Froggy's World Part Six

What Now?

I feel like a terrible Grandpa.

Please forgive me my little Jonathan.

I have found you no justice.

I have asked for help; I have wrote every person I would think could help to no avail.

My heart aches my Grandson; it aches for you.

Since that creep murdered you Bruiser, I now have two more Grandchildren and another on the way. One would be your half-brother. I love and adore them all, but my heart will always ache for you Jonathan.

I will still drive with your picture and a sign that says " Will Laclede County Allow This Baby's Death To Go Unpunished?" until the day I die. Why won't they help? I have wrote, talked, Pleaded and prayed. I have seen nothing but more children dying and being abused. Why God, WHY???

I have dreams that are unmentionable. A child killer walks free and no one really gives a shit.

I very well could have got revenge, but I chose to do everything legal. Now I wonder if I was correct in doing so.

Because of this battle, I was let go from my employment a long time ago. I am working again but took a major pay-cut. Many people have even voiced that I have taken this battle for Jonathan Boudonck's Justice much too far. Have I ????

I am down and out. I don't know where to turn now.

Do people care about children anymore?

When I see children, I just wonder if they are being abused.

I wish I could take all the children to our own special island where I know they would be safe.

Don't let me ever catch anyone abusing a child. That would be the end of being "legal" I think.

Jonathan, I have faith you still hear the words I write and speak. I know God is in control, but I just wonder why He would allow all of this.

I write these words to get off a lot that has been eating me lately. I pray and hope that no man will have to ever face the feelings I have.

Many people told me it would get easier after time. Nope, I don't think so. If justice would be served, maybe; but it is harder with no justice.

David M. Olson--if you read this you worthless waste of skin; know that you have an ultimate penalty to face. You murdered my 23 month old grandson and you have the nerve to live just an hour or less from me. I pray you sick bastard, that you come to a place where you tell the truth. Jonathan could not have fallen hard enough to kill himself. You tortured him you sick bastard. You were jealous of Jonathan because he wasn't your son and he took my daughter away from you.

I must say that I haven't forgiven Olson for what he did. How anyone could forgive for this ultimate crime baffles me, but to each their own.

Enough of this before I have a panic attack.

Does anyone have any ideas what I can do now?

The prosecutor won't talk.

News agencies have quit asking about Jonathan.

All I have is my truck and sign. I get waves and smiles, but no justice.

I long for that day I can hold you again Jonathan--Oh, I long for that day!

Jonathan"Bruiser"Boudonck
Jonathan"Bruiser"Boudonck

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Kaie Arwen 6 years ago

You're a wonderful Grandpa.............. love is all that matters.

Jonathan watches with the angels............. you will see him again, and my prayers are with you.

K


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AEvans 6 years ago from SomeWhere Out There

Froggy, I know it is hard to forgive but Jesus had forgiven seventy-times-seven. My recommendation is to write your Congressman, the Governor, or famous Joe Arpaio he may know someone, somewhere. Everyone hates our Sheriff but he is completely against child abuse. A young lady here has just gotten life in prison and is not eligible for parole until she is 70 for killing an innocent 3-year old boy. Her mother's plea was she was depressed and Bi-Polar. When you take a child's life expect life she beat that little boy to death, listening to the news it was horrifying. I will keep your family in prayer and no matter how hard it is , embrace those other grandbabies with all of your heart, mind and soul. Do it for Jonathon he certainly would not wish for his grandfather to be in so much pain.

Last but not least try to talk to the radio stations, contact Washington, D.C. no matter how hard it is write the President and keep writing until you can an answer for someone. God Bless


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Teresa Laurente 6 years ago from San Antonio, Texas, U.S.A.

Wohoo. Wonderful Grandpa. Isn't it a joy to step in a baby's life? For it is only a split second, when you turn around they are out there and embarrassed to be kissed in the crowd.

Great hubs.


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TrixieGator 6 years ago

i have no words only sorrow for what jonathan suffered for your loss..may justice be found ~may peace embrace you~


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Froggy213 6 years ago from On A Mountain In Puerto Rico Author

Thank you my dear friends. Thank you and may God bless you all.


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revivor 6 years ago from London

Hi Froggy

You have a balance here - justice and mercy.

Also between you and your grandson (the killer will take your "life" as well if you don't restore some balance).

Every blessing in however you decide to proceed, revivor


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Thebrowneyedgirl 3 years ago

So sorry to read this... I know it must be one of the hardest things to go through.. Was an autopsy done? Could they get some proof for you to bring justice to this case? Have you reported what you know to the police so they don't just assume your grandson's death was accidental? Sorry for all the questions.. As long as you did everything you can do, you have to know that this crime will not go unpunished.. God will take care of that.. You can not keep hate for this man in your heart, it won't destroy him it will destroy you.. I understand how you must feel and pray that you can find a way to forgive him so you can heal.. pray also for your grandson.. know that he is with God..

Take care;

Diana

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    In 2007, Greg's 23 month old Grandson was killed. At that point, he found a need to write about his family, crime, and local issues.



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