Tempers and Who Can't Control Them

My temper flares without a care.

My mind is made up and the world is wrong.

I can't think 

 I was better off not even trying

I never try to understand and listen to reason

Over and over complaining I shout instead of trying to explain myself

No time no time

I insist my way is the only way

The world is against me and I will repeat it over and over until I believe it to be true

How can this be happenning

i most certainly wonder

I try and I still end up the same way with no solution in place

Don't you see it is me

I argue with aggression

I have all the troubles and nobody else can see.

With no one to come to my side

I feel like the queen of spades when everyone else is a heart

I rant and rave can't you see my pain?

I am so lost that no one can help me?

I move on like this day has never happened  so I can soon forget

You offer assistance and I can't see it because I'm to stubborn and ashamed of what I have done

You ask me to think and work things out

I can not do that

That would make to much sense

That would be reasonable and be helpful

i could not except the world with no more but's and chances

I won't listen because I know I don't have to

I will find things wrong and cause trouble with all your help you give

I did it in the past and got my way

Pitty me until I change my ways

I cry myself off to sleep

I have turned back time when I was queen

the queen of spades is who I pretend to be

Haven't you heard my yelling,screaming and tantrums of wild insanity.

I get upset and cry with tears running down my face

You don't care as you won't let me talk

You ask me to leave

So I can calm down and think of what I have done

I just feel rejected and feel you don't need me.

We both know that is not true

You had enough and tell me to believe what I want and do what I want

You watch me sit and sulk

you write and tell me the way things happened

I get all upset like so many times in the past

You plead and beg I have no time for this as I continue

Let the truth be told and everyone to see

no time for your games

been there done that and I will not do it again.

 Childish and  no time to waste

Life is important and many things to do

I argue and cause you great sadness

I Close my eyes and breathe

I a bleeding heart who needs to be loved

What reason could I have to be hugged and held so close

To be comforted by you and to be told how much I'm loved

When all I feel all this disapointment and dispair

I am sad I distrusted your judgement

I question the words that you speak

I want to throw and break things I am sad

I will never ever give in to the QUEEN OF SPADES again

when I am a lonely heart