On the road of Recovery: How to Reclaim your Joy

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A Search For Lost Treasure.


I'm shedding these layers that piled on me

I'm purging my flesh from impurities

I'm trying to discover what lies beneath

For a spirit of correction has fallen on me

As I began this journey I'm hoping to find

And recover an innocence that was lost in time

On this mission of recovery I'm sure to discover

A broken little girl buried underneath these covers

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Layer after layer...

Oh, I'm shedding this weight

Layer after layer...

Still I long to escape,,,

This road of conviction...

Where truth blend with lies...

From darkness to light...

Then blindness to sight...

The road to destruction is broad and wide...

But the road of truth is almost blind to the eye...

These layers are shedding still it may take a lifetime...

To recover the innocence that grew corrupted...

In time...



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A Chastening Spirit.

The road of truth is like no other road you will travel. On this road you travel backwards viewing your life in the spiritual instead of the natural. On this road you will walk with other travelers these travelers are all survivors unfortunately, they all happen to be you.

On one of my favorite daytime soap opera's, a favorite character of mine suffered from Dissociate Identity Disorder (D.I.D) I thought to myself 'How crazy this person appears, no one really suffers from this stuff, its fake' how wrong I was.

Unfortunately, many people, unknowingly, suffer from this disorder. As I was slayed in the spirit I started my journey on the road of truth I was not alone, others walked with me. They said they were her friends, her protectors, they were all created to protect the innocent little girl who became broken once she realized the world was a scary place.

I found this hard to believe one was a liar, the other a conniver, still another took no responsibility and kept blaming everyone, yet, they all were born from her. They made decisions for her, some even made choices that almost ruined her. Yet, I state this emphatically, they weren't bad people, they were simply survivors!

And so, the spirit has slayed me. He wants His prodigy; He want's her to fulfill her destiny. "She's gifted" He says, "she's creative", He says, she has a purpose. So now I'm on a mission to rescue her because God, is anxious for her. He talks to me about her, He says she's perfect and innocent and lost.

On the road of discovery I saw many roads that were blind to my natural eyes but clear as glass to my spiritual eyes.

  • The road to destruction
  • The road to truth
  • The road to life
  • The road to death

The Little girl is stuck on one of those roads and as the layers fall away I can feel her and I can almost see her. As I peel back layers to reach the core of my soul, I can sense her innocence. It may take a long time for me to find her. I'm praying it won't take my lifetime to find her. One thing I'm certain of, she's stuck out there somewhere, waiting for me to find her.


© 2016 Dana Tate

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Frank Atanacio 6 months ago from Shelton

wow.. a very well written hub.. amazing.. love the calm of the poetry..


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Faith Reaper 6 months ago from southern USA

Dana,

Your poetry is beautifully haunting and powerful. I've read about Dissociate Identity Disorder and saw some good movies of true stories. Yes, it is true and you've shared this in a profound manner.

When a child experiences a traumatic event in her life, then the other "personalities" step in to help her get through this life until she is ready to know of the truth and strong enough to face it.

Excellent hub!

Peace and blessings


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Ericdierker 6 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

That lostness is OK. You just showed that while you walk that road you can take others with you. I hope you continue writing of your journey as I would like to walk hand in hand with you on it.


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Jodah 6 months ago from Queensland Australia

Dana, I had never heard of this disorder before, but I pray that you find that little girl and set her free. Good hub.


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Dana Tate 6 months ago from LOS ANGELES Author

Thank you Frank for reading and leaving a nice comment.


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Dana Tate 6 months ago from LOS ANGELES Author

Thank you Faith, I first heard of this disorder on one of my favorite soap opera show and when I went into ministry and began to study human nature it made me think of all the people I counseled, as well as my own struggles. When someone goes through trauma, especially as a child, that innocence in them dies and what emerges is a new "identity" you basically become a survivor and learn to adapt in a world you know is not safe. That is a big responsibility for a child to handle when everything about their world should feel safe for them.

I pray I didn't offend any one who truly suffers with this disorder, I just wanted to make a point in explaining how lost innocence breaks you but when God speaks to you, He speaks to you in your wholeness, not your brokenness and that sends you on a road of self-discovery. You have to deal with truth's and things you couldn't cope with at the time that changed your true identity. It's a beautiful journey that brings healing as you began to see yourself in the eyes of God. Thank you for your comment Faith, you understood completely the message I was trying to convey.


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word55 6 months ago from Chicago

Hi Dana, Seek and ye shall find what was lost. I am with you my sister. Keep on coming. Thank you for sharing and be blessed.


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Dana Tate 6 months ago from LOS ANGELES Author

Thank you Eric, When I began to be healed by God and started writing about it, I knew He was using me to reach out to others who were broken. Its not easy to "stand naked in front of the world" but I know that my writing, which I call strange fruit, is designed to reach a certain target of people. I pray the people God is using me to reach understands that truth is the only medicine that heals. So many people live in a bondage of shame and I think if God shined the light on all of our dark places who would be able to stand in the exposure, I think we both know not very many would be able to. I pray that people who are suffering, and finding other ways to mask their pain try God. He seeks to heal, deliver and restore, sometimes this means conviction because He has to show you yourself in order for you to have a desire to change. God needs us well. He has a plan for our lives and His plans will give us hope and a future. Thank you for your kind words. I value our friendship Eric, God bless.


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Dana Tate 6 months ago from LOS ANGELES Author

Thank you Jodah, Yes, D.I.D is a true disorder that can occur in someone who has gone through something traumatic and took on a new identity in order to cope with it. Of course in those cases the person is unaware that they have "split personalities" I identified with this "mental disorder" because when a rod of correction came on me the Lord, spoke to me it seemed as if He was talking to someone other than me. This sent me on a journey to understand human nature. The poem is about lost innocence and trying to recover it and the only way do that is to travel on the road of truth, or some may even say accountability.

Thank you for reading and commenting Jodah, God bless.


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Dana Tate 6 months ago from LOS ANGELES Author

Word55, thank you for reading. It's been awhile. When I first heard the voice of God it was nine years ago I thought He was speaking to the wrong spirit. The person he spoke of and who I was were two different people. Nine years later I realized why that conversation seemed strange it's because God walks you through your brokenness but He speaks to you in your wholeness. He knew my ending and as a result of our encounter I would be well. I'm happy to report I'm a whole lot closer to that little girl and we are almost one. Almost, but not quite, as they say I'm not quite where I need to be but I'm a whole, whole, whole, lot further than where I came from. God bless.


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always exploring 6 months ago from Southern Illinois

I'm so glad Faith shared this, otherwise I wouldn't have known about it. Your journey is so beautiful. Somehow, I can relate. God rescued me from uncertainty from childhood on. Thank you for sharing this very powerful piece...


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Dana Tate 6 months ago from LOS ANGELES Author

Always exploring, it is a pleasure to meet you. Thank you for your generous comment, and Praise God for Faith, sharing this hub for all who wish to read. Yes, it has been a beautiful journey mainly because it established a pure joy in my heart for my Creator. Imagine, He cared enough for me to save something valuable He saw in me. When I see so many people struggling with trying to find themselves, I know how blessed I am that God required me to change. He had work for me to do and He knew I had to be healed first. Now, it is my honor to help Him spread His beautiful message of mercy and grace. God bless and thanks again for reading and commenting.


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swalia 6 months ago

A very beautiful poem!


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Dana Tate 6 months ago from LOS ANGELES Author

Thank you Swalia, I appreciate your reading and commenting.


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Dr Pran Rangan 6 months ago from Kanpur (UP), India

A wonderful poem with a soul stirring meaning.

The innocence of our soul has been masked with layers of worldliness so that we don't recognize its true reality. I like you analogy of DID (dissociate identity disorder). I agree with you that, spiritually speaking, so many of us suffer from this disorder. And we need to re-discover our true reality.

Thanks Dana for sharing such a nice article.


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Dana Tate 6 months ago from LOS ANGELES Author

Thank you for commenting Dr. Rangan. I am so pleased that people like this poem. At first, I thought people would think I was crazy. But you hit the nail on the head when you said "spiritually speaking" many suffer from this disorder when the true them became altered with the loss of their innocence. It is always a pleasure for me to get a comment from you. God bless.


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Mel Carriere 6 months ago from San Diego California

She's there with you driving the car with the other passengers trying to block her view of the road. Don't we all wish we could peel back these ugly layers. Marvelous work!


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Dana Tate 6 months ago from LOS ANGELES Author

Thank you Mel Carriere for reading and commenting. I must say your comments always make my day your humor and wit is so refreshing. Please never change. God bless.


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ChitrangadaSharan 6 months ago from New Delhi, India

Excellent hub! Loved your poem, which is so powerful and expressive. I have heard about this kind of Dissociate Identity Disorder. It might happen due to some unpleasant childhood experience.

Well presented and great hub!


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Dana Tate 6 months ago from LOS ANGELES Author

Chitrangada, Thank you for reading and appreciating my poem. This poem was born from a little inner child in me who stopped growing spiritually when she realized her beautiful world was full of deceit. It was almost as if the beautiful world I lived in was an illusion and behind the scenes lurked evil. The poem speaks of power and strength and a little girl who wants her life back.


Kiss 6 months ago

This person appears to have been touched by the spirit. A spiritual awakening


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Dana Tate 6 months ago from LOS ANGELES Author

A spiritual awakening indeed. Kiss thank you for reading and enjoying this poem.


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Frank Atanacio 5 months ago from Shelton

hey Dana, just come back to reread this hub again since you haven't put up a new one..


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Dana Tate 5 months ago from LOS ANGELES Author

Sorry Frank, I seem to only be able to write when I am inspired and then my juices flow like the river. Unfortunately it may take months before I put out something new. There are many hubs I believe you haven't had the pleasure of reading of mine try one if u care too.


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ChitrangadaSharan 3 months ago from New Delhi, India

Came back to read your excellent work again. I can relate to it somehow. Childhood memories are difficult to overcome especially they are unpleasant.

Thanks and have a blessed day!


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Dana Tate 3 months ago from LOS ANGELES Author

Thank you for reading again Citraganda, you are correct childhood memories are difficult to overcome if they are painful. All children deserve to feel safe and enjoy that special time in their lives.

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