and also the Christmas Celebrations and Concerts at Twilight lawns, but last year I had a dreadful cold and the minute I bent over to staple the little booklets together (That’s right, they were quite a creation) my nose would run, so I had the jettison the whole effort.

This year I have had the trouble of the Doctors and the Physiotherapists and the Occupational Therapists, and I think I have left it too late.

I also had trouble with my printer. The colours were way off, and I ordered a few more cartridges last week, but they only arrived this morning, so I may… I might sort of collect last year’s effort together, and add a few words of… errr… what was the word?

Wait a minute, it will come to me.

Add a few words of…

Errr…

Ah Yes, GREETINGS


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS

I was pretty sure you were being facetious and, perhaps, a bit disgruntled. (?)

Your cards sound like "keeper" treasures! The glitches getting them ready are most unfortunate. The printer ink thing is a bad obstacle.

But - hey - I've no compunctions about sending the cardsm after - or to arrive after - the big day. I figure a late card will help prolong the season and might be even better than just being among the many on-time ones.

Nothing wrong with updating last year's efforts and sending those, either. I'll bet they are memorable too.

My "Ranch and Rural Living" magazine from the rural electric company down there always features a charming old-fashioned western-cowboy themed cover for December. Every year I keep thinking I should use it for my cards, but then I let time slip by. Oh, well. . . I've saved those issues for years, still thinking I'll do it one of these years.

I hope you're feeling ok, my friend. Hugs.


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Angie Jardine 4 years ago from Cornwall, land of the eternally youthful mind ...

Loved the bitterness of this poem, TL ... I could imagine the aesthete so well ... but surely it couldn't have been my own beloved wingman? Never let it be said ... (removes tongue from cheek). x


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

Nellieanna, the printer ink arrived yesterday morning and I spent hours printing the insides

The printer wasn’t faulty, the printer cartridge was reading 96% full, yet it was empty. The prints looked excellent.

I was a little annoyed because I found sixteen cards that I had already printed and stapled, and thought to myself that as I had about forty to send, I would print everything else in multiples of twenty-four (Cover plus two double sided pages for inside) and all was going well.

I printed the twenty-four covers and then, Novelette came to visit, and chatted a bit and suddenly I realised (Suddenly, as in hours later) that I had printed forty of the inside pages.

So now I either throw away sixteen of each or print another sixteen covers.

Grr!


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

Thank you for spotting me in there somewhere, Angie.

Soul of a saint (my concept of myself).

Tongue like a razor blade (according to my ex-girlfriend.

Missed you, but I suppose you have had your head below the battlements after your hub... those Born Agains can sure lay siege to little rose covered cottages in Cornwall.

I loved the card. It really started my Christmas off beautifully.


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kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

I missed it all - Christmas, the cards...

I have sent the thing tonight via Facebook - you must receive - fast and effective and very annoying.

I do not miss Christmas. I wanted to skip putting up a tree, but Daniel comes home (before he had other plans), so maybe ...

I am playing by the EAR - now that I HEAR VOICES...


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Angie Jardine 4 years ago from Cornwall, land of the eternally youthful mind ...

Dear TL - didn't mean to neglect you, old bean. Christmas so far has been all go at Michaelmas Cottage ... carols in the church tonight followed by mulled wine and mincies ... yay! Not very Buddhist but what the heck ...


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

Svetlana, be careful about hearing voices. Look what happened to Joan of Arc.

I saw the Facebook Christmas card.

Don't spend Christmas by yourself. I did it one year... just me and my dog, Dulcie. Not the best of fun.

She spent most of the time helping me to cook a turkey and tried to cheer me up by telling me lots of Christmassy anecdotes and jokes, but we both ended up going for a drive together.

NB, Don;t go driving in a small car with a dog who has been eating turkey. Especially if it is cold and the windows should be kept closed to protect one from the icy blast.

Why?

Dogs tend to become extremely flatulent when having eaten a Christmas dinner with lots of turkey.


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

Angie, I don't do the mulled wine bit (although I believe there is a non alcoholic version), but I love mince pies and all the rest of the Christmas business. I feel that I might toy with a rea;;y nice Christmas pudding with BRANDY SAUCE this year. I don't think one would get drunk on that.

Being a Muslim doesn't stop me liking the whole thing about Christmas.

And the music!!!

You know how I feel about Christian music and carols.


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kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

No, Ian, I do not think I am like Joan of Arc - I have a sense of humour.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS

Oh, my, Ian - That is a bummer - or a mixed blessing, since you did get the ink in time and got a lot of the parts printed. Maybe if you match the extra inside pages with some more covers, you'll have some sets pre-assembled even if you don't use them all this year. Could be a head-start on next year. It sounds to me that those are Christmas traditions which bear repeating. Or - you could honor more people with the extra ones this year. Not the worst situation imaginable, though a bit of a bummer. We all do such things. Proves we're fully human! :-)

I've just now reluctantly put up a few Christmas things. No tree, no stockings, since other than mine, they're named for people who no longer live here & many who are no longer even on this planet. Even my name on mine is a nickname I no longer use.

Otherwise, nothing has gone out that'll require a lot of undoing in a week or so. My tulips bit the dust but the fir greenery among them is still viable so I added a few little ornaments to the now sparse arrangement and placed the vase on a little red mat surrounded with a hand-knit snowman family. Looks rather festive.

I'm receiving some cards from faithful friends. One from my atheist friend, Gail, the ex-lover and love of John's life (can you imagine a less likely pair?). She loves cats and the featured tabby on her card has finished building his snow-cat in the yard and looks quite pleased with himself. hehe

Hugs and kisses under the missing mistletoe. :-)


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

I think you're right, Svetlana, The lady was on the grumpy side.

Unlike a lot of young ladies, she never really enjoyed being at a barbecue.


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

Very brief update, Nallieanna, as I have to get this lot finished before tomorrow when the Brtitish Gas man comes to fix the Cenntral Heatign boiler and mr Plumber comes again to fix the roof.

X-Ray today. and he "zapped" me twice, took a look at the "zappign" and proclaimed. "There's nothing there. No dramatically misplaced bones... Nuffink"

The doc will have to have a look, but if there's nothing untoward there, how comes it is so excruciatingly painful at times?

Huh?

Bigger hugs and kisses to you too, Nellieanna, mistletoe or not.

Sorry I was so brief.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS

That's a puzzlement! I'm thinking, in that case, what you might need is a really good therapeutic massage! Too bad John's not there, as he's a licensed professional Massage Therapist. He used to do George lots of good, but he's too strong for li'l ole me. But one can massage one's own shoulders. The back, though - needs a masseur. Hm - Do you know anyone good at that? Or are there professionals handy?

Not too brief - you're always 'just right'!

Well - anyway - here's my personal Christmas greeting for you and yours:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bwj1S_e51V4


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

Nellieanna, I am going to admit something about me that may surprise you.

I find it difficult to have people touch me; even my nearest and dearest. It was much worse a few years ago, and it is almost the thing that hubs are made of.

I am over the worst, but the thought of a stranger "laying hands" on me makes my skin crawl.

Years ago, when I was ebign tested for polyneuropathy (a super rare condition, let me hasten to add. Not something that the hoi polloi would suffer from) I had a physiotherapist who managed to break into my personal space... but it was touch and go.

No! It was, "Don't touch, or I'll go".


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

I've just watched, and I have one thing to say...

"Aren't you lovely?!"

Elegant lady, I wish you a Merry Christmas too.

Hugs

x


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kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

The way to win, Ian, is to surrender. To say "Yes, dear, yes, darling."

Of course, you will end up at the stake if you will be proving to the world anything.

Do you know how Napoleon lost his war in Russia?

Kutuzov let him take Moscow. Moscow was burnt, but Russians won.

Joan of Arc should have stepped back...

I have the manual, don't worry - there will be no burning. You win by losing and lose by winning...

http://kallini2010.hubpages.com/hub/I-Want-To-Be-a...


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

I read 'War and Peace' when I was going through my, "I love all things Russian" phase. I loved the book, and carried it around with me everywhere.

I still have it. It's quite a small book, only about 5" x 3" and about 2" thick, but the pages are printed on rice paper, so it's lovely to read and to turn the pages... I don;t think I could ever have a Kindle!


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS

You're a dear. My u-tube efforts leave much to be desired. Courageous of me to expose them! You're a dear and a kind one.

I've read that "America's Got Talent" judge, Howie Mandel, can't bear anyone touching him. I've read that he has mysophobia (an irrational fear of germs) to the point that he does not shake hands with anyone unless he is wearing latex gloves.

Perhaps there's been some association with an unpleasant situation of being touched, or of an unpleasant situation of being deprived of it. I have a feeling when your Norbury Mudhounds cuddled, it was welcomed? Never demanding and ever sincere.

Dad was a wonderful hugger. But Mother wasn't really very physical. I guess the combination prepared me for either/or being OK. I knew they both loved me and expressed it the way they were as individuals. It was nice.

My siblings weren't especially demonstrative and I can't really say what their real feelings about me were. Dismissive, probably, though it took me many years to really figure it out.

I love hugs when I want them. But I neither impose or presume them on people nor accept them if not welcomed myself. I can live with or without them, - and other physical contact, as well. I've been alone enough to not depend on physical contact for comfort or reassurance and have enjoyed enough physical closeness to enjoy it when it exists and feels right. I don't classify myself as 'feely-touchy' or as an ice princess. Like most things, it depends on the reality of the situation for me; & my sense of independence goes deep.

If the other person is a real 'bear-hugger' I can really enjoy it. Yes, there is something comforting about it. But not if it 'hugs till it hurts' or just isn't welcomed.

Mere verbal hugs, on the other hand, seem to express a non-verbal good will quite nicely and to bridge distance and dissolve the walls rather well. But then, a lot of my early inner life was expressed mostly in writing. I'm still very comfortable with written words.

Speaking of written words, "War and Peace" was one assigned fiction to read as part of a self-administered course in fiction writing. Years and years ago. I know I read it but seem to have but little memory of it, I'm embarrassed to say. But I'm always a bit resistant to assigned reading.


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

When I start writing again, I think I shall write about my fear of physical contact, and the end result of same. I have told the tale quite a few times to people who know me personally, so it should flow.

It is a complex little tale about nothing, really, but it is just one of the facets of me... whoever that may be.

I am experiencing a very annoying case of Writers' Block, and wonder when I will be scribbling again. I find it almost impossible to write anything unless I really mean it and value it.

(There are some Hubbers who don’t seem to have any trouble churning out words, words, words on a daily basis with little regard for meaning, composition, style, spelling, grammar... Shut up Ian. You've spent enough time on that soapbox).


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kallini2010 4 years ago from Toronto, Canada

ha-ha-ha.

That works too. No writer's block.

Meet you around the block or was it around the corner?

Dear Ian

that was the central video I based my Italy trip on - but since I got stuck in my ... - why don't you enjoy it before I forget I ever started a project that I never finished?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hnHv7NGWb0k&feature...


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS

Oh dear. I apologize for delays. My Mac laptop is on the blink. I wasted most of today trying to resolve it. Fortunately I chugged up this old Dell laptop on which I'm presently typing. I'll need to contact Apple as soon as possible, either at their store @ NorthPark Mall or on the phone. Meanwhile, I didn't do a bit of the cleaning or gift wrapping I'd reserved today to do. George Jr.& Diana will be here an hour before we go to the restaurant St. Martin's for Christmas dinner tomorrow afternoon. We'll exchange gifts then. (Hope I get them wrapped. - OH OH - I have no wine to serve. I'll offer tea. . . :-)

The best laid plans bite.


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

Svetlana you have made me spend many hours chuckling and smiling over Fry and Laurie after showing me that clip. I had forgotten you really clever and amusing that series was. And of course I am watching the 'Jeeves & Wooster' series in its entirety as Annie has given it to me.

I realise how much the way I speak and write has been influenced by P G Wodehouse.

Those people were completely barking mad and looking at them now, I know that it is blown a little out proportion, but why the UK didn’t have a Social Revolution in the first half of the Twentieth Century, I have no idea.

We could almost have one now when I watch some of the awful "upper classes" and some of their antics, but the Oiks and White Trash which make up our Celebrity Culture are little better.

Will someone please help me down off this soapbox? I am getting too old for all this ranting and raving.


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

Nellieanna, what about your little Korean (or was it Japanese?) chap who came and rescued you and your computer last time? I thought he was a Saviour (Currently seasonal noun) or was he only for Windows.

I am shattered, and will be trailing off to bed in a minute. I went to bed at about 4:00 yesterday morning and have been slaving over a Christmas Dinner today and then watching 'Jeeves and Wooster' with Novelette,

It was just the two of us for lunch, but I had a lovely day, and I hope she did,

We used most of the cream fir the Christmas pudding last night (Christmas Eve) when Tina and Roshan and Allan came to dinner, and so I took the bull by the horns and made some real custard with all the real custard ingredients, but guessed the amounts. I know I used a saucier, so the stirring and heating was just right, but I must say I will never eat shop bought custard, or any of the prepacked stuff ever again.

It tasted wonderful. Escoffier or one of those Chefs de Cuisine blokes would have patted me on the head, and said, “Well done!” in French or whatever language the chap spoke in.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS

Right - that Savior was only for Windows on Dell computers. But I bought the extended care for the Mac when I got it, so it should be OK. I certainly don't want to lose all the poetry I've transcribed - several thousand, actually.

At the moment, I'm just busy digesting the lovely dinner! It was all exquisite but I'm unaccustomed to eating so much! I brought home half of my lamb shank & half of my bread pudding. See menus here: http://www.stmartinswinebistro.com/11christmas.htm...

the whole thing was just fantastic. It was hard to choose the entree, they all sounded so delicious. The place was chaming and the company was fun, too. This place is somewhere I'll definitely want to visit again!

George and Diana brought me the most gorgeous blank book from Florence. Has a tooled dark leather cover. They thought I must inscribe some poems in it. Wow. First time family has even noticed I write poetry, at least in a positive way! I guess maybe my sister Ruth noticed a time or two, years ago

They also gave me some fun leapord-print pajamas and some strawberry tea mix.

I ended up going out and getting wine for us to sip while we opened gifts before we went to eat. When we got back after eating, I had to stretch out on the floor! We visited awhile and after they left, I stretched out on the bed and had a long nap!

I've just watched one of the new DVDs I ordered, "Calendar Girls". It's based on a real-life situation. It's good, very British, gorgeous scenery, fine cast headed by Helen Mirren. The characters are from middle age to older and in a older women's organization. They decide to make and calendar to raise money to provide some more comfortable furniture for the waiting room in the hospital where one of the ladies' husband had died of leukemia. So instead of the usual pictures of bridges or butterflies, they did a calendar of themselves doing typical old ladies' activities, except in the nude, but partially covered with the paraphenalia of the activity. The repercussions and results rippled forth and there were meaningful messages and much amazing international success.

It was funny, but at times I had difficulty understanding the British accent, though I've watched many British movies. Most of the dialog was quite natural like real people would speak and that occasionally became virtually like some other language for me.


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

I'm so glad the lunch was a success. The book sounds like a very thoughtful gift. You're going to have some fun (and nostalgic moments) even before you start to inscribe it with your poems. Choosing and rejecting is going to be very interesting.

I remember when 'Calendar Girls' came out. I must be one of the only people in the UK who didn't see it.

I wonder why you didn't understand the accents. You watch enough British films. Maybe they were regional accents, although I doubt it. I have trouble with some regional accents.

Now you know how I felt trying to understand the Southern Drawl in 'The Grass harp'.

So I take it you recommend it?

I know that several groups have done the "Naked Calendar" thing since, and I can actually remember the original Hoo Hah that arose when the real group of ladies did it.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS

I think I'm going to made a little lamb stew, using the food I brought home, starting with the bone to make stock, adding the meat off of it and the rice, plus adding carrots, celery, small red potato, gold bell pepper, purple onion and some fresh ginger root - maybe some other seasonings. It will be perfect for this chilly, rainy day.

Am being sort of brief online, because I'm rounding up the information on my 'Apple Care Protection Plan', bought when I bought the laptop. I panicked at first because the stuff wasn't in the folder where I keep all the other info about the laptop. Then I remembered to check the nifty laptop carrying case I also got for it at the time & there it was! Whew.

Then I wanted to print some things from this Dell, and was happy to find that I'm set up on it with the wireless Epson I use for the Mac. But then found that the black ink was out and the machine wouldn't even try to print anything till it was replaced. Again, a happy discovery - I bought extra cartridges when I had to replace the one that came in it. Hated to have to take time for that, but no biggie. So that's working.

Now that it's become nearly 5PM, though, I'm not going to intitiate the Apple care today. But I can't wait to be back on my Mac. Hope all the data can be replaced on it from the external drive backup. According to the repair disk, (where I was able to inspect the contents of the backup drive) there was a recent backup so maybe I will be able to, once the machine is working. Looks like I can take it into the Apple Store at NorthPark Mall for them to see about it, in case just calling the main place doesn't work out. So I feel encouraged.

Glad to have this Dell laptop to use meantime, though it has its limitations.

In the movie, it was when the actors were speaking really fast & sort of unemphasized the words that I had trouble understanding them. I think the setting was somewhere in Yorkshire, so maybe that was a factor. As I watched it, I began to be better attuned to the accents. But I don't expect to try to show it to John, probably, though he would like the story, I think.

But I understood Helen Mirren perfectly. I've watched many of her movies, both in her own British accent & her actor American one. In fact the other movie I got at the same time is "Raising Helen" in which she plays the boss of the "Helen" being raised. It's a charming heart-warming movie in which "Helen" is the aunt of 3 young children. She is willed the kids when their Mom dies. But she's a free spirit working in the fashion industry and pursuing fun, while the older sister (who had more or less raised Helen as a younger sister) is a currently pregnant real "mom" & strict with kids of her own. But the kids' mother saw Helen as more like herself in the free-spirit area. And Helen accept it and rearranges her life to be their mom. It's all going fine till it ends, after she decides to let that older sister take them when the young teenage girl goes with her boyfriend to a motel on prom night and Helen is totally unable to handle it. She's too much of a friend and not at all a disciplinarian. She can't even brace to forself into the room and confront the kids before it's too late, but older sister does the chore.

But after she tries to resume her former life, Helen realizes that she loves the kids more than any other thing in her life and gets them back and develops her own Mom-character too. Lots of really nice situations arise within the movie, and it's a good cast, directed by Garry Marshall, a great among directors. Helen is played by Kate Hudson (Goldie Hawn's daughter) and Joan Cusack is the "mom" sister who felt she should have been willed the kids. John Corbdett is the fellow who provides love interest for both Helen and the kids. And Helen Mirren is the fashion boss. I enjoyed it. You might or might not.

But, yes, I think you might find "Calendar Girls" of value and do recommend it. There are deeper meanings than just the nude calendar. It's almost worth it for the scenery. Gorgeous. But the story is quality. I first heard about such calendars when one of my Canadian online friend's wife. a member of "The Red Hats" posed for one when the club did one. Chapters across the county were doing them. Wild - but sort of nice for them to assert themselves.


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

I checked with Novelette today, and she said that the accents were Yorkshire, and I can assure you that I would have some difficulty there.

It's in a village also, am I right?

The Yorkshire dales are stunningly beautiful. The Yorkshire Moors are the direct opposite. If you like gorse and pools of muddy water and dead sheep, you would like the Moors but I find them depressing.

By the way. when you said you had lamb shanks for lunch, it reminded me of Marie Taylor-Clarke feeding Dulcie with the two lambshanks every time we went to Primates.

Do you remember Mr Bebe in 'A Room With a View' played by Simon Callow? He also used to go to 'Primates' with The Lemming and I met his dog , Merlie there also.

Lots of famous people liked 'Primates' It was a shame when she stopped. She just got bored with it, I think.

(Marie, not Dulcie).

Isn't life complicated? You and I and printers and Ink and the computer not even TRYING to print just because it thinks there isn't a black ink cartridge in it. My printer, which I love with a passion because he has been so faithful and printed hundreds of cards and things, is about to give up the ghost, I think.

Years ago it would be a case of, "Is there enough writing paper and is there enough ink in the bottle?"

Talking of writing, I have written just over a thousand, one hundred words in 'The Potter' tonight.

I'm up to about 33,600 words.

it will be officially, a novel within about five thousand words... You and Linda can be my agents or publishers, if you like.

Ha ha!


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

I'm tired of the way HP puts double comments and replies and then when we delete the second one it lets everyone know that we have... like this one, but I fooled them

Yay!


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snakeslane 4 years ago from Canada

Dear Twilight Lawns, missing you on the feed. Celebrating New Year here. Sending out this song to you...a tear jerker...regards slane

http://youtu.be/qemWRToNYJY


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

Thank you, Snakeslane.

You have no idea how close to the mark that song is for me just now. You must be psychic, my friend.

Happy New Year,

Ian


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snakeslane 4 years ago from Canada

Oh there you are! I know that song goes right to the heart. I've been listening to it all night. This woman (Adele) is only 20 years old, wow!


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS

I admire Adele so much but this is her best song yet!


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

Nellieanna, you must read this guy.

http://hubpages.com/literature/f-o-r-e-p-l-a-y

He obviously loves words and I can see my poetry in there.

He uses the same spectrum of words, and obviously revels in them.

Do let him know I showed you his work (unless you already do). And to cap it all, Englsih is not his mother tongue.


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mckbirdbks 4 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

Hello Mr. Lawns. Just checking in with you. You are not straying far from home these days. Are you writing?


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

I am trying to write, Mike, but it is going so slowly. I actually lost the lot last night when my computer crashed. "The lot" only amounted to 2,200 words in that particular story, and I was so upset, but by chance, my friend with the Masters in Computer Something or Other was here and he retrieved it for me.

Thank God, and thank the Paki, also.

Ha ha!

I am also writing another short story which is coming up to 35,000 words, but that is going so slowly also.

Believe me, I back up EVERYTHING now, just in case I lose stuff again.


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Angela Brummer 4 years ago from Lincoln, Nebraska

Really beautiful and questioning? All the words lead me to reminisce.


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

I'm glad it reached you, Angela Brummer. Little bit introspective... but then we were in the first flush of adulthood, weren't we?

Maybe you still are... I tend to lean in that direction even now.

Thanks for the visit.


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Perspycacious 4 years ago from Today's America and The World Beyond

Everyone has said what I might, or could, or shouldn't have said, so I will jst say "Hi."


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Twilight Lawns 4 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K. Author

Perspycacious, thank you for your deeply incisive and sensitive comment. I am honoured that you should look on my humble little offering in such a kind and generous manner.

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