Our Forged Eternal Moment

Our daughter, Angie.
Our daughter, Angie. | Source

Her silent entrance

Silently she entered ghostly, softly sleeping in my arms.
I trembled looking prophetically how to assassinate her harms.
But such qualms of manly debut are foolish but for a few.
In awe I gazed at her pretty face raised and started breathing again.

Time's rusty, dusty door opens crinkly, crank.
With scents of darkness, dangers and failures so rank.

In a moment forged

Time's rusty, dusty door opens crickly, crank.
With scents of darkness, dangers and failures so rank.

Behold ageless, nameless sands of our time crept slowly
Manly-fears, fighting fiery tears, feeling helpless and lowly.
In one moment, an eternity was forged binding us in good.
In rain, pain, and all kinds of stains, for her I'd die on my own blood.

Time's rotten, forgotten door opens wider taunting, daunting
Her in young woman's shoes, I shake hands with the "blues"
Groping for life's muse, a joker's ruse, and living without one clue.
I catch a breath, fight off a death and give a woven smile.

She left as she entered . . .silent ghostly breaths she had taken
Leaving me without light, darkness of night, and mistakenly-forsaken.
I breathe and cautiously exhale knowing . . .
She's in her perfect place: In her Master's face . . .
Finally finished her busied race.

Angie with one of her three children, Annabeth Mackenzie. She also has Alexis Cameron and John Gabriel Nash.
Angie with one of her three children, Annabeth Mackenzie. She also has Alexis Cameron and John Gabriel Nash. | Source

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janshares 9 months ago from Washington, DC

Too heavy for words. All I offer is condolence. Courageous work, Kenneth. God bless the children.


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Kiss andTales 9 months ago

I love your expression and tribute ! Wonderful pictures of your daughter.

Thank you for sharing your heart.


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kenneth avery 9 months ago from Hamilton, Alabama Author

Hi, janshares,

"Thank you so much for your sweet comment. And for your condolence. God be with and bless you and your work and life."

Your Friend Always,

Kenneth


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kenneth avery 9 months ago from Hamilton, Alabama Author

Dear Kiss and Tales,

"I have no words to express my thanks and appreciation to you as well for your wonderful, comforting words."

"You two are wonderful friends as well as followers."

God bless you, Kiss and Tales!

Your Friend for Life,

Kenneth


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Kiss andTales 9 months ago

You know Kenneth I am so greatful to hear from you, I appreciate your example of your strength and courage during this most troublesome time , you are touching many hearts everyime you write to us, Thank you and may Jehovah continue to be your strength.

We will always be the best of friends.


Kenneth Avery 9 months ago

1:08 a.m., Wednesday

Dear Kiss and Tales,

"Thank you, dear friend, for your kind words and kindest of hearts. You are a true, genuine friend and I do not have many TRUE friends. I have been hurt and betrayed like everyone else, and you have never offended me in any way. You just build me up with your wonderful spirit."

"I pray that God blesses you richly and you can write me anytime you like and to me, You are my BEST Friend."

Love you, Kenneth


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Kiss andTales 9 months ago

Thanks Kennerh you know the feeling is mutual from my heart.


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ChitrangadaSharan 9 months ago from New Delhi, India

It is too difficult to say anything and I am short of words. All I can say is I offer my condolences. May God give enough strength to you and your family .

Very Courageous of you to express your touching tribute here. Your daughter looks beautiful and she must be watching you.

God bless the children! 'HE' takes care of everyone!


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sallybea 9 months ago from Norfolk

Beautiful, a wonderful tribute to your daughter, blessing to you and yours.


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ahorseback 9 months ago

This is almost too hard to read . I am sorry for the pain , remember always though the awesome , amazing beauty of her life .....Ed


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Jodah 9 months ago from Queensland Australia

A touching tribute to your daughter, Kenneth. I don't know how I would handle a similar situation but I am glad you are writing again, and you are among friends here. Writing hubs is as good a therapy as any. Well done.


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MizBejabbers 9 months ago

She's beautiful, Kenneth. This was a wonderful tribute to her. I know you have a heavy heart and I can send only love to you. I can't imagine what it would be like to lose a child. I hope your health is improving, too. God bless you and yours.


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kenneth avery 9 months ago from Hamilton, Alabama Author

Dear Kiss and Tales,

"Thank you so very much for all of your caring comments. May God shine His love on your this day."


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kenneth avery 9 months ago from Hamilton, Alabama Author

MizBejabbers,

"Thanks, dear friend, for your touching comment. Yes, I do have a heavy heart. It is as if she is on a two-week vacation and will return soon. Oh, I know that she, along with other believers, will return with Christ when He returns to earth, but I was referring to the physical state of life."

"Love may be the ONLY thing WE all have to send others who are also suffering, but isn't love a priceless gift of Our Maker?"

"Love you, Kenneth"


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kenneth avery 9 months ago from Hamilton, Alabama Author

Hi, ChitrangadaSharan,

"Thank you, dear friend, for your warm thoughts during this time of personal bereavement. I can only say 'thank you' right now, but I know that as nice as you are, you will understand."


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kenneth avery 9 months ago from Hamilton, Alabama Author

Hello, Sallybea,

"Thank you for your sweet comments about Angie. I know that she is looking down from Heaven saying, 'I wish they wouldn't make a fuss over me,' for she did not care for the spotlight. I always envied her for that and her many gifts."

"Love Always, Kenneth"


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kenneth avery 9 months ago from Hamilton, Alabama Author

Afternoon, Jodah,

"You are correct. 'We' never know what we will do when faced with a situation like this, but you would be surprised at how much pain one can endure by simply kneeling before an all-knowing, all-loving God and saying, 'I am inadequate, weakest of the weak and not able to handle this, so I seek you and your guidance and wisdom."

"This, I now know from a personal viewpoint."

"Jodah, my friend, you keep up the great hubbing."

Kenneth


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kenneth avery 9 months ago from Hamilton, Alabama Author

ahorseback,

"Do not feel bad. I almost did not publish this piece. But I offer you a personal thanks for your support and kindness."


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kenneth avery 9 months ago from Hamilton, Alabama Author

@ ALL HUBBERS WHO COMMENTED ON THIS HUB:

"Thank you ALL, for taking the time to leave me such sweet and caring comments. They all helped me face another day. I pray earnestly that God (over) blesses you all in this and all the days forward."

"Your Friend for Life,"

Kenneth


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grand old lady 9 months ago from Philippines

Dear Kenneth,

I can't imagine what you went through after writing this. You are such a good man, and I condole with your loss and your sadness. God bless and keep you and hold you close in his heart. Keep the faith. Smother God with all your tears and sadness and grief, and he will turn your grief into better days to come. Sometimes we don't know why, but we know God is in control, and that's all we need.


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clivewilliams 9 months ago from Nibiru

Its never easy to loose a loved one, feels like you are a walking shell and nothing else mtters in the world. For many it brings us a little humbler to appreciate the things we take for granted, it makes us want to do or say the things we never said. Things like: I love you, i appreciate you, i am glad you are apart of me. May your spirit be strengthened and her soul find loving peace.


Kenneth Avery 9 months ago

Grand Old Lady,

Thanks so much for your supportive comments. You and your heart-felt words are much-appreciated.

Your Friend for Life, Kenneth


Kenneth Avery 9 months ago

clivewilliams,

I really appreciate your comment concerning the passing of my daughter. And she would protest (if she isn't already) for people making so much of this. She was very conservative and loved it.

Thanks, from my heart, for being my friend and this goes to

Grand Old Lady as well.

Your Life-Long Friend,

Kenneth


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myrtle McKinley 9 months ago

Hi Kenneth,

I have not been on HubPages for such a long time. Having just logged in the other day I was so sad to hear of your tragic loss and read your very moving tribute. My heart goes out to you as losing a child has got to be the greatest tragedy perpetrated on the human soul of all parents. It is not what nature ever intended.

I lost both my parents 10 months apart in 2011 and the poem that got me through and helped my excrutiating greiving was the one which I will type here..... We are NEVER resigned but must cling to all the precious memories....My thoughts and prayers are with you loving father.

myrtle Mckinley

Dirge Without Music

by Edna St. Vincent Millay

I am not resigned to the shutting away of loving hearts in the hard ground.

So it is, and so it will be, for so it has been, time out of mind:

Into the darkness they go, the wise and the lovely.

Crowned with lillies and laurel they go; but I am not resigned.

Lovers and thinkers, into the earth you go.

To be one with the dull, the indiscriminate dust.

A fragment of what you felt, of what you knew.

The answers quick and keen, the honest look, the laughter, the love-

They are gone. They are gone to feed the roses. Elegant and curled is the blossom. Fragrant is the blossom. I know. But I do not approve.

More precious was the light in your eyes than all the roses in the world.

Down into the darkness of the grave

Gently they go, the beautiful, the tender, the kind;

Quietly they go, the intelligent, the witty, the brave

I know. But I do not approve and I am not resigned.


Kenneth Avery 9 months ago

Hi, Myrtle,

"Thank you oh so much for your comforting words. May God bless you and all of the areas of your life."

"I LOVED this poem. And if you check my hubs, you will find several Abstract/Prose works that have moved me to tears such as this one."

"I wish I had the words and gifts to repay you and ALL on this hub who have helped me with their inspirational words and thoughts."

"And it was nice to meet you, Myrtle. I am sorry for your loss as well."

Kenneth


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Jennifer Mugrage 9 months ago from Columbus, Ohio

Angie was a lucky young lady to have such a loving father.


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kenneth avery 9 months ago from Hamilton, Alabama Author

Dear Jennifer,

"Words elude me to aptly thank you for your sweet comment. I am honest. This IS the roughest stretch of road I have trod in 62 years, but Angie is in a far better place than are now."

"And as for the hub, " . . .Just What is She Thinking?", I am totally-sorry for your mixed feelings about that one. I left you an apology on the comment boxes at bottom."

"I am emotionally spent and having to fight for what sanity I have left."

"I am not making excuses. I take responsibility for the hubs you and others may not like. We are all different."

"My three new hubs that I have in the hopper, so to speak, are more tuned to my tongue in cheek style of hubbing."

"Thank you, Jennifer, for being my friend and follower."

Your Friend for Life,

Kenneth


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bravewarrior 8 months ago from Central Florida

Kenneth, my heart bleeds for you. I can't imagine losing a child. I only have one and I'd be devastated if I lost him. You are very brave to put your heart on your sleeve. I think I'd probably do the same.

God bless you and the children your daughter left behind. Healing takes time, no matter the wound. Be kind to yourself and allow yourself to grieve. Only then will you be able to move forward.


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kenneth avery 8 months ago from Hamilton, Alabama Author

Dearest bravewarrior,

I have been blessed in knowing you for a few years now and all of them were GOOD years at that.

I cannot put into proper verbiage just how much I appreciate your sweet words of comfort in your comment.

Words do have a negative or a positive power, according to a passage in the Book of Proverbs: "life and death are in the power of your tongue," and I have found out that this, and all of God's Word is infallible.

And I can tell you that I have never read ONE negative word, phrase or sentence in your posts on my hubs. I mean that.

We are doing our best to embrace all of Angie's precious memories, words, and things she said and this way, we will not be feeding the dark and negative.

God bless you, my DEAR, DEAR Friend.

Kenneth


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bravewarrior 8 months ago from Central Florida

Kenneth, thank you so much for your response. You are an awesome person. Take that to heart, my friend.


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kenneth avery 8 months ago from Hamilton, Alabama Author

Dearest bravewarrior,

You are most welcome for all of your sweet and beautiful words.

And so are you, an awesome person as well. Like you, take this to your spirit and remember this line when life gets blurry.

Thanks again.

Love you,

Kenneth

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