An Expression Of Loneliness

Life is a strange book...no matter how much I OBSERVE it I can never predict what the next page will bring me.Sometimes the cool breeze brings nice stories with it,I START DREAMING...with open eyes,and a little smile on my face.The dream goes on and I slowly and silently creep behind it...I forget its a dream.The hapiness touches my heart and the mirth penetrates my ears so deep that I forget the truth.The dream then pulls me closer and wraps its hand around my eyes.It hides something.....something I dont wanna see...it whispers a sweet song into my ears...a song I always craved to hear.I get elated and absorbed in the feeling....

....An eclectic rain starts to pour over me and I feel it cleanse my heart and soul.Suddenly my mind starts to realise something and heads towards reality,But the dream embraces me so tight that I force my heart to stay back. The dream caresses my head and gives me warmth, I havent felt for long.....I hold on to the dream really tight,snuggle up and fall asleep...

....But dreams are ephemeral,the harsh daylight pulls me back to reality.I open my eyes,wake up to an empty world.Where I dont even have someone I can share my dream with.An unknown pain starts hurting me...I close my eyes again.In ahope to return to the dream again.....but its lost......With closed eyes and dumb voice I start talking to myself....

Nothing changes,excepting the realisation that I am lonely again and this is how I express my LONELINESS.......

My lids were closed,my lashes wet

there was a closed darkness in me;

grief choking my throat and nailing my heart,

loneliness was killing me within.

The glimmering stars,the moonlight......

were pretty up the sky.

My mourning soul,my bruised self was forcing me to cry.

When my lids were closed,mylashes wet,

An Angel appeared in my life,

he wiped off my tears and whispered to me

"Baby I`ll make you smile"

I remember the day when the Angel said

"I`ll teach you how to fly."

But now he is gone,my wings are torn

I`m left all alone to cry.

My lids are closed ,my lashes wet

in darkness again I lie.

Tears kisses my cheeks,pain runs down me

I`m lonely again,but why?