A Song For Azetta (and those who miss her)
As many know I have always released a lot of art here and online in general, whether it be clay animation, short films, pictures, music or something else. Previously I have always released music under the pseudonym of "Candle Hour" But over the last few months as I have delved deep into creating new music for release much of my true self has come filtering through the songs. Dealing with loss throughout the winter on more than one occasion has driven my song writing. This song and video is meant for someone who throughout my life became a second mother to me, she was always there. Despite the fact that I know it was her time to go, I've simply had trouble letting her go. To view the video or listen to the song click the video to the above of this paragraph. If you wish to buy the song you may on I-tunes at: http://itunes.apple.com/us/album/azetta/id514589356
Overall as I write this article I have enough songs to release an album in the near future and I'm contemplating simply releasing that under my real name as well and not my pseudonym, Candle Hour. The music I've created has been a grieving process as well as a healing process for me and it just seems to personal not to release it under my own name. As it stands I'm still unsure whether this group of songs will be released as an album or if I will simply release them one at a time of the next year or so. I suppose we'll see.
As for the music in this song technically it is an instrumental. I incorporated orchestral, electronic and distorted rock elements into it. It feels for me like a pouring out of emotion, emptying of feelings one has kept bottled up inside so that eventually you can rise and continue to live even though you never forget who you lost. In a way for me, seeing her name as the song title it is also a way of keeping her memory alive. A way for me to pay tribute to her. I hope that as you the reader (and hopefully listener) hear it you can also find your own meaning in it as my music is always open to interpretation.
I also know personally that Azetta would probably never have listened to this type of music. I actually have no recollections of ever hearing her listen to recorded music, possibly it was simply to far past the time that she did so. But as said earlier this is more about myself and the song represents my feelings and how I've felt from her passing. I only hope as she looks down from heaven that she can be proud of me even if the song may not necessarily be her cup of tea.
As many may realize the video uses scenes from the silent film, "The Little Matchseller," which was filmed in 1902 by James Williamson based on the story by Hans Christian Andersen.
"Grandmother," cried the little one, "O take me with you; I know you will go away when the match burns out; you will vanish like the warm stove, the roast goose, and the large, glorious Christmas-tree."
And she made haste to light the whole bundle of matches, for she wished to keep her grandmother there. And the matches glowed with a light that was brighter than the noon-day, and her grandmother had never appeared so large or so beautiful. She took the little girl in her arms, and they both flew upwards in brightness and joy far above the earth, where there was neither cold nor hunger nor pain, for they were with God.
That excerpt more than anything makes me remember Azetta, and I always will.
As for me I will do as I must and struggle on through this life and live it out as fully as I can until one day I meet her again.
Again if you wish to buy the song you may on I-tunes at:http://itunes.apple.com/us/album/azetta/id514589356
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