Faith healing

So, what about faith?

This won't be pretty, believers.

This article may come as a disappointment to many that find it via search engine. I'm sorry. I'm sorry if the ideas that I'm going to present to you are out of your reach. There is only one type of faith that can heal (sorry, Hindus). If someone asks God "what do I do?, where do I turn, how will I handle this?" then they are already setting themselves up for failure. Leaning on some mythical creature in order to gain strength...well, just isn't strength.

It seems everyone's always talking about "my faith in God brought me through this tough time", or something of that nature. Really? Let me be the first to jump up and ask "are you friggin kidding me?"

In 2005 I suffered a serious injury. This injury and the complications that followed changed my life forever. They changed me physically, mentally, and to some extent, emotionally. Without going into too much detail about the exact nature of these injuries, at the time I'd left the hospital they left me completely unable to do 90% of the things I was passionate about. When I speak of passion, think of this as an obsessive love of sorts. They were all things that I'd become accomplished in by working very hard.

When I say "unable" I mean just that. I eventually took on every challenge that I'd posed to myself over my lifetime of diligence.

Here's what kills me. After many long months of hard work, on many occasions, when I'd speak to people whom I didn't know, they would say "thank God you're okay now". Thank God, really? Oh, then let me thank God for the chain of events that led to my condition. Seems fair, doesn't it?

Nope. I put myself in a position to be injured- and while the complications that arose afterword were completely out of my control as I lay in a coma, they would not have been set into motion had I not made some poor decisions first.

Thank ME! I thank me for having the fortitude to press on and regain some of the things that made me happy- things that I truly love. I could have laid there and done nothing- laid there and prayed that I would have the strength to go on- prayed for God to help me or release me from the pain and cure my disabilities. I didn't. I took action and aggressively pursued my passions once again. I did have the support of my close friends, my family, as well as "onlookers" who saw me trying. This article is a product of one such friend's faith in me.

Another friend and mentor has been instrumental in my "recovery", too. All of the people whom I feel are important to me have helped in some way, But, Joe, and you too, Louis- you two have had the more faith in me than I thought I'd deserved. I do this for me, but the thought of disappointing you two still looms over me. This drives me, too! "You have to do it for you" is a profound statement, but not an all-encompassing mindset.

Things that change our lives for the worse are very hard to understand. The one question that NEVER need be asked is "WHY?". It doesn't matter why something happens (to a very small extent, it may). The question is "WHAT?" What am I going to do about this? My answer was "I'm going to beat this". Now, I had (and still have) many, many obstacles to overcome. I didn't focus on one 'til I was happy with the result. I'm never happy (totally satisfied) with a result- and where passions are concerned, there is no result- because there can never be an end-point to a passion. Passion is infinite!

Here's what I did. I compartmentalized. I would work hard on a single task for as long as I could, but this was on a per day basis. I would work on another task later that day, or intermingle frames of time throughout the day. If I have three school projects, all of which are extremely complicated, but none have a due date (this is hypothetical- go with it), then provided I put my best effort into each one, I will receive my BEST grade- not just a passing grade. Passing grades are for those who seek to only achieve the status quo. Those people would have crumbled under the weight of my situation.

I'm starting to sound pretty vain at this point, aren't I? Well, look again. Vanity is repulsive! The vain among us really end up resting on their laurels, rather than slamming tasks head on and pushing forward.

http://hubpages.com/hub/Vanity-vs-Self-Esteem


Vane persons do not welcome criticism! I welcome criticism in every aspect of my life. Someone else may find fault in something that I may never imagine. Even if I'd realized that fault, someone's critique may put my shortcoming into clear view.

I'm sure I don't sound spiritual, either. Well, let me put it this way. Your ghosts and goblins don't make my spirituality. I do not believe in God, but my spirit is there. Spirit doesn't mean religion! Phrases like "it's in the spirit of the game" clearly show what spirit I speak of. While I believe my spirit is gone once I'm finished drawing my last breath, it lives on in my and helps make me what I am today!

ANGER!

Is anger bad? I say "not completely". I'm pissed as Hell about what's happened to me. I direct that utter rage forward, against my targets. Anger is one of the most energy packed emotions there is. Combine that energy with the strength of love and great things can happen.

Anger used constructively is good. When anger festers, it can be one of the most destructive forces there is. Anger as energy= power! Anger+ self pity, doubt or weakness= destruction. Anger is the mitochondria of my spirit's cells. It's the power plant- a nuclear reactor whose half life never appears.

Think about how strong you felt the last time you were enraged... Think about how focusing that spear head into the heart of your woes can help. Just think... never stop thinking- never take your eyes off of your goals. Nothing can stop you- nothing but death.

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joecseko 5 years ago from New York, USA, Earth Author

Wow! Thanks, SusieQ. That's quite a compliment... very well thought out and sincere.


SusieQ 5 years ago

Here, here Joe! I admire your strength of will and sheer determination. I am a strong believer the virtue of adversity is fortitude. And, you sir, have it in spades!

I thoroughly enjoy your writings. I love your no nonsense, from the hip style. Thank you.


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tmbridgeland 5 years ago from Small Town, Illinois

A good post, well written and thoughtful. Thanks. I am a Christian, of a fairly traditional bent. I actually have little 'faith' but my reason impels me towards the Christian God. My parents named me right when they named me 'Thomas'.


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joecseko 5 years ago from New York, USA, Earth Author

I MUST add this, too. AKA Winston's writing clearly lacks any true anger-- at least where his objective style is concerned. AKA's (not wanting to make an androgynous remark lie he/she) views are clearly expressed, and express disdain t'ward those who do not question.

I wrote this hub. Does that mean in one thousand years, when the stupid ass humans have destroyed this World as we know it, my work might be that of a "New Messiah"?

It could happen. Any turd can whisper in another turd's ear and perpetuate a stupidity for the weak to cling to.

This person is a true thinker. Someone who would break outside what they've been taught to perceive as the "truth" so they can consciously question everything.

My pleasure!


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joecseko 5 years ago from New York, USA, Earth Author

Since it would violate the Hub Pages TOS for AKA to post this, I will.

http://hubpages.com/hub/Parable-Of-The-Prodigal-So...


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joecseko 5 years ago from New York, USA, Earth Author

Now, this is a discussion. Just a note to any onlooker who may not know. I'm a very tough judge of character. I'm also very critical of another's "talents".

AKA Winston is, in my opinion, an utter genius! Not to blow smoke, sir, but I've read most of your work here. That, combined with some comments, you really have my respect. Who am I. No one. But that's a tough nut to crack.

His comments are based on careful observation. While I respect some of the pieces you've published (what I've read), Wealthmadehealthy-- AKA Winston is correct.

Here's the most interesting point. Even as an epistemologist, one who really doesn't believe God exist (as a thinking entity with a plan), I will never try to dissuade anyone from believing in their "faith". It's a most deplorable stance to take when you tell someone "here's how it is" on the turf that they're trying to sow a different (and possibly more productive) crop.

I apologize if you're offended by this, but only a little.


AKA Winston 5 years ago

(To fulfill our purpose sometimes takes a lot of searching, but you, me, noone is able to do anything without God. It is He who is helping you most. Go back and read the poem Footprints....you will see what I mean....)

Wealthmadehealthy,

I hope you don't take this personally, but what you are doing is antithesis to what Joe chose. He asked only "what was my part" and "where do we go from here".

You try to encourage your beliefs on others - try to control.

Who is the more righteous? Try reading my hub about the parable of the prodigal son. The most righteous position you can take with another person is "hands off, it's your life", not trying to convert someone to your worldview.


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D.Virtual.Doctor 5 years ago from Europe

Good attributed of faith... "All things work together for good, for those who love him and are called according to his purpose." Without faith, no one can see God.


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Wealthmadehealthy 5 years ago from Somewhere in the Lone Star State

How interesting. And you are correct. Anger = Fear. Notice I said equals.. I was once in a position maybe not exactly like yours, but in an accident, in a coma, and in recovery for quite some time. You concentrate on how to beat the odds of what the Doctors tell you...I was told I would never walk again.....Proved them wrong. Took a long time. Two years to be exact. They told me I would never run, ride a horse, a motorcycle, but I proved them wrong.

It is our human will for survival which makes us do these things. But I must interject a thought to you...which I know to be true for I died on the table and came back to life.

We go through things such as this to make us know there is a God...I was literally saved by God..noone else could give me life again....for a purpose. I had not finished what I was supposed to do in my lifetime. I believe this for I am doing it now. We all have a purpose in life. Each of us was made for a reason. To fulfill our purpose sometimes takes a lot of searching, but you, me, noone is able to do anything without God. It is He who is helping you most. Go back and read the poem Footprints....you will see what I mean....

I am not sure what your injuries were, mine were devastating as well...but I overcame..with my strong will as yours, but mostly because God wanted me to recover....to tell the story of how He gave me life again...to tell of His Goodness. I did not know my purpose for many years, but about ten years ago it did get set in my mind. Forgive. Thank God. Praise Him...Teach others....

Joe, it may take time, the anger will go away, do not be angry, it is a learning situation...Forgiveness, true forgiveness of yourself and others will help the healing go faster along with your strong will for life....

Many blessings to you this day and always.....


AKA Winston 5 years ago

Joe,

I think the most important thing you did was to look at the situation and ask, what was my part? If there is a root of all evil, it is surely the desire to control others and the environment. Asking what was my part shows that you have evaded the trap of desiring control, because the only thing any of us can control is our own actions and responses.

The only other point I can make is that in my experience anger is usually redirected fear.

You seem to have taken a very adult position as to your circumstances (not looking to place blame) and made another adult decision as to how to deal with it (this is my new situation, so what do I do now to alter myself within this environment).

Blame me is exactly right - both for the accident and the recovery - even if you were only 1% at fault or at credit. That 1% is all you have any control over.


Lou Ubriaco 6 years ago

Brilliant!....candid, real....Brilliant!

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