Dad I miss you look for me

Look For Me Dad, For I Will Be There Too

Dad,

There are so many questions I have for you. I wish I could speak to you and you be able to answer me. What's it like there, daddy? What is heaven like? What was it like when you saw Jesus the first time? Jesus said He would wipe away all our tears, I could use that at this time. Daddy I remember your hands, I remember your strength. I remember you holding me as a child and saying it's ok. Daddy you calmed my trembling fears , not just by words but just by feeling your hardened hands turned to a gentle touch. Just feeling the strength of your arms around me was a comfort, it calmed any turmoil I had. No words had to be spoken. Is that what it is like with Jesus,daddy?

Oh dad, there is so much, so much I want to tell you. Most of all how much I love you, I miss you so much,daddy. I need to feel those arms around me again. Have you seen our loved ones there? Have you spoken with them and told them we miss them too?

Daddy growing up there were so many times you said,"That's my boy," whether I was good or bad right or wrong. The most treasured time was the first time you came to hear me preach. Dad it wasn't my best message I had ever given but you were glowing and in that big smile said,"that's my boy". What you cared about was your son preaching God's word., the gospel of Christ.

Dad there were so many times you were so hard on me, I thought you were so unfair. I did not know why I deserved to be scorned so hard. I did not understand why, why you were so seemingly cold to me. I do know now, you simply loved your boy. Daddy I am the man today that I am because of you. As I live on if I can be or ever come close to being the man you were, well then, I guess that ain't too bad. You were one of the most caring, loving, and giving of all men I ever knew.

Every time I saw you hold one of my children I felt it too, I felt those arms around me again. Daddy I remember crying one night as I was in bed, I missed you so much. The hours you worked were so very long, I was too little to understand. I thought you liked working so you would not have to be home. I thought you didn't want to come home and be around us. I laid there and cried myself to sleep, I tried to stay awake. I tried to hear you when you came home, but the crying exhausted me and I fell asleep. Daddy I thought you didn't want me. I thought you did not love or care for me, I did not know, I was too little, that you worked to provide for us, to take care of us. That night I saw the greatest gift ever of a daddy's love. You came in and woke me up, you pulled me to your chest into those strong arms and massive hands, rubbed my hair and said,"Son I love you and I have missed you too" It was only for a minute or so and you asked if I could now sleep. Then you tucked me back under my blankets. I have never felt so secure in all my life as that night. I pray to God of all the memories I may have and thoughts in time I will forget, that I will always remember your arms and hands. Arms like oaks, hands of stone, yet gentle caring and loving.


Conclusion

Oh daddy I have that security now, I am ok, Tammy's strength and love reminds me of you. I guess that's why I love her hands so much, I can just look at her hands and hold them and find strength.

And daddy I am right with God, I am doing His work again, soon to be full-time. I wish one more time I could call or stop by just to say hi I love you dad. There is a day coming I will. I know when the time is right God will bring us together again. I love you daddy, and dad, look for me for I will be there too. I love you so much, Michael

Preparing to preach in tent revival. Evangelist Dr. Terry VanBuskirk
Preparing to preach in tent revival. Evangelist Dr. Terry VanBuskirk
Open air preaching in Tallyride Park Bellefonte, Pa.
Open air preaching in Tallyride Park Bellefonte, Pa.

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cbcbrown 6 years ago

Very touching. I, too, miss my dad. You capture very well all the questions those of us still on earth have for our loved ones who have departed. Good luck with your pastoral endeavors! God bless!


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cjv123 6 years ago from Michigan

Bless your heart! How wonderful to have had such a blessing for a father! As I heard Beth Moore say at a Conference here in Michigan recently - "We are here on this earth for only about a half hour." You'll be spending eternity with Jesus, with your Daddy, in heaven. Bless you for writing such a very moving piece.


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Michael Adams1959 6 years ago from Wherever God leads us. Author

cjv Thank you for your kind words, I know I will be seeing dad soon, well soon in God's time


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ALL4JESUS 6 years ago from USA

Very moving. My miss my Dad daily. Thank you! Blessings to you and our family.


Brenda Durham 6 years ago

I'm about to cry! This is such a moving hub. Reminds me of my own Dad who's in Heaven and Amen we're gonna see our Dads there someday!


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K J Page 6 years ago from Pacific Northwest

It took everything I had to read this having just lost my father - My heart is joined with sadness


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Michael Adams1959 6 years ago from Wherever God leads us. Author

I do hope it helps some and Rusty Goodman wrote the song I quoted in here "Look For Me" and ends for I will be there too! God bless you KJ


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Terri Hee 6 years ago

Very beautiful thank you for telling me about it. I am sure it is how my husband feels as well. Yesterday he smoked a cigar in hopes to feel just a little closer to him. God Bless


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Michael Adams1959 6 years ago from Wherever God leads us. Author

Thank you Terri, a lot I do reminds me of how my dad did things


"Quill Again" 5 years ago

Hi Brother Michael... a wonderful tribute to a special man in your life. The love you share here is so real, thank you for sharing him with us all.

I lost my dad 6 years ago and think of him and the influence he has had in my life. They live on through us Brother, take comfort he is with you.

Blessings and Hugs


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Sinea Pies 5 years ago from Northeastern United States

My 84 yr old Dad is in the hospital right now. Lost both my moms (mom and mom-in-law) this year. We prayed with both before they left and I trust we will see them in heaven someday. Parents are so important in our lives and there is a big hole to fill when they leave. Very nice tribute to your dad. Thank you for sharing with us.


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Michael Adams1959 4 years ago from Wherever God leads us. Author

Quill,

I don't know how I missed your comment but thank you for it. Dad does still live on in my thoughts everyday.


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Michael Adams1959 4 years ago from Wherever God leads us. Author

Sinea,

Again as with Quill's comment, I don't know how I miss your comment but thank you for stopping in and reading this. Yes our parents are very important to us, I grew close to dad after I left home a lot of years ago. Miss him everyday but hold him dear.


Lindiwe nomlindy makhuyana 4 years ago

I also lost my dad 15years ago i was 2years old i dnt ivin noe his face but my momy told me a lot about him but now i cnt help it i thnk of him each and evry time i dnt noe who to talk to my momy is not around and i live with my brother but im afraid to talk to him about dad coz he neva tolked abt hm plz help me


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Michael Adams1959 4 years ago from Wherever God leads us. Author

Lindwe,

Talk to your brother it sounds like he is older share your feelings of wanting to know your dad, let him know remind him of how young you were when he died and you want to know about him, it can be a big and nerve shaking step but take it.


Kamalinder Jit Singh 4 years ago

Love you Dad, Missing you lot...!


Beth37 3 years ago

This was beautiful. Had me choked up.


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Michael Adams1959 3 years ago from Wherever God leads us. Author

Had me in tears writing this one. It took a long time to realize how much I loved my dad. I just thank God we found that before it was too late.


Beth37 3 years ago

I really appreciated it. At first I thought to myself that you were one of those ppl that had one of those awesome dads... but then as I kept reading, I saw he had faults like every dad. My dad caused me a lot of pain too, but it was so nice to see how much you revered him even with all his faults. Liked this a lot. :)


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Michael Adams1959 3 years ago from Wherever God leads us. Author

YEs dad had faults we all do. Dad and I when I was a teenager could n't be in the same room together or ever agreed on anything. We were so much alike. But after getting out on my own we grew very close and remained that way until his passing. I pray I can be half of the good hearted man he was.

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