Creating A New Life Path

Going Your Own Way

The bumps in the road of life have caused me to reflect upon my life’s work and take an assessment of the status of things so to say. Currently, I am in the process of building a fairly new community organization. The flex and flow of this work is a bit transitory right now. Anytime you venture down a new path, people come and go in their level of commitment and willingness to do the work necessary to bring an idea into fruition. It is only natural. I am the one constant, as the person with the vision is most necessary to the building process.

The best ideas sometimes start out as team projects. But, life inevitably produces leaders and followers. Leaders come in many forms. Some adopt the role right away and some are born. I feel that I have been abandoned in the middle of a critical time in the building of my new nonprofit and sort of fell into the born leader role. By this, I mean that what started out as a team project with disburse responsibilities and roles has pretty much turned into a solo project. I have partners, but the success or failure of the project clearly rests on my shoulders. As someone who is a bit of a perfectionist, I feel a lot of pressure from myself. A lot of people are dependent of me, and I do not want to let them down.

Struggling to Keep the Faith

This current life situation is causing me a lot of anxiety, stress headaches, sleeplessness, and fatigue. I may often feel that most of my time is spent worrying and not being very productive. Do I regret my life path? Not really. In truth, I am probably being way more productive than most in the industry. My perfectionism causes me to feel that the best is still not good enough. A number of people would like to see me fail, which means I am doing a needed and necessary thing for my community. Believe it or not ~ there is a lot of competition in the nonprofit world and it is very cut throat. People will lie and steal to keep you from getting what they want. Just because it is supposed to be a “feel good” industry doesn’t mean that people are nice. Ultimately, I have faith in what I am doing and believe in my heart that I will be beyond successful. It is the getting through the tough times that tests my faith and what I have to grapple with on the day to day. Very few people can really comprehend what is necessary to build an organization unless they have gone through the process. And, any signs of “weakness” are reasons to deny funding or support. Fearlessness and competence must be shown at all times to the outside world. One is taught and told never to let anyone see you crack under the pressure or be human.

Allow Yourself Room to Grow

I am writing to let you know a little secret. There is no hard fast “right” way of doing anything. The reality is that life is full of mistakes, false starts and new beginnings. Most things are not as serious or irreversible as they first seem. There are often multiple chances and opportunities for redemption and success. What feels worse than the difficulty of starting a new project or bringing an idea to life is never trying ~ living a life with the regret of not moving on what you really want to do in life. Though I may have many ebbs and flows and ups and downs in confidence, faith and worry, I invite you to join me in starting something new. Your anxiety and headaches will pass as mine will. You will learn how to do a lot of things you never knew or even thought you could do ~ and you will learn how to do them with competence. Mistakes will happen. You will get over them. You will do better next time. There will always be doubters and haters and folks wanting to see you fail. That is their problem not yours. What I have to do to make it is constantly remind myself that I give myself permission to “mess up.” To start down a new life path, however small or big it might be, all you have to do is try and allow yourself to figure things out along the way.

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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

truthfornow, Truer words were never spoken. I feel your anxiety and frustration. When I was laid off last year it came at a time when I'd just gotten a divorce and signed a lease on an apt. The small, family owned company I'd worked for for 13-years knew what I was going through. I'd just had a review 2-weeks prior to the layoff that was 2 points shy of perfect. It leveled me. I'm still getting over the breach of trust inflicted by a company that regularly told me "I was family". The morning they sneakily dropped the bomb, they chose to let another single mom who'd just signed a contract on a little home get a kick in the ass, too. Low on the totem pole, they managed to nearly bury me. One thing I learned is there are no guarantees in life. And, no matter what I'm told by those in authority, my gut is the only thing I'll ever trust again. The rest is bullshit in an attempt to manipulate. I'm writing online content articles in an attempt to gain experience and the skills to sustain me so that I never have to ever work in another detestable, subservient office job. Your attitude already makes you a winner, truthfornow.


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truthfornow 5 years ago from New Orleans, LA Author

Amy, sorry for everything you have went through. But, I know you will come out on top. Good luck in everything that you are doing, and I look forward to reading your Hubs.


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Aley Martin 5 years ago from Sumner, Washington,USA

Excellent hub! I also believe we experience things that bring us to a better understanding of ourselves, what we love and how we relate to the world. I would never want to be any different than I am....except a little thinner! LOL Thanks!


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truthfornow 5 years ago from New Orleans, LA Author

Thanks Aley Martin for reading my Hub! Yes, life makes us become our true selves.


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nenytridiana 5 years ago from Probolinggo - Jawa Timur - Indonesia

Starting a new path is never easy. I am starting a new path now, I think. I think this hub give me a confident and something worthwhile to try. Thank You truthfornow!


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truthfornow 5 years ago from New Orleans, LA Author

It is hard. You just have to give yourself time to figure it all out. Hang in there.


vvaleed 5 years ago

Awesome Awesome Awesome, truthfornow you are too good lady! such a positive and motivational message i read it quite a few times and enjoyed every time.Yeah you're right truthfor new path always brings difficulty with it.

You really want to succeed with all your heart, right? You desire with a passion to make your dream turn out? This project has to be a success! Your determination to achieve is volcanic, explosive, waiting to erupt with massive energy.You have more than enough resources to match your mountain!

Now is the time to take plunge truthfornow! Your expectations have been clarified. Much failure results from a confusion of expectations. Your dream is visualized clearly in your mind. Your goal has been lifted to the top of your priorities. You've done an immense amount of back-up work. Now you're in for it! Success is waiting for you! It's waiting to see if you will follow through, hang in there, keep on keeping on paying the price in personal sacrifice to actualize your dream. From this point on you and only you can kill your dream. Your dream now has a life of its own. Only you can abort it. Others may frustrate you; that's to be expected. Envious and shortsighted people may obstruct you! But only one person has the authority to sign the Death certificate of your God-inspired dream, and that person is YOU! But by this time you have too much invested--most importantly your credibility and integrity. You can't walk away from it.


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truthfornow 5 years ago from New Orleans, LA Author

I wrote it mainly as a motivational speech to myself so I would not forget to be strong, but I am glad that it is helping others. We cannot be our own cheerleaders enough and need to cheer on others who are struggling to reach their dreams. Thanks for your kind words. I am happy to find you on hubpages!


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Thundermama 4 years ago from Canada

Truth, what a way with words you have, such an eloquent writer. This hub is very timely for me as i consider changing career paths. Always good to know that others have gone through stressful times in life and are making it through. Voted UP!


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truthfornow 4 years ago from New Orleans, LA Author

Thanks for the Vote up and follow Thundermama. Best of luck on your career changes. Thanks for the support.

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