There are many things that I would like to rectify... many, many things. But we can only look at our lives with hindsight. I was a different person then, so perhaps I wouldn’t have wanted someone from the future, (me), telling me what I should be doing; how I should be thinking; what I should be considering most precious. We only realise those when they have slipped out of our careless, or uncaring fingers.
I would like to know, here and now, that I had let my wonderful mother know exactly what a diamond she was, but I just took her and her brilliance, her intelligence, her many and varied talents, for granted. I would like to have taken her in my arms and told her I loved her more than she could ever know - or as much as she loved me, and that was a tremendous amount of love.
I would like to have tried to understand my father and help him to understand me. But we spend years not doing any of that. I would like to know that I had at one stage, if only once, let him know that he was most probably one of the most intelligent and wonderful persons I had ever known. A flawed human being, as am I, but a man of integrity and honour.
I would like to reverse time and, instead of watching someone standing, distraught and alone on the quay in Bombay, as out liner pushed out to sea, I would like to reverse time and for that wonderful person to have accompanied my parents and me into another country; away from terrible danger and for him to join us in an unknown future. The young man I loved more than anyone in my life: Krishna, our Bearer when I was a little boy. He was my rock, my champion, my friend, my teacher, my confidant, my mentor. He adored me and I simply worshipped the ground he walked on.
And here endeth the First Lesson.
Please turn to your hymn books. We shall now sing Hymn Number 143: "The Day Thou Gavest Lord, Is Ended"