To Live or Die My Fight With Diabetes and Heart Issues

I made it home thank god.
I made it home thank god.
My cough pillow signed by family and friends.
My cough pillow signed by family and friends.

My Journey Back to Life

I think we all are selfish and a little stupid when it comes to our own well being. We brush off our pains, we wait to see if they will subside and some of the time they do but does that mean that what ever caused the pain has gone away? We ignore that continuous ache or acid reflux. We try to move past feeling sick. Even when we injure ourselves we try to "walk it off" or we try to "tough it out". When we feel a little better we continue with the same activities that ended us up injured or sick and in some cases even close to death.

I'm no exception to the rule, I've been selfishly blinded for close to sixteen years when it has come to my diabetes only taking my condition seriously when it reaches a major crescendo and ends me up in a hospital with debilitating limitations. I have tried to ignore the fact that my feet and hands are going numb, the fact that I have massive macro-degeneration (bleeding of the blood vessels in the eye) in both of my eyes, the kidney pain and bubbly urine at night and in the morning (a sign of kidney dysfunction), the constant thirst I feel, the mood swings I get when my blood sugar is out of whack, and feelings of lethargy and depression.

Well its time to fight the fight of my life. I want to be accountable, I want to be responsible, I want to live. I don't think I've ever said those words and really meant them when it came to my health. I have been a selfish little nugget; I love to eat fast food, I sneak bites of candy here and there, I even have the occasional bowl of ice cream. I smoked for several years and only recently did I quit (cigarettes; I am a member of OMMP), and I only quit because I had two stints put into my heart in December of last year. Those stints failed a month in a half later and I endured a quadruple bypass. I went through six months of cardio-rehab and I am now limited to what I can do physically. I am emotionally compromised and for a while now I've been feeling sorry for myself and not caring about what I have been eating.

Well my friends today I am setting myself goal! I want you the readers of this article to check in from time to time over the course of one year and help keep me accountable. I think that if I have support in the fact that I have people cheering me on then I will beat back the self defeating attitude I have created in myself and reach the goals of a healthy life style and perhaps inspire others that want to do the same.

In this article and on my blog page I will update daily my diet plan, my physical health goals, my diabetes control, my weight gains and losses, and my general health info. By making this a public display I am hoping that I can win the battle I need to wage for myself and my loving family. I welcome your help, your comments, your views on my year long journey to a new healthy life style.

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2besure 5 years ago from Charlotte, North Carolina

I am so glad you are doing better and have a wonderful attitude about your ordeal. Please ask around about Kangen Water, I have heard it has helped many with all types medical problems. Blessings.


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Cow Flipper 5 years ago from Southern Oregon Author

Thanks 2besure.

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