"WHY DID IT HAVE TO BE LIKE THIS

Having Richard and my wonderful dogs around  me in the earlier days certainly made a difference to my life. Sometimes, I could forget that I was even so ill.
Having Richard and my wonderful dogs around me in the earlier days certainly made a difference to my life. Sometimes, I could forget that I was even so ill.

 

No one ever knows what it feels like
or what you're going through in your life.
No one knows the way you feel each day
unless they try walking in your shoes.
When I have a bad day , like the one
let's say I had to suffer today, and     
When my spirits are very low,they will
only know when I look all sad and blue.

A day out on the beach is a wonderful escape from being at home all the time. When I am away from home with my husband it is a wonderful way to enjoy life and what it means again.
A day out on the beach is a wonderful escape from being at home all the time. When I am away from home with my husband it is a wonderful way to enjoy life and what it means again.

 I ask The Lord in prayer each day
What can I do to change my life
I feel like I am slowly losing hope and
I don't know what to do
Why did I have to have a life like this
full of torment and pain.
My tears cascade down my face
like constant falling rain.

A lot of my days now I spend in bed because it is too hard to even get out of bed because I am so tired. But I try to put a smile on my face. I have written a lot of poems in bed like this as well, it just was so much easier, but I haven't given up.
A lot of my days now I spend in bed because it is too hard to even get out of bed because I am so tired. But I try to put a smile on my face. I have written a lot of poems in bed like this as well, it just was so much easier, but I haven't given up.

 I am asking you My Lord why these painful thoughts
going through my head each day and night I feel
cannot be erased
Let me feel like singing,not sad and blue all day
Let me laugh like I mean it and not like it's expected
of me to do
I don't want to be like this anymore, I wish I knew
the reason, I wish I knew WHY.

The thing that I love to do the most is sing. Now all I have are the photos of me doing this because my singing is no longer what it was. Even that has been affected by the MSA.
The thing that I love to do the most is sing. Now all I have are the photos of me doing this because my singing is no longer what it was. Even that has been affected by the MSA.

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BobbiRant 5 years ago from New York

Beautiful writing. Written with such heart and conviction, helping us feel, if even for a tad bit, what you go through. Bless you.


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KoffeeKlatch Gals 5 years ago from Sunny Florida

Beautiful, Heartfelt. I can feel your pain. You're in my prayers.


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Hello, hello, 5 years ago from London, UK

My heart goes out to you and if I could help I surely would. We often ask why and there is never an answer.One thing make sme even more angry is that it is people who are good getting it. Not the ones who deserve it. However, it is no good giving up or giving in and steely will can often do miracles. I wish you all the best fromthe botton of my heart.


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BEAUTYBABE 5 years ago from QUEENSLAND AUSTRALIA. Author

Bobbi,

Thank you so much for your very complementary review of my story. I appreciated very much what you have said. I have looked at some of your own hubs and you have been in only a year. You are doing very well. I am not well at the moment today in particular was a bad one for me. I had tremors and stiffening and rigidity fron the moment I opened my eyes. Somedays it is like this and it can go on for several hours.

God Bless you too'Your're in my thoughts and prayers also.

Hugs & Kisses BB

We shall keep in touch okay


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BEAUTYBABE 5 years ago from QUEENSLAND AUSTRALIA. Author

Hello there Koffee,

Thank you for your lovely kind words. I will be taking a look at your profile and hubs more closely and would like to be a follower.

I am curious though how did you come up with your User Name. It really has me intrigued. I would really loved to know. I appreciate your very kind words and I look forward to hearing from you again.

Take care and God Bless until next time

Hugs and Kisses Beautybabexxoo


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HattieMattieMae 5 years ago from Limburg, Netherlands

Beautiful and truthful!


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MPG Narratives 5 years ago from Sydney, Australia

I saw your forum post so decided to look at your hubs. This is a beautiful poem with great photos. An you're an Aussie too! My best wishes to you, for your health and your writing.


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BEAUTYBABE 5 years ago from QUEENSLAND AUSTRALIA. Author

Hi Marie,

It is lovely to meet a fellow Australian, especially one who likes to write poetry.I have met so many people on HP's as I'm sure you have as well.

I read your hub about the little boy Luke with "Aspergers Disease". It is quite a complex illness. A bit like mine. A lot of things happen without a reason at first. Then after a while someone starts to work out different things and very soon you have a diagnosis.

I intend reading more of your hubs because so far the ones I have read have been very interesting and enlightning.

I am pleased that you like this poem. It has a lot of meaning to me and I am sure that there would be other people as well who would benefit from reading it also.

Best Wishes to you and your family

from Beautybabe (Pam)


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Chad A Taylor 5 years ago from Somewhere in Seattle...

you are an inspiration and the broad strokes of God's grace are clearly seen on the canvas of your life! I am praying for you


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mathira 4 years ago from chennai

Don't lose hope and I pray god for you. I was so moved, BEAUTYBABE.


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BEAUTYBABE 4 years ago from QUEENSLAND AUSTRALIA. Author

You are very kind to say such lovely words. Thank you so much for your . I truly appreciate them. Take care yourself and God Bless you also. Pam x

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    BEAUTYBABE 5 years ago from QUEENSLAND AUSTRALIA. Author

    Hi there stranger,

    I know there are no answers to these questions but wouldn't it be if you could just find out how the answer to anything that has gone wrong with your health and then how to fix it as well.

    I think that it is really awful and devastating as to the number of illnesses and diseases that are around and especially the ones for which they have not as yet found a cure. There are so many, too many. I really feel the worst for the little children that get so critically ill at the youngest times in their lives, as a baby they don't even get a chance.

    Our world as well is slowly self-destructing. I just hate getting up and turning on the TV every day, only to find another country has come to grief by some terrible destructive element of nature.

    I hope you are safe where you are and your family well also.

    You are all in my thoughts and prayers

    Hugs always Beautybabe.


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    jacqui2011 5 years ago from Leicester, United Kingdom

    What a warm and heartfelt poem. You are truly a talented writer. Many congratulations on having your first book published. Well done.


    beautybabe 5 years ago

    Thank you for you lovely message Jacqui,

    It is really lovely to receive your beautiful words of

    congratulations. I am truly amazed by all the messages of congrats. I don't even know a lot of them but I am so touched by their sentiment.

    I am so excited about publishing my first books. One down and five to go, not bad is it?

    Take care Jacqui

    LOL BB (Pam) xx

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