Missing My Mother

My Wonderful Mother

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Mom and the 7 girls. Mother's day just before she passed away.Mom and the 7 girls. Mother's day just before she passed away.Mom and the 7 girls. Mother's day just before she passed away.Mom and the 7 girls and 2 of the boys. Mother's day just before she passed away.Mom and Hank cutting their wedding cakeMom and Hank enjoying a picnicMom holding my daughter and my hubby consoling her.Mom and Hank with my oldest niece on her wedding day.
Mom and the 7 girls. Mother's day just before she passed away.
Mom and the 7 girls. Mother's day just before she passed away.
Mom and the 7 girls. Mother's day just before she passed away.
Mom and the 7 girls. Mother's day just before she passed away.
Mom and the 7 girls. Mother's day just before she passed away.
Mom and the 7 girls. Mother's day just before she passed away.
Mom and the 7 girls and 2 of the boys. Mother's day just before she passed away.
Mom and the 7 girls and 2 of the boys. Mother's day just before she passed away.
Mom and Hank cutting their wedding cake
Mom and Hank cutting their wedding cake
Mom and Hank enjoying a picnic
Mom and Hank enjoying a picnic
Mom holding my daughter and my hubby consoling her.
Mom holding my daughter and my hubby consoling her.
Mom and Hank with my oldest niece on her wedding day.
Mom and Hank with my oldest niece on her wedding day.

Life

Life though extreme begins so happily. Everyone is congratulating the parents, and smiling, and cooing at the newborn. It is such an amazingly beautiful thing. Then we go through life enjoying all of life's pleasures. Until it is time for one of God's creatures to leave the body and join Him in heaven. Then we are all sad and we cry and hate God for taking them away. When we should be happy for them.

Freedom

They are no longer bound by the limits of the human form, this is true freedom. God was only loaning them to us in the first place. Do you get angry at someone who loaned you a sweater or jacket when they want it back. Most of us are grateful for the warmth it provided while we had use of it. We appreciated the other person for loaning it. God gave me a beautiful, wonderful mother she gave 83 years in her human form and now she can relax and return to the Father. Yes I will miss her gorgeous smile and twinkling blue eyes but I am glad she is FREE now. I feel her in the wind and watch her dance in the trees. I hear her sing in the birds and smile in the flowers. She is still with me, ALWAYS in my heart.

Tears

Crying is not a past time, as I type, tears fill my eyes. For some reason the human form can not fully understand the release of the spirit. I think of her body now lying cold and still in the ground and I mourn for that person I knew and loved so well. So, God I do not hate you but why does it have to hurt so much? My emotions are raging inside me, from one extreme to the other. Fortunately, there is no hatred, and I am at peace with where I stood in her eyes before she passed. Of course I know that no matter what I may have done or have not done she would have forgiven me, because that is who she was.

Prayer of St. Francis

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace,
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
where there is sadness, joy;

O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood as to understand;
to be loved as to love.

For it is in giving that we receive;
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.

Living Her Faith

She lived her faith, but she did not preach it. She showed it through her way of living. The Prayer of St. Francis was always special to me because it inspired me to try to be such a person. Now I hear that it was special to many if not all of my siblings. Could it be because we saw it in her? This woman was so wise and so beautiful that she touched everyone who ever met her. Her funeral may have been small but her blessings were many.

Leaving With Dignity

As I was driving home today I thought of all the people who probably would have paid their respects if they had known of her passing. Many of the people whose lives she touched don't even know her name but they remember her and how with just a smile she warmed their hearts. Those who helped take care of her as her body began to fail and her mind started to fade commented on how accepting she was of her role and I am sure that even without seeing her end days will think of her as someone who left this world with dignity. If only I could be a fraction of the woman she was!!!

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday, Mom!

R.I.P.

9.18.1925 -- 5.26.2009

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lovdotsprite 6 years ago from Kansas

I wish you the best. May she rest in peace.


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Dardia 6 years ago from Michigan Author

Thank you, lovdotsprite!


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Bail Up ! 6 years ago

That's a beautiful prayer. I'd never actually heard or read it before. Your moms humility and all giving attitude makes her an angel. May she eternally rest in peace.


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Dardia 6 years ago from Michigan Author

Thanks, Bail Up! I'm sure she is resting in peace. She lived by that prayer.


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KKalmes 6 years ago from Chicago, Illinois

Hello Dardia, bless you and your mother... my mother passed eighteen years ago next month and I have not reconciled my emotions at the loss of her, I think because I do not dare realize she is gone.


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Dardia 6 years ago from Michigan Author

Thanks Kevin! I am not certain that I fully realize my mother is gone. There will be times when it just hits me that she is not around anymore and it can be a bit upsetting. Bless you too. My mother would say, "May God bless you and keep you safe--always!" +


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Minnetonka Twin 6 years ago from Minnesota

Beautiful sharing about your mother and your deep love for her. I lost mom when I was in 4th grade and dad when I was in my early 30's. Missing them never ceases but neither do the great memories. Blessings to you:)


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Dardia 6 years ago from Michigan Author

Nice to hear from you, Minnetonka Twin. I think having special people leave your life is always difficult no matter what your age is. I lost my father at a year and a half. I still miss him too.


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kenneth avery 5 years ago from Hamilton, Alabama

on 12/7

Dear Dardia, first of all, Voted up and all but funny on this very-touching hub of yours. Masterpiece. Great passages and love the Prayer of St. Francis. I NEEDED that today. And I miss my mom too. She has been gone for a year this past August along with my dad, and I dont know about you, but the holidays are rough without them. And I apologize sincerely and ask your forgiveness for ME taking so long to get back to read your hubs. I am so sorry. My health is not good. And lately Ive been getting projects finished in case it gets worse. I DO VALUE YOU as my friend and follower. In that order and wish for YOU and YOURS, a Merry Christmas and a PeaceFILLED 2012. Sincerely, Kenneth


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Dardia 5 years ago from Michigan Author

Thank you, Kenneth!

Your health is more important than reading my hubs. I appreciate you coming by, but understand you need to take care of yourself and your responsibilities. Holidays without my parents is not the same that is certain but I feel their presence and it always makes me smile. Of course the memories I have of them are all so wonderful. I know they would want me to be happy, so I am!

I'm sending prayers your way and wishing you and yours a very Merry and outstandingly happy Christmas as well as a peace-filled and terrific New Year.

May God bless you and keep you and yours all safe--always!! +

Sincerely,

Darlene


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kenneth avery 4 years ago from Hamilton, Alabama

12/9/2011

Dear Darlene,

first, THANK YOU SINCERELY, for your warm and very-selfless comment. I tend to lovingly-disagree. Reading YOUR Hubs and those of all my followers, to me, IS important. I learn from reading wonderful hubs. LIKE THIS ONE. Sure, I can do so much with my health, but the doctors Ive been seeing since 2003, say that Accelerated Fibromyalgia and Neurothopy only increase in pain and damage as time goes by, but I am a stubborn man at heart. And for the past few months, I have NOT run from these diseases. I just stand up to them each day and shout, "is this all you got?" Somehow, that one question does help. If only a moment in my psychological side. I will visit with you more often, Darlene. I promise, but keep up the great work. I really admire your talent. And to you and yours, MERRY CHRISTMAS.

Kenneth


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Dardia 4 years ago from Michigan Author

Dear Kenneth,

I have a good idea of what you suffer with. I have a sister who also has Accelerated Fibromyalgia and Neuropathy. She has tried so many things to help her through but it seems there is very little available to her that will help at this point.

Hang in, there science and medicine can still find a solution, God willing. I pray that the answer will be found soon.

Thanks again for visiting and Merry Christmas.

Darlene


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kenneth avery 4 years ago from Hamilton, Alabama

12/13

. . ."Thank you, Darlene," for that sweet and humble comment. I DO appreciate it. So much. And I will hang tough and take my meds and take spinal injections...and hope that one day, these two diseases will be history. Along with cancer, Hiv, and other pestilences. You have a blessed day and a Safe, Loving Christmas!

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