Split Second-A Tribute to My Son, Kevin (1990-2003)

"Split Second".....how aptly named.

My son Kevin was using this title for a comic strip he was creating involving go-carts. As he neared his thirteenth birthday, go-carts were a big part of his life, although drawing was a deeper passion for him having won many art contests since he was four years old.

It was his love for go-carts that made "Split Second" a reality for me, for that's all it took for him to be gone. Nine years ago this month, Kevin died in a split second. He was killed instantly from injuries sustained in a go-cart accident.

Kevin had never once been hurt in any way riding go-carts. Never a scratch, never a bump, never a bruise.....until that day. It seems so unfair that he would die from the only injury he ever sustained.

Preserve the Memories

I want to remind you to take lots of photos of the people important to you. Someday those photos, and your memories, are all you may have of them. The photos really do help jar the memory regarding certain events as more time passes. I know I will never ever forget Kevin, but the photos allow the memories to remain more vivid.

As a tribute to my son, Kevin, I want to share with you some of my fondest memories of the funny things Kevin did or said as kids always do.

  • When Kevin was about 4-5 years old I asked him to take some clothes hangers to the utility room and to put them on the dryer. Later, I asked him if he had done so. He said, "yes, well sort of, I put them on the wetter." (meaning the washing machine that sits next to the dryer)
  • When Kevin was in kindergarten his school hosted a Halloween festival which included a spookhouse. Kevin was quite shy and wanted me to go through it with him. At one part there was a bloody woman lying on the ground crying for help and reaching her bloodied hand towards us. Kevin bent down to help her. It was such a sweet moment for such a shy child to still offer help to a stranger even though he was probably terrified.
  • When Kevin was around 10-11 years old, I was putting his sister's hair into pigtails and putting in ribbons with their school colors, red and black. As he walked by us, he teasingly got into our faces. I asked him, "Kevin, do you want a red ribbon or a black ribbon in your hair?" Without missing a beat, he replied, "I don't know Mom, do you want a red eye or a black eye?" He was joking of course, but what a great comeback!
  • Kevin was 10 years old when the planes hit the twin towers on 9/11. His younger sister was 8 years old. Not knowing how they would react to the news they may, or may not have, heard at school, I was ready to answer all of their questions. I'll never forget the look on Kevin's face. Instead of fear he was so full of determination and ready for action. He was convinced that we personally would be involved in some sort of battle and he knew exactly how we'd win. With all seriousness, he told me that we had a secret weapon, his sister. He thought she would be the perfect distraction. And because she idolized him, she seemed very willing to play along. He thought we would simply place her in the yard and when the bad guys were distracted by such a sweet little girl, he and the rest of us would ambush them and win the battle.
  • Every year Kevin entered his artwork into the county fair. As he got older, he kept raising the bar on his artwork, expecting more out of himself. The deadline for entering was nearing and he was having trouble coming up with what he considered suitable entries. I pointed to one on the floor that he had discarded. It's one that was just blobs and swirls of paint where he had messed up. However, as abstract as it was, I thought it resembled a melting witch. I encouraged him to enter it anyways since they had an abstract category. He called the painting "I'm Melting". Imagine his face when he and his friends attended the fair and he discovered that not only did he win first place, he took the Tri-Color award.


More Info From Me Concerning Grief

Click here to read my hub on how to overcome the grief of losing a child. There are hundreds of comments on this hub from parents all over the world who share their experience with the loss of a child.

Beautiful artwork of Kevin by fellow Hubber Jerry Bacik
Beautiful artwork of Kevin by fellow Hubber Jerry Bacik

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Melissa G 7 years ago from Tempe, AZ

Wow... I got chills from reading this. Thank you for sharing this touching tribute to your son--I can't begin to imagine the grief of losing a child, and I'm inspired by your ability to focus on the good times.


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thanks so much Melissa! Losing a child is probably one of the most UNNATURAL things a woman can experience. It's a horror no one ever expects to face. It can never be made 'right' on the surface. It's not until you listen to your heart that you realize things at a different level. You just keep reaching for that better feeling thought.


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Melissa G 7 years ago from Tempe, AZ

KCC, I've never experienced a loss of this magnitude, but I think you could inspire many people with your strength and positive outlook.


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you so much Melissa!


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Every year on Kevin's death date and birth date we launch helium balloons from his gravesite in honor of his much too short life with us. Each balloon has a note attached briefly stating that the balloon is launched from Central Texas in memory of a deceased child. We ask that anyone finding the note/balloon please drop us a note to let us know how far it went. In the five years we've done this, we've received 3 notes back. We received on this week from the balloons we launched Nov 11. The balloon had made it almost 200 miles northeast of us.


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RootDoc 7 years ago

Kevin was obviously a special young man and I know you miss him. Thanks for sharing a little of his life.

Also, thanks for the welcome to HubPages.

Steve, The RootDoc


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you so much for stopping by Steve and sharing your comment!


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kimback08 7 years ago from Barbourville, KY

Stories like yours are exactly why I began the "I Never Got to Say..." project, and exactly why I want it to be successful.


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thanks Kimback! I do applaud your project and I see it being extemely successful. Death does eventually reach everyone and there are always things left unsaid. Because of the type of relationship I had with my son, and because of my belief system (not religion) I still have a certain connection with my son that affords me the satisfaction of feeling that we do continue to 'communicate'. We now do it more with feelings/impressions.....not the spoken word.


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Proud Mom 7 years ago from USA

Oh, KCC, you couldn't have done him a higher honor. How very special. Your close relationship becomes very obvious through this hub.

What sweet memories. You were, and continue to be so blessed to have been given him as a son, if even for that "split second".


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

That's my boy, PM.......I'm so very proud of him. He provides a lot of inspiration for me and my daughter.

Thanks so much for your kind words.


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seachangeqld 7 years ago from Queensland Australia

A beautiful boy taken way too soon. What a lesson we all need to remember - life even when long is 'a split second'. You have raw courage and you are an inspiration. Thank you for sharing this insight.


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thanks so much, Seachangeqld! If there's one thing I could remind parents (really, anyone) is that you have to cherish what you do have. We waste so much time and put off things thinking we'll have tomorrow. You never know how long you have. I can honestly say my last words to Kevin were "I love you" when I saw him the morning he died. I never knew they would be my last. All the videos and pictures are all you're left with to help jar all the memories. Take more pictures, spend more time with the ones you love and please tell someone you love them.


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Benson Yeung 7 years ago from Hong Kong

Great kid, great fun and fond memories. Thanks for sharing.


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thanks Benson! Thanks for stopping by and commenting.


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imadork 7 years ago from St. Peters, MO

Wow, it just goes to show you that even a seemingly harmless activity like go-kart riding can lead to tragedy. I guess those stupid looking helmets are necessary, even in go-karts.

I am really sorry to hear about your loss. Thanks for sharing.


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Imadork: Kevin loved his go-cart. He had been riding for years. Obviously, as all kids do, he got more daring as he got older. He always wore his dad's racing helmet. However, on this day he did not. He had left it out that weekend and our dog had chewed the lining making it scratchy. Would it have saved his life? Maybe. We'll never know.

Kevin's death led me to a website where people who are grieving go to share their stories. I initially found it comforting to read the stories of the horrors other parents went through. It helped to know that others have felt the kind of pain you have. But once, you yourself begin to get past that it hurts terribly to read their stories. Then, i could no longer go to that site. Hope that makes sense. Really, my point to saying this was to say.....there are far more tragic deaths due to things you'd think wouldn't hurt you.

Thanks for commenting, as always.


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VioletSun 7 years ago from Oregon/ Name: Marie

Just found this hub when you made comment's in Tony's tribute to his Mother. I had to take a deep breath, as your tribute to your beautiful son touched me.  I am sorry for your loss.  My sister suddenly lost her 18 year old son almost four years ago, and its been quite a journey for her, so many changes has taken place,in how she sees life and what her priorites are.   

Touching hub, good message, and glad to become your fan.   


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you VioletSun! I had noticed you became my fan and went to check out some of your stuff and learned of your nephew's passing. I too am sorry for the loss you and your sister have experienced. I believe it was your website where I read about how your sister still has a relationship with her son but now it's different.

I was in such shock when they told me my son didn't 'make it'. I was so convinced he was ok. I felt him with me telling me he was. It was unmistakeable as far as I was concerned. In the days that followed his death, I had dreams about him. (Not nearly as often as I would have liked) But, there was something very common in each of them. He was always conveying that he was not dead. In one particular one, he asked me why I didn't order him a shirt and I tried to tell him that it was because he was dead. He gives me a puzzled look and laughs and says "I am?" and walks away. Another time he asked me why we didn't watch a movie we had planned to watch together before he died and again the same type of answers by both of us. I too, had the type of dream I read that your sister had where she and her son were embracing. It was the most realistic dream I believe I've ever dreamt. It was very comforting.

Thanks so much joining my fan club. I too am your fan!


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VioletSun 7 years ago from Oregon/ Name: Marie

KCC: I have to admit my eyes got we when I read your comments and had little chills too. I totally believe your son is communicating with you. Wow, he doesn't even know he is dead, this is beautiful, this is what I want to think of death as being like, just a stepping into another dimension without the body; gives me solace in reading of the experiences of others. Thanks for becoming my fan! :)


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thanks VioletSun!


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Shalini Kagal 7 years ago from India

I had read this hub earlier and somehow couldn't write a comment - then it popped up again right now in Hubtivity and I felt I should. All I can say KCC is you're wonderful - and if you have those happy memories to look back on and savour, it's because you made them possible. He'll always be your little boy, living on in your heart!


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thanks so much Shalini! He's with me always. It has taken me four years, but I have converted his room to my home office and it's where I do all my writing. He and I have always had a bond that inspired us both. That will never die.

Thanks for stopping by, as always.


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Anna Marie Bowman 7 years ago from Florida

This is a touching tribute! I know how hard this must have been to write. It is very clear that your son was a remarkable young man, and he brought you much joy and pride. I too, lost my son. He was not even five. My heart goes out to you. Bless you and your family!

Much Love,

Anna


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

*hugs* Anna Marie........that's one thing that I come to appreciate when I lost my son, there's other moms who have felt the same pain and often under worse conditions. My heart really goes out to you. Thank you so much for stopping by and commenting and sharing your loss with me. Love ya back, Anna.


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Shalini Kagal 7 years ago from India

Hugs to both of you - it's wonderful how you both light up HubPages in spite of what must be a constant pain inside. I lost a brother a long time ago - and while it hurt the three of us siblings and my Dad badly, for my mother it was like losing a part of herself. It's just different for Moms I guess - bless you both!


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Mighty Mom 7 years ago from Where Left is Right, CA

Thanks for sharing your beautiful son with us, KCC. You've written a lovely tribute that makes his personality really shine like the star he is!

My son's name is also Kevin, born in 1992. Another bond between us. MM


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Clara Ghomes 7 years ago

I could feel the grief of losing this talented and witty son. But KCC, you have him live always, in your heart, in your b'ful memories, and in your home office. Thank you for sharing your feelings with hubpages family. God bless this beautiful soul in peace. Love


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Shalini: thank you so much! I am so sorry to hear that you lost a brother as a child. I often wonder how different my daughter's outlook on life will be because of losing her brother. They were incredibly close. It's a relationship I will most likely write a hub about as well. But, you're right, I think mom's feel more like they're losing a part of them than dad's do probably because we carried the baby for 9 months. And, I just think mother's have a special bond with their son's.

MM-thank you so much! Just one more thing we have in common. Give your Kevin a hug for me. :)

Clara-thank you so much! The memories I have are truly cherished. It's funny how we don't realize how important memories are until that's all we have left. Thanks for your kind words.


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countrywomen 7 years ago from Washington, USA

KCC- You bought tears into my eyes. There is nothing else I can say. It is when I read such stories I feel we need to treasure each day and each moment in life as we never know when that maybe the last moment. Thumbs up for a soul stirring hub.


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Patty Inglish, MS 7 years ago from North America

I was just re-reading Dorsi's post about her son being shot and then I found this Hub. I am sorry I did not see it before. I admire the way you are keeping your son's memory alive.

In some cultures, age thirteen is the age of manhood. In many ways, Kevin was adult and child together - the best of both.


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Countrywomen, thank you! You are so right about treasuring each and every day. I am grateful to be able to say that my last words to my son were "I love you" as he headed off to school that morning, never realising he'd be dead by the time I got off of work. So, yes, I make a very conscious effort to tell those I love that I love them because I never know if it'll be the last time I get the chance.

Thanks for stopping by!

Patty, thank you! It tears me up inside knowing what Dorsi must be going through. I wish her and her family a speedy recovery for her son.

There isn't a day that goes by that Kevin doesn't play a part in my daily life. Some days, he may come up in conversation, some days, something will come on the radio that will remind me of something he said or did. His presence is always near and that I find comforting.

Thanks so much for stopping by Patty.


Susan M 7 years ago

What a wonderful tribute to your son and what a strong and brave woman you are for posting this. I have a very close friend whose 9 year old daughter died 4 years ago. I was privileged to be asked to take photos of her daughter shortly before she died. It was a heartwrenching time and I can only imagine what it has been like for you and your family. Your post and the photo of your son serve to keep his memory and spirit alive and help to remind us all about what is important. Thank you so much....


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Ardie 7 years ago from Neverland

This is a fantastic way to remember your son and to share your memories of him with the world. What a fantastic child and what a strong woman you are.


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thanks so much for your kinds words Susan M and Ardie!

Susan: sorry it took me so long to thank you, I evidently got side-tracked the day you sent your comment! Are you part of the "Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep" group of photographers? A friend of mine told me about them and I've actually included a link to their website on another hub I have about grief that is more generic.

Ardie: Thank you. He was indeed a great person and child. I think we're all strong when it's absolutely necessary.

In doing some spring cleaning this weekend, I ran across a box of keepsakes only to run across his tennis shoes that the hospital sent home with me. That's all I left there with the night he died. That was tough....guess it still is.

Thanks again, gals!


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AEvans 7 years ago from SomeWhere Out There

Oh KCC I felt the pain and the happiness as I am typing this it breaks my heart as he is such a beautiful boy I am going to go down stairs and hug our little boy words cannot express what I am feeling right now, all I know is heart is with you. Three years yesterday the dad who raised all of us had past away, as I ran across that hub I had tears of happiness and tears of joy as all of my emotions came flooding through and now my heart is touched again.:)

"Do you want an red eye, or a black eye?" that is something I could see our son saying as he has such a funny sense of humor. {{{BIG HUGS }}}}


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thanks AEvans! Yes, give your son a hug for me too! Senior graduaction is approaching and it kills me knowing Kevin would have graduated in a few short months and would already be a man of 18. I feel cheated sometimes, but so very blessed at others, it's such a mixed bag of emotions that never quite heal completely. Thanks for the hugs!

I understand the emotions you must feel having just had the anniversary of your 'dad's' passing. My dad died this past September, so I'm having all the 'firsts' with that. The big one will be Father's Day.


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AEvans 7 years ago from SomeWhere Out There

Kcc: I did give him a big hug also from you. On my article Daffodils O'Poppin I realized yesterday that I had placed a video there called "Green Green Grass of Home" by Tom Jones. After speaking with mom it was brought ot my attention that it was one of his favorite songs, next to when irish eyes are smiling. I clicked on to YouTube and played it and it was like he was right there. Flooded in tears I realized how special he was, you see my natural father died when I was 7 on Christmas eve so losses hav for some reason always been apart of my life, I cannot say time mends broken hearts, but I can say that you realize how much more you love them when you can't reach out to them, or have one last conversation. I understand what you are going through and another {{{{Big Hug))) for you..:)


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Wow, as I wipe the tears, thanks for sharing that touching story and I'm glad you gave your son the extra hug.

Little girls shouldn't lose their daddy's and mama's shouldn't lose their sons, you know? But, we did, and we're that much stronger now. Big hugs to you too!


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trish1048 7 years ago

Hi KCC,

This is a lovely tribute to your son.  This brings to mind the song by the Byrds, Turn, Turn Turn, with this line  'A time to every purpose under heaven'.  It's a sad but beautiful song.

I've never lost a child, but my parents, hubby at age 36, and grandparents are long gone.  You may have read my hubs, one about my mom and one about my hubby.

Although all loss is devastating, for me, I think the loss of a child has to be the worst.  I pray it's something I will never experience, but as you say, in a split second.  One just never knows.

Thanks for this beautiful sad story.


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you so much Trish. I am familiar with the Byrds' "Turn, Turn, Turn". You're right, it is sad but beautiful. I'll hae to read your hubs about you mom and hubby.

Losing a child is a very unnatural thing.

Thanks again!


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trish1048 7 years ago

You're very welcome KCC.


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MindField 7 years ago from Portland, Oregon

Dear KCC,

I've just read this and as my Dad used to say to me, "Are you laughing, are you crying, Margaret Ann?" Well, as is often the case with me, I'm doing both. Your son was so wonderfully funny and dear, I feel him in my presence in some mystical way.

I believe love never dies and those we have loved and "lost" aren't lost at all but intercede for us between this world and the next. I'm not religious in any strict orthodox sense but that feeling of being surrounded by precious loved ones is always strong.

May I suggest something to you? I'd really like to see Kevin's artwork. A hub showing it would, I think, be a great addition to what you've written here. It would let many people for years to come know your fine boy through his art.

My mother is dying and she too was an artist. The best thing I ever did was to have her works framed. They now surround me and make a huge difference in my life. Our creativity comes so close to the true "us." I'd like to think that when Mom gets to heaven, Kevin is one of those who'll be there to greet her.

Love,

Meg


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thanks Meg! I have a strong sense of Kevin sometimes and do all of my creative work from his former bedroom. I have had some of artwork framed and some hangs in this room.

Kevin and I always had a bond with art. He always felt that it was a special gift handed down from me to him. He loved for me to sit and draw with him. His younger sister often stayed back and let us share that alone. It was easy to assume she had no interest and perhaps no talent for drawing. It wasn't until he died that she really took an interest. She's a magnificent artist as well. She and I now sit and draw and create things together.

I might just have to do a hub of his artwork. Thanks for the idea and stopping by!


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MindField 7 years ago from Portland, Oregon

Hey, why not combine all three - yours and the kids? I'd love to see that, too!


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

LOL....we might do that, Meg! Thanks for your support!


C. C. Riter 7 years ago

What a cute kid and such a loss for you and your's as well as the world. It sounds like he was a great son that I would have been proud of too. The aneccotes on him were very touching indeed. thanks for sharing dear. and again, my most sincere condolances


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you so much CC.....I'm very proud of him indeed. He'd be just about ready to go to prom and graduate from high school. It's tough watching all his friends. Thanks for your kind words!


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Gypsy Willow 7 years ago from Lake Tahoe Nevada USA , Wales UK and Taupo New Zealand

You are keeping his memory alive with your hub. I feel your pain.


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you Gypsy Willow!

There isn't a day that I don't think about Kevin and wonder what he'd be doing. He was fortune to have good friends as well. I just found out this week that they included him in the names on the back of their senior shirts even though it's been 5 1/2 years ago since he died. When a co-worker who has a son that's in Kevin's graduating class inquired about getting a shirt for me to keep, they simply gave it to him to give me. It was a really thoughtful thing to do. I am most appreciative.

Off to read some of your hubs!


dennisematt 7 years ago

Ive never lost a child. Unless miscarrige counts, and I dont think it does. not like what you had. I have lost people I love. I know how bad it hurts to laugh when your crying. and its so good at the same time. I cant read anymore comments right now.....Ill be back tho....thank you for sharing this, and I hope it helped you to write it.


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Of course your miscarriage counts! But, I do understand that the loss is a different loss. Just as someone losing a toddler is different, or losing a grown child. They are all losses and all hurt deeply. Thanks for stopping by dennisematt! Writing soes help me tremendously!


wordscribe41 7 years ago

Oh, I'm so sorry. I had tears through the whole thing. I cannot imagine the pain, I have 3 kids myself. Just before school started last year, over Labor Day weekend, one of my daughter's friends was tragically killed in an automobile accident. She would have been entering the 4th grade, was 9 years old. I mourned 24/7 for a long time. Still do cry if I see a picture of her. I just cannot imagine the pain of being the actual parent if I was such a mess when she was a friend's daughter. Anyway, thank you for sharing this wonderful hub about Kevin. I can't imagine the pain will ever be gone, but I hope it changes and becomes more manageable over time. Anyway, from the bottom of my heart, I am so very sorry for your loss.

Hugs, Laura


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you so much Laura! There really isn't a way to adequately describe the emptiness and the pain. My life (as well others close to him) has been forever changed. Some days are tougher than others. But, I don't cry nearly as often any more. The pain is there, but it just doesn't burst through the surface like it used to.

I'm sure you've had to learn about a bit grief just from helping your daughter cope with losing her friend. My daughter was almost 11 when her brother died.

Thanks again, for stopping by and commenting!


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dayzeebee 7 years ago from Cebu, Philippines

Wow you are an incredible being for choosing to highlight the wonderful moments with your beloved son and then sharing them with us. Thank you for your brave spirit. You are an nspiration. Blessings of love and light:)


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you so much Dayzeebee. Thanks for stopping by and passing on the blessings.


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SEM Pro 7 years ago from North America

Oh KCC - I came here to make friends with someone I knew I shared a special connection with because of your comments on mine. Now I have two friends. As you have written, Kevin will now be in my heart too - always.

I am soooooooooooo sorry for your loss. I cannot even imagine overcoming the loss of a child but believe you have found a key for us all. I too believe he is still with us, simply in a different dimension. He proved that to you by coming to you in your sleep and letting you know.

Thank you for being you - thank you for Kevin. Every split second will never be the same...


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you so much for your kind words SEM Pro. An essense of Kevin is interwoven into everything I do. It's a connection that means the world to me. Thank you for understanding what that means.


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Julie-Ann Amos 7 years ago from Gloucestershire, UK

Sorry I've only just stumbled across this. What a beautiful memorial to someone so special.


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Cam Anju 7 years ago from Stoughton, Wisconsin

I think it's great that you can savor the good times and keep going.. he sounded wonderful. ^^


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you Julie-Ann and CamAnju (not sure how missed you 6 days ago Julie-Ann, sorry!)......I'm glad you both visited so that you can get a glimpse of someone so very dear to me.


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Divalici0us 7 years ago from USA

Awww, thank you for sharing this. After reading the little things it reminded me of my brother and stuff he has said and done. :)

I saw the link to this on one of your other posts.


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you Divalici0us. Thanks for stopping by.


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mommyfreelancer 7 years ago from Philippines

Thank you, KCC Big Country, for sharing your son with us. I, too, have a son, born on Christmas day, and he means the world to me.

A friend lost his son when he was 6 years old and she said that she never questioned why he was taken away so early. In fact, she was always grateful that for those six years she was blessed with his presence.

Just tells us all to always savor the moment. God bless!


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you mommyfreelancer. I certainly can't say that I never questioned Kevin's death, but I have accepted it and consider the time I had to be an incrediblly blessed part of my life. Thanks for stopping by!


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WannaB Writer 7 years ago from Templeton, CA

I was moved by this. I lost my son in a split second when he was barely 14. He was also doing something he loved -- riding a jet ski for the first (and last) time. There are so many wonderful memories, and we miss him, too. Jason left us in 1991. You never quite get over it, but gradually the pain recedes is replaced by the happy memories. I will be writing about Jason sometime soon, but I'm not sure yet where. Most of my grief writing is on Squidoo, since I only recently found out about hub pages.


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you WannaB Writer. You are definitely someone who understands where I'm coming from having gone through such a similar loss yourself. (hugs) You're right, there comes that day when you are able to cling to the goodtimes with such fondness. I'd love to read your story about Jason. When you write it, email me and let me know where it is. I can add a link here even. Thanks for stopping by!


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Real Illusion 7 years ago from London, England

This sharing from you is deeply touching and is indeed an important and timely reminder to make the most of what we have.

Thank you.


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you so much Real Illusion! You're right, it is so important to love and appreciate the moments we do have. You never know when they may abruptly end. Thanks for stopping by!


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create a page 7 years ago from Maryland, USA

KCC I read this hub last night. I tried several times to respond, but my internet service kept dropping. I'm persistent, as you can see. I have been so amazed by the warm compassionate spirit which I sense in you each time I read a comment you make in the Forum or anywhere else.

This hub has revealed to me why I have been sensing this about you. You strike me as a very, very sincere and selfless person. It takes great courage and apathy to share your greatest pain at the saddest moment of your life. Very few people have that strength of character. Thank you so much for being so real about the reality of life. I'm also very sorry you experienced the great loss of a very handsome young man who had so very much to offer. I encourage you to keep writing and sharing your warmth on the internet. We need it!


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Awwww, thank you so much for those wonderful compliments, and for being so persistent in getting here too! I truly appreciate it.

Sharing Kevin (and my Daddy, in another hub) is something I am compelled to do, more than struggle to do, if that makes sense. I guess what I'm saying is that I didn't find it something that took strength really. It was something I couldn't help but do.

The reality of life/death isn't the events themselves, it's more about our perception of them and that's the part I'm most interesting in helping others with.

Thank you again, Create a Page.


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partluck 7 years ago from Edison, NJ

One of the most touching blogs I have ever read, and being a Kevin myself I bet he had a great passion for life! May the memories last a lifetime.....


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you, Kevin (Partluck)....Kevin was indeed passionate about life, fun, art and being a good friend to everyone he met. His memory is with me always.


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landthatilove 7 years ago from ohio

My son's best friend was killed in an automobile accident. Keith was always at our house and was like a second son. He had teenage siblings and preferred the little boy haven at our house to the teasing he got there. He spent an entire week with us at our lake cottage before the accident. I took the boys to the beach that week and Keith kept "playing dead" by floating in the water and on the way back home I could see him doing it again in my rearview mirror. I actually told him to stop it as it for some reason was no longer funny to me. He would say "I'm dead" and then droop like he was. Could he have been predicting this?

It took me two years to not have crying jags over that child who was not even my own son. So I can only imagine how painful it was for you.

I agree that a child dying is so unnatural and alien to our mind.

God Bless you.


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you so very much "landthatilove". My son's best friend witnessed my son's accident and it greatly affected him and his mother since she too felt that my son was like a second son to her as well. It is very unnatural and so very very difficult to cope with. But, cope, we must....and somehow we do. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't long for him to be back here with me. But each day I have to remind myself of the precious time I did have. I make sure everyone that I love KNOWS that I love them. It's so very important.


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Aqua 7 years ago from California

KCC - What a beautiful tribute to your son Kevin. I can tell he was truly a great young man. I know you miss him dearly and I thank you for sharing him with us. His quip about a black or red eye made me chuckle :)


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you Aqua. The red eye/black eye comment was certainly one of my favorites as well. I do miss him, every second of every day. Thanks for stopping by.


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sheristeele 7 years ago from Siler City, NC

What a wonderful and handsome boy Kevin was! I know you miss him dearly. Your story hit home for me so much. My 16 year old who is an avid skateboarder was hurt very badly 3 weeks ago in a skating accident. Again, something he loves tremendously. I am truly sorry for your loss. I am also happy that you have such wonderful memories. Thank you for sharing!


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you Sheristeele! I'm sorry to hear about your son's accident. I hope he's recovering well.


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bludstream 7 years ago

All of us who have children and have raised them share the daily fear of losing them. How many times as I watched my son leave for school did I think to myself "this could be the last time I see him". It is this fear which makes us watch them so carefully and sometimes, overly so. My son is 28 now and yet I worry about him every day. Your story has hit me harder than anything I have read in years KCC. You have to believe that he is out there watching over you now. Stay strong.


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Awww, thank you so much bludstream! Kevin's with me always. He's a part of everything I do. All of my writing comes from his room (there's a hub about that too). This time of year is always the toughest. The anniv is coming up quickly followed by another birthday he's not here to celebrate. Thank you for your kind words.


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Feline Prophet 7 years ago from India

Just came upon this hub and am really touched! Such heartwarming memories...may they live with you always. :)


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you so much, Feline Prophet! You don't realize how important memories are until that's all you have left.


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bayareagreatthing 7 years ago from Bay Area California

God Bless you as you continue in your journey here without your sweet boy. Life sure is full of mysteries that are too hard to understand sometimes. Thank you for sharing your memories 0f Kevin with us.


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you so much BayArea! He was too special NOT to share. I'm glad my fellow hubbers are able to indulge me a bit while I do.


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Herald Daily 7 years ago from A Beach Online

I'm sorry for you loss, KCC. You have so much courage and I feel honoured to have read these special memories of your Kevin, thank-you.


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you so much, Herald Daily. I'm honored you stopped by and took the time to read about him.


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habee 7 years ago from Georgia

Oh, KCC, how does a person survive that much emotional pain? I simply cannot imagine what you and your family went through. Your warm hub brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for sharing part of your wonderful son with us.


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KCC Big Country 7 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you so much, Habee! We survive simply because we must, I guess. It's quite an adjustment, but you take each day and work from there. It'll soon be 6 years for me. Thanks for stopping by.


myincredible2 6 years ago

KCC

I have 2 little boys. One is 1 and the other is 3. They drive me crazy!!! My 1 year old climbs things only to find him standing on top of the dining table and can't seem to hear me when I scream NO! And my 3 year old is devilish and smiles at me when he knows he's wrong. By the end of each day there's a hug/kiss or the holding of my hand and at that moment it pains me to think if I ever lost them my life would be over.

I cried through your story and I'm hugging you right now!!!!

You sound so strong.

Love, Stacy


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KCC Big Country 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thanks, Stacy! Cherish those moments. I have such fond memories of Kevin and they mean the world to me. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about him. Thanks for the hugs and hug those boys for me.


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abcd1111 6 years ago from Glen Ellyn, IL (Chicago suburb)

I have two boys in college right now. Becoming a parent makes you vulnerable to the worst pain on earth which you have suffered.

Kevin has come alive for me because of your beautiful tribute. He was so quick-witted and artistically talented.

My heart goes out to you for your loss, but you have done a wonderful job of celebrating the beautiful life of your very special son.

Thank you.


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KCC Big Country 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you so much abcd111. We will once again celebrate his life in just a few days as we mark the anniversary of his death. We release dozens of colorful balloons from his gravesite as we've done every year on the anniv of his death and birth. Just recently, fellow hubber Jerry Bacik created a beautiful tribute piece of artwork for me to honor Kevin. I'm gonna run add the photo here and put a link to that hub. BRB


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resspenser 6 years ago from South Carolina

KCC,

I appreciate the hub and your attitude. I have a step-son who was hit by a car when he was 4 and he sustained a severe head injury. I wish everyday that it had not happened, not for me-I think he is a joy-, but for all the "normal" life he is missing! He is 34 now and lives with his mother and me.

I worry constantly about my granddaughters who are 6,7 and 8. And yes I do take a huge amount of pictures!!!!!!


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KCC Big Country 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thanks for stopping by Resspenser. It takes a special person to cope with what you've had to endure.

Tonight is the anniversary of Kevin's death. It's bittersweet. We celebrate his life by launching balloons from his grave and reminisce about the good times, but at the end of the night, he's still gone from our physical lives.


franki79 6 years ago

All I can saY honey,,, is I am so sorry for your loss,,,, my heart goes out to you. I can't imagine a bigger loss than a parent losing a child, except a mother losing a child. We are not wired for that.

We are wired for (us) children, to lose they're parents first not the other way around.

Words can't even describe how bad I feel for you

I'm a fan for sure after reading this hub.

Franki


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KCC Big Country 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you Franki. I very much appreciate your kind words.


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rmcrayne 6 years ago from San Antonio Texas

KCC I've experienced a lot of loss in my life, but never a child, parent, spouse or sibling. I can't even imagine what that would be like. Thank you for sharing your loving tribute to Kevin.


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KCC Big Country 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you rmcrayne. I had only lost grandparents up until I lost Kevin. Losing Kevin was without a doubt the hardest thing I've had to endure. I lost my daddy last year. It was tough too, but not as tough as losing Kevin.


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nicos502 6 years ago

Thank you KCC, you bring Kevin to life when sharing those precious moments with us. And you inspire us to enjoy our everyday life with our kids and family.


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KCC Big Country 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you nicos502. Don't take any moment for granted. A split-second is all it takes for your world to change.


poetlorraine 6 years ago

you are very brave to write this, how awful for you...... it is truly the worst that could happen to anyone, you have great strength


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KCC Big Country 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you poetlorraine. I don't see me as being brave or strong. You just simply carry on and embrace the good and learn to cope with the pain.


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janiek13 6 years ago from Florida's Space Coast

I;m sorry for your loss. What a nice tribute.


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KCC Big Country 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you very much, Janiek13.


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CiscoPixie 6 years ago from I'm in a world of my own, but aren't we all?

I'm sorry for your loss. It can't be easy to overcome something like this but i suppose it takes time.. Thank you for sharing with us a piece of your heart and soul.


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KCC Big Country 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you CiscoPixie. It's definitely not easy, but yes, it does get easier with time.


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Ben Zoltak 6 years ago from Lake Mills, Jefferson County, Wisconsin USA

I was really touched by the positive and warm tone of this tribute to your son. I don't know if I could be so strong, I like to think I could, but I hopefully will never know. I am inspired by your writing and by the cleverness of Kevin. Life is always full of surprises and tender moments, but few people recognize that as fully as you and your son have KCC. I don't think I'll ever be able to forget the scene you rendered about Kevin reaching down to help the woman at the haunted house! What a bright light Kevin is! May the Great Spirit bless you and your son!


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KCC Big Country 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you so much for your kind words, Ben. I'm truly blessed to have had the time I did with Kevin. He taught me so much and I'm honored you allowed me to share some of that with you.


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sidney_bristow 6 years ago

I just could get myself to read the whole thing. When I read your introductory note I just assumed he had gone to college or something. Oh how I wish he had! He looks somewhat like my son. Same colors. Same smile.


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KCC Big Country 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thanks Sidney. Give your son a big hug and cherish every moment.


Glen G 6 years ago

just found this hub, nice, I felt your pain as you wrote it losing one of my own, you are sooo right about taking picture's, something I didnt do much of and regret deeply...be well


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KCC Big Country 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank Glen. Losing a child is something a parent should never have to endure.


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susansisk 6 years ago from Georgia, USA

What a beautiful tribute! My sons also rode dirt bikes, and had go-carts. I feel like I knew your son from your writing. I am so sorry for your loss.


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KCC Big Country 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you Susansisk. Dirt bikes and go-carts and even accidents and spills are all a part of boys growing up. Kevin enjoyed life. I'm glad to be able to share it. Thank you for your kind words.


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ThoughtfulSpot 6 years ago from PA

I don't have the words... Thank you for sharing and my thoughts and prayers to you and others who have had such unimaginable loss. A beautiful tribute by an obviously very strong woman.


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KCC Big Country 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you for your thoughs and kind words. The strength comes only from the desire to not let his memory fade.


Adjei 6 years ago

I was very touched by your story and was also encouraged of how you are coping with it. I have just lost my 2 yr old son to a tragic accident. He got tangled to a curtain drapery. It has been a month and I am still lost. The heartache is unbearable at times. When I read on how you tried different coping and grieving ways I was comforted. I also prefer to look up the net for comfort. I have found very comfoting sites that gets me through the day.


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KCC Big Country 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

I'm so sorry Adjei. ((((Hugs)))) I know how lost you are. I know how hollow you feel inside. The heartache will always sting, but you will find it easier to withstand the sting. I promise it gets better. You are very very early in your grieving process. It's been 6 years for me. If you haven't found BeyondIndigo.com, you should check out their message boards. It helped me so much in those early days. I have a few other articles about grief too, including how to handle the holidays after losing someone you love. Feel free to email me anytime if you just want someone to talk to or to ask me a question. You can find my email button at the top of this page on the right under the monkey avatar. Take care of yourself.


Duchess OBlunt 6 years ago

KCC, your Hub has already helped so many others. What a wonderful tribute to the memory of your son. Bless you


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KCC Big Country 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you Duchess OBlunt.


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Mikel G Roberts 6 years ago from The Heartland

My son just turned 14. I couldn't read your hub, I'll try another time. I couldn't Imagine...


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KCC Big Country 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Give him a big hug, Mikel.


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DustinsMom 6 years ago from USA

You know how I feel about this subject, having lost my only child. What a precious son you had in Kevin, and his love remains forever in your heart. What a wonderful way to remember him. Talking and sharing keeps his memories alive. The artwork by Jerry was fantastic. My heart goes out to you my friend.


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JonFreemen86 6 years ago from United States

A truly moving story, a very wonderful way to remember your son. God bless you.


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KCC Big Country 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you so much DustinsMom and JonFreemen!


Diane Agussol 6 years ago

I read your tribute to your wonderful son Kevin and my heart goes out to you. As a mother, I could not imagine anything worse than having one of my children pass before I do.

I agree that photos help keep the memories alive of events and great times you had together.

By writing this hub you obviously are helping a lot of others cope with their loss. Keep up the great work.


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KCC Big Country 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you so much Diane. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of Kevin in some form or fashion. He's so much a part of me and I wouldn't have it any other way, to be honest. I sincerely hope that other mothers who have suffered a loss of a child realize how precious those memories are and that grief can be conquered with time.


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raisingme 6 years ago from Fraser Valley, British Columbia

I just found this because I found you in the forums. Have you read Somewayouttahere's hubs? She lost her daughter. I have come so very close to what you have experienced and my heart reaches out to your heart! Thank You so very much for having the courage to write this. Much love, appreciation and gratitude to both you and your beloved son.


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KCC Big Country 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you so much Raisingme. I'll have to check out Somewayouttahere's hubs.


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mailxpress 6 years ago from New York

I can't imagine the shock you and your family must have gone through. The painting is beautiful. I'm sure you miss him every waking moment of every day.


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KCC Big Country 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you mailxpess. I do miss Kevin, particularly around this time of year as we near dates with particular meaning to Kevin. Fall is when he always entered his artwork into the fair. Fall is when he was born, fall is when he died. The list goes on. Fall is bittersweet. It's painful to remember, but precious to never forget if that makes sense.


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creativelycc 6 years ago from Maine

Your son Kevin was amazing and I feel like I really got to know him by reading this precious hub! You raised an awesome son and he will always be alive in your heart.


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KCC Big Country 6 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you so much, CreativelyCC. He is, and always will be, a great source of pride for me.


jca197493@yahoo.c 5 years ago

To this day, I often wonder how my parents lived with the death of my sister Heather. As a mother of two beautiful boys, I found strength in my parents. Thankyou for sharing this. I am so happy I found you on Hubpages. You are an amazing writer and an inspiration to the heart and mind...


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Jaynie2000 5 years ago

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I have two amazing daughters and I realize how grateful I am to have them every single day. When I hear stories like yours, even the possibility of losing my own children fills me with the most dreadful emotions. I know those pale in comparison to pain like yours. But the blessing is that you had your amazing son for 13 years and God willing, his memory will be with you forever. Peace.


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KCC Big Country 5 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you so much Jaynie. Cherish every moment with your children. I am truly blessed for the time I had. Kevin is indeed with me always.


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Michael Buchman 5 years ago from Texas, USA

In 1993, we lost our oldest son just prior to his 18th birthday. I've learned the memory and pain of his loss will never go away. It will however continue to shape our being and help direct our daily lives to the positive. His memory continues to help me determine what is most important each and every day. Relationships with our other boys I know are better because of his loss. Thank you for sharing your experience with us.


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KCC Big Country 5 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you Michael. You're right about the pain never going away. The loss will always be a devastating loss. Nothing changes that. Time does help us learn to cope. I agree that I have a stronger bond with my daughter because of what we went through. Thank you for sharing your experience too.


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from planet earth 5 years ago

It's amazing when you can laugh and cry all at the same time. There is no doubt you love your son. He was a great kid. We will all miss him. Nice tribute


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KCC Big Country 5 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you, From Planet Earth. I can honestly say there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of him. No one can possibly miss him more than I do.


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Julie2 5 years ago from New York City

Thank you for sharing a part of Kevin with me...


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KCC Big Country 5 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you, Julie. I'm glad you got to "meet him". :)


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brakel2 5 years ago from Oklahoma City, Oklahoma

Thanks for a great hub. A 4 wheeler almost took the life of my neighbor's friend's grandson. There are so many tragedies, but to lose a child must be devastating. I know it releases a person a little by writing, so I am glad that you wrote this hub. Good luck in your endeavours.


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KCC Big Country 5 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you brakel2. Losing Kevin has certainly been the most difficult thing I've had to cope with. Thank you for stopping by! Good luck to you too!


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Uninvited Writer 5 years ago from Kitchener, Ontario

I had a brother who died when he was 14, I was under 4. My parents never talked about him...I didn't even remember I had a brother until I was older and saw pictures, etc. But they would never discuss him. I think that was so sad


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KCC Big Country 5 years ago from Central Texas Author

I'm really sorry to hear that Uninvited Writer. My current husband never knew my son and found it "odd" that my daughter and I still discuss him and bring him up in conversations. I find it "odd" or uncomfortable to leave Kevin out. Depending on how people ask me, I am careful not to omit him but I also try not to make anyone uncomfortable about it.


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Mrs. J. B. 5 years ago from Southern California

My second child Simone died when she was just a baby so I understand your grief and pain. I know though that it made me much stronger spiritually and emotionally. Still there are times as I am sure you have them too when you wonder why my child, but I know that we went through this for a reason. I see life so differently now and take nothing for granted. I try to help others that have gone through the same pain and to let them know that they are not alone.


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KCC Big Country 5 years ago from Central Texas Author

Mrs. J.B.: I'm so sorry you too have lost a child. I agree that having lost one certainly makes us stronger. I too believe that it was for a reason and take so much less for granted. I have another hub that is filled with comments from parents just like us and I try to help them know they are not alone.


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Robin 5 years ago from San Francisco

I'm reading through Hubs by Hubbers attending HubCamp and am in tears reading your Hubs about your son. My heart goes out to you and the other parents that have lost a child; I can't imagine anything worse. You truly are an amazing person and I look forward to meeting you in Dallas! Warmest regards, Robin


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KCC Big Country 5 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you Robin. I can't wait to meet you at the Dallas HubCamp!


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IzzyM 5 years ago from UK

Big hugs KCC...wish I could make things better but I can't. I, too, know the grief you feel having lost my brother aged 18 when I was 17. My parents never got over it, not completely. But still life goes on.


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KCC Big Country 5 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you so much lzzyM! It is a pain that never goes away, but it's sharpness seems to fade some with time. Losing an older brother must have been tough for you as well. My daughter misses her older brother.


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spirit929 5 years ago from Upstate NY somewhere over the rainbow

Incredible Hub KCC, Im sorry for your loss. What a fine young man he was. This is one of the best tributes I have ever read!


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carozy 5 years ago from San Francisco

That was very sweet to read and I'm sorry for your loss KCC.


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KCC Big Country 4 years ago from Central Texas Author

Thank you for your comments spirit929 and carozy.

Kevin, my precious son, I miss you every single day. Know that you are remembered and loved by every life you touched. Today, the 8th anniversary of your death, we'll gather at your grave and send balloons in honor of the special time we had with you.


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JenJen0703 4 years ago from Cereal City U.S.A.

I am so sorry for your loss KCC. I understand what it is like, maybe not to the extent that you have went through, but loss is loss. You are keeping his memories alive, and that is what matters most. Voted up and look forward to reading more...

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