My Personal Biography - Explaining my Absence

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An Explanation of my Absence from Hubpages

I have missed everyone on Hubpages and have only been on line briefly over the past couple of weeks. It reminds me of the comment that you do not know what might happen when you wake up on any given day. This is a bit long, but it only represents less than two weeks of my life.

The Good Part of the Story

I have not written very often about how I feel about things in my life. I have written about some things, such as having lupus, and others know I grew up in alcoholism, plus a few other things as well. Anyway, life was grand for a moment there. My husband and I purchased a brand new car; it is a Honda Accord in a cranberry color. It is beautiful to us. We saved long and hard to have a hefty down payment, and our old car was 13 years old.

Atlanta - Rheumatologist Visit

Shortly thereafter I had to travel to Atlanta from Jacksonville to see a rheumatologist specialist. I apparently have a new connective disorder, which is a type of bone problem that has appeared over the past few months. They do not have an exact diagnosis yet as connective disease disorders often have no particular test. They rely on x-rays, which look like I had psoriatic arthritis, but I do not have psoriasis. Due to other medical problems, I cannot take many medications, so my doctor set me up with a medication that I inject twice a week for 12 weeks. When I found out the co-pay was $5000! I almost fell out of the chair.

However, I was put into some type of chronically ill category and our income was low enough to qualify for assistance. It is not so low that we have ever had government assistance for anything, but we are retired, so it is lower than when we were working. The end result was Medicare paid for part of the medication and I went in and out of my Medicare gap in one day. The good news for me is I am now in my catastrophic gap, which means I only have to pay five percent for medicine for the rest of this year.

Percutaneous coronary Intervention stenting

Heart Disease in Women - Surprise!

Two day after I returned from Atlanta I was scheduled for a chemical treadmill test as I was limping most of the time due to the bone problem and using the treadmill was not possible. When I arrived they started the test, and then, did an EKG. It looked so bad they immediately admitted to the hospital.

The next morning I had a cardiac catherization, and they put two stents in my artery for the left ventricle. I only had discomfort twice and thought it was indigestion. This is an important message to women and I have written a hub some time ago on women and heart disease. If they had they not accidentally found this blockage, I would have probably had a major heart attack within a few months and died. I figure God is not through with me yet!

I was awake during the procedure just receiving a little bit of some relaxation medication. When you have stents put into your heart, you are given a lot of blood thinner, so they leave the tubes in your groin for a couple of hours to prevent bleeding. Also, you must lie still. Almost two hours had passed and my husband, mother and sister were sitting in my room on the sofa when the nurse came in to check me again. This time I was bleeding, a lot!

Unexpected Comfort

When they told me my EKG was not good, I was definitely nervous. As I spent a couple of decades as a cardiac nurse I knew when it meant when the T waves were inverted. I though, "Aren't I too young for this to be happening?"

I had to go sit in a waiting area to wait and speak with the doctor, and a lovely soft spoken black lady had her Bible open to Psalm 91, which has a lot to say about not living in fear. This particular Psalm was one that I read a lot frequently during a difficult time in my life. I had not read it in a long time, but this sweet lady talked to me without knowing what my problem was and my fear was just gone. I think God may put people in your path when you are in need.

Crisis to Healing

Suddenly the family was scooted out of the room, and three nurses were working hard to stop the bleeding. They press so hard on my groin that it was quite painful. Once nurse gave me a delightful IV drug called Dilaudid. I had never had this drug before, but it almost instantly lightened the pain. They held pressure for several minutes and at some point put a dressing and clamp on the groin area. I had to lie still for a total of hours, which was not what I consider a good time.

My hemoglobin dropped 3 points, which indicates a significant blood loss. Before the procedure they had also given me some IV cortisone as I have had some adrenal gland problems due to long term prednisone use. Due to these complications, I was kept in the hospital a couple of extra days, and my poor husband was frantic much of the week with me in the hospital, and he also had to care of my 89 year-old mother. When I did get home I didn’t feel well for a few days, but it has been two weeks now, and I am feeling much better. I have also had my second injection of the new medicine, but it is too soon to know if it will work.

Professional Nursing

I admit I was also a little scared during the bleeding event, but even then I realized these nurses were very professional, and they knew exactly what they were doing. I just knew fairly quickly that it was going to be okay.

As If We Needed More

As if these problem were not enough, my husband was driving our new car on the interstate, and a rock flew from somewhere and cracked the windshield. The car still had the new car smell. This was not supposed to happen! Of course, it is repaired and fine now.

Then, last and I guess least problem, our microwave quit working. We now have a new microwave installed over the stove.

Love Conguers All

Attitude is Everything

It seems things happen in groups, both good and bad. Keeping the faith and a positive attitude will get you through all the bad times. My biggest problem now is the fact that I am taking a blood thinner, so I have a few extra bruises. Otherwise, I survived what could have been a life disaster. Material things can be fixed and replaced. I had the people I love dearly there for me, and I’ve been pampered since I got home. What more could I ask?

© 2013 Pamela Oglesby

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Just Ask Susan 3 years ago from Ontario, Canada

Pam, I'm so sorry to read about all of this. How frightening. Keeping the faith and positive attitude has always been what I've believed in and I feel that this has gotten me through many illnesses in my life. Take care and happy to see you back.

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

Susan, Thank you so much for your comments. You described exactly what got me through this rough stretch. I'm glad to be back.

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Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

Oh, Dearest Pamela,

I did miss you, and I am so sorry you are having to go through such. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers for continued healing.

Yes, it does seem that way in life, that all such trials and tribulations do come in bunches or in my case, it is always threes.

God bless you. In His Love Always, Faith Reaper

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

Faith, I think this was in 3's also as health is just one. I appreciate the thought, prayers and your comments very much. God bless you also and have a wonderful day.

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PegCole17 3 years ago from Dallas, Texas

Hi Pamela. So sorry you're having these medical issues. Your acceptance of the situation and good cheer is certainly uplifting and an inspiration to others. Love that you got a new car and sad that it was damaged. Now that it is repaired, good as new. And I hope you will soon be as well.

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billybuc 3 years ago from Olympia, WA

God bless you Pamela!

Enough is enough! It's someone else's turn, don't you think? You have had your share of bad events and now it's time for some positives.

You are surrounded by love my friend, at home and online. Never forget that.

Take care and be well soon.


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marcoujor 3 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

Dear Pam,

I had an inkling of what you had recently gone through but this article puts it in a more realistic light...

I believe it is no accident when conditions are discovered for completely different reasons. I know that you will forever be a nurse and a teacher, as well as a most inspirational writer. You have gained even more wisdom and perspective as a result of this. Thank you for sharing so openly with all of us.

Voted UP and UABI. Be gentle with yourself. Love, Maria

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mckbirdbks 3 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

I am so glad to hear that you are recovering from this trying adventure. Be well.

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

Billy, That you for such a touching comment. I treasure my friends online and my family. They are really what puts the smiles on my face. I do think I have had enough and the good times are back. I appreciate you so much my friend.

Maria, I think you are giving me good advice. I don't think the discovery of this problem was an accident either. I am grateful that the procedure is done and I have no heart damage. Thank you so much for always being there for me. Love You.

Mckbirds, I think "Be well" sums up my goal completely. I appreciate your comments.

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

Peg, I am feeling much better over the past couple of days. I even drove the new car to the store this morning, which was a pleasure. It looks brand new again. I very much appreciate your comments.

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farmloft 3 years ago from Michigan

You are wonderful to see the people put in your life when you needed them! We so often miss those simple connections... Hope you stay on path to better health!

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

farmloft, You are right and feeling the love and protection of loved ones and family means so much. I appreciate your comments, and I am going to try to stay on the road of better health.

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moonlake 3 years ago from America

I'm glad your doing better and so glad your back on HubPages. It's a scary thing to have stents put in and to start bleeding like you did is awful. The whole stenting thing scared me I was a wreck before I had it done. My friend and I were just talking about how things can change in your life within moments.

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lisa42 3 years ago from Sacramento

Glad you're doing better!

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kashmir56 3 years ago from Massachusetts

Hi Pam sorry to read about your bad adventure but nice to hear you are doing and feeling better now ! In life sometimes you never know what will happen but a good positive attitude will help get you through anything. Besides God will give you the strength to get through it .

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brakel2 3 years ago from Oklahoma City, Oklahoma

Hi Pamela - Oh dear, I feel for you. That is a lot to have to go through in a short time. I know you are a strong person, and we are so proud of you. It sounded like it was a time when most people would be hyperventilating. God was watching out for you with the little lady and her Bible. I will be praying for you and hoping things will soon be better in your life. Good luck to the care of your mother, and prayers for her too. Rest and come back when you can. Hugs. Audrey

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

moonlake, That's so true. You never know for sure what the day will bring when you awake. Well, we both survived and now our artieries are open, so that is good. Thanks so much for sharing and your comments.

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

lisa, I appreciate your comments.

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

kashmir, I think God is the main thing that got me through. When I saw that Psalm 91 again and thought about fear, somehow it seemed like God was telling me to not be afraid. Thanks so much for your comments.

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

Audry, Thank your so much for your wonderful comments. I do think God had that lady there for me. I have prayed for her also. I am glad to be getting my life back to normal. I appreciate your prayers also. Hugs to you also.

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janiek13 3 years ago from Florida's Space Coast

So glad that you are ok and back in the saddle and thank you for your willingness to share personal info that can serve as a warning for women. Keep up the good attitude!

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Nell Rose 3 years ago from England

Hi Pamela, what an awful time you have been having. that must have been pretty scary there at times, and how lovely that woman read to you those psalms, as you said, sometimes God puts people there for a reason. you rest up and take care, and its lovely to see you, nell

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MartieCoetser 3 years ago from South Africa

So sorry to hear you went through deep waters, Pam. Good to see you back. Thanks for sharing all of this with us. Although frightening, we learn so much. I am impressed with your medical services. Down here, with an insufficient medical aid, people have no hope to survive the merest crisis. Rest well and get well soon :)

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

Janiek, I don't always share personal information, but I want women to know that this could happen to them with little warning. Thank you so much for your comments.

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

Nell Rose, I am so glad to hear from you also. It was amazing that the woman read that particular Psalm as it was the only one I really leaned on during a very tough time in my life. God works in mysterious ways. Thank you so much for your comments.

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

Martie, I hadn't tought about deep waters, but I guess that is a pretty good description. I wish they had better medical care in South Africa. I had excellent care throughout my stay in the hospital (except hospital food isn't very good). I sure appreciate your comments.

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Tonipet 3 years ago from The City of Generals

Hi Pamela. I'm thankful that you're now better and back. Sorry about the crisis... God has always been there to you, HE just showed how HE loves you. You sure can make it to more healthiness as you possessed the right attitude. I wish and pray you get even better. We missed you! Take care and best wishes. Get very well soon :=)-Tonette

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Sunshine625 3 years ago from Orlando, FL

I'm glad that you are back and making progress. What an adventure you had. Wow! It's awesome that you had your family at your side to cheer you on! :)

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Mhatter99 3 years ago from San Francisco

Glad to have you back. Life can be interesting. blessings

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

Tonette, One experience I did not write about was male orderly I had the evening after the crisis. He said almost those same words to eme. He told me God was always there for me and that I had to take care of myself next to get healthy. I very much appreciate your comments.

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

Linda, I am making progress and having my family there was great. Thanks for your comments.

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

Mhatter, Life sure can be interesting. I am glad to be back and that you for the comments and blessings.

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bravewarrior 3 years ago from Central Florida

Pam, I am so sorry you had to go through all of this. But, as you say, it was a godsend that the problems were found in time and are able to be treated. Take care of yourself and don't overdo. Glad to see you back!

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

Bravewarrior, Thank you so much for your comments. I am trying to stay slowed down a bit as I tend to overdo without even thinking about it. Iam glad to be back. Thanks.

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lcbenefield 3 years ago from Georgia

Thanks for sharing your personal struggles. I pray you have a speedy and uneventful recovery.

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

Icbenefield, I appreciate the good wishes and your comments.

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Mekenzie 3 years ago from Michigan

Oh Pamela, what a time you have had dear friend. Have they figured out the connective tissue treatment yet?

My but these bodies do strange things. So happy you were in the right place at the right time to get the stints put in quickly .. and your professional staff certainly were on top of things with the bleeding.

I hope you are much better by now Pamela - You are a sweet lady and your heart is so good!

Blessings and Healing!


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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

McKenzie, I still have no diagnosis for the connective disorder as there are several that are similar. I do know it is not rheumatoid arthritis as there is a specific blood test for theat. I have started the injections and I am hoping they work. I do feel better and am having a little less pain.

I cant' say enough about the professional staff at he hospital. They were great. Your comments are very kind and much appreciated. Thank your so much. I hope you have a wonderful Memorial Day. Blesssings to you also.

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pstraubie48 3 years ago from sunny Florida

So glad you are on the mend, Pamela, and that they found your heart irregularities before it was too late. My daughter had stents put in a few months ago and had issues as she is on heavy bloodthinners all of the time due to clotting issues. So that was a bit scary. She will have a pacemaker put in soon.

You shared the cluster of events that happened. It seems that is the way. But that old saying when life gives you lemons make lemon ade seems to be one with which you are familiar. I could hear the note of optimism in your tone and know that despite these 'setbacks' you are thinking positive thoughts and moving forth. That is how to live...we have learned that lesson well. Miss not one moment of today ....sending you many healing and comforting Angels this morning, Pam. ps

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

Patricia, I agree. I will try to live each day to the fullness and keep a positive attitude. I sure am familiar with making lemon ade! It is always so good to hear from you and I appreciate your comments very much, along with the precious angels. I hope you have a wonderful day and God bless you.

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always exploring 3 years ago from Southern Illinois

I am so sorry this happened to you Pam but happy that you are getting better. Thank God for new drugs that saves lives. The lady reading the bible to you was so inspirational, thank you for sharing that with us. Take care and know that your hubber friends care and hope for full recovery....

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

Ruby, Your comments mean a lot to me, and I feel I am getting better. I have much to be grateful for and that lady is surely one of them.

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bdegiulio 3 years ago from Massachusetts

Pam, so sorry that you've had to go through all of this. I think you've had your share of misfortune for the year so it's someone else's turn now. It certainly take courage to share all of this so my hat is off to you. I am praying for a full recovery and hope to see you back here regularly. Take care of yourself.

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

bdegiulio, I will certainly agree with your first statement. I pondered sharing it asI usually don't, but sometimes you can let someone else know they are not alone in their problems either. Thank you so much for your comments.

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thelyricwriter 3 years ago from West Virginia

Pamela, very sorry to hear about all you have went through. You show great courage through trying times. Sometimes we show our greatest courage in the act of fear. I am glad you are feeling better and I pray for a full recovery. Best wishes always Pamela and a speedy recovery. Voted up, useful, awesome, beautiful, and interesting.

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

thelyricwriter, I like your statement about showing courage in the face of fear. I guess that is part of what happened as they sure is an emotional component to going through a group of trying times all at once. Thanks you so much for your comments and bestwishes.

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drbj 3 years ago from south Florida

I noticed you were absent from HP, Pam, and thought you were off on your world cruise. So sorry to learn that it was not a fun trip at all ... no way! Now it's time for the good stuff in your life and it will happen. Promise!

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

drbj, A world cruise would be lovely and certainly preferable. I'm happy, doing better and bring on the good stuff! I always appreciate your comments. Have a great day.

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midget38 3 years ago from Singapore

Blessings, Pamela, and am glad to see that everything is well. Keeping you in my prayers and thoughts.

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

midget, It is definitely better and I can't tell you how much I appreciate your thoughts and prayers. Thank you for your comments.

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tillsontitan 3 years ago from New York

I am so sorry to hear you had to go through so much. I am glad your faith helped to see you through so many difficulties. We, at HP, are all glad you are on the mend and doing better. I'll keep praying the new medicine works and you continue to grace us with your hubs! God bless.

Voted up, useful, and interesting.

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

Mary, I appreciate the prayers and kind thoughts. I am glad to be improving, and I appreciate your comments.

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lindacee 3 years ago from Southern Arizona

Pam, so sorry to hear of your medical issues. When it rains, it pours -- or at least that's how it feels sometimes. My husband underwent heart bypass surgery last summer and we recently found out he has blockage in 2 arteries. He's going in for 2 stents within the next few weeks and hopefully that will improve his condition. It has been a stressful year for us. I just keep repeating, "This too shall pass." Take care. My thoughts are with you. :)

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CyberShelley 3 years ago

Thank you for sharing, your family must have been very worried, glad you were blessed to have them there to support you. My husband had 3 stents put in. I wish you health and plenty of enough Pamela, you are in my thoughts.

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

Shelley, It seems like stents are so common now, but so much better than heart surgery. It meant the world to b=me to have my family cloe by. Thanks for your comments.

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Denise Handlon 3 years ago from North Carolina

Oh Pam, I am so sorry to have read about your medical, (and financial), problems. My heart goes out to you! I cannot believe the cost of some of this medicine and feel it is just sinful what the pharmaceutical companies charge! My poor nephew doesn't qualify for medicaid and his meds cost $500 / month. He's chosen to go without, which does not help his mental health.

I can certainly relate to the new car getting its first ding-even in the windshield-ouch! But, I'm so happy that you are stabilizing and receiving TLC after all that you give to others. Take good care of yourself and you have my prayers for improved health!

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Peggy W 3 years ago from Houston, Texas

Hi Pamela,

So sorry to hear about your recent problems but glad to know that the outcome is OK and that you are back home. Always good to be able to be in your home environment and to get to sleep in your own bed. Hope that your days ahead will be brighter. God bless you and your loved ones.

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

Denise, I am sorry to hear about your nephew. I do not qualify for Medicaid either but this fund they have allows you to have some income and I'm not sure what the limit is but would guess about $35,000-$40,000. I hope he finds some help. I am doing better with just a few side effects from the medicince.

Thank you so much for all your comments and the prayers. God bless.

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

Peggy, Things have already improvced ,and I a, so grateful. I agree that there is not place like home in your own bed. I appreciate your comments.

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Joy56 3 years ago

thanks for sharing...... so glad your health is improving...... keep positive.

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

Joy, I love you avatar. Thank you for your comments; they are a breath of fresh air.

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sgbrown 3 years ago from Southern Oklahoma

Dearest Pam! I am so sorry to hear of all your medical problems, you have an very good attitude towards it all and that is half the battle. You are very lucky to have had the EKG done when you did. We women tend to worry more about our family than ourselves.

I do believe that God puts people in our lives, even if only for a few minutes, for a reason. The sweet lady was there for you when you needed her to be! I am glad you are feeling better and it sounds like you have a wonderful husband to take care of you and help you with your mom. I'm glad your back, please take care of yourself! Prayers going up! :)

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

sgbrown, I think you are so right about women. I think God does work in mysterious ways, and it is a bit of a miracle that my problem got discovered at that time or I probably would not have lived for the rest of the year.

I guess God is not through with me yet. Thanks for the prayers and all your comments.

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Smireles 3 years ago from Texas

Pamela99, you have written a wonderful account of your journey through your recent illness. I am inspired and may write an account of my own battle with heart disease, and diabetes. I have a stent in place as well so I sympathize with your experience. I hope you are doing better now and thanks for sharing your story. Blessings.

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States Author

Smirelesss, It is good to hear from you, and I encourage you to write that hub. I think it helps others who are ill as they can related to the problems and so forth. I am doing better now. Thanks. I appreciate your comments.

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