I don't really have too many phobias. I have a few. I cannot fly. I have to take buses or trains. I can't be in crowded areas. I begin to hyperventilate. My hands get all sweaty. All of a sudden I cannot understand what people are saying.
On top of that I can hear my name being called within the people. I stopped going to clubs a long time ago, because I couldn't be in over crowded places.
When I go to a supermarket and if it's crowded I begin to sweat and can't breathe well. I have to leave and sit outside to catch my breath. I begin to shake and feel like fainting.
My doctor had asked me if I wanted anti anxiety medications, but I refuse to accept them. I don't remember when that began. When I lived in new york city after 911 I had to take the local trains. I couldn't take the express trains any longer. Even taking the local train I felt at times that I needed to get off and wait for another train, because of this condition. Some times the trains weren't crowded.
At rush hours I had to wait until all the trains were not crowded in order for me to take one. It was at times very unbearable. It had nothing to do with terrorism. I just didn't feel well.
There were other times when I used to want to go out and once I was in the hallway getting ready to lock the door a strong shakiness set in and I had to stay home. I couldn't go out that day. It was like I felt an awful feeling inside like something ugly was going to happen.
This is what I was feeling. I still feel the same today. I deal with it as much as I can. Thanks for the question.