Extreme Dizziness Pity Party - Why I Was Not Being Able To Work

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Day 18 Of Vertigo...Having a Pity Party

I am sitting here feeling sorry for myself. I am now on day 18 of not being able to work and being stuck in bed. This dizziness that has taken ahold of me just won’t let go. I have never felt like this before and hope no one ever has to feel this way. The good news is that the headache that goes along with it is now controlled with over the counter acetaminophen rather than intravenous morphine, which means I am now in my bed at home. Other than that, nothing else has gotten better. So I am having a pity party.

Because I can’t do much else without risk of falling face down on the floor, I have become somewhat of a computer junkie in these nearly three weeks. (Television drives me crazy right now – too much movement!) After reading many of the stories I have come across, I have discovered that, really, what I have going on is more of a debilitating annoyance. It still causes me not to be able to work or function in a “normal” way, but as long as I don’t move my head – or sometimes my arms and legs – at all, I can be “normal.” And at worst, when I do move, my world spins.

Other people I have been reading about have it a lot worse than I do. I might not be able to walk due to dizziness, but I do still have two arms and two legs that work perfectly well. I might have to be bedridden because I don’t like the spinning, but I do not have cancer or kidney disease or something more evil destroying my body. I may have unfound issues with my ears or some other part of my brain that affects my equilibrium, but I can still hear my grandsons’ giggles and laughs and cries. I may feel sometimes that I am going crazy, but there are people who have schizophrenia, severe depression, bi-polar disease and other mental issues that I don’t have to worry about.

Some people have many medical issues going on all at once, and have no one to help care for them. I have an awesome husband who has taken care of my every need, four children who call to see what they can do, friends and co-workers who check in on a daily basis to see how I am doing.

Some people are dealing with missing sons, daughters, moms, and dads. Some of whom will never return. Some have children, parents or other family members die from sickness or even worse, from being murdered. I, however, am lucky and blessed enough to have four healthy children that I communicate with on regular basis. (And yes - - I am knocking on wood!)

So, as I sit here having my pity party, my prayers are going on to those who have things in their lives that are far worse than what I am going through. I will stop my pity party and start counting my blessings. Because I do have many to count!

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newtowasaga 5 years ago from Wasaga Beach, Ontario

I'm very sorry to hear this, unfortunately it is more common then you think! My husband also suffers from dizzy spells. He had a CT scan which proved nothing. He was finally diagnosed with a mild version of Menieres Syndrome, is it possible you have the same thing? Unfortunately there is not much you can do about it except take medication to relieve the symtoms, he is on Serc. You may want to discuss this with your Doctor before taking any medication.

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justateacher 5 years ago from Somewhere Over The Rainbow - Near Oz... Author

Meniere's hasn't yet been mentioned, but after reading about it, I wonder if that could be it. I am having more tests tomorrow to see what they have to say...we will see!

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Dawn Conklin 5 years ago from New Jersey, USA

I know what you are going through, I have battled dizzy spells much of my life. All cat scans and MRI's showed nothing but chronic sinusitus but the neurologist wasn't convinced that it was my sinuses causing it. I started seeing a new neurologist and he discussed my whole history and when I told him that I have been getting migraines since I was young (4 or 5), he told me he believed it to be migraine syndrome. He said that with migraine syndrome, you can have the other symptoms but not the actual headache. He had me on Depakote daily. Mine symptoms are not really consistent and can last for days hours or even minutes. I rarely actually have the headache part of the migraine tho so it took some time to evaluate. Many tests including checking for mini seizures. I wish you the best of luck, I know it is no fun!

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justateacher 5 years ago from Somewhere Over The Rainbow - Near Oz... Author

Migraines have also been mentioned...but the trouble with my dizziness is that it is ongoing 24/7...there is never a time in the last 18 days that things have not stopped spinning...and that is what is confusing the docs....

Thanks for the best wishes!

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Spirit Whisperer 5 years ago from Isle of Man

I am sorry to hear that you are incapacitated in this way. However having said that there are times when subconscious forces are triggered to make us take time out whether we like it or not. Take this time to do nothing and listen within to the little voice who could now have your full attention if you choose to allow it.

We mostly see illness as an inconvenience that prevents us from getting on with our activities but some like me see it in a different way. I like the way you have started counting your blessings this is always a great way to lift your spirits. Thank you.

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justateacher 5 years ago from Somewhere Over The Rainbow - Near Oz... Author

This is an awesome point of view Spirit Whisperer - I will try to listen more closely to this inner voice. Thank you for giving me a new perspective!

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Spirit Whisperer 5 years ago from Isle of Man

Here is a little girl coping with a vert stressful situation in her own unique way saying always ..."So far so good"


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justateacher 5 years ago from Somewhere Over The Rainbow - Near Oz... Author

Although the cause for the dizziness has never really been found, except perhaps BPPV, I am no longer dizzy all the time. It only happens occasionally and is being helped through vestibular therapy. I want to thank everyone for your good wishes and prayers...

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