Grieving can last a long time

grieving can last a long time.

It has been almost 6 years since my Grandma died. She raised me and I called her mom. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about her or talk about her. I miss her so,so much. Near the end of her life I was also going through some difficult things and it seemed I was almost angry with her for being sick. I think I was also grieving then. I didn't know how to deal with it. So, because of it I have lot's of guilt mingled with a deep love and respect for her. Grief is a funny thing, even when you think you are done grieving, it hits you again. How you play things over and over again, like about if you could only be with her again. How we might act or what we might say. We always think did they know how much we loved them. We all express our love and fears different and we all grieve different. I think because of it we make different decisions. Sometimes, decisions are made from pain and they are not always right. Or, sometimes we make decisions on what are loved ones would of liked if they were here. This is all part of greiving. I think its normal to think about them and cry at times. Crying is one of my healing tools. It cleanses and can be a good release. I think that our loved ones knew how much we loved them. And, of course they would want us to be happy- cause that's what people want for you when they love you.

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valeriebelew 6 years ago from Metro Atlanta, GA, USA

I think guilt is common with grief. When we watch those we love suffer, and cannot do anything to stop it, we feel frustrated with the situation, and later feel we abandoned the person. It is obvious you loved your grandmother. Illness is very difficult. The benefit of having a faith is in believing the person knows now how you felt, and how you feel today. No one is perfect, and I have regrets about my dealings with both parents, even though they have been gone for over 7 years.


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mshunt 6 years ago

Obviously, a very heart felt hub. Very thought provoking and genuine. I was lucky to be able to say goodbye to my mom before she passed. I wrote a hub about that experience. I think we say "I love you" enough to a person throughout life that they know we love them. At least I hope so.


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Sky321 6 years ago from Canada Author

Thank you for reading. You are right. I look forward to reading some of your hubs.


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smokinchick37 6 years ago from Canada

i like your hub crying is good maybe i should cry more maybe i wouldn't smoke so much then ha ha luv ya


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Sky321 6 years ago from Canada Author

Hi smokinchick37 Thanks for reading. hugs


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Elijah Returns 6 years ago from United Kingdom

Hi luanne, how are you


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Sky321 6 years ago from Canada Author

Hi Elijah Returns, I am fine, busy but fine. I hope you are well. Do take care my prayers are with you.


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valeriebelew 6 years ago from Metro Atlanta, GA, USA

Just wanted to say hello. Reread the hub. Want to share that I have a job interview this coming Tuesday at 2pm. If I am hired, there will be complications, but I have confidence everything will fall into place. Thanks for being such a strong spiritual force on hubpages. (:v


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Sky321 6 years ago from Canada Author

Awe, Valerie you are so sweet. Let's pray that everything will go well and that the complications will be diminished. You are so qualified and I am sure you will be an asset to any company or organization. Like anything in the beginning things will take time to get used of but I am sure you will fine. Hugs and blessings.


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Elijah Returns 6 years ago from United Kingdom

It is an exciting time here in Jerusalem, they are ready to build the third temple according to Daniel....and this peace process...this could be the 7 year covenant, the last 7 years..and the erection of the third temple will mark that time which will be the most horrific time in all human history....but, the appearance of the last two prophets here in jerusalem and the 144000, the jewish remnant who will not only save gentiles, but whole house of israel too.....do you remember when we first met, you said that the end times was my calling...looking back, i cant believe all I have written and how everything is getting clearer...you have to be here to see it happening....I have jewish politicians, soldiers and lawyers that follow me now on facebook


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Sky321 6 years ago from Canada Author

Elijah Returns- You do sound excited. It sounds like you made many new friends. I am glad you are doing well. Do take care. Continue to pray for God's protection and direction.

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    bagnmoreblessings 6 years ago from Rocky Mountains

    HI sky321, I can relate to all you wrote. I lost a step son, (15 months age), as he choose to end his life. The grief crops up at the most unpredictable times. I remind my spouse which in turn reminds me; that Luke is not suffering, we are! This helps us, knowing we will see Luke one day. His trouble with Mental Health related issues, was obviously overwhelming. He was a blessed and talended young man, and I can tell your grandmother was too! Prayers are with you. Thank you for sharing! Love Raine

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