How Did You Find Out That You Had Cancer?

Its a scary thing. A horror nobody wants to believe has happened. To them. Happens to others, yes, but not them. Yet, it does even though you feel totally fine and no symptoms exist.

The doctor enters the waiting room. You immediately ask, "Is everything okay"?. The doctor responds, " Please come into my office, I need to talk to you". Suddenly, a ton of fear and anguish topples over you like a tsunami. The doctor shows you the MRI scans and points to a specific area.

"I don't know what it is", the doctor states. You are terrified. He continues, " the growth is pushing into other areas and is invasive". You are shell shocked. A quiet panic. He continues, "I am not comfortable letting this continue. We need to admit you now. Time, your time, is of essence. The only thing you conjure up is, "Am I going to die?". The doctor shrugs, "I have no clue, we need to operate ASAP".

Suddenly, your normal life of just 30 minutes ago, goes into overdrive mentally. Things to do randomly hit you in no order. You have things to do in the next day, important things, like, jogging in a race, working on your 67 Chevy, going to back to school. You feel just fine, yet, in a few short words, it may come to a screeching halt. Confusion enters. if I feel fine, you think, what is the rush? I am not ready for this!!! You think, maybe the tests and MRI are wrong, incorrectly analyzed. Maybe, maybe, and more maybes.....you are not ready to end your one and only life forever!

Soon, some reality does set in. You think, I have must things to do today. Let's just delay this, this thing. It can wait. I want to have it like it was. I feel fine. Until this MRI, I was fine! The doctor blurts out, " look, the longer we wait, the more change this growth will cause more damage. I do suspect it to be cancer".

Cancer. That f-ing word. Why can't God just perform a miracle and begone it!! Why does he allow it????? More thoughts randomly go through your mind. Anger. why me??? This happens to OTHERS, not me! I have been healthy all my life!!

Being told you have cancer is an instant horror story.

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JT Walters 5 years ago from Florida

Hi Perrya,

I just lost my Mom to Cancer. She was told she had hemmorriods but once she was finally referred to a surgeon and when they operated on her hemorriods they discovered she had stage IV rectal cancer. She made it two years but died last January. Sadly, the doctors were so neglectful in her care for so long she wasn't properly screened. Women get poor medical care then men.

JT


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Sunshine625 5 years ago from Orlando, FL

Perrya, I'm sorry for the loss of your mother and the neglectful medical care she had. I do believe that women have better medical care then men because women will visit a doctor more often then a man would. Most men neglect their symptoms and just try to wish it away.

When we were told my mother had cancer 12 years ago the floor opened up beneath us and it felt like we were swallowed up, it was heartbreaking. She lost her colon cancer battle 6 years ago. When we were told my husband has prostate cancer 3.5 years ago we experienced the exact fears. He is still battling the beast. Being told you have cancer is a moment I wish no one ever had to deal with. It's just horrible. Thank you for sharing this hub.


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perrya 5 years ago Author

well, my mom was a smoker all her life. Healthy until age 78. In Jan. 2001, she went for a lung xray-all clear of cancer. Between that time and March, lung cancer had started and quickly spread to her spine. She thought she had pulled a disc. Finally, by end of March she went to the doctor for that. The doctor was suspicious and did a MRI of the lungs, by then, cancer was bad. By end of April, she was dead.

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