Grieving can last a long time
grieving can last a long time.
It has been almost 6 years since my Grandma died. She raised me and I called her mom. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about her or talk about her. I miss her so,so much. Near the end of her life I was also going through some difficult things and it seemed I was almost angry with her for being sick. I think I was also grieving then. I didn't know how to deal with it. So, because of it I have lot's of guilt mingled with a deep love and respect for her. Grief is a funny thing, even when you think you are done grieving, it hits you again. How you play things over and over again, like about if you could only be with her again. How we might act or what we might say. We always think did they know how much we loved them. We all express our love and fears different and we all grieve different. I think because of it we make different decisions. Sometimes, decisions are made from pain and they are not always right. Or, sometimes we make decisions on what are loved ones would of liked if they were here. This is all part of greiving. I think its normal to think about them and cry at times. Crying is one of my healing tools. It cleanses and can be a good release. I think that our loved ones knew how much we loved them. And, of course they would want us to be happy- cause that's what people want for you when they love you.