Life without a father

Daddy I needed you (poem)

I think this explains my feelings as a child in a broken family.


My Life Without Daddy

Growing up, I felt alone

Not for pity, but for real

Although I had a family

They were all too high to feel


I cherished every hug they gave

And every loving kiss

But forever chased their approval

For all that they had missed


I begged for someone to love me

Like I deserved to be loved

But every time I tried, I fell

I was never good enough


I love my family with all my heart

And I know they love me too

But the hurt and lies continue today

What am I to do?


All my life I dreamt of having a daddy

To watch me dance and play

And even if he was bored

He would watch and smile all day!


I wanted a daddy to teach me

About life's responsibilities

Not answer me with "I don't know"

And leave the big bad world up to me


I should've been taught to love myself

And perservere through it all

But nobody told me I could do it

Or held me up after a fall


I was taught to run away

When things in life were bad

My family wonders why I struggle

Who wouldn't, with five step-fathers and no dad?


I feel like a burden

One day happy, one day not

Nobody seems to understand

Life's not just learned, it is taught


They can say what they want

About my decisions and my life

But they all raised me and knew about dad

And told themselves that lying to me was allright.


A dad alone wouldn't have changed

Everything negative I have seen

But MY dad would've stayed at home

And read a book to me.


by,

Jamie Toberman

1-7-09

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MissJamieD 7 years ago from Minnes-O-ta Author

lafenty--Sorry to hear that your children are struggling, but it's just part of the natural healing process. I assume they will eventually start growing emotionally stronger and stronger, as I have, and then everyone around you can get some sleep....lol...I don't mean to make light of the situation but I know in my situation, I've affected everyone around me with my struggle. We're all finally beginning to be able to breathe a little, now that I've met my siblings and spent time in my fathers "safe haven" (his woodshop) I feel healed in so many ways.


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lafenty 7 years ago from California

Beautiful poem. Having raised four kids without a father, I see them struggling with some of the same things you mentioned. Thanks for sharing your feelings.


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Lgali 7 years ago

always welcome keep up more writing


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MissJamieD 7 years ago from Minnes-O-ta Author

Thank you so much Lgali. You're always here with a kind word. Much appreciated:)

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