The perfect jump

AS I SAY YES TO LIFE LIFE SAYS YES TO ME!

Leap of faith


Fear prickling
my feat
I try to ignore
the pounding
in my ears
five metres
beneath me
the dark water
swirling
gurgling
in murky green
currents
on the rusty
water pipe
I stand..

MY TEENAGER’S YEARS
AT THE START
OF MY JOURNEY
I AM..


My left hand
and my right
a row of white
knuckles
gripping the rail
Could I jump?

SO FAST GROWING UP
I AM AN YOUNG ADULT NOW
AND I HAVE TO MAKE MY MARK…

I looked up
my 14 years old sons
folding their giraffe legs
squeezed through the gap
counting to three
the pair of them
leapt from the bridge
plunging into the deep
I hold my breath
waiting for them
to emerged
and here they are
laying on their backs
hooting
and punching the air

I LIKE MY MIDLIFE NOW
WATCHING MY OWN TEENAGERS
TACKLING THEIR OWN FEARS
FROM SIDELINE
SMILE…

I steeled myself
to jump
but a flicker
of movement
caught my eye
a beefy bloke
was swinging
one hairy thigh
over the guard rail
he settled
with a thump
beside me,
“Time to let go, eh,”
he said.

I WINKED AT HIM
HE LIKES HIS MIDLIFE TOO:)

And he was gone,
halfway down
he hugged one knee
then a depth charge
of a layback bombie
before I could blink
he was slicing
through water
with strong freestyle arms.

BUT THEN THE YEARS GO BY
AND I BECOME MORE AWARE
OF PASSING TIME,
MORE CAREFUL NOT TO GET HURT
LESS WORRIED ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE SAY…


What fear overcomes me
first?
My fear of heights,
fear of falling
or fear of drowning?

Holding on for dear life?
Or letting go
and learn to fly?
Our everyday dilemma
minutes before
I’d been too
comfortably
grounded
on the riverbank
just like I see people now
wading out
to weist height
or relaxing on the sand.

BUT YOU WANT TO STILL LIVE
EVEN IN YOUR OLD AGE, SMILE…

Sucking in a lungful of air
I stifled the voices
in my head
and released my grip
on the guard rail,
for several moments
I teetered
on the pipe,
the safety barrier
was now
beyond
my reach,
the only way out
now
was down.

I LOVE MY LIFE!!!

Leap of faith

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VigilantChef LM 17 months ago

Buddha was selfish and left his family, Muhammad created a religion of War, Jesus is the Christ who died for all on a cross at Calvary.


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Beata Stasak 17 months ago from Western Australia Author

well one could be marked selfish for jumping off the bridge and create wars in family if there will be medical bill like a broken leg to pay or one can die too as the consequence of the reckless behaviour...SO AT THE END OF THE DAY IT IS ALL MATTER OF ONE OPINION...do you agree? Smile..


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annart 17 months ago from SW England

I know exactly what you mean. It's a terrifying jump to make but oh how good we feel when we've made it! Conquering fears and being brave takes a massive leap of faith. Faith is belief in a god, in yourself, in life, as well as tolerating others' opinions.

Wonderful poem; you've captured the emotions and the joy of life. Great illustrations, as always.

Ann


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bravewarrior 17 months ago from Central Florida

It's funny how our fears grow as we age. When I was young, I was fearless. Now I'm not so daring. However, sometimes we just have to let go and jump right in.

Nice expression of life's journey, Beata!


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Beata Stasak 17 months ago from Western Australia Author

thank you my fellow hubbers, thank you for understanding me as always smile, I congratulate YOU on being able to let go and conquer your fears of fearing of old age it is not easy...but nothing is what is worthwhile, smile...


mikeydcarroll67 15 months ago

Inspirational! I felt like there is tremendous power in what you have written here!


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Beata Stasak 15 months ago from Western Australia Author

Thank you my fellow hubber for your kind response:)


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Perspycacious 13 months ago from Today's America and The World Beyond

A little proofreading as I read:

waiting for them

to emerged

wading out

to weist height

But, and it is a big but, your writing and the creative thoughts so well constructed, are even more remarkable than I had remembered them!


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Beata Stasak 13 months ago from Western Australia Author

thank you my fellow hubber you are so right, I write too fast and English is my third language which doesn't help either, therefore I am just a hobby writer and hubpages are perfect to exercise this type of hobby, smile...


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ChitrangadaSharan 13 months ago from New Delhi, India

Wonderful poem and amazing pictures!

You have captured the emotions and the joy of life so beautifully . Well presented hub and voted up as beautiful.

Thank you!


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days leaper 13 months ago from england

mankind makes the road that costs resources that take time and money that gives someone a job for awhile that pays money, that gets finished the job goes no more money. The now jobless who feels lost at being unable to support family. climbs over the barrier of that road built by sweat and guts, and lands splat hundreds of meters in the sea below. Philosophers like Buddah and Muhamud try to work things out, many have tried with varying degrees of success and failings...

Im saying mankind makes the economy that gets in the way of the love God showed through his son Christ Jesus of Nazereth!!

PS. Thanks Beata.. for your comment I haven't hubbed for two years and was just updating bits. I like the top poster, and agree with the first comment in particular.


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Beata Stasak 13 months ago from Western Australia Author

Thank you my fellow hubbers I am very blessed as my name says (Beata means blessed by Gods in Latin:) that so many of you share my sentiments, thank you and keep hubbing, hopefully I will find more time to come too:)...Beata

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