CANCER - 5 Tips To Handle While Waiting for Results of CT Scan Test, Treatment & What Someone Can Do

What to do while waiting for CT Scan results

Champagne after My Victory Ride in Hot Air Balloon
Champagne after My Victory Ride in Hot Air Balloon

Five ways to handle the waiting

Had my CTScan last night to check out the mysterious spots on my liver from the last partial scan. The waiting for results is the hardest part. Handled the chemo and the radiation. Handled the emergency room visits. Handled the hair loss. Handled the loss of 35lbs when I only had 10 to give. Handled the off work for 6 months going crazy out of my mind with boredom.

Could be a pony...

The test is done. Either I have a minor issue with cysts or scars or I have liver cancer. One is a minor problem with a bunch of years ahead of me or I get the sentence no one wants. It is like looking at a present under the tree with your name on it at Christmas. But it is Christmas eve and you can't open it until tomorrow. You have to wait. And Wait. And Wait. What you asked for was a pony. The box is big enough. Could be the pony - could be a ton of horse manure?

aaarrrggghhh...

Living in three and six month increments is tough. I like the living part, but having tests to see if you are going down the cure trail is tough. It is the day before the test and the day after the test waiting for the results that is the toughest. It is like voting off a contestant on American Idol where there are two contestants left, they open the envelope look at the results, look at both contestants and say - "one of you will stay and one of you will go away- and the answer is...we will let you know right after this commercial." AAAARRRRRGGGGHHHHH.

5 things...

I have found five things that have helped me get through the waiting time:

Power of Positive Thinking

Positive Thinking

* The Power of Positive Thinking! By far the best tool for me. I had a great mentor named Ron Frank when I worked for U-Haul Corporation many years ago. His advice to me was pretty cool. He said "Think of the person you respect the most in your life. Imagine them calling you first thing in the morning and telling you how much they appreciated you, your talent, your skills, your character, the positive things you brought to every relationship. What would the rest of your day be like?" Wow! I would be unstoppable. I would be on top of the world.

"Now imagine them calling you first thing in the morning and telling you that they no longer appreciated you, you were not worthy of them being connected to you and you brought no value to the relationship...what would the rest of your day be like?" God, I would go back to bed with a bottle of Jack Daniels and not leave the house.

If your mind is set to believe what you hear from others and the people you respect the most - they have the power over you and your days. Good and Bad. He taught me to BE THE PERSON I RESPECTED THE MOST and make that all important phone call to myself every morning. Have done so every morning thereafter. Before I get up, before I open my eyes- I remind myself of my value, my power to overcome adversity, and repeat many times, I can do this, I will do this, I am going to have an outstanding day.

Your mind WILL believe what it hears. Be the first person you talk to and make your day a powerful one. With all the waiting for test results which basically say you will live or die is difficult to endure. I could be drinking heavily or sitting in a dark room (drinking heavily) feeling sorry for myself. Even if there is just a drop of water in the glass, it is still half full.

The Power of Music

Power of Music

* The Power of Music - I love my music. Sometimes it is like the song was written just for me for this time in my life. "Yesterday, when all my troubles seemed so far away"-Beatles, "Every little thing gonna be alright" - Bob Marley, "Feeling Good - You know how I feel -It's a new dawn-It's a new day-It's a new life-For me-And I'm feeling good" Adam Lambert version, "Live like you're dying-tell them you love them while you can"..Kris Allen - Tim McGraw version works also..you get the picture. Put these all together on a cd and crank it up - will drive the blues out the door.

The Power of Writing

Power of Writing

* The Power of Writing - When you are writing - a blog, an email, a letter - you are in control of your life, not the clock. Once it clicks, it is like turning the faucet on - it flows. You can get totally lost in your subject - remembering kids' birthday parties, the good old days (like the time I partied with Jefferson Airplane backstage in Asbury Park, New Jersey in the '70s). You are there - in the moment - a moment stolen back from the gloom. I belong to an international Tonsil-Cancer forum - full of great people, sharing experiences and being a second family that knows how to talk the talk because everyone of them has had a chance to walk-the-walk. They are there now or have been there and know from the heart what you are thinking.

Power of Spiritualism

Power of Spiritualism

* The Power of Spiritualism - I would not say that I am a religious person. There are too many bad things that happen to innocent young people in this world for me to fully embrace faith. I am 62, had a fantastic life, few regrets. I would like more time, but have fully used what was given to me to date. I have traveled extensively and have seen too many wonderful sunrises and sunsets all over the world, watched my garden flourish each summer, enjoyed the beauty of watching my tulips sprout, grow and bloom, witnessed the miracle of birth for four great kids--to not think there is a force beyond my limited imagination. I believe in omens and believe they are in front of us everyday--if we are open to seeing them. I appreciate the communication that I believe was meant for me. That is also reflected in the power of giving of yourself. I spent a half-hour at the Cancer treatment ward at a local hospital yesterday afternoon before my scan - pumping up a fellow Tonsil Cancer patient just starting treatment. Total stranger. Met on-line in a Tonsil Cancer forum and discovered we were from the same town. Small world. There are people on this forum from all over the world and this guy was my omen. A chance to give back. He was having a radiation treatment yesterday 10 blocks from my office. He and his wife really appreciated me coming by, but the gift was also for me. I didn't think about my situation at all. For those moments, I wasn't thinking about me, my issues, my pending results. Good omen.

Power of Love

Power of Love

* The Power of Love - The best. Being connected to a deadly disease snaps you into a hard reality of your personal value proposition. What do you value most in life or even more than life? The power to love and be loved. I have lots of things . If I don't get the life warranty extension I am hoping for, it won't be the car and the furniture I will be missing. Love transcends all things. I am lucky. Very Lucky. I love my wife, my kids, my extended family, my friends and they feel the same way about me. I know it. I can feel it. My sister has called me and emailed me and text-ed (is that a word?) me twice. That is just today. She sent me the Bob Marley song. The way my wife just silently looks at me with love exuding from just the look. No words. I am a very rich man. I have very little money, but am blessed with the most valuable possession money cannot buy. Love can only be given to you freely. You have either earned it or you haven't. If you don't have that account full yet, start now...you never know when you will have to make a withdrawal.

The Gift of Cancer

I still have my anxious moments. I haven't quite achieved Nirvana yet. I do however, have quite the toolbox of power tools to deal with this inconvenient gift of Cancer. I recommend the power of gathering around you: positive people, positive thoughts, the power to embrace the things you can control. Build a good fort, like when you were a kid. Remember how safe you felt in that cardboard box? Its protection only existed because you BELIEVED it existed.

Even a pony in the box tomorrow isn't permanent. I get to do this again in six months and every six months for three more years, before you get a clean bill of health that says you are technically back to where you were before you were diagnosed.

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elayne001 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains

I have thought I was going to die a few times and I am grateful for the extra time I was given. Thanks for your encouraging and uplifting attitude. It is catching! Thoughts of my grandchildren keep me going. I have one granddaughter who was born with spina bifida and she is paralyzed. We feel blessed to have her in our life. You have much to give others in need. Aloha from Hawaii!


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rwelton 6 years ago from Sacramento CA Author

Elayne001 -

Thank you so much for your feedback. Life is a precious gift.

My first grandchild was born with partial deafness and a cleft palate...many surgeries later- he is a very handsome young man (age 3 now). I also have a beautiful young daughter (age 11) My remaining time on Earth (hoping for another 20 years)is dedicated to leaving a memorable legacy to my children (4) and grandchildren. I applaud your blessing of a grand daughter.

Bob


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valeriebelew 6 years ago from Metro Atlanta, GA, USA

This is a sensitive, and wonderfully written hub. If you have not already read Anti Cancer: A New Way of life, please do so. The book impowered me throughout the waiting process, though that kind of waiting is never easy. It is like someone is standing with a gun to your head, and will either shoot or just go away. Hang in there. I don't know when this was written; the ordeal may be over this time, already. Loved the article. You appear to be a deep and sensitive guy. Impressive site. Proud to become your follower. Valerie


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AndreaGerak 6 years ago from Stockholm/Budapest

Great! If you do all these things, you are not WAITING any more - for WAIT is passive, it means that you can't do anything about something until somebody else does, which puts you in an EFFECT position. And if you are an effect of somebody else about something in your life, of course you don't have control over it...


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h.a.borcich 6 years ago

From one survivor to another - the scans and tests every 3 months are hard for me too. I am glad you survived and have written this hub. I feel inspired to make that cd of my favorites! Be well, Holly


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rwelton 6 years ago from Sacramento CA Author

Valerie - Andrea - Holly

Thanks for the positive comments. I have been absent for awhile, but hopefully back on track. My daughter-n-law (age 27) was just recently diagnosed with thyroid cancer - so I have been off the hub a bit. Have lots to do and say. Thanks again.

Bob


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Poohgranma 5 years ago from On the edge

whoa - didn't see that one coming at all and isn't it odd how when you have your own being on a positive track, life can knock you off base again with the most unexpected. I'm reading through all of your hubs, so hope for good news about her diagnosis. Bless you, rwelton, you truly are an inspiration to many folks.


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rwelton 5 years ago from Sacramento CA Author

Pooh-

Being knocked off track is a good view- a reality TV show starring yourself... Thanks-

rlw


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Ben Zoltak 5 years ago from Lake Mills, Jefferson County, Wisconsin USA

Voted up and beautiful man! Glad you are who you are, a rich man indeed. I am wondering what your opinion is about the movie Food Matters and the doctors that stand behind Vitamin C treatment for cancer. I got into a heated argument with a mean BIG pharma rep yesterday who insulted me and said that it was ridiculous. I stand by the treatment from what I have read.

Anyway, be well my friend.

Ben


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rwelton 5 years ago from Sacramento CA Author

Ben - I am not as studied up on it as I bet you are...but in the weeks before I was diagnosed with tonsil cancer - we all thought it was just a severe sore throat and I overloaded on the vitamin C in a self-medication attempt. When I was finally diagnosed with Cancer- my oncologist told me to stop the C immediately as she was of the opinion that it just fed the Cancer, didn't cause it, but once you have it, it turned against you...how weird is that? Damned if you do and Damned if you don't.

rlw


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rwelton 5 years ago from Sacramento CA Author

Ben - I am not as studied up on it as I bet you are...but in the weeks before I was diagnosed with tonsil cancer - we all thought it was just a severe sore throat and I overloaded on the vitamin C in a self-medication attempt. When I was finally diagnosed with Cancer- my oncologist told me to stop the C immediately as she was of the opinion that it just fed the Cancer, didn't cause it, but once you have it, it turned against you...how weird is that? Damned if you do and Damned if you don't.

rlw


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Ben Zoltak 5 years ago from Lake Mills, Jefferson County, Wisconsin USA

Yeah that seems to be the beast that is cancer alright. Glad you're doing better. Essentially, you eat vitamin C but also they can administer it through an IV, an injection in combination with what they call Mega doses. It is illegal here in the U.S.A. you have to go somewhere like Mexico or Europe to get the procedure.


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rwelton 5 years ago from Sacramento CA Author

Ben-

There are many medical procedures we are not able to access here in the US...I wonder just how many are blocked due to politics and lobbying by the Pharmaceutical companies..

rlwThanks for the feedback.


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Ben Zoltak 5 years ago from Lake Mills, Jefferson County, Wisconsin USA

I think you hit the nail on the head with that last comment my friend. Also I wanted to add, cool guitar profile pic!

Alright I'll let you get back to jamming.


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Earthy Mother 4 years ago from South East England

Brilliant hub and sound advice... I'm going through the waiting period myself and it sucks. Voted up xx


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rwelton 4 years ago from Sacramento CA Author

Thanks EM..I am hoping the best for you...this whole experience is a big learning curve.

rlw


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healthylife2 4 years ago from Connecticut, USA

Thanks so much for the advice. Right now I live in three month increments and it's brutal. Only people that go through the experience can truly understand the gripping fear that is part the cancer experience for many.


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rwelton 4 years ago from Sacramento CA Author

healthylife2 - Thaks-

One has to be in the "Been there - Done that" group to say "I know how you must feel..." I am four years post treatment this month...the fear will never go away...it subsides to the 'manageable' level and most days you don't think about it, until you get an ache or pain or sore throat. That said, the last three years have been the best of my life...like a yin and yang that can't be separated.

rlw


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healthylife2 4 years ago from Connecticut, USA

Thank you for that honest and hopeful comment. I don't encounter many people that have been through this. You will never know how much you helped me!


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rwelton 4 years ago from Sacramento CA Author

healthylife2:

I have observations and thoughts in other blogs that you may find helpful:

http://robertweltonanotherdayinparadise.blogspot.c...

...my daily (mostly) blog starting with the day I was diagnosed with Cancer

http://sunriseandtime.blogspot.com/

...my daily blog last year re: the importance of our TIME given

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- http://gratitude-alittlegoesalongway.blogspot.com/

...my daily blog this year re: Regardless of our situation, we all have so much to be grateful for.

hope these help..

rlw


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healthylife2 4 years ago from Connecticut, USA

I will definitely check them out...thank you!!


nicole felsted 4 years ago

What ever became of this writer?


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rwelton 4 years ago from Sacramento CA Author

Nicole:

He has been off on grand adventures after retiring from the work-a-day life in July...toes touching the ground and will be back on the keyboards soon...thanks for the thought.

rlw

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