LITTLE BROTHER

My little Brother


LITTLE BROTHER

 

Born too late to be a part

Of sibling rivalry and

Matters that start

To frame the difference

From one to another

You were set apart

My little brother


Into a home with little care

Our mother worked

She was rarely there

To hold you close as you cried yourself to sleep

In my hands you were left

Your well being to keep


Bright eyes that smiled

So promising and new

It would only be a while

Before these were sad, too


Left alone in your crib

In darkness you lie

When I wasn't there to help,

In darkness did you cry.


Your father, not mine

Was distant and uncaring

Extremely unkind

Not one for sharing


Emotion, love and empathy

For one so young,

He showed no sympathy

In my hands, your fate hung


No child should endure this

No one should hurt so

If I had but one wish

It would make your pain go.


Alone in our youth

So tender and raw

Yet, still I refused

To give you the short straw

For, through no fault of your own

Born into a family untied

I looked after you Little Brother

I stood by your side.


Years came and years went

It’s all a blur now

Childhood spent

Wondering why and how

Such a lack could provide

The needs of a little lad

Who never enjoyed the comfort

Of a mom and a dad.


Still, to this day,

You carry the cross

Of a childhood

Filled with loss

For there was little joy

In the life of a little boy.


Where are you, baby brother?

These many years hence?

What are your days like?

How is your time spent?


I’ve not heard from you baby bro.

I fear what might be

I surely wish to know

Would you please, please contact me?


The last thing I heard

Was that you’d traveled up north

But nary a word

No effort has come forth


You know where I live

You know how to reach me

To you, I'll gladly give

If you would only beseech me.

A call or a note

An “I’m ok sis…"

Will you, please, find the time

To simply do this?


I love you, Jamie.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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marellen 5 years ago

I feel your pain and hope you do hear from your little bro. Very heartfelt poem.


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A.A. Zavala 5 years ago from Texas

Such a beautiful poem. Wondering about a lost boy, hoping for the best, wishing him safety and health. I hope you get your call, and all is well.


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saddlerider1 5 years ago

I know what loneliness feels like. I was that boy in many ways, alone in my room, parents who fought, drank and abused. Your bro was given a raw deal and you his wonderful sister raised him with LOVE and a heart so true. I commend you for being there for him when others were not.

Yes he would have grown with those deep hurts and scars, somehow the soul always retains hurt and sorrow and it comes forth when we least expect it later in our lives. I have my own skeletons often coming from my closets, thus I write of them.

I pray that you and your bro connect and that he feels your sorrow and tenderness in his soul, I know our spirits connect in the Universe and hopefully his reconnects back to you and a glimpse of your Aura is felt in his soul.

Brothers and sisters need to give support and stay in each others hearts ALWAYS. Peace to you my sister in spirit, please let us all know when he reconnects. I am waiting for the Happy reunion to happen. Lovely poem, I pressed all your buttons.


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vietnamvet68 5 years ago from New York State

HI Kathy - This is so beautiful, I hope and pray that your little brother will someday find you. So sorry that you lost contact with him. Here is hoping that someday you will have that reunion.

God Bless


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MartieCoetser 5 years ago from South Africa

Lucky Cats, this is so sad! Your pain is almost the same as that of a mother who has lost contact with her son, because you were, although with the limitations of a girl, psycologically your brother’s mother. No wonder you mourn his absence in your life. I hope with all my heart your brother will soon realize how precious you were/are and contact you.


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TKs view 5 years ago from The Middle Path

Hey Lucky Cats,

Wonderful expression of heart felt emotion.

Makes me wonder a bit if the person you are today, with the deep compassion for the helpless animals, was brought out in you by having to care for your young brother. Or did he choose his family, knowing you would be there to aid him in his early years because of the depth of spirit you evoke.

Either way, no matter what the future holds, know you've fulfilled your part of the bargin by doing all you did.

Caring about others so much, can be a lot of hard work. Never doubt your reward will come.


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Seeker7 5 years ago from Fife, Scotland

Oh Lucky Cats this is awesome. You have me in tears here with your heartfelt words. It is sad when contact is lost but you have played your part and given this lad a better start in life than either his Mum or Dad did. He does have his own road to follow now, but I hope that one day it brings him back to you. Voted up + awesome!


Sunnie Day 5 years ago

Dear Friend,

I pray you find him soon so that you can tell him all the things that is on your heart..such a heartfelt hub and sad..brought tears to my eyes..my mom was one like your brother..set apart and immense loneliness..it is a hard situation..I pray for restoration of this relationship between you and him..Don't give up!

Love,

Sunnie


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Hi Marellen! So pleased you have visited this poem. I sure hope my little brother does contact me...now that I'm back in Calif for a while, old memories and unfinished business is surfacing. thank you so much for the kind thoughts.

Augustine...hello my sensitive friend...I hope I get that call, too! It's been years.

Although an adult now, he will always be my little brother....and I know how and what he tends to go through in this life. Thank you my friend Augustine.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Saddlerider, my dear man. Believe me when I say that I know you know about what I've written here. Reading your poems, it is clear that you and my little brother share some of the pangs of an unfunfilled and, sometimes, mean childhood. Jamie's father is different than mine; my second step father. A strange one! I hope you know that I empathize with you and definitely do see your hurt in the words you sometimes write. Beautifully, btw.

I understand the connection he and I (and all of us, actually) share in this Universe. during times when I fervently wish to comfort another; and I am not physically with them, I imagine my soul; 'light' surrounding them..with love and tenderness. With all living beings, I send this, sometimes, when I feel the need.

Yes, Brothers and sisters should keep together..we are blood and that DOES mean something. Thank you, kind sir.

Yes, I hope my little brother contacts me...I worry about him.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Hi Steve...thank you so much my friend. I truly appreciate your sentiment and kind words. I sure hope he calls me ... I don't know where he is or how he is. He has his own PTS...in a way....it consumes him sometimes. Thank you, Steve...

MartieCoester...hello my friend. Yes, you are absolutely right...I have always felt like Jamie's mom...he spent his entire childhood in my room; I'd get up w/him in the middle of the night, keep care of all his needs...while mom worked and step father was whatever/wherever he was! Before my mother passed away and my little brother and I were adults, she made me promise two things....watch after her cat, BabyCat..and my little brother...even as an adult, she know he would have a rough time. Thank you for the kind words and support. Kathy

TK...you are probably right...I can't help that I feel deeply for those in need. Sometimes, it's almost debilitating...you are astoundingly insightful...I read your latest hub and felt I needed to think a bit before commenting, so deep it is. And, you carry this depth of understanding the Universe and people into comments. I value your intuition and innate spirituality...in the fullest. Thank you for your kind words, TK.

Seeker..thank you for such sweet words..right now, I feel like I've 'dropped the ball!' I should know where he is and how he is. Being back in Ca...I'm closer to the last time we saw one another and those hours and days are right in the forefront of consciousness. Thank you many times over for your nice words and understanding.

SUNNIE, when I think of love and light and true truth....I think of you. Heartfelt comes from a very deep and strong sense of unconditional love and you have it within you. I am sorry that your mama was a kindred soul to my little brother...theirs is a terribly difficult row to hoe. My brother's demons rear their ugly heads often which is why I worry about hin so...and too much time has passed..Bless you, Sunnie, for the love you share to the world. It's very good to know it. Your friends are fortunate, indeed. Your friend, Kathy


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Peggy W 5 years ago from Houston, Texas

Hi Lucky Cats,

So sad when family members drift apart and I truly hope that you and your little brother reconnect someday soon. Have you tried People Search? Perhaps you can find him via the Internet? Hopefully he is thinking of you as you are of him and that you have a happy reunion. You are such a kind soul. It was not a surprise in reading your other hubs that you nurtured your baby brother as well as the animals present in your life today as well as the past.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Hi Peggy...you are right, it is a shame that we drift apart. Ideally, families would be closer both physically and emotionally but, sadly, this is not so much the way it is anymore. Thank you Peggy, for your warm words...very very much appreciated. I sure hope and wish he'd call or something. I've checked online at different times..in all the areas I know he was (at least for a while)...no information. It's a pretty bad situation...he may have no means and so, he's fallen off the grid. I'll keep trying though. thank you my friend, Peggy.


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Alastar Packer 5 years ago from North Carolina

Oh God Kathy.can't reply here. Just..this is one of the most precious..talk with you later ok.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Ok Alastar


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writer20 5 years ago from Southern Nevada

Great poem. It remind me of my younger sister born 10 years after me, I used to take her to school and lots of other things. I was in my teens and had little patience for her. But now we are good Friends and talk often even though she lives in Florence Italy and I'm here in the U.S.


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Eiddwen 5 years ago from Wales

Oh Kathy, my heart actually aches for you after reading this one my dear friend.

I have some uderstanding of your pain because my beautiful sister Val was missing for a very long time,it was so painful but again we learn to live with it.

I hope Kathy from the bottom of my heart that you two find each other again.He has a beautiful smile and how richer his life would be if you do.

You are a beautiful person and so loving and kind,so from my heart I send you love and hugs.

I hope that you and Jamie get back in touch and never ever give up .

Take care my friend

Eiddwen.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Hi Writer! I am so happy for you that you and your sister are reunited and have a good relationship. Really, there's nothing like family; I fear we forget too often just how valuable our family members are. think of it...we are "one' in the sense that we share the same parents which means we are actually a part of one another..physically as well as emotionally. Pretty astounding, really.

Eiddwen...you are the essence of love, my dear Eiddwen...empathetic and caring...it is so evident in all the beautiful words you've shared with us in your wonderful writing and through your thoughtful comments. A gem! You and Sunnie Day...amazing !!!!! How lucky can one be to have found such loving souls in this lifetime? Thank you a thousand times over for just being you!!!


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Movie Master 5 years ago from United Kingdom

I do hope you find each other again.

I feel your loss and pain and pray you will.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Thank you Movie Master...so do I. It's been far too long.


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always exploring 5 years ago from Southern Illinois

Kathy, Your poetry is beautiful and very touching. I want to say, " Don't give up " but i know you won't. Maybe when he's a little older he will remember the loving care you gave him. I believe when a person feels strongly enough about someone or something, it can reach that person. Take care my friend.


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Truckstop Sally 5 years ago

You were a child yourself when you tried to nurture him. Somewhere, somehow -- he knows that! Families are not always easy, but he became your brother for a reason. Keep the positive thoughts alive. Hopefully, he will come home to your love soon.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Hi Ruby! You know, I agree with you about caring and feeling deeply enough that the energy from those feelings can reach another person, specially one who is loved. I hope you're right...he must remember that he ALWAYS has a home wherever I am..Love you my friend.

Hi Sally! You are so right...families are not always easy! Amen! And, yes! 'he became my brother for a reason.' I'm right there! i truly believe these realities...that there is so much more than what we see..I shall always expect to hear from him...thank you so much for the positive reinforcement! Your friend, Kathy


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Angie Jardine 5 years ago from Cornwall, land of the eternally youthful mind ...

I'm not good with poetry, LC ... I'm too down to earth usually. But your poem moved me immensely and I cried at the thought of that lost boy. Thank heavens you were there for him ... I do hope he gets in touch.

Bless ...


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marcoujor 5 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

Sweet Kathy,

I am truly at a loss (most unusual for me) at the depths of which you have reached into your soul to write this powerful message to Jamie. I know in life that things happen for a reason. You gave your brother his roots and I am fervently praying that one day you will be reunited. I believe you will; and you are one of the most amazingly beautiful women I know, inside and out, mar.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Hi Angie! I know..the hurt for another runs very very deep. I can feel the stabs and dismay at rejection, being ignored, being unvalued. So many years later, when I think of it, it is as if his pain is mine..I know that sounds cliche or whatever but, believe me, it is true. Little children and animals should NEVER be subjected to anything less than absolute, unconditional love. Thank you for the visit and kind words, Angie.

Mar...my sweet and understanding friend and soul mate for animals and children..I know you completely and totally empathize with this. Poor little guy..it was a tough childhood for him and the influences of that time have never left...he never healed. This is what hurts the most; he is still that little guy wondering why? It is as if time hasn't passed. But it has..and I don't know where he is and how he is.

thank you my extremely kind friend, Mar. Bless you 1000 times!


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA

Hi Kathy,

Gosh, I sure hope Jamie contacts you so that you can feel at peace knowing that he is okay. Have you tried Facebook, getting a message out there some how? This is a tough situation to be in and I pray you get your answers soon. Big hugs,

Sharyn


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Hi Sharyn...yes, I've Googled him and looked under White Pages and other avenues...I haven't tried FB..he isn't the type to do FB...a little cynical. But, I'll give it a try...last I heard, he was in Seattle. That was about a year ago. Before that, N. Calif...Arcata. Thanks for the suggestions and the kind comment. I'm here in Ca...until the end of Aug. and, since I'm alone (Al stayed in Kansas to keep care of the animals)...I have lots of time to think and muse and worry!! And old 'ghosts' arise...he's an adult, now but, still that hurt little boy, too. Thank you Sharyn.


We Save Cats 5 years ago

Hi Kiddo

After reading all these comments to your beautiful poem, I really have to say that you are, indeed, a very lucky cat.

All is fine here in the heartless land, watch your mail on Fri. or sat., Little one sent you a gift.

We love you Kathy.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Oh...you''re reading my mind Al...I thoughgt of talking online during your lunch hour or because this is a half day for you but I've missed you. DAMN ATT phone is STILL not working..I just got the replacement battery...no good! I'm going w/vonage for the rest of my time here..I'm tired of dealing w/their ineptitude. Did you hear my message of this am? I was using Richard's phone again..lots of patience, that man! I'll check the email and see if you sent me one...started at HP's as I always do...it's 2:28 here...Giants are 2 to Prates 5! UGH! I wish we could TALK...how is Honey BearI? I'm concerned about him, Al

Yes, I am very very lucky...so many fabulous people here..just as I've told you..it's a big family of love. I love you and give all my babies a big hug...God, I miss you guys!!! LOve


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Alastar Packer 5 years ago from North Carolina

Kathy you remember how I found my maternal family. With one key piece of info and a lot of detective work AND the right way to go about it..well, it happened. This is one of the most touching poems and sentiments ever and I'd like to help you. But what if you found a situation that would hurt you and wouldn't help Jamie either. I wish you both could be reunited euphorically. Really do. Maybe at the right time it'll happen but you can't dwell on it if its hurting. Your a little lonely now thats plain to see. Godspeed to your reuniting with Al and all your babies soon.}{


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Hi Alastar. I fear that I might not want to know the answer to this dilemma...I fall into the trap of thinking that I can cure all his ills and fix it for him...I should know better...I couldn't in the past and why would it have changed? We all know that, in truth, no one can 'fix' another...that has to come from each one of us. A little love and support surely wouldn't hurt, though. I just want to hold him and help him to just 'let go' of the intensity he is always living with..just let it go if only for a moment... Your thoughts are always very important to me, Alastar, and I thank you! I think it's time to let this one rest for a while..don't want to allow this sadness to permeate and overcome all the truly wonderful parts of this life....like the many special friends I have met here...my beautiful home, the deer who live in my back yard, my renewed friendships here in my home town and a special and very valued friend I have in you.


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Alastar Packer 5 years ago from North Carolina

Your right about letting it rest Kathy. When we get overwhelmed by concerns or just plain out being tired and not thinking at optimal capacity we say, do or WRITE things that on reflection we regret. True friends know their friends aren't perfect and make mistakes on matters they're sorry for after the fact. Friends should just disregard those lapses in judgment. Let it rest for now and in future if the time is right he may find you or someone will help you find him. All good things in time sweet lady.}{


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Victoria Lynn 5 years ago from Arkansas, USA

beautiful! How did you lose total touch with him? I hope you find him, or he finds you. Who did the drawing in your hub? thanks for touching me again with your poetry. I am so protective of my little brothers, so this does strike a chord in my heart--to think of not being able to contact them is very painful


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Hi Victoria..thank you so much for your visit and concern and understanding. ( I did the drawing of Jamie ) Well, we lost contact a little over a year ago; I moved out of state and he did, as well. It's a long story...I hope we do reconnect soon. I am very protective of him but, he "got away" when I wasn't looking. Appreciate your kind words!


Binaya.Ghimire 5 years ago

I want to share this poetry with my brother on his birthday


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Hello Binaya.Ghimire..you are more than welcome to share this poem. I am very pleased if you would do so. thank you.


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prasetio30 5 years ago from malang-indonesia

Brother...oh..brother. Unfortunately I don't have brother. But I met my new brothers from this community. I love this poem. Up and beautiful. Cheers......

Prasetio


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

I love that you "met your new brothers from this community." that is very very wonderful, prasetio! This makes me happy and I share your feelings. so many wonderful and kind people here who lend their support and love. thank you for kind and caring words!


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Nell Rose 5 years ago from England

Hi, this is a lovely poem, and so sad, I do hope he contacts you, if only to make you feel better, you must be so worried, take care, nell


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Thank you, Nell Rose...yes, this is difficult and I just don't know where or how he is...or even, if he is...it's a heartbreak. Thank you so much...and, I've wanted to say that your profile picture is so warm...such a genuinely kind smile...in your eyes. Just lovely. So glad you found time to visit this poem for Jamie.

sincerely, Kathy


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SubRon7 5 years ago from eastern North Dakota

Boy, Lucky Cats, you know how to make someone cry. And don't worry about your ability to write. Your profile is written really well, and I've already described how I feel about your poetry. And thank you for the follow.

Oh, and I applaud what you are doing for our animal kindred; also it's wonderful to find a partner to care as you do.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Subron, thank you so much for this kind comment. I am sorry that it brought tears but I am very pleased that you can relate that deeply. This world, sometimes, is just not fair...yes, I know you are a kindred soul when it comes to animals..very much so. Again, thank you for the kind words and comment. Kathy


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epigramman 5 years ago

...well out of 886 hubs I have only written one myself that was autobiographical or personal (that piece was posted about 8 months ago) and it basically wrote itself -that is how I feel about your moving poetic ode here - that it basically wrote itself - which makes even more personal and intimate because I see the dynamics here in your relationship with your brother and how you are reaching out to him through these most potent and powerful words.

Well my friend you have long since been one of my favorite writers here at the Hub since we met - it would be hard to imagine this time we shared -without you my essential friend and colleague.

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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Thank you so much Eman...you know, of course, that I treasure your support and understanding. Very lucky am I to have such a friend. Yes, it is difficult; this dilemma about my little brother. I still see him as the innocent, sweet and wide eyes little boy I drew so long ago; now, of course, he's almost middle aged and, yet, he is still that lost little boy. I hope to locate him sometime soon. And, I hope that, after reading all the discussion about The Sycophant, YOU know that YOU are not the subject or the Sycophant..you do, don't you? Much love and thank you for this wonderfully beautiful comment, Eman. Kathy


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jimcrowthers 4 years ago from Port Charlotte

Wow, very emotional and engaging. I'm glad I stopped by to read and share your feelings with you.


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Lucky Cats 4 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Hi Jim Crothers. I'm glad you liked this poem for my little brother. Since writing this...about 2 months ago, I received a phone call telling me of his location. So, my greatest fears have been silenced. Of all my writing, it is interesting that you picked this one...I often wonder, when someone who has never read my writing before, what leads them to a particular title. interesting. Thank you for your visit and comment.


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Horatio Plot 4 years ago from Bedfordshire, England.

Well Lucky, what led me here was the title.

You look for things you can relate too.

You see I'm a Baby Brother with a Big Sister. Fifteen years younger. Same parents and still as close as when I was born (even though I'm now 53).

There's a line in the Beautiful South song, "We Are Each Other", that goes, "Closer than a sister to her baby brother."

That says it all really. It's a bond that can't be broken.

A lovely poem.

I hope you two find each other again.


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Lucky Cats 4 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Hi Horatio Plot...I wonder if you remember the title of the song from which you quoted several lines here? I'd love to know. Yes, my little brother is 11 years my junior, and, to this day; I still feel like he's just a kid. I do know where he is now; about 2 months ago, I received a phone call w/the information..since then, we've been in contact a little. Long story. thank you for the kind comment. Very appreciated.


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Horatio Plot 4 years ago from Bedfordshire, England.

"We Are Each Other", by The Beautiful South.


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Lucky Cats 4 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Ahhhh, thank you, Horatio Plot!

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