I survived child abuse

We have  all seen or heard  the stories of  child abuse on the six o-clock news  . Our hearts as parents go out to these little ones trapped in a cycle of abuse , unable to escape or defend themselves from the very people that are supposed to protect them. But what happens when these children grow up . What happens if there is no intervention.  The effects  of the abuse do not  end simply because the child is old enough to escape.  I am a survivor of child abuse .  This is my story. 

I was raised in a chaotic ,  frightening  home with a violent alcoholic father , and an emotionally physically abusive  mother .As a young woman racked with low self esteem and anxiety   I married an abusive man and became a classic high functioning victim  attempting to bury  my personal demons in an array of addictions.Mainly  to work and then to over the counter diet pills to fuel the  compulsive over-activity I used to distract myself from the overwhelming fear and anxiety I lived with daily .I thought if I could keep myself busy enough or work hard enough it would all be okay .The fruits of my compulsion also paid off giving me a sense of  self esteem . I  became the classic super mom overworked , overstressed and bit by bit falling apart .  Eventually  I was diagnosed with bi polar, anxiety ,and depression but the truth is I had Post tramatic Stess Disorder . I like many of you thought only war vets could get Ptsd , but many experts now believe that it is very common among Child abuse Victims. The stress of living in a chaotic and violent environment especially as a child will many times overload the fight or flight response and leave the survivor with severe anxiety and  hyperarousal .In may cases the person is misdiagnosed with anxiety , depression, bi- polar , or dissociative issues when in fact it is ptsd. What is the difference you may ask . The main thing is the treatment. Depression , bipolar and anxiety are many times treated with medications.Which may mask the symptoms allowing the victim to function for a time but do not address the heart of the issue . Like a band-aid over an infection they will simply cover  the underlying  issues . Ptsd though is treated with a combination of desensitization and  cognitive therapy , in some cases drugs may be perscribed in the initial stages but it isn't considered to be a long term therapy  as is the case in the other issues. Ptsd can be cured . I am walking talking proof. 


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elizabeth 6 years ago

wendy you are a brave woman. thank you for this well written and insightful piece :-)


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Darknlovely3436 5 years ago from NewYork

I see where you writing lies.. you relate to stuff that happen in your life, and you are able to write about it like a pro... thank for sharing,

self cleanse the soul is a wonderful step..

profound. vote


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tiffany delite 3 years ago from united states

thank you so much for sharing your story...you are very brave. as a fellow survivor, i know it can be difficult to heal and overcome incidents such as the ones you have endured....blessings!

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