The Sweet Betrayal of Life
Every time I look at her picture, tears would suddenly fall from my eyes. It's like seeing my life in front of me, frozen in time.
Let me say my goodbye...
Letting go is hard. But if we want to move on, you have to take the pre-requisite first, the 'letting go'. It's been 8 years but it seems like it just happened yesterday. I still have a very clear image of where I am on that day - and I really regret that I chose the wrong side of the road. One wrong choice and it could haunt you all the years.
Tears always rush to help me ease the pain. When I’m alone, memories will flood again into my mind and the scar will bleed once more. The painful thing is, I never really got a chance to say goodbye. I always think that we’ll be together for a couple more years.
It’s too late when you realized that people can’t stay in your life and for each second you have to cherish the time you have for them. So maybe I'm not ready yet to let go and i feel deep inside that I will never let go, that I will never say goodbye. In my heart, the love I have for her will forever stay.
This is for you gran. Hoping to see you soon. Take care. I will always love you.
She sits on her rocking chair
Waiting for the sunset to come in
She sleeps on her rocking chair
Waiting for the dawn to break in.
In the morning I see her staring outside
She can't even peep on the sunlight
Catch the raindrops from the sky
Or even watch a falling star at night.
Coz you see, my grandma's sick
I saw the pain in hiding on her sleepy eyes
The lips that was once alive with laughter
Have not spoken a word in a little while.
Once when I was young
I love to listen to her stories
But now, everything has changed
She is now full of pain.
I loved her very much
But I haven't let her feel it
The time has passed by
And here I am, full of regret.
I used to watch her in her rocking chair
Alone, in sorrows and in tears
I hate myself because I have nothing to do
To ease the pains she bears.
She has the kindest heart
And the most beautiful face I knew
God is so good he gave her to me
But I never thought someday she would go.
I looked on her face and she starts to cry
"I will be leaving you soon",
She said with a sigh
I might have well say goodbye.
"No grandma!" I shout
Tears swelled down on my eyes
My heart's been crushed with her words
As I hug her tight.
We stayed that way for a moment
Never wanting to let go of each other
I never thought this would be the last
Before she went with forever.
Here I am, standing beside her
So quietly she rests in peace
"Why did you leave me?"
I silently muttered on my breath.
She has the perfect beauty
Except that something's wrong
The lips won't smile, the eyes won't open
As if she'd been lonely for so long.
Although we won't see each other again
In my heart and soul she will be there
As long as I breathe, I will never forget her
Until we meet somewhere.
© 2012 Mycee. All Rights Reserved.
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