Her last thoughts on Christmas

Her last thoughts...Dec. 25, 2008

God...it is so cold by this window, but it's just as cold everywhere. My poor flowers have died. Two sweaters and three coats and I'm still so cold Lord.

I worked for 60 years and didn't have enough money for the gas bill. I've outlived both of my children and my sweet Joseph died when I was 33. Too young to be a widow.

There's nobody left but you Lord. I have a grandson, you know, Joey. Joey lives in Florida. He stole money from me for drugs but I love him Lord. I so love that boy. It's been three years since he got mad at me and left. I just wanted him to see that stealing was wrong.

I stopped giving money to the church and they stopped bringing me meals. I probably shouldn't have told them that I was leaving everything, what little I have, this old house and my 73 Impala to the children's home.

I'm hungry Lord but I hate getting the shivers when I get up from this old fat rocker.

Remember when I was a little girl and I fell out of that old Willow tree...I lost my breath and I so prayed for you to help me. I'm losing my warmth now but I don't know if I want you to help me Lord?

Silly me...crying like this. I am sorry Lord.

Oh my...one of my tears fell on my coat button. It is frozen there. I can see my breath but I didn't think it was that cold Lord?

You are going to let me die like this aren't you Lord?

Oh...there is John and his daughter Lila walking down the street carrying presents to the Jonas's house. Red Jonas got laid off in the spring. He's got three little ones and a sickly wife. Lord...I'm sure glad you heard me pray for them.

I remember my favorite Christmas. I bet you do too Lord. Joseph lit a fire in the old pot belly stove and heated water for hot chocolate. I was pregnant with the twins and Joseph wouldn't let me lift a finger. We cuddled in his green Army blanket and sang Christmas songs with Bing Crosby on the radio. Joseph carved me a wooden Angel.

You know Lord, I lost that Angel some years later and I cried like a baby. When I come to heaven, will you tell me where it is?

I can tell that I'm freezing to death Lord. My legs feel warm now. Haven't felt that in days.

Will you please send Joseph to hold my hand. I don't want my hand to be cold in his. Please make my hand die last Lord...that's all I ask.

I feel pretty sleepy Lord....oh...I'm sorry...Happy Birthday.

Goodnight sweet Lord. I love you.



And she passed in the night.

They didn't find her until spring.

The flower pot in her window had one little seedling growing.

She saw it and smiled.....holding a little wooden Angel

she returned to heaven.

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Pollyannalana 6 years ago from US

Good hub, sure hope it isn't true, but it would have to be..some time..somewhere..


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Tom Cornett 6 years ago from Ohio Author

Thank you Polly...I'm sure it is...somewhere.


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dohn121 6 years ago from Hudson Valley, New York

It's believed that Chief Joseph of the Nez Perce Indians died of a broken heart...I wonder if she followed the same fate?

Great story as usual. It's good to hear from you. Please in keep in touch.


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Tom Cornett 6 years ago from Ohio Author

Thanks dohn... Maybe the best thing we can do at Christmas is visit someone who can't get out?


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wesleycox 6 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012

This is a sad story Tom, very sad that she died and wasn't found until spring, sad that she was all alone freezing on Christmas, and sad that the "church" stopped helping her when she quit giving them money. Thank you for sharing this.


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Lisa Luv 6 years ago from Conneticut, USA

VERY, very profound creative writing, and I hope also it isn't true. Thank You Lisa

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!


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Ginn Navarre 6 years ago

Very powerful writing and ironically that story is still happening all around us every day.


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Tom Whitworth 6 years ago from Moundsville, WV

Tom,

This is a very touching story. It also illustrates a point we all die alone. No matter how many people are surrounding us. All we have left are our memories.


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Pete Maida 6 years ago

It is terrible to think that this story happens over and over to people. This is strong Tom and you have proved again your value as a man of words.


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keira7 6 years ago

So much emotion when reading your work. Its good to see you back Tom.:) Thanks for sharing. God Bless.


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TamCor 6 years ago from Ohio

This is so sad, but it's such a compelling story--you did a wonderful job...

~~hugs~~


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alekhouse 6 years ago from Louisville, Kentucky

Love your writing Tom....so simple and so touching. Beautiful job.


ralwus 6 years ago

great story Tom. Almost shed a tear for her myself. Great photo too. Have a great holiday buddy and get well.


Pachuca213 6 years ago

here I am at work crying like a damn baby....but really this was such a well written and touching short story. Not only did this move me to tears but it made me feel so thankful for the family I have now. Because you just never know if and when you end up alone in the world. thank you for this moving story.


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GiftedGrandma 6 years ago from USA

Very good hub...so very sad but true that it happens..


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Enelle Lamb 6 years ago from Canada's 'California'

Excellent story Tom - very touching! Glad to see you back


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shamelabboush 6 years ago

Christmas is all about socializing and visiting each other :)


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Mzdalloway 6 years ago from North Carolina

Interesting and perfect for the season. Happy T day!


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Cris A 6 years ago from Manila, Philippines

You sensitive, creative, insightful man! You're a genius! This pierces the heart and makes the reader ask and look around him. Do keep them coming. And please stay put! LYM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D


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Tom Cornett 6 years ago from Ohio Author

Thanks so much everyone for the kind comments. I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas! :).....LYM! :)


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pennyhowington 6 years ago from Mesa, AZ

Awesome!


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Tom Cornett 6 years ago from Ohio Author

Thank you penny. :)


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kashmir56 5 years ago from Massachusetts

Very awesome,very well written and creative hub!


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Tom Cornett 5 years ago from Ohio Author

Thank you ksahmir....it is one of my favorites.


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Eiddwen 4 years ago from Wales

Brilliant and thanks for sharing this gem with us on here.

Take care

Eiddwen.


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Tom Cornett 4 years ago from Ohio Author

Eiddwen...thank you so much. :)


SilverGenes 2 years ago

Such a simple story and so powerful. Yes, it will make me look around more often - no one should be alone like this and yet, so many are.

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