Epilepsy or Kidney Failure-an update.

finding out after being sick for a little while.

You have epilepsy and take a lot of medicine No seizures! You feel great! It is a wonderful thing! Then one day you feel sick. So, you end up in the ER. just to keep your medicine down. You need to keep your medicine down.

They give you water, just through the IV. Then take some tests, Just normal tests. After a while, they come to you. Gentle and quiet, just to talk. Then they tell you why they came. They need to tell you why they came.

At first, one holds your hand, and quietly says to you, your kidney is starting to fail, just starting to fail. The problem is the medication you are on. The one to stop the seizures. It is the best to stop your seizures.

They say, they will tell your doctor, you have a lot to think about. Your seizures, the medication you take and something called hemodialysis. And what is hemodialysis?

The more you think about that, the more sad you feel. When the seizures stopped, you felt you were free. You could go out alone, drive, and have fun with friends. So, you read about hemodialysis, and found out what it takes from you. The days, the hours.

It is not a cure, but it takes the freedom away, like the seizures did. So, which one is better? More tests will come, like it was before, test after test. When will it stop? Just when will it stop?

So, what do you do, when you want to be free?

Maybe you won't just, ever be free.


Update May 2012 The last Kidney test is normal Thank God!



Update July 2013

Am now experiencing Acute Kidney Failure.What is acute? They will let me know soon.

Will be going into the hospital on July 14th. The first thing they are going to do is take me off my epileptic medication, in order to clear it out of my system. They told me I will be having seizures. That is fine, I never remember them, lol!

After that, they will put me on new medication, one that is not as effective, but will not hurt my kidney's as much. Then comes the kidney testing. Testing, and more testing.

That will be the second part of the hospital procedure. It involves a lot of testing. Not sure how much. Not sure how bad they are, but I do know they are worse. Why else would they put me in the hospital?

I have a wonderful sister, who had offered me one of her kidney's. But, I will never be able to accept a kidney, because even when I change medication, there is still the chance that kidney failure can come back. It could still come back again.

Days are days, weeks are weeks, and life is life. This time, I have come to accept it. There is no turning back.

Yes, life is life. But, I am not the only one. There are others. Maybe someday a cure will be found.

I do thank God, for my family, my friends and the life He allowed me to have. After coming home from the hospital, I will know more, but until then I still have to accept it.

No, there is no cure, life is life. But, one thing I do know, is God loves me, and I love God

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North Wind 4 years ago from The World (for now)

Michele, is this happening to you now or did it happen in the past? I hope it is in the past.


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Michele Travis 4 years ago from U.S.A. Ohio Author

It is happening now. I started feeling sick last week, was sick to my stomach. So, like I said, I ended up in the ER. They did some tests, and well, there you go. Just sort of waiting. Didn't know what to do, so I wrote. Just wrote..it is helping me feel a little bit better.


Laura 4 years ago

Michele, you know that Chuck, Marc and I are behind you all the way. You need something, give us a call. Not later, now!


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Michele Travis 4 years ago from U.S.A. Ohio Author

My family reads facebook, I called. Strange how we talk sometimes. Why is it easier to write?


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North Wind 4 years ago from The World (for now)

Sometimes, writing helps to bring out feelings we did not know we had. I am sorry to hear this is happening to you. I will be praying for you earnestly, Michele.


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Michele Travis 4 years ago from U.S.A. Ohio Author

Thank you North Wind, I do think prayers make a difference.


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Drtruthman 4 years ago from Harlingen, Texas

Wow, Michele, so sorry. I am aware of this and just praying. With my medication for the seizures (Depakote), I'm told liver failure is the bigger concern. Of course I constantly get tested and so far so good. Although I am opposed to legalization across the board of drugs, we as epileptics in the USA could sure benefit from the very successful anti-seizure meds made from marijuana and actually produced by USA Pharmaceutical Companies which is prescribed all over the world and which appears to have very minimal side effects according to studies I have read. Anyway, you are in my prayers and yes PRAYER definitely makes a difference. I voted UP, useful, awesome and interesting.


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Michele Travis 4 years ago from U.S.A. Ohio Author

My kidney is ok, my neurologist is lowering some of my medication, because I am small and weigh only 90 pounds. It has to be lowered slowly so I dont have a seizure, but for now I have to drink a lot of water. I just truely believe God is protecting me, I know I have said it before, but it is true.


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Drtruthman 4 years ago from Harlingen, Texas

Simply wonderful. Praise the Lord. I lost 70 pounds this past year as a result of desire to have my meds reduced. I am hoping when I return to my neurologist on next visit that he does cut me back. The Depakote also causes weight gain which was driving me crazy. Until I started on Atkins diet I would just smell food and gain....LOL the complete opposite of you. Anyway, so glad to hear your kidney is OK and you are getting your meds lowered. Wonderful news.


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Michele Travis 4 years ago from U.S.A. Ohio Author

Thank you, and I am glad you are getting better. One of my meds takes away the appetite, so reading this I just went and got something to eat. I am very glad we are friends.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up.

Michele, I hope that everything will be alright. At first I feel a little scared reading; im afraid of being sick, of hospitals, of the news..then when I read the comments, i feel scarier because it is really happening to the person i know (maybe not personally but we've met here in HP). Will be praying for you.


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Michele Travis 4 years ago from U.S.A. Ohio Author

Thank you unknown spy It will be ok. Thank you for praying for me. I do believe it will be ok. God Bless you.


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Civil War Bob 4 years ago from Glenside, Pennsylvania

Good hub, Michele...voted up, useful, interesting. I came in late on this, but I'm glad to hear your kidney's OK as of May 2012. Don't know if you saw in one of American Romance's hubs, but I started praying Proverbs 3:5-8 for you a couple of weeks ago. May His strength carry you!!


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Michele Travis 4 years ago from U.S.A. Ohio Author

Thank you Civil War Bob, I believe it will.

God bless you.


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ahorseback 3 years ago

Michele , I too am way late , But I'm never too late for a big hug , I'm soo glad for you , you are an angel among us ! .....Your buddy Ed


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Michele Travis 3 years ago from U.S.A. Ohio Author

Thank you Ed, I am giving you a big hug back!


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Express10 3 years ago from East Coast

I am glad that you know that you have kidney failure (some people have kidney disease or failure and don't know). Knowing is half the battle and with the change in your medication you will be better off and hopefully feel better. GOD bless you.


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Michele Travis 3 years ago from U.S.A. Ohio Author

Thank you Express10

God bless you


Michael Milec 3 years ago

Hi Michele, even if the whole world will call me " crazy " I would speak faith that my God is able and willing when we ask Him for intervention. What your doctor said is so, what your condition is , is so , however the faith and prayer and speaking , " by His stripes I'm healed " can change that condition for better for you as it did for many countless times.


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Michele Travis 3 years ago from U.S.A. Ohio Author

Michael Milec you are not crazy. I believe you

Thank you very much

God bless you.


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NayNay2124 3 years ago

Michele, so sorry to hear how sick you have been. Sometimes the cure is worst than the initial sickness. Just continue to have faith and know that I will be praying for you to make a speedy recovery.


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Michele Travis 3 years ago from U.S.A. Ohio Author

NayNay2124

Thank you very much. It is kind of interesting. I did not share this with followers, and it is not published here on hubpages. But, thank you very much. I do have faith.

God bless you.


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Oscarlites 3 years ago from Alabama

Michelle.. we have not talked in a while. But I am concerned and have you in my thoughts and prayers. Mark 11:23 is in my heart for you, and many other scriptures that say all things are possible to them that believe.


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Michele Travis 3 years ago from U.S.A. Ohio Author

Thank you

Oscar, I have been having some health problems. The kidneys are sort of in limbo. The seizures are getting worse and there is nothing more that can be done for them. I stop breathing when when having a seizure, and have sometimes needed help.

Thank you so much for praying me. For some reason there is a song that has been in my head. It is a french song my mother used to sing to me. The name was

Ce Sera Sera

which basically means when it comes to life you need to accept it. What ever will be will be.

A few day ago, I had one and fell into the wall, my forehead is black and blue, and the wall needs to be repaired, but since there is nothing I can do about it, I will have to accept it

God bless you.


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Oscarlites 3 years ago from Alabama

Michelle, there should be a community action group there that will come and fix the wall. help you with energy bills, winter and summer. there is one in Alabama, its www.caaofsa.org maybe they can link you to one in Ohio? I hope so.


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Michele Travis 3 years ago from U.S.A. Ohio Author

Oh, no that is not a problem for me. I am doing ok right now.

But thank you so much, you are such a good person:)

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