Hi!!, Bangawking here

Here is a true story of a girl in high shool having problems about some guy she likes. Please enjoy reading, if you are wondering how i got this, please keep a secret with me. . . .  i just found her diary  hahaha!!! 

i hope this could give you BOYS!!! what happens inside a girls mind during her high shool life

Now lets get on with it.   ENJOY READING!

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1st entry: High School's Eve

My things were prepared. Bag, uniform. socks, shoes, handkerchief and even underwear. Tomorrow would be the official beginning of the end... of my vacation. I prepared everything so that I won't be late on the first day of my high school life. Our house is pretty far from my new school. It will take about more or less 30 minutes to get there. Fortunately, I will be driven to school by my dad. Unfortunately, I would go home alone using public utility vehicles like jeepneys and tricycles. Gotta go. Gotta sleep early and I think you already know why...

2nd entry: High School Life....

I'm here now and I can't back out. Well, I'm not happy because we will have a week about garbage disposal, taking care of plants, following school rules and regulations... blahblahblah... I am unhappy too because our classes start on 6:50 in the morning and 6:30 on Mondays. I'm happy because of the fact that I have my two former classmates from my elementary school with me in the same section. I haven't explored all the faces of my 52 classmates yet (they are so many and yes, i'm on a public school). I guess my parents wanted me to experience studying in both private and public schools. I'm not that sure YET if there are guys that I would like in my school. Gonna write again soon... Ughhhhhhhh... Homework!...

3rd entry: Whom to pick?

I'm back and I found two boys. I like both of them but I need to know them first. I am a princess and I need a proper prince*(cess, jade, wink, wink!).

4th entry: What a guy!

The guy that I liked first is so not my type anymore. I was just teasing him about a girl that likes him and got mad at me. Ughhh.... Who cares??!!! No worries. I still got one on the line and he's turning out to be someone I really like...

5th entry: I think I found my prince....*(cess, jade, wink, wink!)

I found out that he is quiet, quite inteligent, quite charming and very funny. He is the one. He is my PRINCE from now on.

6th entry: Waiting...

I keep on waiting for us to be group mates and I would make my approach. It doesn't come. I'd still be waiting...

7th entry: Finally!

We are groupmates now in one subject. I'm not sure if I have the guts to talk to him. Then, one of our classmates who is very close to prince blurted out that my beloved prince has a crush on my beloved bestfriend, Blair(you MIGHT not like my writings about you jade in the ff days so i followed the name you like. love ya!) The second that stupid girl said that, I quickly looked at my prince. He was just blushing. Even though he denied it... I feel so hurt deep inside!!! Why does it have to be Blair!!!??? Well, she has brains and beauty. I guess I'll never get the chance to win my prince over. I'm fat, ugly and short. Blair is slim, intelligent and pretty. I'm not pretty sure if I'm gonna let my BBF win him over. Actually, Blair has a major crush on one of our classmates, Chuck(jade, wala na ako maisip). But... ugggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh... Whatever! Gotta go! still have homework to do. But he's still on my mind. I'm not sure if I can write again later...

8th entry: Hell is upon me!

I make small talk. It just doesn't bloom. We don't even became friends yet. We were just classmates, period!!! I become more alert and obsessive everyday. I look at him almost everytimem to check if he is looking at Blair or how he is looking at her. I just can't compete with someone like Blair. I always hurry at lunch break so that I can see him eat. I also ask Blair to fix my hair now. Obsession!!! But he still just doesn't notice me. I can't make any wrong move or my classmates would give malice to what I do or did. Thyen, they will tease me to hell and my prince might stay away from me if he knew that I liked him... GTG... BRB sometime...

9th entry: A little bit closer to heaven... (i wish!!!)

Every second a little while ago was everything. I asked my classmate to go with me as cover. I would just be stalking Prince just today. My classmate doesn't know anyway that I like Prince. We followed him to the canteen and just stood there looking at him. Then he saw us. They talked and we joked around as we got to the classroom. I was very happy because he talked to me. Dismissal time came and he was just sitting on the shoeracks. I sat down opposite him and I started my music player on my phone and started to sing You Belong with Me by Taylor Swift. I faced the screen og my phomne to him because written there was "i hate myself for loving you". I'm not that sure if he saw it but I'm pretty sure he looked my way (maybe he thought I was crazy...) gtg... i need some sleep...

10th entry: Heaven or hell?

I dreamt of him telling me he liked me too. I just wish that dream would come true. Before, I was giving love notes to my crush(before) I dreamt that he told me that he knew that I was the one sending him letters. It eventually came true. It was raining and we are supposed to go to our next class which is a little far from our classroom. I suddenly heard him say that he was turned down by a girl. WTF! I told myself. He then asked Blair if he could share her umbrella (that really hurts!). But of course, Blair is my BFF and she told Prince tp just share with me beacause I had a much bigger umbrella (he followed). (thanks bff!!!). On the way, we were just laughing with Blair and the escort of our class(i'm pretty sure Prince is flaming with jealousy). We got to the computer lab and took our seats. Blair was seating a little bit closer to Chuck so I told her to move one more seat so that Chuck would directly be behind her. I told her that was my thank you gift to her. We had presentations and after Blair's turn no one was clapping. Prince just clapped(another hurt feeling). It was time to go home and he asked her again if he could share her umbrella(another hurt feeling) because my umbrella was too heavy(yeah right!). He went with me halfway and left me to go with someone else who is obviously behond Blair. He might have wanted to stare at Blair more. I stormed off fastly and left them all behind. What a cruel life! I need to go. The feelings are coming back and I don't really like them....

11th entry: Happy or not?

He is nowhere to be seen. I don't know if I should be sad about that or happy because I won't have any hurt fellings today. There's really nothing to write about.. He is always my subject... I miss him... I wonder what happened to him...            

 12th entry: The worst day of my freshman year?

He wasn't there when I arrived. But suddenly, my classmate declared that he was present and I searched and looked at the door to see him... I accidentally stared at him straight into his eyes for a second or two and looked away. Classes started and I looked for him and looked straight into his eyes again. Since I nstarted counting, we met each others eyes for more than 5 times. Later Blair, Cess and I were going nto visit our elementary school. I'm pretty excited. Dismissal time came and I saw Prince touching Blair's hair playfully with Blair's knowledge. What Blair doesn't know is I was hurting that very moment and shouted ouch! Well, Cess is the only one who knows my feelings when it comes to hurting parts and she eventually tells Blair. Ok. I'm suddenly out of my good bubble singing Taylor Swift songs again. I went out of the room trying to forget everything. Unfortunately, they went out too and they both entered the classroom next to ours. Ouch again! They were just so close to each other their bodies were touching. I think they were talking to someone or something... Cess was with me and we both saw Prince touching Blair's bag. Cess just looked at me. I'm not that sure if Blair knew that he was touching her bag. I turned around as not to see what would happen next... For a split second, I forgot and looked their way... Prince was touching or holding Blair's shoulder and pushing and pulling it. I looked at Cess and we both shouted OUCH!!! (thanks cess for being there!) Cess then told Blair that I got hurt and Blair said sorry to me. It was fine by me. I knew this would be coming. I told them I was built for hurt. I had a crush on the boy I mentioned earlier for more than 2 years knowing that he doesn't and will never like me. We then went to our elementary school forgetting everything that had happened and erasing HIS number on my phone and some of his pictures. I swore that I give up on him...(slight) I waited for my ndad to pick me up there and got home a little bit late... homework...

13th entry: Fight!

I decided not to give up on him YET. Anyway, 3 weeks had just passed. I am waiting for my horoscope to come true. (he'll eventually fall for my witty charm). God help me, I need to prepare my things for tomorrow. We will be cleaning the school...

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that is just about it, now she has allowed me to post her story in our website. she actually liked it when other people reads her diary. Now she posts regularly at our website, you can see there if she is updating her online diary, her nickname is "vampiregirl"  

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