Another Bad Day In A Bad Month! Is It Breast Cancer? Just Walk Away Walk On.

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Another Bad Day In a Bad Month. Is It Breast Cancer?

I have actually had a very bad month. I can now add today in that bad month as a bad day. Do I make sense? This kind of month or day just has to be walked away from and walk on and still enjoy your life.

I need to mention I had bad flu for more than two weeks this month. I have not felt great this month.

Children

I love my children but sometimes children always have their own problems and there is no way we can help them. They just have to work it all out. They're grown-ups now they can’t run to Mommy and Daddy, but we do have to listen. All that listening causes stress, but I wouldn't want everything hid from me.

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The Witch Is Gone.

We did find out one good thing in all of this, the evil stepmother has left the house forever. That is a plus. I called her the Witch B----. I don't know how one woman could be so mean to children. I will never understand it.

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Teenagers

Do you have to deal with a teenager? Some grow up to be the best kids, never any trouble then there are the ones who seem to always have problems.

All the drama gives me a headache. There are lots of teenage headaches this week. Some scary!

Wishing I could help, but knowing I can't.

Secrets


Keeping secrets is another thing I hate doing and I had secrets this week I had to keep to myself. Someone always has a secret they don't want to be told.

I figure if everyone is alive, not in jail and doesn't have a horrible sickness, has a warm home and food to eat we're all doing well.

I'm not good at secrets. I forget too easily that I'm not suppose to tell anyone, like my mother.

Old Dog

Our Old Dog
Our Old Dog

Our Old Dog

We have an old dog we keep thinking, should we take him in. His brain is good he eats like a horse. He's not able to walk very well, he wobbles along. I have to put throw rugs all over the house because he can't walk on the floors, his feet will slip right out from under him all four legs spread out. We have to help him into his chair; he has problems lying on his dog bed because it's on the floor. He never whines or cries out. I know it sounds bad, but I keep hoping he will fall asleep and not wake up then we won't have to have him euthanized. I don't want to see his worried face when we have to take him in. I would rather he die in his own home in his own chair. This is another stress in our lives. He's 14.

Update On Our Dog.

It was a sad day for us. We had our dog, Reno, put down yesterday morning. He's buried in the back yard on the hill under a big tree with our other loved pets.

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Medical Test

I had to go for my yearly mammogram yesterday. I told my husband I didn't want to go. I’m sick of doctor visits and test. I just want to do nothing, but I kept the appointment and went. Today they call me and I have to go back in for more tests. When she said left breast I already knew. I suspected something was wrong on that side. It felt heavy. The spot is very small so why did it feel heavy? I sure have no idea. Now I have to wait until next week for more tests. Waiting is always the worst.

I never found the lump with self-exam the mammogram found it.

May 8th

They called this morning I'm setup for Friday. I won't know any results until Monday. They will do a guided needle biopsy. Their goal is to obtain a small sample of tissue. Only 15-20% proves to be cancer. The test will be done with an ultrasound machine and special needle. They freeze the area before they put the needle in. That's the part I'm not looking forward to. A tiny incision is made, and the biopsy needle is advanced into the site. Multiple tissue specimens are obtained. A tiny marker is placed at the site where tissue is removed. This will help to identify the spot later if need be, so it's more wait and see. Continued down below.

Shopping.

I went shopping with a friend last week. She was trying on clothes. I was looking around. The sales lady came up to me and asks me if my daughter would like to try on the blouse she had in her hand, crazy woman. It was my birthday and I'm always glad that I made it to another birthday, but I still feel old every time a birthday comes around.

My friend is ten years younger than me. The woman ruined my happy day. We let her know she was wrong and she knew I was not happy. I know I'm old, but I didn't think I looked so old. I guess now I know the truth. I left the store without buying a thing.

I should have asked her when her baby was due. Oh no, that isn't nice and I would never do that, but I sure felt like it. I'm just not a nasty rude person.

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Job

My husband is retired, but he works two jobs. One job he has yard work for one family around their homes, warehouses, and landing strip. It's a big outfit. Believe me, this is a lot of work. He comes home from one job at 5:00 and heads to the other job until dark. Well, he did some work for them this year, but when he went over to get the mower ready his male boss said to forget it for a couple weeks. Nothing was ready the grass really was not growing, to cold 31 today. He did clean up work but didn't charge them. He said it was nothing no reason to charge.

So I get this phone call from the wife of the family today. She's just on me about my husband, telling me he's not doing his job. Blah blah....I have nothing to do with this job I usually don't even know what is going on. By the time I got off the phone, I was angry. I did take up for him and I told him later I may have lost him his job.

My husband had been planning on quitting because he gets very little time in the summer to himself and to get our yard work done. He went over and told the boss what his wife had said and told him he was quitting. The boss wanted to know if he was quitting because of her. She runs many of their employees off. My husband let him know he wasn't. He had planned on quitting, but her call made up his mind for sure.

I'm glad he quit it was too much for him at his age he needs to slow down.

May 11 Biopsy Day For Breast Cancer.

I went in early this morning. They took me in a room and I laid on the cart/bed. The two nurses then used the ultrasound machine to find the lump. It was there, it hadn't disappeared. The doctor came in, a nice man. He put the freezing in. It really did not hurt, stung a little. He froze it about 4 times and went deep in by the lump. They bring out the big gun, called vacuum core biopsy needle and tell me not to look at it because the size would scare me. It takes a small sample of the breast tissue.

He headed needle in and down looking for the lump. He couldn't find it. The lump was gone. He must have hit the lump with the freezing needle and it broke open, the lump was a cyst because of the way it broke open. They looked for it again on the ultrasound, no lump. They sent me for another mammogram and still no lump. They taped me up over the small cut they had made, didn't need stitches, gave me a tiny ice pack and sent me on my way.

I am so happy it was a cyst. I have to go back in 6 months to be checked again. So ladies if you have to have this procedure done there is only very little pain with it. I was really worried about the pain from the freezing, but it isn't bad at all. Thank you, for all the prayers and thoughts.

I have a sister-in-law that has been battling breast cancer for years now. I know how much she has been through. I also have an aunt that recently had breast cancer. It's not easy for anyone. My heart goes out to all women that have this terrible disease.

Just one bad day after another.

I have faith things always get better. I know other people who are going through much more than I am. If I had to go through what they are I don't know if I could stand it. I can take anything but children being sick.

We have been through much in our married life.

I try to be a happy person and not let things get me down. I look at it this way next month will be a better month. The cold will go away and the sun will shine.

But I will still be old. Ha Ha

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May 15 Adding to my bad month.

Well, today I received my first hate comment. I was surprised that anyone would hate that much. I have been trying to fix all my hubs with grammar and spelling, but this girl beat me to one of the hubs. Bless her heart I'm sure she didn't mean to have so much hate over one little hub. Maybe she's having a bad day.

I won't allow comments like this to go on my hubs, but I don't mind telling everyone about them. People like this forget their IP number shows up.

I believe she is from Kingston, Pa.

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May 19

I went into town not knowing my husband had borrowed my money out of my purse. He didn't want to wake me.

I met with some ladies for sewing, afterward ran over to Subway to get a sub. No money, oh well, I had my debit card. IT WAS DECLINED, in front of all the ladies. My good friend said no worry I can buy lunch.

I came home called the bank they said no reason for it to be declined the problem has to be at the other end. This was the first time I had used it while out. I never use this card hate using it. Only use it on the Internet and had used it just the day before on the Internet, no problem. I'm old school and like cash or checks.

You and I both know no matter what you tell people about a declined card their never going to believe you. What is this world coming to when we have to depend on these ugly little cards? I thought they might make me wash dishes to pay for my food.

This happened to my son-in-law once. He was traveling. My daughter had her card stolen, had to cancel them. They only had one card. He found himself in the airport with no way to pay but checks. They took his check can you believe that? After that, they had to get separate cards.

Update End Of May

We have been with our credit union for many years. We like them we know the ladies they know us. We get a letter; our credit union is going under. They have been transferring all our accounts to another credit union. I hate this I hate starting all over in another place I know nothing about. That could explain the glitch in the credit card. They just let us know this a few days ago and things have already been changed over. I had no idea they were going under. Oh well, just another one of those everyday aggravating problems.

This was just another annoying day in the month of May.

E. A. Wright has the right idea.

Dog having a bad day

This is just an update on the breast cancer scare. I had to have a mammogram done again in Jan. They did the mammogram and then came in and told me my cyst was back and twice its size. They also insisted the doctor I had before did not do a guided needle biopsy.

When I had the biopsy in May 2012 they told me he was doing a guided needle biopsy. I saw the big gun and the ultrasound machine. They showed me the machine. Now they're telling me that's not what he did and they are upset with him because he broke the cyst and didn't take any biopsy. They’re mad at me for not coming in sooner. I didn't come in sooner because the girl on the phone told me I could wait until May 2013 and she acted like that is what I should do or my insurance would not pay for it.

By the time they got through telling me all of this stuff, I felt like I was in the Twilight Zone. They really make a person feel old. I know what I was told at the time by the doctor and the nurses and I know what I saw and what type of machine I saw. Now those same nurses are denying that he used that machine at all. It's crazy. To repeat, I know what I saw before, something crazy was going on and I don't know what it was.

To continue, I went through another biopsy this time they did biopsies for sure. They used the big guided gun and ultrasound. This machine looked very familiar to me, I wonder why.

Everything came out fine and I went back in 3 months and everything was still fine. So that is my update for 2013.

It can always get worse. I guess I just need to count my blessings.

It's now 2014, believe me, things got worse. Someday I will be able to explain 2014.

How Bad Can They Get?

December of 2013 my husband was diagnosed with lung cancer. He was gone by December of 2014. We were married 52 years. It's a hard life without him.

Our dog died two weeks before my husband.

I had to start 2015 without my husband or our dog. Then my mother passed away in May 2015.

May of 2016 I had to move from a house I loved and a city I hated to leave.

My brother has cancer now and it doesn't look good for him.

You see things can always get worse. Life goes on. I'm thankful to God for my children, grandchild ren and great-grandchildren. A warm home, food to eat and fairly good health. I'm also happy to have my two small dogs.

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moonlake 3 years ago from America Author

CraftytotheCore, Thank you it is so hard to put a pet down. I also have a SIL with breast cancer. Thank so much for stopping by.


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CraftytotheCore 3 years ago

Moonlake! Bless your heart for caring so gently for your older dog. I have a special place in my heart for older ones. I have Brownie and no one knows her age, but she was chained to a tree left to fend for herself when she was rescued. I've had several older dogs that I had to put down and I know how much it hurts.

There is an old saying. When it rains it pours. It so seems right when we are going through a bad day and the sun never seems to come out. But eventually we get through it. We have to go through it to get on with it. I'm so glad you are alright!

My SIL and 6 aunts had breast cancer. My SIL made it through it.


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moonlake 3 years ago from America Author

tillsontitan, Thanks for you kind comment. I should do an update on this hub. Things have been better since that month of May. I do appreciate the vote.


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moonlake 3 years ago from America Author

Paul Kuehn, Bad luck does seem to come in bunches. Thanks for stopping by and for the vote, sharing, tweet and pin. I appreciate it.


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tillsontitan 3 years ago from New York

You wrote this hub some time ago but it is still one I can relate to and it brings tears to my eyes. The threat of any type of cancer is scary and yes, depressing. I am so glad things turned out okay.

You didn't just have a bad month, you had a heartbreaking one. Having to put a dog down is so heartbreaking. I know, I've had to do it too. You feel like you're betraying them when in reality you are doing what's best.

People can be so insensitive and say things without thinking. It seems your sales girl needed a little lesson in life.

Credit cards/debit cards, probably the good, the bad and the ugly. When things work well they're great. When glitches occur, like yours, or you lose them or they are stolen...another nightmare.

You've handled this month very well, in spite of it being so bad. I'm hoping, since this was a long time ago, things have gotten better and this bad month is just a sad memory.

Voted up, useful, and interesting.


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Paul Kuehn 3 years ago from Udorn City, Thailand

moonlake,

This is a very interesting hub, and I'm sorry to hear about all of your bad luck during the month. There is a saying that bad luck comes in bunches, and I certainly believe it from past experiences. Voted up and sharing. Also Pinning and Tweeting.


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moonlake 3 years ago from America Author

Peggy W, We were worried last month because the lump did come back bigger this time. I went through the core biospy and it was fine. I was so glad to get that over with. We are doing better here. Thanks for stopping by.


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Peggy W 3 years ago from Houston, Texas

I am reading this hub late and so sad to hear about your sweet dog being put down because of age and infirmity, but happy to hear that your breast scare turned out to be a cyst and nothing more. Sometimes things do seem to pile up. Hope by now you and your husband have more time for yourselves and are enjoying better times together.


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moonlake 4 years ago from America Author

Maria, Thanks for stopping by and I am feeling good. Trauma pilup sounds like what I had.

We still miss the old dog and I guess we will always think about him. Hugs.


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marcoujor 4 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

moonlake,

There is an expression I learned called "trauma pileup", sounds like this particular month would apply.

My heart goes out to you over the loss of Reno. I know what a pawprint these sweeties leave on our hearts.

Hope you are feeling as good as you sound on the recent comments I have read from you. You are a positive and beautiful lady.

Hugs, Maria


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moonlake 4 years ago from America Author

kashmir56, Sorry to hear about your dog. It is so sad when we have to do that with them. Thanks so much for your prayers and for stopping by.


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moonlake 4 years ago from America Author

James A Watkins, It was the hardest thing to do, take a dog in that was good as far as his brain went but was in bad shape everywhere else. We just had no choice. Thanks for stopping by and leaving a comment. I appreciate it.


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kashmir56 4 years ago from Massachusetts

Hi moonlake, so sorry to hear about your beautiful dog Reno,i know how you feel because i just lost my beautiful dog in March. I to wished my dog would just pass in her sleep but she did not, but i was there when she did pass and held her and kept telling her it would be alright. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers and hope these tough times will pass soon.


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James A Watkins 4 years ago from Chicago

Sounds like tough times all the way around. I am sorry to hear about your dog. I know how sad that can be. The rest, it seems like, will be OK. God Bless.


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moonlake 4 years ago from America Author

Derdriu,

Thank you, It will get better or I'm moving ha ha. Thank you for your wishes and your birthday wishes. I do take pictures more when I'm down that is the way I relax and getting on hubpages also helps me relax and taking a nap! I appreciate you stopping by.


Derdriu 4 years ago

Moonlake, All imperfect days concentrated into one imperfect month most likely means great months of great days for the rest of the year, to my way of wishing for you. Despite your disappointments, you got the energy together to provide two of your own pretty original photos -- the opener with the trails in the sky and the close-up of your beautiful black Lab who clearly realizes that he is loved.

Respectfully, and with belated wishes for your birthday and with best wishes for 2012 to you and your husband, Derdriu


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moonlake 4 years ago from America Author

Victoria Lynn, Thanks, I'm sure things will turn out good. This happens to lots of women that dreaded second test. Most of the time they turn out ok.

Thanks so much for stopping by.


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Victoria Lynn 4 years ago from Arkansas, USA

Gosh, you have had a rough time! It seems like sometimes everything hits at once. I hope your health turns out fine. Bless your poor old dog. I hope things are already turning around for you.


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moonlake 4 years ago from America Author

Lesley thank you for the hugs.

I only have one person in my side of the family that has had breast cancer and that's my aunt. She found out about it, I guess, a year ago she has been through the chemo and she is doing very good. She is in her 80s. I know many people get cancer without it being in the family but chances are always a little better if it isn't in the family.

I'm sure things will be just fine.

Thanks so much for stopping by.


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Movie Master 4 years ago from United Kingdom

Oh moonlake, I am sorry you have had such an awful month, sometimes we just seem to get a run of bad things..

Having a mammogram is such an ordeal, I had a scare once but it turned out ok and I pray it will be for you too.

Your friends on hubpages are here for you, I'm sending you hugs Lesley


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moonlake 4 years ago from America Author

Minnetonka Twin, Thank you, for your positive thoughts. I know they will help.


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moonlake 4 years ago from America Author

Sherry Hewins, Thank you, for your encouragement. You may be right about everything.


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Minnetonka Twin 4 years ago from Minnesota

God will answer it for sure and in his way. I am thinking positive thoughts for you and I look forward to hearing your good news when you get it.


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Sherry Hewins 4 years ago from Sierra Foothills, CA

Aww, sorry it's a bad month. The family stuff all sounds pretty normal. The dog thing is sad, but we know the deal when we get them, they have short life-spans, it doesn't help, but there it is. Maybe the sales lady just thought your friend looked really young? Hopefully that lump checks out OK, and it turns out all that worry was for nothing. The month is almost over, I hope next month will be better.


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moonlake 4 years ago from America Author

Minnetonka Twin, Thanks you, waiting is hard. It feels like your life comes to a stand still until you find out what's going on. Thank you so much for the prayers. I know prayers can be answered. I hope God won't say no I can't answer this pray.


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Minnetonka Twin 4 years ago from Minnesota

I too am praying that things will be fine. Waiting is the worst as I've been through it. I am sorry things have been so hectic for you but it has to go up, right? I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers :-)


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moonlake 4 years ago from America Author

tirelesstraveler, Mammograms are never fun to have and some times they can hurt but they do find cancer. I think our own intuition is the best. Thanks for stopping and for the prayers. As soon as I know anything I will be right back on to let all know what was found.


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tirelesstraveler 4 years ago from California

Just got back from my mammogram. Didn't like it, but the one I had in 1994 got early treatment for cancer. I caught the last bout of cancer myself. Things have changed so much since 1994. You have been on my mind a lot today.

Prayers TT


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moonlake 4 years ago from America Author

star439, Thanks so much for stopping by and for the prayers. I appreciate it.


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stars439 4 years ago from Louisiana, The Magnolia and Pelican State.

Dear moonlake : I am praying for you even though I believe everything will work out well. If you can afford to do it, feed the dog, have it examined. It will be a great watch dog, and will bring you joy. God Bless You.


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moonlake 4 years ago from America Author

Pamela, Thanks I will do that. You know all these things run through my head. Like "I can't get cancer the house needs a good Spring cleaning".

I remember the day on Thanksgiving some years ago when my sister-in-law said to me, I have lump. It was cancer. I know what she has been through.

It very likely is not anything. I'm praying it isn't.

Thanks so much for you support.


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Pamela99 4 years ago from United States

moonlake, I hope you will look toward the future knowing things will get better. It seems good times and bad times come and go. I try to really focus just on this day when things aren't good, so I don't worry about tomorrow as much. It's easier said than done, but it can help.

I also had a call back on a mammogram about 3 years ago and it turned out not to be cancer. I was scared at first also. I pray you will get good news also.


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moonlake 4 years ago from America Author

tirelesstraveler, Thank you, I know if that's what it turns out to be I will somehow face it. I won't have any choice will I? I really thank you for stopping by and I will try to hang in there.


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tirelesstraveler 4 years ago from California

moonlake, Breast cancer is not the end. If you get chosen to deal with it you will have the strength to go through it.

Hang in there. The whole year may seem terrible, but when you look back you see the marvel of it all. One thing you can count on its that things are going to change.


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moonlake 4 years ago from America Author

I know that can scare any woman. The only difference in this one from the one years ago, I didn't know that one was there.

This one I felt last week, I knew it felt strange. I was not surprised when she said the left side because that was where I had felt the lump. My sister-in-law has been dealing with breast cancer and I know what a hard time she has had with it.

I could get in there and they could say their wrong they read the mammo wrong.

I do have fibrocystic breast.


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writer20 4 years ago from Southern Nevada

I once had a scare, I mammo on a Friday and got a call at 6pm that to say they needed me to go for another the next Monday. You can imagine what that weekend was like.

It just proved they couldn't read the mammo correctly because I have masses in mine.


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moonlake 4 years ago from America Author

Thank you Joyce, I'm sure it will be ok. I know hubber friends will be pulling for me and I really appreciate it.

I have been through this once before years ago and it was ok. That time the mammogram was done by the clinic here. The lump showed up and the clinic here said they thought it would be ok. They thought!! I went to

another clinic and they did a needle biopsy. It was ok but I sure felt better having it checked.

I'm sure this will be ok.


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writer20 4 years ago from Southern Nevada

Moonlake, you have to stay positive, please. You know all your hubber friends are pulling for you.

Voted it up and interesting, Joyce.

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