A Bully Takes His Own Life,Suicide Is Not The Answer

There should be another way

He had a boat, a nice fishing boat, his favorite pastime was fishing from that nice expensive boat. He had a job, money, a beautiful home, a serene, beautiful place to live, a place many people would give an arm and leg to just vacation on. He had more than most people dream of.

But sadly he was severely depressed. And that my friends doesn’t make all that perfect stuff in the world a happy man. If you can’t pull yourself out of a deep depression your beautiful life might as well be a pile of mud. The beautiful town he lived in soon becomes boring and ugly, and eventually the beauty invisible to him.

Fishing on his prized boat is now forced, no matter how much he loves it. His boat sits docked because his heart is not in it anymore, it is a shell waiting. His parents don’t understand, nor do his friends, because he has everything he ever wanted, no matter who he picked on to get it.

They also don’t understand why their son, best friend, girlfriend took a bullet to his head. And who if anyone understands that, except those that know exactly what he feels in that deep dark place.Because that pain of sadness and sorrow have overtaken his brain like a tightly wound clock. He bullied his way all through high school, what comes around goes around is not always fair and just.

Pretty things can’t always pull you back from the brink of darkness. Sometimes suicide is the only answer to a workable problem. But at the time they cannot see that there are other solutions. It isn’t the easy way out, it is grief, sorrow and the end of the world.

In 2007, it was the tenth leading cause of death in the U.S., accounting for 34,598 deaths. So suicide is not something to be taken lightly.

Leaving those left behind in the living world full of confusion and heartache is of course unfair isn’t it? Wondering why a perfectly happy man took his own life. Many people think it is THE easy way out. But if you sat and thought about it for a bit, there is nothing easy about killing yourself. It is probably one of the hardest decisions of your life to make. To end your life, leaving behind all those you love. Knowing you will never see your family and friends again. All you loved means nothing now. All because your heart hurts and your head cannot sort out the pain.

So, no easy way out is that decision made easy. Inner demons of darkness fight within on how NOT to give into the end of your life. Because being that depressed there is no light, there are no words of compassion to pull you back from that decision to stay where you cannot. If it were so easy more people would be able to do it more often. Remember suicide is an act of desperation, an act of pain beyond intense, an act trying to flush out the darkness.

Ending the darkness and letting go the pain he believes will never cease. He BELIEVES FAMILY AND FRIENDS WOULD BE BETTER OFF WITHOUT HIM. HE IS CONVINCED. He believes it will be easier for them, but that myth is baloney. The only way they would know the carnage left behind is to be able to see. Those who choose suicide want to live, but find death a way out of problems they believe will never go away no matter how hard they try. So they instead choose the hardest decision of their lives, hoping it leaves peace with their friends and families, when it only confuses and devastates them for the rest of their lives.

NOTE: If you are in a crisis and need help right away:
Call this toll-free number, available 24 hours a day, every day: 1-800-273-TALK (8255). You will reach the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, a service available to anyone.

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crazybeanrider 4 years ago from Washington MI Author

Your welcome, and stay healthy and, I care!


anon 4 years ago

wise words i hope others will find their way as i did thank you


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crazybeanrider 4 years ago from Washington MI Author

This is so true, when severely depressed it is hard to focus on reality and the mere thought of moving forward. Suicide seems like the only way when you are that far into the darkness. I get so frustrated when people make insensitive comments like "they took the easy way out" when in fact is is far from easy. Thank you for your insightful comment, it is refreshing, I am happy you found answers for your PPD by reaching out, it is never easy to do.


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Ardie 4 years ago from Neverland

I was reading this and I know you make an excellent point. I wish everyone would read this and realize that suicide isnt an easy way out for the depressed person. And it is NOT easy for the suicidal person to ask for help.

I dealt with postpartum depression for several months before I was strong enough to reach out and beg for help. How I survived those few months is beyond me. I was in a haze. Let me point out right here and now that my PPD did not lead me to thoughts of harming my baby and it did not lead me to neglect my baby. I was still a wonderful mother. But after the baby was asleep and I was alone I would sob and get depressed beyond anything else. The thoughts of things I wanted to do to myself were awful and embarrassing. During the worst times I was NOT able to ask for help. It was a moment of clarity one day when I was holding the baby. A friend said "are you really ok? You look so sad" and I started sobbing and let it all out. Suicide is NOT a choice a person makes.


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crazybeanrider 4 years ago from Washington MI Author

Thank you for posting your thoughts, they are very special words that I hope people take to heart


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crazybeanrider 4 years ago from Washington MI Author

I spent a long time debating about publishing this hub, because of the sadness, but decided to post it after a close relative tried to take their life. People need to be aware that suicide is a serious affliction. Your comments are so appreciated. Thank you for reading my hub and do take gentle care of yourself. As I do read your hubs as well.


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schoolgirlforreal 4 years ago from USA

I don't know if you want to publish my comment or not but it hurts me so, to hear of this story, and commenting on it really hurt me, it made me so sad to think of these things long past that didn't last and where does the soul go of these people full of woe but probably far below. It really hurts my fragile heart to think of anything so terrible and awful, such an awfully sad and just awful thing. Truly truly awful.

I hate to even talk about these things, but it is ONLY with the strength I have and hope that it may somehow someway help someone.

I have spent countless hours and the past 2 years writing about mental illness in my hubs; trying to educate people about mental illness.

Education = solution.

Please God,

I pray in Jesus' name

Bless all who read these words of

her hub,

to be blessed and

encouraged

send them your grace

and your light and strength

Give them faith that they need

to know that just one more day

can make their life that was once astray

change

Oh Jesus, through your suffering on the Cross

have mercy on the wretched suffering souls

who long for relief to sigh a little prayer

which you WILL answer and hear

In Jesus Name Amen.

This is not an option.

Don't ever ever ever think it is

God always opens a window when a door is closed

There will be a way,

just pray.


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schoolgirlforreal 4 years ago from USA

Dear crazybeanrider,

A good hub on a very sad and touchy topic. Well said. Many people THINK no one cares and are AFRAID to say how they feel. It takes guts to admit to a family member or friend perhaps that you want to seriously die. One may feel it is a weakness- but "surprisingly" enough, family WILL most often, accept and understand- in my case when I was, I was convinced no one cared and I wanted it to all end. I was detoxing off Lithium and woke up with no emotion determined it be over, 20 years of pain, but, in a few weeks I am feeling so much better.

"Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" because things ALWAYS CHANGE, everyday something new happens, better medications come out, people learn about depression, bipolar, anxiety, etc and start to be more caring.

In my life, being a Christian was and is my strongest coping mechanism, that it's a sin. This has helped me accept and cope. It may not be all people's coping skill but it sure works for me.

As I said, though when I thought it was the end for me (and I hate to admit I really felt it was) it was from withdrawl, ...I never had ever woke up with no emotion like that.

This reminds us that withdrawing off meds, when one does, it is very important to be in a good environment. Also as you must know, many anti depressants and even Chantix to quit smoking, these pills CAUSE people to be suicidal. Strange but true.

It's so important for people to be supportive...and learn warning signs, etc.

This is a most difficult and unpleasant topic, but IF YOU ARE SUICIDAL and feel family or friends DO NOT CARE----I CARE. As your fellow human being, I wish the best for you. Please call a samaritan hotline like the one above, People are waiting to take your call and talk with you. Many of the volunteers have LOST their loved ones to this 'end' and want to help you, really.

Please take a moment to understand God loves you, I love you, and you need to love yourself enough to try, as hard as it may be, to get help.

God bless.

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