Holy Crap I am Turning 40
Holy crap, I am turning 40 years old on February 24. You would think by the time I turn this age I would be happy about it, but I am not. I am not rich and famous, beautiful and thin, or anything like that. I am just turning another year older and watching the grey become more apparent in my hair. I can't seem to stay up past 9 p.m. without feeling exhausted and ready for bed. I could remember staying up till 2 a.m. and sleep on less than 6 hours of sleep when I was in my 20's. That was two decades ago and time travels quickly when you are a women getting older.
I am sure you are asking where I am going with this, so I will tell you. Turning 40 was suppose to be great I would be working at my dream job as a feature writer for a woman's magazine and well known feminist writer. I am none of these things. I have worked for the same job as an office assistant for over 10 years and I hate it. So, I am going back to school to earn a B/S in Interdisciplinary Studies with an major in Social Sciences. This is a large IDS degree with three concentrations in Communications, English, and Political Science. Than I will work toward my second B/A degree in Humanities with an concentration in English and Ethics. Boring, huh? Well, I want to teach so I need a MA in Humanities with an concentration in English and writing.
I think I use education to fill in the gap in my life. I am not married and have no children. This hasn't bothered me, until I realized that I am turning 40 and have nothing to show for it. Our society shows us that a woman can have it all career, marriage, and children. Well, I don't have it all and I am ready for a change.
I wonder if this is what they call "Mid-Life Crisis" where you re-calculate your life and ready for a change. I am ready for a change. I just have to finish education and find a job that fits my personality. I have a feeling that it is not in Seattle, Washington, probably Los Angeles, Chicago, Washington, D.C. or New York. If I want to concentrate in an career in Communications/Public Relations career. I have applied for jobs in Portland, L.A., D.C, New York and Chicago. I will just have to wait and see. Than work toward a way to rent my condo, pay for moving expenses and sell my car.
The reason why this has been on my mind is that I just finished a two day workshop in Communications and Stress. I have talked to one student who was in an car accident and gets headaches every day of her life since 1994. She has to take strong meds to keep them at bay. This woman works full time and attends school full time. She wants to graduate this summer and focus on a career as a social worker. Another woman wants to leave her Dental Hygienist job and apply for a job in business management. The last two woman in my group was one veteran who left the Air Force to take care of her mother after the death of her father, and now is attending school to become an accountant. Last member of the group is a woman from the island Saint Lucia in the Caribbean whose dream is to own a house and work in retail management. She is tired of her dead end job that pays her very little in wages, insurance and retirement benefits. These four woman presented themselves to me as over the age of 40, ready for change by going back to school and fulfilling their dream for a better career. This inspired me to do the same.
I will not give up on my dreams for a career in Public Relations and Marketing. I know that with the current ecomony it will take a while and not the time for a change. But I am ready for a change for career and an new enviroment.
If you are reading this I want you to know that the politicians can tell us whatever they want to get elected, but the truth is they don' t have a clue to what is really going on. There is a old saying my grandmother used to say, "You don't know about a person until you walk a mile in their shoes." This is very true, until the politicians can understand the people of this country's need for a better job, insurance and retirement benefits. Than they don't know their voters really well and need to work on that.
When you are 40 or older the chance to start mid-career is the most difficult decision to make and finding a job is even harder. Good luck to you all. I hope you find what you are looking for, because I am doing the same.