Dark Nights & Dark Days

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Depression can be terrifying.

In the depths of depression, the days and nights run in together and you feel lost and frightened. It can be very tragic. When I was younger this happened to me. I didn't now where it came from and I couldn't control it. There was a time when I wanted to die. I felt very lost and was in a lot of pain. I don't know why it hit me. Why it chose me. It changed my life forever. It opened me up to spirituality and finding a new meaning to this life. I think seeing all the superficiality all around me, trying to keep up made me sick. It was also pain and abuse and everything else in between. These were the worst months in my life, but I am thankful for them because they opened up new doors for me. My heart goes out to anyone who has experienced depression or is going through it now.


Dark Nights & Dark Days

Spring rolled around and I was getting restless

Started living in my mind becoming helpless

Looking for help in all the wrong places

No one to turn to just cold lonely faces

Swirl and dance around in my head

My head started filling up with dread

I hated my thoughts and the dark place they came from

I wanted to die and end this horror that came from within

I couldn't find the sun and was left in terror

God, why is this happening, I cannot bear it

Pain and sickness was bubbling up within

Wondering when I would feel alive again

Becoming resentful and going to sleep

Hoping that my dreams were better than my days

Escaping real life was the only thing in my head

I don't know where this came from my heart full of lead

The dark days rolled into nights

Sitting and staring while my imagination run wild

Wanting to control through what I did

Sat trying perfection but it didn't keep still

Maddening it came from left to right

Dying inside not wanting to fight

I became someone else and wasn't myself anymore

Hoping and praying for this to end

Seeking high and low for something to dull the pain

Then one day things started to ease

I started finding a gentle release

Looking for a newfound peace

It left me stronger and smarter in the end

It gives me new hope for thoughts that bend




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Comments 5 comments

mathira 5 years ago

When you are depressed you see things in a negative way and when your mind gears up to meet problems everything becomes easy.Good one.


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gary dube 5 years ago from India

Its a war of attrition and let loose your inner spirit bottled up for so long.. The days will start brightening up!


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daydreamer13 5 years ago

Wow! Powerful stuff! Excellent writing!


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jesusmyjoy 5 years ago from Bucyrus Ohio

I know how you feel..yes i do..just wonderful hub


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carolinemd21 5 years ago from Close to Heaven Author

mathira- yes when you do face problems depression can lift.

gabe- thanks, I never saw it that way! When you let your spirit loose you do lose your depression.

jesusmyjoy-thank you!

daydreamer- thank you !

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