I'm truly sorry for your loss. I celebrate my father's life not his death. As he was older, it was to be expected, I cannot imagine the pain with someone so young. On my fathers 1 year anniversary, I placed climbing blaze roses by his favorite tree, in a coffee can, his favorite drink, his favorite flower, which he helped to plant, I cannot tell you what to do or not to do. Every one deals with grief differently. Some go through the stages quickly, others it takes years. There are many stages, each different, and in no particular order. Usually, shock, then anger, then finally acceptance. Whether you laugh or cry it makes no difference, each is of itself a healing process. Just when I think i'm over it, i'll hear a song, Dance with my Father again, and it starts all over again. Very painful, but necessary, for healing. I truly wish you the very best.