How To Say Goodbye Without Ever Saying Hello-Part 2

My 16 year old married(yes she was married and had a 2 year old child)friend came by our house because my car was still there. When she walked into the house, I was curled up in a ball. and crying.

I told her that this was not the way it usually happened and I needed to go to the ER of the base hospital. She didn't know how to drive a stick shift so we traveled to the hospital in third gear all the way.

She and I were playfully having a contest to see who would get pregnant first. They ran a test to determine if I was pregnant. When the doctor came in, he said, "You are pregnant but you are having a miscarriage".

The reality of those words kept resounding in my brain. I was finally pregnant but I was loosing a child that my husband and I had created. This was a baby to me! The doctor informed me that I was "only" 8 weeks pregnant. I'm sorry- you can not be a "little" pregnant. You either or not.

My baby had eyelids, lips, a heart, back and she is making twitching movements that cannot be felt. Her brains cells were multiplying at a rate of 100 times a minute. To me, she was alive.

I was in shock! What do I do next? The doctor informed me that they were going to do some more testing to determine how far along was my pregnancy .

I had to call American Red Cross to see if they could get a message to my husband so he could be with me. I can still remember those words "Honey, were pregnant but I am losing it"

The doctors continued to test me but they could not find it. So they did a D&C on me which is an abortion. I hate that term! I WAS NOT having an ABORTION but the medical terms mean nothing.



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gretchen c 3 years ago

Sad to say but the term "abortion" is too technical a term. It really doesn't have any subjective substance just an objective term. Good story!


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hair bender 3 years ago Author

And when it happens to you, you know the difference. Thanks for the support!

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