Farewell, my faithful companion: January 16th, 2013

Me, Bella, Baby and Andrea and some pug dog at the dog park
Me, Bella, Baby and Andrea and some pug dog at the dog park
Our dogs at our wedding
Our dogs at our wedding
Safety was of utmost importance to Baby
Safety was of utmost importance to Baby
Baby in her cave
Baby in her cave
Wrestling with Baby
Wrestling with Baby
Baby on our wedding day
Baby on our wedding day
Baby with momma
Baby with momma
me and baby on the beach
me and baby on the beach
Baby liked a good bum scratching
Baby liked a good bum scratching
About a week and a half before Baby passed, we gave her a manicure and a pigs ear. The look on her face shows how happy she was.
About a week and a half before Baby passed, we gave her a manicure and a pigs ear. The look on her face shows how happy she was. | Source

1/16/13

They say that your dog chooses you, not the other way around. This was absolutely the case with Baby. When I walked into the Oregon Humane Society in May of 2000, I had just lost my beloved Sheltie, Cocoa a few weeks prior and I knew I needed a new companion.

But I didn’t know what I wanted.

So, when I walked into the dog viewing area, I saw this stocky, black little chow mix. She was looking up at me with these sweet brown eyes and smiling. All the other dogs were barking and raising a ruckus, she was just quietly staring. She wanted to go home with me. She told me. I had no choice.


Baby was only a year old but had already had four owners. Chows are a notoriously stubborn breed. They are hard to train and they will only form a bond with you if they want too. Baby wanted to form a bond with me, but she wasn’t easy. I loved her, of course, but she was a hard dog to own. I always described her as a little toughie, mean, with a touch of sweetness. She wasn’t mean, really, just aloof and stubborn. If she didn’t want to do something, she wasn’t going to do it.

But, chows are also intensely loyal. She would never leave my side. When I’d go out of town, she’d sleep facing my room. When I was home, she always needed to know where I was. Chows want to love you, but they’ll keep a distance. They’re perfectly content sleeping near you, not with you.

She moved with me to Las Vegas. She endured hot summers and freezing winters. She got in a fight with our other dog and bit and broke my hand when I tried to break it up. It wasn’t my favorite. But it was my fault, getting in the way like that. She was just defending what was hers which, in this case, was a slice of pizza I had dropped. She always loved her food and I encouraged her bad eating habits.


She hated the snow, and would often growl at it as it fell from the sky. She didn’t care much for water and her bath times were always pathetic affairs. She loved salsa and she liked being in charge. She loved having her bum scratched and rolling on her back. Peeing was also one of her favorite things and she would often pee to express her displeasure or annoyance. She was potty trained, but we made her wear diapers in the house to take away this weapon.

My wife and I are also not convinced she was a dog. She seemed more bear like and we often referred to her as a little bear. When she was younger, she would hide in the backyard, charge me, bite my ankles and take me down. I used to refer to her as “Wa-chu-tu” which you'll recall, if you saw Ace Ventura: When Nature Calls, was the name of the tribe that Ace Ventura refers to as biters.

As she aged, her face grew white and her demeanor grew sweeter. Unable to whine for attention, she began huffing and puffing in disgust when she wanted something. We know it was her way of communicating because the timing was too perfect. We’d say something and she’d huff in response.

In August of 2011, she was in our wedding. I walked her down the aisle with my bride and our other dog, Bella. She wore a white wedding dress and was pulled by a red leash. It was an outdoor wedding and she spent much of the day huddled under a porch, like a bear in a den. She’d always needed a woman to love her and be her momma, and she finally had one in Andrea.


At this time, she had a tumor the size of a softball on her chest. The risk of putting a twelve year old dog under anesthesia is great, but, the next month, we had the tumor removed. She survived a three hour procedure and was put on pain medication that she would stay on for the rest of her life.

The pain medication was a double edged sword. It helped her function. By this point, arthritis was taking over her little body, but the medicine would also destroy her kidneys. It became an issue of quality of life versus quantity. The vet recommended that we put her on the medication but said it would likely severely impact her lifespan. We agreed and put her on the medication.


Eight months ago, July 2012, our vet told us that Baby was in kidney failure and was given six months to a year to live. We were told what symptoms to look for when the time came and to begin preparing for her passing. We began to sing “You are my sunshine” to her every night before bed. She would lay on her bed and smile. Sometimes she’d lick our hands and arms. She’d sleep and wake up in a panic around seven needing to go out. With her kidney failure, she couldn’t control her bladder anymore.


For months and months she was fine. Christmas of 2012, she travelled with us to Bellingham to visit the in-laws and spent most of her time in the kitchen, hoping to catch droppings from grammas cooking. Tuesday night, the night before her passing, as I ate pizza she had her face in my lap with wild eyes, trying to get a piece.


That night, she began throwing up. This was a sign to look out for. She threw up her breakfast. She began to wander around confused, walking into walls and corners. Her eyes looked blank and lifeless. There was no smile. Her tail hung between her legs. She threw up her dinner. My wife and I began talking about the inevitable. The only time Baby smiled the whole day was when we said we’d take her in and have her put down. As soon as we said this, her face stretched into a grotesque grin, which was both ugly and sweet. It stayed like this for about a minute, and her breathing began to labor. She was ready. She told us.

I wasn’t.


She began to refuse food. She drank water and threw that up. Her eyes grew blanker. She was already gone.

I was ready.


She had suffered enough. At 1:30 am. As we were leaving, Baby stopped and stared at Bella, who was sitting on the couch. It is assumed in the wild that dogs communicate with each other telepathically. She was certainly communicating with Bella. We’d love to know what she said. After about thirty seconds, Bella sighed and slung her head down between her feet. I believe Baby was telling her goodbye.


We drove to the vet, and a catheter was inserted into Baby’s leg. In a final act of defiance, Baby attempted to bite the vet as she inserted the catheter. I opted to leave the room for the procedure. I didn’t want to remember her that way. I wanted to remember the previous thirteen years. My wife stayed and as I paced the waiting room, I heard her gently singing “You are my sunshine” as Baby passed from this world into the next. My wife said it was beautiful and peaceful and she held Baby’s lifeless body for a few minutes.


I was initially okay. I woke up this morning around nine am and didn’t see Baby. I crawled back into bed, my wife held me and the thoughts and memories began to come. Tears welled and crawled slowly down my face. These turned into a stifled sob and finally a torrent of grief. I sobbed for all the times I was impatient with her, for the fact that she was no longer there for me to hold and sing to, for all the memories we’d shared. As I sobbed, my wife held me close and Bella jumped on the bed and began to lick away my tears.


Baby may be gone, and I will always miss her, but I’m not alone. I am so loved. I hope Baby felt the same way.



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Dip Mtra 23 months ago from World Citizen

Wow, it has been a long time since I have shed a tear. I feel your sorrow Justin.

Dipankar


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Express10 23 months ago from East Coast

This is a lovely tribute to a beautiful and well loved pets. I also like to call Chows little bears, it fits well.


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UnnamedHarald 23 months ago from Cedar Rapids, Iowa

Jesus. I'm actually crying.


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Thank you Lady. It's par for the course when you choose to be an animal parent. You're most likely going to outlive them. The love is worth it, but it still stings when they're gone.


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

George, thanks so much for stopping by. It's been almost six months now and it still hurts sometimes. Hard to believe she's not here anymore.


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ladydeonne 3 years ago from Florence, SC

Oh, I would have loved your baby! She was for sure a very special dog. I feel and share with you and your wife's grief. I burst into tears when you described Baby's death. I have suffered the loss of (8) dogs during my lifetime. Each one has been hard. Each time I've said "no more dogs, the pain is too much for me to bear." Yet, I always get other dogs, just as you do. I am so sorry that you and Andrea had to lose Baby. You both were so blessed to have her and that she chose you two to be her parents. Loving our dogs makes us more loving and better people as a heart filled with love is a heart filled with joy.


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Georgie Lowery 3 years ago from Slaton, Texas USA

This made me so sad, but happy that Baby had you and your wife to give her the life and love that she so obviously deserved. I know this is an older Hub, but I want to say that I am sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing her life with us, too.


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Thanks Flourish. I feel blessed to have known that ornery little dog :-)


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

HI Getitwrite. I'm glad this inspired you. How is your pup doing?


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Avian, thank you. It is a joy to love them indeed!


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FlourishAnyway 3 years ago from USA

This is a beautiful story. How wonderful that you connected with her like you did in the shelter and every day afterwards.


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Getitwrite 3 years ago from Maine

I was just about to leave my house to go pick up my dog at the vet. He has a terrible hip problem and he's having x rays today. Anyway, I was reading my email and saw your nice comment, then I saw this Hub page. It has inspired me to write about my other dog that I lost last May. Your description really moved me. I can so relate to what you wrote here. It's such a hard decision to make. Thanks for sharing your experience!


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aviannovice 3 years ago from Stillwater, OK

I have lost a few dogs, so I understand. All we can do is love them for as long as they own us.


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Thanks so much, darling. This was as cathartic for me to right as it was for you to read, I'm sure :-)

Love you, love her.


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Andrea333 3 years ago

Honey, thank you for writing this beautiful hub, honoring the life of our girl. It'll be awhile before I can read it again because the pain of losing her is too fresh and I'll never be able to read it without tears...though I know eventually they'll be bittersweet tears and than someday, just sweet tears, as I remember this amazing dog and how she became my daughter. Thanks for letting me be her mama, what an honor. Also, thank you Sunnie Day for your kind words. I'm glad you are our friend. Your dad and mom love you Baby. Looking forward to kissing your sweet face again....


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Oh Stessily, thanks so much for your eloquent and kind words. Even now it's hard to look at her without wanting to cry, but, we recently adopted a rescue shi tzu poodle mix we named Sauvee. we rescued her from a puppy mill and if we swill had Baby, she's still be suffering. I appreciate your visit and your words. They mean a lot. Thank you!


stessily 3 years ago

Justin, Thank you for letting me know yesterday about Baby's passing. I am used to including Baby and Bella in my best wishes for you and Andrea, so I'll have to remind myself that one member of your immediate family has now "slipped the surly bonds of Earth . . . and touched the face of God" (John Gillespie Magee Jr, "High Flight").

One of your comments is touching and seems so very true:

"I think God gave dogs such a short lifespan because He is a dog lover and wanted to spend as much time with them as possible, so we get to care for them for just a short time."

This entire tribute is beautiful, heartfelt and moving. The telepathic farewell between Baby and Bella brought tears to my eyes. Your last lines are compellingly exquisite, conveying so much in a few words:

"Baby may be gone, and I will always miss her, but I'm not alone. I am so loved. I hope Baby felt the same way."

She chose you, Justin; never forget that, because she could have been barking and biting the other dogs (tee hee), but she instead looked to you and drew you to her.

In a moving tribute to his recently deceased dog, Blemie, written from Blemie's perspective, that great playwright of monumental tragic despair, Eugene O'Neill, spoke of recalling reciprocal love between dogs and their human families:

""No matter how deep my sleep I shall hear you, and not all the power of death can keep my spirit from wagging a grateful tail." ("The Last Will and Testament of Silverdene Emblem O'Neill")

Baby's tail is wagging and wagging for her earthly family who brought her so much happiness and accepted her as she was, bites and all.

Thank you for sharing Baby with your readers.

Kind regards, Stessily


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Thank you Kashmir. I appreciate the kind words. I don't miss her all the time, but, when I do, it really hurts. I have a hard time looking at her pictures., but I also want to keep her alive, so I do.


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kashmir56 3 years ago from Massachusetts

Hi my friend thanks for sharing this beautiful account of beautiful Baby's life and death. I'm so very sad and sorry you lost your beautiful Baby and know how you felt at that moment, because last March i lost my beautiful dog Tanya. They are like children to us and it hurts so much when we lose our furry kids. Hope a new companion finds you soon !


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Thanks ebower. I appreciate that!


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Thanks drMark. This was really cathartic, but it's been a month, and I still miss her so much.


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Thanks girish. I appreciate that.


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Thanks flash and sorry for the loss of your wonderful critter!


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Eddy, I appreciate your kind words. It's always helpful to know that others are grieving with you and offering comfort.


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Ebower 3 years ago from Georgia

This is so sad, but really sweet. I voted it up and beautiful.


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DrMark1961 3 years ago from The Beach of Brazil

Thanks for putting your story out there. It is obvious from reading your comments that a lot of us feel this way but not everyone is able to bare their soul and say goodbye.


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girishpuri 3 years ago from NCR , INDIA

it is painful to red about the loss of your dog, a great tribute through hubpages


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flashmakeit 3 years ago from usa

Sorry to read about the loss of your dog. My dog die four years ago and she was 16 years old so I know how painful that feeling maybe.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales

Oh this was beautiful PDX and like Victoria says you have all those beautiful memories and he will always be with you.

Thank you so much for sharing such a beautiful and precious part of your life with us on here.

I vote up,across and share all around.

Lots of love from my little corner of Wales.

Eddy.


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Arthur, sorry to hear about the loss of your friend. It's never easy... but, life does go on. we grieve them and then we live our lives. That's how we honor them.


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Angela, I too believe that animals are part of the creation that will be restored at the end and spend eternity in Heaven. I think God gave dogs such a short lifespan because He is a dog lover and wanted to spend as much time with them as possible, so we get to care for them for just a short time. I think she's up there enjoying her self right now :-)


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Thanks Audrey. She was a great dog, despite her orneriness.


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Thanks a lot catfish


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Annette, thanks for sharing your story. It's so hard to lose them, but wonderful to be able to love and cherish them


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Arthur Fontes 3 years ago from Fall River,MA

The magnificent animal in my avatar pic was my faithful friend for seven years. I said goodbye to him a few weeks ago, the tears still exist. I have never felt such a hollow feeling in my life.

He was my reason to get out of bed in the morning, he was my purpose. A better friend, I have never known. Nor will that void ever be filled. I still have a wonderful Chihuahua, but the intelligence, loyalty, and bond we have will never reach the level my GSD and I had.

This is my first mention of this on the Internet since the loss. I can empathize with your story. As the tears roll down my cheek, I will conclude with the following thought.

" the unconditional acceptance, understanding, and love received from a pet is perhaps the greatest gift available to us"

My dog was my teacher, I am a better person for having known him!


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Angela Blair 3 years ago from Central Texas

My heart aches with yours, my friend -- and from experience I know it hurts deeply. The bright spot is you had such a friend and loved each other so dearly. I'm one of those people who believe we'll meet our animal friends again in the hereafter -- and such a beautiful reunion. Thank you for a sweet and memorable Hub. Best/Sis


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AudreyHowitt 3 years ago from California

I am so sorry Justin--my eyes are tearing and I know your loss is huge. Loving a dog is a wonderful thing--and when a dog loves you, all is right in the world--it sounds like you two had the best in each other


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catfish33 3 years ago from Maryland

My condolences on the loss of your dog. I know what you're going through.


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Annette R. Smith 3 years ago from Orlando, Florida

What a wonderful memorial to Baby. Reading about your faithful companion brought tears to my own eyes as I remembered Goldie, our beautiful Golden Retriever-Chow mix. It's been two years since she passed, and life feels a little empty without her. Cherish your memories of Baby, and know that your friends are thinking of you and praying for you.


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Thanks Victoria. Much more practical then using an urn or something. Very special.


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Victoria Lynn 3 years ago from Arkansas, USA

Oh, that's really neat about the plaster cast of her paw. I'm glad I saw this again. What a neat memento. Very special.


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Thanks Faerie. And we are not planning on having human children, so they are our babies. we treat them like children.


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Thanks Suzie... and i may get her paw print and name tattooed on my body so I won't forget.


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Thanks for sharing your story, Wakerra. I'll try to get over and read your hub. No matter the breed or species, animals always impact our lives. Thanks for sharing your story


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Thanks a lot Tammy. I appreciate that


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Thanks Sharon She gave us quite a few scares and it actually helped us be preparedwhen it happened and know what signs to look for to minimize her suffering. "You are my sunshine" is such a sweet song and so true, because our dogs really do bring sunshine into our lives.


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Thanks faithful Daighter. I hope this was cathartic for you. Baby is certainly a bear, or was, but cuddle at your own risk. She had a tendency too nip :-)


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Thanks Michelle. Rescuing animals makes so much more sense than purchasing from the breeder. Thanks for doing your part. Thanks a lot for reading and commenting.


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Thanks Lady. We talked with Bella before we left to make sure she understood what was happening and she does seem pretty accepting. You have to give them credit for being able to understand. Not enough people do, it seems.


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Oh Kimmie. Thank you. Very swet. Shared grief always makes the pill easier to swallow.


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Thanks Jamie, my friend


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Thanks Sue. I appreciate that.


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Thanks Moon. I have also shed minimal tears over familt and friends but blubbered like a baby over animals I have lost. There's something about an animal that makes it harder. Maybe it's the sense of responsibility. Thanks for reading.


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Thanks Susan


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PDXKaraokeGuy 3 years ago from Portland, Oregon Author

Hi Victoria

thanks for the kind words. It's never easy losing an animal, but I wouldn't trade loving them for the world. You'll miss Gizmo when he's gone, but you'll never regret loving him. The place we took Baby too made a plaster cast of her paw. We put it on our wall. it's very special.


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faeriemusejo 3 years ago from The Frozen North: Alaska

I'm so sorry for your loss. Dogs become just as much part of a family as any other member and it is so sad when they leave us.


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suziecat7 3 years ago from Asheville, NC

So sorry for your loss. It's so hard. Baby was loved very much and will always be in your hearts.


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Wakerra 3 years ago

Darnit...I know Hubpages doesn't allow HTML, but its not taking my URL's either...hopefully this message goes through

I was saying this hub made me cry reading it, as I can relate to the loss of one of my beloved pets. I had a cat for about 4 years, before a recent and unexpected accident took her away from me. One of her many nicknames was "Babies" or "Baby", so I really thought of her when I read this article. I wrote a hub shortly after her passing, I tried to link it but apparently hubpages didn't like that. You're welcome to find it on my profile, however if you want to.

one of the other things I wrote on my previous comment was I also sobbed like a child that night after I found her dead. Its still hard sometimes and I think of her from time to time. She will always have a very special place in my heart


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tammyswallow 3 years ago from North Carolina

We should all have it so good. Very touching. I am sorry for your loss.


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Wakerra 3 years ago

This brought tears to my eyes as I read through it. I lost my cat recently, and I too, created a hub around it. If you'd like to see it, it can be found here http://hubpages.com/health/In-Memory-of-Turtle...

One of the many nicknames my cat had was "Babies" or "Baby". I didn't have much time with her, and her passing was a quick one, but I still miss her. The day she passed away, before I went to sleep, I too sobbed like a child in bed. Its been really hard for me too, but I know I'll have a chance to be with her again in the next life, and this brings me some peace and comfort. Its just...waiting.


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Sharyn's Slant 3 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA

Aw Justin, I am so sorry for your loss. I remember last year when you were concerned about her. Thank you for sharing Baby's life with us here. I love the story and especially when you talk about singing "You are My Sunshine." I always used to sing that to my dog Buttons.


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Faithful Daughter 3 years ago from Sunny Florida

I am so sorry for your loss. Your beautiful story brought me to tears as I also remembered my Poppy's passing. It's very hard to loose a family member, and it's going to take a while for your pain to subside. And remember, it's Ok to grieve for your beloved pet. It's part of the healing process. Hugs to you and your wife in your time of sorrow. Baby was a cute, cuddly bear and she's no longer suffering.


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Michele Travis 3 years ago from U.S.A. Ohio

Wow, this an amazing hub.. what you wrote is so true. People love animals so much. I had a rescue horse. When I got him for free, he was kind of wild. After about a year, he was so gentle, we could use him for a horseback riding, therapy program for children with special needs. I was also able to grab his neck and swing back and forth.

The only thing he did not like was men in baseball hats.

After he got very sick and we had to put him down, I cried and have even had dreams about him.

Voted up.


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Lady Guinevere 3 years ago from West Virginia

Letting go is so hard. I know your pain as I have had to put 2 cats to sleep in the last 3 years. I knew when they said it was time but as you have been through it is hard for us to believe it is time. Animals are so special to us and they are like children. They depend on us for their basics and when we take them in they take our hearts. Yes, they do communicate telepathically. I hope that you let the other know and see that your Baby was not in her earthly body. I made themistake of not allowing the others to know when the first cat had to be put down. All the other pets that we had missed her so much and waited for her to come home. They constantly watched for three months even though I had told them that she was gone. Your other dog will grieve just as humans grieve. Watch for that and give it lots of love and grieve together. They know. They know.

HUGS dear friend.


Sunnie Day 3 years ago

Justin my dearest sweet friend, I know there were many tears as you wrote this but I also know you had to , this was your way of coping with the pain you are feeling. I want you and Andrea to know I am crying with you as I have been down this road way too many times. There are no words to make the pain go away, only time where the sweet memories will cradle you like a lullaby. My love, thoughts, and prayers go with you today. Sending my love and yes I do believe that all dogs go to heaven.

Sunnie


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jhamann 3 years ago from Reno NV

I am sorry for your loss. Her memory will live on through your hub. Jamie


Sueswan 3 years ago

Hi Justin,

I am so sorry that you and Andrea have lost your sweet Baby. I am happy that she is no longer suffering .

Baby knew how much she was loved and her death will not change it

God bless

Sue


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moonfroth 3 years ago from Rural BC (Canada) & N of Puerto Vallarta (Mexico)

Ahh, my friend, I'm ashamed to say I've shed not a tear at numerous human deaths in my life, but I blubbered like a baby over this post--and I've blubbered when my favoured pets have died. One of my dogs, Friday, a heeler/collie cross, instantly attacked a dog half again his size who was attacking ME. He even won the fight that ensued. I could go on with many more tales of the wonder of my dogs. A beautifully written Memorial. Very sorry for your loss.


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Just Ask Susan 3 years ago from Ontario, Canada

Oh Justin, I'm so sorry .....


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Victoria Lynn 3 years ago from Arkansas, USA

That was breathtaking, Justin. I couldn't hold back the tears near the end. What a special story. I guess you have to focus on all the good memories and knowing that you bonded with Baby in a way that others didn't and gave her a wonderful life. I am sick when I think of losing my Gizmo, but he's 9 and I know one day he will be gone from my sight. Still, I don't think they ever really leave us.

This is a beautiful hub, Justin. You honored her well.

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