My Masquerade

Is your life a masquerade?
Is your life a masquerade? | Source

Into the darkness, I slowly fade

from this life, my masquerade.

Of masks to cover up my shame,

of smiles and laughter to hide my pain.

With drugs and drinking as my vise,

a made-up face was my disguise.

Resolving to turn from this life of wrath,

I choose to ensue another path.

And as my old self slowly fades

from this life of masquerades,

these masks are starting to allay.

I see new life, I find a way.

I have the strength now to let go

Of the pain that I cannot control.

I have more freedom without these masks,

I have no reason to turn back.

                                                             

Living with physical and emotional pain on a daily basis can become a prison if one allows it to.

To misuse drugs as a way to hide emotional pain leads to an endless cycle of trying to cover up not only the pain but the drug use itself.

If you find yourself in this endless cycle or feel as if you are headed in that direction, there is help. There is hope.

I found my help by trusting God and putting my foot down and telling myself: "Enough!" Once I did this, God gave me the courage. He not only gave me the courage to do this but He's also renewed my hopes and dreams that I had almost completely given up on.

You may not agree with this path that I have chosen and if you don't please do not be afraid to talk to someone and get some help somewhere.

More by this Author


Comments 7 comments

mkrandhawa profile image

mkrandhawa 5 years ago from India

Well Written hub.keep it up.


Carrie Hollister profile image

Carrie Hollister 5 years ago from Ohio Author

Thank you very much!


mkrandhawa profile image

mkrandhawa 5 years ago from India

nice to meet you.


Carrie Hollister profile image

Carrie Hollister 5 years ago from Ohio Author

My pleasure! This is what i've been doing since I made the decision to let go. This is what I have to look forward to. It is keeping my mind off of other things. I consider this a gift.


mkrandhawa profile image

mkrandhawa 5 years ago from India

great....


Rosemay50 profile image

Rosemay50 5 years ago from Hawkes Bay - NewZealand

Carrie there is always strength inside us if we just open our hearts a seek it.

Proud of you

Voted up


Amanda 5 years ago

Amazing, to get the courage to say "Lord I have a problem that Only You can help with, Only you can take the pain away, And only you can heal my from the addiction, is touching. Not everyone can recognize that there is an issue, and deal with it head on. Im very proud of you. Keep your head up, and always know that you do have Family that will always be here to talk, and pray with you through the hard times.

    Sign in or sign up and post using a HubPages Network account.

    0 of 8192 characters used
    Post Comment

    No HTML is allowed in comments, but URLs will be hyperlinked. Comments are not for promoting your articles or other sites.


    Click to Rate This Article
    working