George Sand's once Said "There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved."

The other day I was looking through a book and inside was a card that I had received from

A girl I had dated some 10 years ago.

When I had originally received the card I missed a great deal of what was in there.

The card was pretty sexy, The kind of writing you might find in Penthouse letters or a romantic novel. The other message in the card was very tender and loving (I kind of missed that one)

The closing statement was I Hope this card brightens your day - Sorry if I got carried away I am sure when the card was sent it's intent was to brighten my day when I received it. 
It did at that time but it did so even more the other day.
When I first met this girl I was coming out of a relationship that had gone on for about four years.
We spent a week together at a music camp. During that week I became aware of how unhappy I had been and got a glimpse into what true happiness could be. I held that feeling with me after the week was over. Nonetheless after carrying on a long distance relationship for a little over a year I wound up getting back with my ex-girlfriend.
I guess I was afraid of loosing what we had so I took control by ending it myself. Pretty stupid but at the time it made sense.

It is a decision that I have regretted many times in my life.

I am sure that I am not alone in making bad decisions when it comes to relationships.