Sleepwalking in Jet-Lagged Feelings
Lately I feel like I'm living in a perpetual case of jet-lag. I walk around like a zombie, heavy-eyed, and sleeply. I don't understand why I feel this way, lately I have been going to bed early (for me), and actually sleeping through the night. Albeit not quality down time. I'm not exactly what you would call a restful sleeper. Even as of recent I've been sneaking in the ever so mythical nap, sometimes naps through the day.
Still the jet-lag persists. I just feel like I'm sleep walking. I do gain this wide awake moment that hits me around 3pm, but I've been hitting the hay early. I feel cloudy and loss of thought. My memory fades in and out. Sometimes the cogs and flywheels in my pea-brain just ain't popping on all cylinders. I know this is a temporary condition. I go through this every so often. I usually go through a time where all I want to do is sleep. Then for a week I am an amsomniac.
But for now I am walking around in a haze, not feeling fully aware of me or whats going on around me. If I lay down or close my eyes, I'll just feel awake. If I try to keep my eyes open then I just feel tired and want to sleep. Burning out, and burning down...trying to be mindful and vigilant of my state of mind and condition. Times like these I need to be watchful of the warning signs and listen to my inner self. I keep my phone and contacts near by and I am not going to stray off of my path. I believe times like these I must be more attentive to stay out of my mind. The added bonus the internal chatter seems to be at a minimum.
Usually the internal chatter is very loud in me, but lately I have found some peace from it. I don't know what is coming over me with this whole feeling jet-lagged thing, but internally without some of that chatter I feel uninspired...I feel I've lost part of my thought process. I feel I'm losing my insight.
"Sleepwalker" by the Wallflowers
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