Tempers and Who Can't Control Them

All or Nothing

My temper flares without a care.

My mind is made up and the world is wrong.

I can't think 

 I was better off not even trying

I never try to understand and listen to reason

Over and over complaining I shout instead of trying to explain myself

No time no time

I insist my way is the only way

The world is against me and I will repeat it over and over until I believe it to be true

How can this be happenning

i most certainly wonder

I try and I still end up the same way with no solution in place

Don't you see it is me

I argue with aggression

I have all the troubles and nobody else can see.

With no one to come to my side

I feel like the queen of spades when everyone else is a heart

I rant and rave can't you see my pain?

I am so lost that no one can help me?

I move on like this day has never happened  so I can soon forget

You offer assistance and I can't see it because I'm to stubborn and ashamed of what I have done

You ask me to think and work things out

I can not do that

That would make to much sense

That would be reasonable and be helpful

i could not except the world with no more but's and chances

I won't listen because I know I don't have to

I will find things wrong and cause trouble with all your help you give

I did it in the past and got my way

Pitty me until I change my ways

I cry myself off to sleep

I have turned back time when I was queen

the queen of spades is who I pretend to be

Haven't you heard my yelling,screaming and tantrums of wild insanity.

I get upset and cry with tears running down my face

You don't care as you won't let me talk

You ask me to leave

So I can calm down and think of what I have done

I just feel rejected and feel you don't need me.

We both know that is not true

You had enough and tell me to believe what I want and do what I want

You watch me sit and sulk

you write and tell me the way things happened

I get all upset like so many times in the past

You plead and beg I have no time for this as I continue

Let the truth be told and everyone to see

no time for your games

been there done that and I will not do it again.

 Childish and  no time to waste

Life is important and many things to do

I argue and cause you great sadness

I Close my eyes and breathe

I a bleeding heart who needs to be loved

What reason could I have to be hugged and held so close

To be comforted by you and to be told how much I'm loved

When all I feel all this disapointment and dispair

I am sad I distrusted your judgement

I question the words that you speak

I want to throw and break things I am sad

I will never ever give in to the QUEEN OF SPADES again

when I am a lonely heart

Comments 50 comments

\Brenda Scully 7 years ago

aw this is a cry for help or is it????? well written


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DREAM ON 7 years ago Author

This is how somebody I know reacts to my help but I had to write it in first person as if it was me.Can you also relate to the different situations?


\Brenda Scully 7 years ago

i will think about it..... er who is it about do i know this person even vaguely???????


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DREAM ON 7 years ago Author

Life is full of so many surprises isn't it?You get all around the hub pages.Did you go to college?


\Brenda Scully 6 years ago

no i didn't was married at 17......


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DREAM ON 6 years ago Author

Yuou gained life experience in many ways that is so much more than being book smart.


\Brenda Scully 6 years ago

i have lived out so may experiences, and come through the other side, a bit worn out i have to say..... but lots to tell, and lots of lessons learned....


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DREAM ON 6 years ago Author

I think it's time to do a self evaluation.I thought you would be tired of beating yourself up.If you look at all the things you have accomplished and move on from there.The negative gets you know where.If you take something positive out of something negative bingo you have hit the nail on the head.Stay focused and charm your way from here on out.


\Brenda Scully 6 years ago

good idea, today is day one...... thanks so much


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DREAM ON 6 years ago Author

I think you owe yourself one big hug.You deserve all the credit. I just want to see you smile.Thats all just a simple smile that I haven't seen in awhile.


\Brenda Scully 6 years ago

well that comment made me smile. o.k. what are you doing with your day


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DREAM ON 6 years ago Author

I'm shooting for the stars want to join me.


\Brenda Scully 6 years ago

oh yeah what do we do


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DREAM ON 6 years ago Author

Think positive and let your heart beat 1000 times a minute with excitement.Are you ready?


\Brenda Scully 6 years ago

ready


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DREAM ON 6 years ago Author

Are you sure?


\Brenda Scully 6 years ago

as sure as i will ever be


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DREAM ON 6 years ago Author

Now remember all those things in life that made you sad?You have to leave them all behind.They weigh us down and we can't go if they stay with us.Are you still up for the challange of your life.


\Brenda Scully 6 years ago

all the things that made me sad are gone, not weighed down, awaiting challenge


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DREAM ON 6 years ago Author

You have alot of zest!I have to remind you from this day forward you will never be able to think the same again.Are you really sure?no pressure or anything.You have to feel it under your skin.Like the blood pumping through your veins.


\Brenda Scully 6 years ago

don't put a curse on me will you.... go on i am game if it is going to improve my life....... this is for my good right?


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DREAM ON 6 years ago Author

First thing there are no such thing as curses.It was invented by some writer who had such a great imagination that he could make anyone believe.Now back to having the best time ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


\Brenda Scully 6 years ago

right back in time, no curses o.k.


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DREAM ON 6 years ago Author

Now this takes a little practice but in time it works wonders.Think of the best time you had recently.Remember the smile on your face.Well your in for a treat.The smile your about to get is going to be a trillion times that.


\Brenda Scully 6 years ago

my my how could that be.....


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DREAM ON 6 years ago Author

It was easier than you could of ever imagined.So simple but so GOOD.No reason to stop now your on a roll.Let the party begin.


\Brenda Scully 6 years ago

o.k. i am game


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DREAM ON 6 years ago Author

Good things come to those who wait.People love suspense,drama,the thrill of what comes next.


\Brenda Scully 6 years ago

they sure do


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DREAM ON 6 years ago Author

What is something you always wanted in life and never got?


\Brenda Scully 6 years ago

learning to drive


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DREAM ON 6 years ago Author

How come you never went for your liscence?


poetlorraine 6 years ago

now we are dealing with the big one


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DREAM ON 6 years ago Author

All in due time.Smile it is a great start.


poetlorraine 6 years ago

had three kids at the age of22 and suffered lots of depression....... wanted to learn but scared, by husband now is over protective, and he is convinced, i would kill myself i was to drive, i am scatty. He has actively discouraged me, and the older i get the harder it is to even try ...... all my kids drive, but strangely enough, my husband has 4 brother and not one of the wives drive even though they are all quite stron personalities.....


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DREAM ON 6 years ago Author

If you want to drive there is no reason you can't go to a driving school if your kids won't take you.It is good to have your independence to go where you want to when you want to.Ask them how long would they go without driving a car?


poetlorraine 6 years ago

all my kids are well married now, i am sooooo old you know. I think i am the only person in the world who does not drive, but i am managing o.k.


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DREAM ON 6 years ago Author

Maybe there is a neighbor that you could learn from.You could start your own club wives that don't drive club.


poetlorraine 6 years ago

i would be the only bloody one in it,,,,, even the test you have to take on computer scares me now .....


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DREAM ON 6 years ago Author

Think positive. Time heals all wounds.


poetlorraine 6 years ago

good advice as usual


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DREAM ON 6 years ago Author

Good friends bring about good thoughts


poetlorraine 6 years ago

yeah it is so nice to have people that care


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DREAM ON 6 years ago Author

Sometimes I wonder how it is that two people meet.What great powers attract and make the timing right.I am so happy I get to enjoy your thoughts and imagination.I constantly focus on all the people I love and all the people that mean the world to me.The rest of the world I have no interest in...Because they just take from my time and I have less for the people I will do anything for.Once a friend always a friend in my life.


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brandonfan 6 years ago from Mid West

Wow! This one is great! I think that a lot of us can really relate to this poem. I feel like our styles of writing are very similar, as well as our ways of thinking. I'm a big fan! Thank you so much for sharing, and making others see that they aren't alone in feeling this same way sometimes.


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DREAM ON 6 years ago Author

I hope now that we have been there and done that. We can move on and be who we are meant to be.A better person than before is that to much to ask.


msmirastrology 6 years ago

I can soooo relate to this, amazing poem. This describes me much of the time unfortunately.


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DREAM ON 6 years ago Author

msmirastrology I hope you can also put your thoughts into a writing.I would love to see your point of view.We all have times like this but hopefully they become few and far between.


poetlorraine 6 years ago

anyone for pizza....


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DREAM ON 6 years ago Author

I heard they are having a special tonight buy one and get two free.Tell me what you want and the pizza is yours for the taking.Enjoy.What a life.Just a little pick me up for quick meal and no clean up.

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