A Christmas Wish For Mom
It has been two Christmases and 16 months since God called you home. Each day has been a challenge and with it came good days and bad days. They say time heals all broken hearts, but my heart is so empty. Sometimes I wish the Christmas music would go away along with the laughter. When there is a daughter and a mother in a car sitting right next to mine, I often wonder how this Christmas would be if you were here. Listening to songs on the radio, it takes me back to a time when you were with us, shopping each store for that special present.
Your laughter and smile filled the air. If something was needed you were always there. A strong woman you were and made us who we are today. Weeks before you passed away, you said I would be alright. Questioning that for sometime it made me realize I would grow stronger. So much has happened since you went away. There were days, I could not go on. Crying myself to sleep like a small young girl, dreaming that you were here, only to wake up and realize you were gone.
The Bible says that when we die, we do not go directly to heaven. I accept this, but it also says we go to another place until Christ comes. Sometimes I think I hear you or feel your presence, I will not discredit anything that surrounds me. My actions I have learned from you and my beliefs in mankind I thank you for. There are those who believe being to kind will get you into trouble, but those are things that I cannot change.
As the months go by, you are not forgotten. When I touch my heart, I feel you. When I look at my eyes I see you. I know you are there. This Christmas we are going to rejoice in your life and not your death. We are going to celebrate the memories and not think about the sadness. We will sing Christmas Carols and not sit in darkness.We will watch movies and eat popcorn. We will fumble through pictures and remember your laughter. We will bake your favorite cookies and use your special bowls.
Mom the Christmas wish we have for you, is to let you know all of us are doing okay. We miss you deeply and you are not forgotten. We will cherish the moments we have here on Earth and make more memories before we see you again. Your heart and spirit are with us and we will once again rise from the ashes and make you proud of us. Rest assured since God is allowing you to rest, we will be fine. All of it just takes time a person cannot be rushed after suffering a loss. Each person is different so we need to always be patient. I don't know if I can truly get passed the pain, but we can be the daughter's you raised us to be. We love you mom, so this Christmas we wish you peace and plenty of rest until we see you again.
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