So Sad: Breaking Hearts Spirits and Lives

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I wrote this poem when I went back to work after taking a week off. I learned a coworker had passed away from a very fast moving cancer while I was gone. The coworker was only in his mid-fifties and he was rarely sick a day in his life. One day at work he felt “off”, decided to make a doctor appointment, and quickly got diagnosed. One month and 2 days later his family was making arrangements for his showing and his funeral. But on the other hand I have a close friend who has been battling leukemia for at least the 10 years I’ve known him. He doesn’t look or act sick and he even had a time when the cancer was in remission. However, that time was short-lived and the leukemia is progressing once again. For the last 4 months my friend has been in and out of IV chemotherapy, on and off of FMLA, and now he’s waiting for a bone marrow donor. I am deeply saddened by the struggles caused by cancer and I realize it doesn’t matter what kind of cancer you have – it devastates. The following poem can be read line by line as it is written or it can be “read between the lines” by reading every other line. Odd numbered lines are about the slow-moving cancer and even numbered lines are about the fast-moving cancer. A repeated line means the sentence fits and makes sense for both types of cancer.

Breaking Hearts Spirits and Lives

Sometimes you sneak in quiet and meek and so slow

Other times charging swift taking before we know

A whispered hint that something urgent might be wrong

A raging storm that’s dancing to a frenzied song


Breaking hearts spirits and lives over time you stay

Breaking hearts spirits and lives over time you stay


Wilting and withering over days, weeks, and years

Or abducting before we’ve had time to shed tears

Coming and going like the ebb and flow of sea

Delving in not giving up through the agony


Breaking hearts spirits and lives over time you stay

Breaking hearts spirits and lives over time you stay


The wake is a blessing he suffered for some time

It brings me to my knees so much unsaid a crime

Family and friends gather now to pay respects

Family and friends gather now to pay respects


Breaking hearts spirits and lives over time you stayed

Breaking hearts spirits and lives over time you stayed

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Update

Since first writing this poem my friend with leukemia has been released from his IV chemotherapy treatments, his hair is slowly growing back, and his skin is regaining its proper coloring. However, he is still waiting for a bone marrow donor. I have also met a new little friend who is a cancer survivor. She is 6 years old and wears a hat most days to hide the fact that she has lost all her hair. She can look so serious most of the time but on the occasion that she does smile she lights up the room with her eyes and giggles. I can only imagine how her parents suffered through the diagnosis with her but she seems to be doing wonderfully and gets excellent marks in school. This poem is also for the survivors who have immeasurable strength.

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Sunnie Day 4 years ago

Dear Ardie,

I too have seen friends and family suffer from the effects of cancer. It is so heartbreaking.. Thank you for writing such a wonderful hub filled with much heart.

God bless,

Sunnie


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Heather McMillan 4 years ago from Hampton, VA

As a breast cancer survivor myself, I loved your poem. I was 24 when diagnosed and after 12 yrs it has been life changing. I watched my mom battle breast cancer twice and survive. I also have seen many people die from the disease, to include one of my best friends. She was only 54 when she died after battling for 2 yrs. Not a day goes by that I don't miss her. Your poem was amazing!


jenubouka 4 years ago

Beautiful and Brave Ardie, it is a scary thing to watch someone with cancer, the treatment is just as bad as the sickness.


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Ardie 4 years ago from Neverland Author

Thanks Sunnie I was a little worried it wouldnt come across as seriously as I felt. Im glad I got the point out there.

Heather - You are amazing. 24, so young! You have no idea what it means to me that you approve of my poem. I wanted it to do justice, thank you thank you. Im so sorry for the loss of your friend.

Jen, thank you. I've been hurting for my friends a lot lately. I dont understand how so many people can be touched by it cancer once.


DoorMattnomore 4 years ago

Beautifully written. Ive often wondered about the way cancer can sneak in slow or violently appeare and either way it is devestating. You put it into words so well!! My thoughts are with you and your friends and praying for recovery.


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Ardie 4 years ago from Neverland Author

Thank you for your kind words and thank you for keeping us in your thoughts and prayers. Right now is a difficult time. We just let them know how much we love them while we still can.


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Winsome 4 years ago from Southern California by way of Texas

Hi Ardie, it really helps to express the pain and you did that admirably. I can't wait for nanobot technology or something equally promising to surface so that bugaboo word can lose its power. We are smart, we've spent billions, science has never been more capable--lets find it already! =:)


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Ardie 4 years ago from Neverland Author

Thank you Winsome - it helped to get it out :) I will keep my eyes peeled for that nanobot technology - we're due for it any day now!


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angela p 4 years ago from Richmond, Virginia

This is a beautiful poem. You are a beautiful person and I am sure your friends feel the same. My prayers are with you to keep you strong so you can continue to be there for them. Angel


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Ardie 4 years ago from Neverland Author

Thanks angel, I appreciate the prayers. My poor husband is taking it really hard about his friend. The lung cancer is spreading fast. He just spends as much quality time with him as possible. Thanks for reading :)


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Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales

Thank you so much for sharing this gem which I now will touch so many hearts.

So caring and loving and this is waht we see of the writer also.

Take care my friend and I wish you a wonderful day.

Eddy.


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Ardie 4 years ago from Neverland Author

Thank you for your sweet kind words Eddy. I hope others will see this who are watching someone go through treatments or the process of cancer and know they are not alone.


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Vinaya Ghimire 4 years ago from Nepal

Our life may be short or long but what matters at the end of the day is how we live our life. This is a nice poem. You show strength and courage in these lines. I wish a meaningful life to your friend.


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Ardie 4 years ago from Neverland Author

Thanks Vinaya. He HAS had a very meaningful life. Grown children that adore him, grandchildren that follow him around and a wife who cherishes every little second with him. He's used the last few months to travel the states and visit EVERY family member. We see him Friday for a party and I cant wait :)


mike miller 4 years ago

i have to say what a poem, i feel the sorrow. i have to say i love the picture


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Ardie 4 years ago from Neverland Author

Thanks for visiting and reading Mike :) Its a tough topic but it helped me to get the words and feelings out. And the picture fit my mood perfectly at the time of writing.


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poshcoffeeco 4 years ago from Cambridgeshire

Beautifully written. Life events have a big bearing on what we write and how they develop our style. You are a brilliant poet.

up/ beautiful.


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Ardie 4 years ago from Neverland Author

Thank you so much Posh - this one is very hard to revisit right now. Our dear friend is steadily getting sicker and weaker. But I appreciate you reading it - I like to know my words reach other people.


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poshcoffeeco 4 years ago from Cambridgeshire

Ardie.. no probs just want to support in any way I can.

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