A grateful heart

I recently wrote a hub titled “I love my wife”. It was based upon my recent experience regarding my wife’s visit to the ER. She went in with pains in her abdomen and back. Off the cuff, the docs were pretty certain it was her gall bladder. Some further testing lead to a mass in her pancreas. It was an abnormality at the least. It brought out the most horrific fears in both of us. Several minutes later, a surgeon came to us, with some positive conclusions, to put us at rest. It did not appear to him that it was anything we should “hang our hats” on. None of the other lab tests supported any sort of pancreatic cancer. That is where my “poem” stopped.

A couple of days later, the doctors set up a procedure to go into the stomach and perform an ultra sound and get a closer look. We did so, and they ended up taking some tissue from this unidentified “mass” and did a biopsy. It was then revealed she has a very rare tumor called a neuroendocrine tumor. It is attached to her pancreas. The roller coaster of emotions once again took control and was getting the best of both of us. I have tried so hard to be the “rock” that my wife needed, but I was beginning to crumble around the edges. Cancer in that area was not a good thing, based upon my personal knowledge. I knew I had to find anything positive, and run with it. I would not even entertain the idea of anything likewise.

The next day, we met with an oncologist, who took one look at both of our faces, and started off the conversation with “this is NOT a pancreatic cancer”. It was a cancerous tumor ‘attached’ to the back side of her pancreas. It is an extremely rare tumor. It is a low grade tumor, meaning it is a slow growing one and it is one that rarely spreads. He assured us, that this is something that can and will be handled. It may require the removal of her pancreas, but at the least a portion will be removed. No chemotherapy will be required. It was then, I had the strong urge to do a cartwheel right there in the doctors office. A back flip was among many other physical bursts of emotional responses that I so badly wanted to do. My wife and I both began to breathe once again. We are not out of the woods entirely, but the prognosis as of now, is one that we can deal with.

I cannot begin to thank God as my personal Savior enough. There were so many close family and friends, who prayed so very hard for her. The amount of love and emotions by so many people has truly humbled my wife and me. The term “God is good” is one that I have used from time to time. It has sincerely taken on a new meaning to me throughout this recent experience.

I am merely passing this information on, to many on the hubpages who have expressed me to keep them informed. Some on here has even taken the time to send me a personal message to encourage me. I have developed a very tight family atmosphere on these pages.

For now to all of you who have taken the time to read this, I ask for your positive thoughts and prayers. For those of you who already doing so, I ask that you continue. Please know that I too, am very willing to return these favors anytime with a very grateful heart.

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rkhyclak 5 years ago from Ohio

You and your wife will be in my prayers. What a scary thing to go through! Stay strong, God will see you through :)


Sunnie Day 5 years ago

I am praising God right now for you and your wife's answered prayers. I know you can not be more thankful.

May God continue to love you both as you go through the rest of this healing process

God Bless,

Sunnie


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CMerritt 5 years ago from Pendleton, Indiana Author

@rkhyclak,

Thank you for your prayers and advise.


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CMerritt 5 years ago from Pendleton, Indiana Author

@Sunnie Day,

It is very much appreciated Sunnie...Thank you!

:)


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Michael Adams1959 5 years ago from Wherever God leads us.

Our prayers are very near to the heart of God, He wants us to come to him and we will remember you all in prayer and with thanksgiving God Bless


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WillStarr 5 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

Good news! My prayers go out for both of you, Chris.


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SubRon7 5 years ago from eastern North Dakota

Cmerritt, you and your wife are truly in love and there for each other. I wish you the best.


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One-life1 5 years ago from Los Angeles, CA

I will pray for you and your wife. May God restore her health.


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CMerritt 5 years ago from Pendleton, Indiana Author

Michael,

It is times like this, that draws us closer to God. Thank you for your comments.


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CMerritt 5 years ago from Pendleton, Indiana Author

Will,

Your prayers are SO much appreciated...Thank YOU!


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CMerritt 5 years ago from Pendleton, Indiana Author

SubRon,

I would be so lost without my wife, she truly is my best friend.

Thank you for your very kind response.


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CMerritt 5 years ago from Pendleton, Indiana Author

One-life

Thank you for your prayers....

:)


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

Since diabetes is also an endocrine initiated disease, and impacts the pancreas, did the doctor say that maybe your wife could be treated as if she had a chronic illness? I guess I am wondering if the reason for the tumor may be an issue with the way her endocrine system works? Diabetes is chronic, but managable with diet and insulin. Although, it is always very scary to "find" anything, I am very glad that it sounds like this will be taken care of. It's always good to hear it's "slow" rather than aggressive. I am thinking good thoughts for both of you.


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CMerritt 5 years ago from Pendleton, Indiana Author

Thank you Amy,

The tumor is unknown WHY they develop. She will be an insulin dependent diabetic IF they remove her pancreas. She has had no issues with diabetes. She has been mostly healthy her whole life.

I appreciate your good thoughts for the both of us.

:)


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Mrs. J. B. 5 years ago from Southern California

C: Stay strong, think positive and be that rock for your wife. I will be thinking of you and her. I have faith that she will be just fine but it will make you enjoy each day to the fullest. Stay in touch. Let us know her progress and if you need to collapse just call on us fellow hubbers. We will pick you up dust you off and be that rock for you!


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CMerritt 5 years ago from Pendleton, Indiana Author

Mrs. J.B.

I cannot begin to tell you just how much your words mean to me. They are so very much appreciated.


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Cogerson 5 years ago from Virginia

I am glad that you have received this awesome news....your wife can join the group of survivors of this horrible disease....in my family my mom and aunt are survivors...while we still miss my sister-in-law....voted up and happy...if they had that button


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CMerritt 5 years ago from Pendleton, Indiana Author

Cogerson,

I will feel much better AFTER her surgery is done, but Iam looking forward to adding her name to that list of survivors. It IS a horrible disease.

Thank you for the laudations.

:)


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A.A. Zavala 5 years ago from Texas

Good news. Cancer is the one illness that causes me to pause with fear. Glad to hear the diagnosis, and have high hopes for her complete recovery.


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CMerritt 5 years ago from Pendleton, Indiana Author

@ A.A. Zavala,

Thank you for your support....that word alone causes me too, to be fearful, especially when it hits this close to home.


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Tamarajo 5 years ago from Southern Minnesota

God really is so good what would we do without Him? So glad you know Him through these trials and glad it is a treatable condition.


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CMerritt 5 years ago from Pendleton, Indiana Author

Well said Tamarjo...and thank you for your comments.


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fucsia 5 years ago

I wish you a healing, it it not possible I wish you to serenely coexist with the disease. I do not believe in God and sometimes I am envious of those who find in their faith the strenght that I feel in this words.

Thanks for sharing your story.

Fucsia


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Dexter Yarbrough 5 years ago from United States

May God's favor and blessings continue to be with you and your wife.


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CMerritt 5 years ago from Pendleton, Indiana Author

fucsia,

My faith is all I have, and I cannot imagine dealing such issues without it.

I sincerely appreciate your thoughts and wishes for me and my wife. I also appreciate you reading my hub.

:)


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CMerritt 5 years ago from Pendleton, Indiana Author

Thank You Dexter.....Thank you.... :)


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marcoujor 5 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

Dear C,

Thank you for this beautiful update. Along with your other friends, I am praying for you both to remain strong and positive. Our faith is so awesome and gets us through the scariest of times...

Have a wonderful weekend, mar!


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FriendofTruth 5 years ago from Michigan

Yes, definitely praying for your wife and for you...may you both have strength and restoration of your wife's health. May God give you comfort and grace.

I will pray for a successful surgery.


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CMerritt 5 years ago from Pendleton, Indiana Author

Thank you marcoujor, may you have a great week.


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CMerritt 5 years ago from Pendleton, Indiana Author

friendoftruth,

Your prayers and comments are very much appreciated.

THANK YOU!

:)


Sueswan 5 years ago

Sending my prayers. God Bless!


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CMerritt 5 years ago from Pendleton, Indiana Author

Thanks Sue, it is very much appreciated!!

:)


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C-Bless 5 years ago from Canada

Praise the Lord who is Jehovah Rapha and still in the healing business. I glad to hear your news, and thank you for sharing...


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CMerritt 5 years ago from Pendleton, Indiana Author

Thanks C-Bless....for your comments and your support.


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feenix 5 years ago

CMerritt, my good friend, this post warmed my heart. I am so glad that things turned out the way they did because I am well aware of just how "sensitive" pancreatic situations can be.

I know I do not have tell you this, but God is good. He always comes through for us.

From this point on, I will be keeping an eye on the way things are going for you and your lovely wife.


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CMerritt 5 years ago from Pendleton, Indiana Author

Thanks feenix, but as it turns out, we are still waiting for what exactly is going on with my wife. They recently did several biopsies. Hopefully we will learn waht is going on in the next day or so, and begin treatment to make her better.

I appreciate your interest and concern.


jasper420 5 years ago

you and your wife are in my prayers stay strong and thanks for an inspiering hub


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CMerritt 5 years ago from Pendleton, Indiana Author

Thank you Jasper420, it is so much appreciated.


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howcurecancer 5 years ago

God help your wife..and you. I am one of your followers now.


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CMerritt 5 years ago from Pendleton, Indiana Author

Thanks... :)


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geegee77 5 years ago from The Lone Star State!!

My prayers are with your wife & you, we had a similar experience with my daughter a couple of months ago, a ct scan revealed a large tumor in her kidney which after removal of the entire kidney did we find out there were numerous large malignant tumors. It was a very scary time for my family, but by the Grace of God she is now cancer free:). I hope your wife is doing good also:) ge


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CMerritt 5 years ago from Pendleton, Indiana Author

Thank you ge, I am so glad to hear the good news with your daughter. Praise God. My wife is doing very well now, she had her gall bladder removed last week, and is feeling much, much better.

:)


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geegee77 5 years ago from The Lone Star State!!

That's awsome:)ge


Becky 5 years ago

I had breast cancer 2 years ago and will prayer for a strong ending to this.


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CMerritt 5 years ago from Pendleton, Indiana Author

Becky, I will keep you in my prayers....you have been so very kind to me. At the present time...my wife is healthy and the future looks very good.

I really thank you from my heart, for your support.

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