Feeling Lost And Empty After An Alcoholic Stops Drinking Alcohol

MY STORY OF JUST HOW I FELT AFTER SURRENDERING TO MY DEMONS

Here is feeling lost and empty after an alcoholic stops drinking alcohol and my story and thoughts on just how I got through the torture.

I call this torture because alcohol was my life, my best friend, and something I thought I could never live without.

When I finally decided to stop drinking alcohol, just about three years ago, I felt lost and empty. When the start date of my sobriety came, I felt like I was losing everything in my life, but the fact is, I would of lost everything in my life if I didn't do something about my addiction to alcohol.

This life change was going to take some getting used to that was sure, but I had it in my mind that I have had enough and it was time to change my life around for the better, and that is exactly what I did and nothing and no one would change my mind to getting and staying sober. It was the best thing I could of ever done in my entire life and i am proud of myself as many others are. It makes you feel great that you can beat something that you have struggled with for a good part of your life.

I never realize when I stopped drinking alcohol that my life would be so different and enjoyable. See, I didn't think by quitting drinking would make life happier. I thought that anyone that didn't drink was a square and a boring person. Man was I ever wrong.

When I stopped drinking the first week or two I was a nervous wreck, shaky and didn't know what to even do with my hands because I was so used to having a beer in them all the time.

I had that lost and empty feeling in me because, a huge part of my life was missing and a part I depended on to give me that all mighty feeling of the buzz, that I might add, made me feel like crap the next morning, but that feeling never stopped me from not drinking the following day. I guess nothing would make anyone stop drinking alcohol unless that person was just sick of the life they have and said to them self, "enough is enough, I can't take this anymore."

That is what I said almost three years ago on October 27, 2009. I look forward to that day each year to pat myself on the back saying, "I have made it one more day and one more year clean and sober."

THE LINGERING DEMONS

I can say that even though I stopped drinking alcohol and living a life of sobriety the demons still are lingering in my body just waiting for me to screw up and take that one sip of alcohol that would send me in to a relapse for sure. I have learned to know my body better than ever since I have become sober.

I know for a fact, if I let the demons tell me what to do, such as, just have one drink, it won't hurt, I would be doomed. You have to be stronger than your addiction in order to beat it forever. Willpower, determination and the desire to get and stay sober is the key to my success of living a life of sobriety.

Don't feel lost or empty when you stop drinking alcohol. Be happy that you have beat your inner demons, and remember you are now in control of your body and mind and not the demons.

I know it is hard to leave something behind that has been a huge part of your life, but it is so possible, as you see what I have done.

Many people think that when they quit drinking alcohol the people they used to party with will think you are not the person you were before, and believe me, I have gone through that. These drinking buddies are not true friends because if they were they would be so supportive of you stopping drinking, and instead they look down on you that you have taken that first step to sobriety and they are just jealous they don't have the guts or the willpower to do what you have just done.

They want all their drinking buddies to go down with the ship all together. This is only my own opinion and what has happened in my life. I lost many so called friends when I stopped drinking alcohol. They are all out of my life and I truly think they are afraid to be around me, for they may think I will preach to them. and that would not be the case at all.

I will indeed mention to them that any of them can quit drinking like I did if they wish to live a long and happy life, but I will not push sobriety down their throat that is for sure. As you all know, you must want to change your life for you and on your own terms and not be forced into getting sober. It will not work that way, I know, I have been that route before and failed because I simply was NOT READY to be clean and sober.

The only lost and empty feeling you will have is not to have your crutch and your stomach will be empty of the poison will call alcohol. It too will pass and you will get over it as I did. Not a loss at all for me. I am enjoying my life now being clean and sober and will continue until my last breath and you and everyone else can do the same thing if you truly love and care about yourself that much.

Think about it and you might just enjoy this beautiful life we all call the life of sobriety!

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carol7777 4 years ago from Arizona

I can imagine how difficult it is to give up something that was a big part of your life whether negative or positive. I think we all know someone suffering from this addiction. I also know many functioning alcoholics. It seems they go to work, function, avoid DUIs..etc. However the accomplishment is great and I think we all have demons regardless of drinking. Great hub and Voted Up.


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the clean life 4 years ago from New Jersey Shore Author

carol7777 - Thank you for your comment Carol. I was the same way. Went to work everyday and provided for my family like a father and husband should, but I carried my demons everywhere I went and could not go anywhere if without alcohol and if it wasn't at a party or function I would bring my own.

Thank you for the Vote up also !


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carol7777 4 years ago from Arizona

But it looks like you have made things work. And I know that has not been easy. I have never been plagued with alcohol, but I can understand it all. Life is about habits, so we try to have really good ones. Looks like you do.


KDuBarry03 4 years ago

What a powerful, moving, and informative experience. Congrats on going 3 years free! Sharing this!


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georgescifo 4 years ago from India

I always used to regret after drinking heavily the previous day. But whenever I drink moderately, I do not feel any regret and also do not get over ridden by the hangover..

Anyway thanks for sharing your valuable hub..keep hubbing..


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the clean life 4 years ago from New Jersey Shore Author

KDuBarry03 Thank you for your comment and your kind words to me :)


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the clean life 4 years ago from New Jersey Shore Author

georgescifo- Sad to say I can not drink moderately. I wish I could of but I never knew when to stop so... I must not drink at all. Thanks for your comment !


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Entourage_007 4 years ago from Santa Barbara, CA

Very inspiring, I am so glad I ran into you on hubpages here. You set a very positive example and I am glad to hear from your positive experience. There is not enough support for people that suffer with addiction, and I'm glad there is a place you can go on the internet to alleviate temptations and set positive goals.


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the clean life 4 years ago from New Jersey Shore Author

Entourage_007- Thanks so much for your kind words to me and for taking the time to read this hub.

All the best!

Mark


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James Peters 4 years ago from Hammond, Indiana

You have a GREAT gift for writing...WoW - is all I can say!

I hope more & more people read your HUBS, especially the ones who have a problem.

Great, great, GREAT article.


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the clean life 4 years ago from New Jersey Shore Author

James Peters- Hello James and thank you so much for your comment and your kind words to me. That really makes me feel great! I sure hope my articles help someone in the world to get sober and live a wonderful life.

All the best!


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healthwealthmusic 4 years ago from Everywhere Online ~ Fingerlakes ~ Upstate New York

I agree - some people may be able to drink only occasionally, or always in moderation. Others seem to have a tendency for addictions, and may not drink at all, least they are unable to stop. That is the case of my husband - he has not been able to stop, and drinks an average of 18 -20 beers every night before falling asleep on the couch. If he ever really decides he wants to stop drinking, he is going to have to know that he may NEVER touch another drink, least he go into relapse. At this point, he has not yet been seriously ready to get sober. I pray that one day that will change...


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the clean life 4 years ago from New Jersey Shore Author

@ Ruth- Thank you for your comment. OMG your husband sounds like I was over 3 years ago. didn't know when to stop! Passed out on the couch after I ate because i was starving from all the alcohol that I drank all night. I know just what you mean. I hope he comes to terms and admits he has a problem and then do something about it. It took me years to finally stop drinking for good. I tried a few times, but I just wasn't ready (as you said) to give up something that was a huge part of my life.

God Bless you and your husband and I pray things will get better for you and him.


Dave Babcook 4 years ago

view this video on you tube about a tormented drunk holding a shot glass.Song title is another shot of jack on cookbab channel


Ann 3 years ago

I don't know what to do every night without having a drink. What did yu replace it with?


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the clean life 3 years ago from New Jersey Shore Author

@ Ann, Thank you for reading and your comment. I felt lost in the beginning and was so nervous without a drink in my hand. I made a promise to myself Ann when I decided to stop drinking and that was, no matter what happens in my life or how bored I am, I would never pick up a drink again. I drank lots of coffee and tried to keep myself busy all day and night, such as going out in the car or a store just to past time until it was time for bed. You can not sit home and do nothing because your mind will continue to think about the alcohol. It will drive you crazy Ann. Stay busy and as the days and months go by it will get easier really it will. You have to stand strong and don't give in to the demons. The craving and urges will always be there so it is important to stay busy and not let your mind wonder to the alcohol.

God Bless you Ann and always feel free to email me if you like.

Mark


Carl 2 years ago

This was a great read, congrats on going sober.

I've recently started my own rocky path to sobriety, and have been dealing with that empty feeling. I've slipped up a bunch though, honestly, and that first drink always leads to a dozen more. It's been an eye opener to the real depth of my problem though, and how bad even a single night of drinking can be for my physical and mental health.

It's easier now that it's less of a habit, and I don't get withdrawals anymore, but I still wrestle with my demons, and have that feeling of emptiness. Posts like this really help give me some hope though, so thanks for sharing.


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the clean life 2 years ago from New Jersey Shore Author

Carl, thank you so much for reading this and your comment. It makes me feel great to know that my writing helps a little for people that are going through what I have been through. Keep that positive attitude Carl and things will get better each and everyday. I get those urges every once in a while, but I know for a fact that one drink of alcohol will set off the demons and I would be doomed for sure. Stay away from that first drink .

Nice to know you and congrats on your sobriety as well.

Mark


lovedoctor926 2 years ago

I'm glad that you were able to turn your life for the better. Good advice that will hopefully help those suffering from an alcohol addiction problem. voted up useful, awesome


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the clean life 2 years ago from New Jersey Shore Author

lovedoctor926 Thanks so much for reading and your comment. means so much to me.

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